A Lost Life

Kylie was finally able to sleep and she slept for a good ten hours before Ryan woke her with a soft knock on the cage. “Time to wake up.” Her eyes opened in an instant looking straight into his before realizing that the light was way too bright. She blinked a few times to hold back the wateriness. “Looks like you slept okay. You were probably tired from all the crying you did. Let’s try not to have any of that today alright?”



She nodded. With Ryan’s soft sigh she remembered and said quietly, “Yes sir.”



“That’s better. You can’t keep forgetting. I’m being rather lenient with you.” He undid the latch on the cage and Kylie crawled out with his permission. She sat back on her legs, her arms encircling her body. She was cold. “You do well today and I’ll give you a light blanket to sleep with tonight. Deal?”



“Yes sir.”



“Good. Now I gave you a decision to make last night. Did you decide yet?”



Looking down at the floor she shook her head saying, “I don’t know.” She then looked back up at him.



“I really don’t want to hurt you Kylie. I need you to understand that. That’s why I’m being so lenient with you. How about I choose for you and instead of pain, we’ll go with pleasure. Is that alright?”



“I don’t like either,” Kylie answered in a tearful voice.



“Well one of them has to be done. This one will be easier for you I’m sure. You just have to do what I say. I just need you to try. It doesn’t have to be perfect. You’re still learning.” Ryan sat cross-legged on the floor in front of her and pushed her hair back behind her ears. He smiled. “You’ll do fine.”



She sniffled to hold back more tears and replied, “Okay.”



“Let’s try kissing again like we did yesterday. Do you remember how to do it?”



“Yes sir.” Moving her body up to his, she leant in and kissed him the way he had told her to the day before. She remembered to breathe through her nose.



“Much better,” Ryan congratulated her. Kylie sat back on to her legs again and waited. “I’m going to have you do something that will probably be difficult but it’s easy compared to other things. I don’t want to hear any complaints from you. Just do as you’re told. Today we’ll work on oral.”



She resisted the urge to shake her head but not her body. She started to lightly convulse out of fear. Reaching over to her, Ryan pulled her into his lap and held her to him. “It’ll be okay. You can do it. You want to please me don’t you?”



“Yes…”



“Then you can do this.” Looking around the room, Ryan thought of something. He gently pushed Kylie back off his lap and stood up walking over to a shelf by the door. He opened one of the drawers and looked around in it. “Where did Jason put it…?” Finding what he was looking for, he brought out what looked like a tube to Kylie. Bringing it out, he walked back over to her. “Just stick this in your mouth and suck on it just so you have some practice.”



Looking strangely at what he held out to her she said, “Huh?”



Ryan immediately buried his forehead in his left hand. “Am I going to have to explain every little detail?”



“I’m sorry sir…”



“No it’s okay.” Still holding the object he continued. “Alright, this here is what is called a dildo. Do you know the word?”



“No sir,” Kylie said shaking her head.



“Well this is what one looks like. Normally it’s used so a woman can masturbate or for other certain things with a partner.” He added when he noticed her tense, “But I won’t have you using it in any of those ways. You have nothing to worry about.” He noticed her slightly relax then continued. “What you’re going to do is what I told you to a moment ago. Just stick it in your mouth and suck on it. It’s practice for giving oral sex.”



Ryan handed the dildo out to her again and she took it carefully and slowly. She sat there and just looked at it. In a tiny voice she said just one word. “Help.”



He figured that he should have known it would be hard for her to do on her own either way. It would be easier to just force her until she felt calmly enough to do it without a threat or without his help. Right now she was just scared pretty much just freaking out. “Alright, let’s just skip this step and go straight to the real thing.”



To make things easier for her, Ryan took out the blindfold that she had been wearing before and put it over her eyes. She whimpered but he just pat her head telling her that it was fine. He removed his lower clothing after bringing a chair over to the area she was sitting at and then sat down in it. Gently taking her arm, he pulled her over to the front of him and pushed her head down. She struggled. He did what he could to calm her down before forcing her mouth open and on to himself.



Step by step he helped her through it and he had to admit that she really was not as terrible as he first thought she might be. This would be something that they really wouldn’t have to work on. He knew she was trying really hard just so she could stop and he would be happy with her. The whole time, he stroked her hair as he held it behind her. He really wasn’t even concentrating on what she was doing, he was just concentrated on feeling her emotions, trying to figure out everything that was going through her head until he realized that doing that wasn’t going to help her any because his body wasn’t focused. Once he cleared his thoughts and went back to helping her along, she had finished him off in a little over five minutes. He knew that she was going to spit so he covered her nose and mouth with his hand and told her to swallow. When his hand was removed she started gagging which he also had anticipated. He helped her up onto his lap and held her until she stopped.



Once she did he placed her back down to the floor. He redressed himself before removing her blindfold. “That really wasn’t that bad sweetheart.” Her eyes weren’t focused on his and at the time he didn’t want to say anything but he had to keep to the plan or else everything would fall apart. It was a rule and he couldn’t be lenient on everything. “Look at me or I’ll have to punish you.” Kylie’s eyes snapped to his. She was shivering again. “Don’t move.” After saying that, Ryan left the room.



