The one thing that keeps me sane...

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Ben hoisted Laraine into his arms and, still keeping his mouth connected with Laraine’s, carried him back to his bedroom. They fell on the bed, Ben over Laraine, and Ben began to kiss down Laraine’s chest again. Laraine moaned and twisted the blankets in his hands as he arched his back.

“Lain?” Ben asked and looked up at Laraine as he came to the hem of the boy’s pants. He unbuttoned them and just sort of nodded his head a little.

Slowly Ben pulled Laraine’s pants off him and threw them to oblivion. He hooked his fingers into Laraine’s boxers and slid them down Laraine’s body next. They went to join Laraine’s pants somewhere on the floor. He sat back on his heels and looked at the body below him. Laraine was beautiful. Something that Ben could have only pictured in his wildest dreams. Yet here he was laying before him and Ben had never seen a more beautiful sight.

“Benjamin...” Laraine blushed. “Please don’t stare.”

“You’re to beautiful not to stare at Laraine.” Ben told him and leaned down to kiss his stomach again.

Laraine watched Ben as the guy trailed his kiss down and then his head fell back. A moan escaped Laraine and he arched his back, twisting his hands in the sheets as a hot tongue slid up his erection. He’d never felt anything so amazing in his life. His mind was flooded and all he could feel was Ben’s tongue running along his stiff flesh.

“Oh god Benjamin!” Laraine cried out feeling the tip of his erection be encased in that hot mouth.

Ben swirled his tongue around the tip of Laraine’s erection, sliding it along the slit before back down the bottom. It made him hard just listening to the way Laraine was moaning below him, the way the boy was twisting and arching into his touch.

“God Benjamin please!” Laraine didn’t know what he was pleading for but he wanted more. He wanted Ben to touch him more...to continue doing whatever it was he was doing to him. “Please...”

Finally Ben took pity on the boy below him and took him fully into his mouth. Even though he wasn’t proud of it, since it had been something he had been forced to learn how to do well, he knew how to give a good blowjob. Laraine