Kylie sat where she was on the floor, outside of the cage. She really was grateful to be out. She just wished that she had some clothes to wear. She hated being completely open to him yet the only thing she could really think about is whether he found her body disgusting. She had no serious body image problems but being a track star did have her thinking about her form. She needed to be in perfect condition and that included staying fit and thin. She was worried more about having a good muscle tone rather than her weight. She had no need to worry about that anyway. She was a healthy 123 pounds most of the weight coming from muscle rather than fat.



When the door opened again and Ryan stepped back in, he was carrying a white bed sheet and another bowl of food. He sat the food in front of her as he wrapped the sheet around her body. She clutched it to herself immediately. Ryan pointed down to the bowl. “You’ll like this more.”



Looking down in it, she noticed that it was still animal food but instead of canned food, it was dry. He was right that it was easier to eat. The smell and taste was totally different from what she had the night before. It also didn’t make her want to throw up as much. She kept thinking to herself that it was more of a type of cereal without milk.



Not expecting her to begin giggling, Ryan’s eyes widened. “That’s a change. What’s funny?”



“Oh, nothing. I was just pretending that I was eating cereal without milk. I don’t know why it made me laugh,” Kylie answered him softly while looking up at him with a small smile.



“I can put some milk in there if you want me too,” he told her.



She just shook her head. “That may make it even worse. Have you ever tried this before? It’s disgusting! I mean, it’s better than that stuff last night, but still…”



Ryan had definitely noticed the change in her behavior. He wondered if the fact that she was covered up now helped that. She was still shaking from the cold. Even he was cold in the room. There was no heater. The house had central air but the heat came from a wall furnace and there was not a connection into that certain room.



He could not help but smile down at her. “Just eat it. Like I told you, if you’re good, I can make your accommodation here much easier. If you behave like you did today then perhaps tomorrow I can give you some real cereal.”



“Real cereal? So I wouldn’t have to pretend.” She giggled again. “What kind?”



“What kind do you like?”



Shrugging, Kylie answered, “I don’t know.”



“You don’t know what kind of cereal you like?”



“No sir. I like different kinds of cereals.”



Ryan thought for a moment. “Do you like Cheerios?”



Kylie nodded. “Yes sir. My boyfriend is addicted to Cheerios.”



“Your boyfriend?” he asked with a little curiosity. He wanted to know anything he could about this girl, and she had just offered up a good detail.



“Uhm yeah. His name is Ryne. Looks a bit like you actually. I mean you’re about the same height and your hair looks a lot alike. The other day when I woke up, I actually kind of thought you were him.”



The last part she said somewhat shyly and Ryan picked up on it. “You feel bad for thinking that I was him?”



“Ryne is nothing like you,” she told him with slight bitterness.



“That’s a good thing. It wouldn’t be wise dating a guy who was anything like me. Looks are one thing but personality is another. The way one acts is most important.”



“So you’re saying that you’re a bad person then?”



Chuckling a little to himself, Ryan replied, “Not necessarily. I don’t see myself as a bad person. I’m actually a really nice guy once you get to know me. I can be just as good to you if you let me. You just have to follow my rules and we’ll get along fine.”



“What if I don’t want to follow your rules?”



Ryan paused and thought for a moment before answering. “Then you won’t enjoy your stay here, and you’re going to be here for quite some time.”



“Will I ever go home?” Kylie turned away from him still holding the bed sheet close to her body.



“Probably not,” was the only thing she got from Ryan before he stood up. “I’m going to let you stay out of the cage until I come back in. I’ll leave the lights on for you. Don’t get into anything or you’ll be back in that cage before you know it with plenty of lashes to feel. Do you understand?”



Knowing that he was back to business, Kylie nodded and said, “Yes sir.”



The door shut and locked on her once again. This time, the room was in full view and she was going to explore. She knew that he probably did not want her touching any of the shelves or the desk so she left those alone and instead decided to look at everything else that the side of the room she was kept in had to offer, including that plastic container on top of the rack.



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A/N:

MOG! I am so sorry! It's been almost a month! You have no idea what has been going on. And this chapter was a pain to write. I don't really like the way it turned out but I'll let you all decide on what you think of it. To Become has new chapters and a new one to be posted for September 23, 2008 which is today! Yay!





Anyway, I have time to write now! Yay me! Yay you! Yay us! heh I'm hyper a bit. I think I want to eat pizza. A whole pizza which is only like 340 calories! Lean Cuisine people! or you can take a slice of toasted bread and spread on original pasta sauce and then sprinkle on some shredded cheese (mozzerella or even cheddar), microwave it for about 20 seconds and you have homemade LOW CAL pizza! seriously people! with the bread and cheese and pasta sauce that I get, only around 100 calories. I rock.



So hope you enjoyed my crazy A/N and of course the new chapter of "A Lost Life," and I will see you again soon! xo Peace ox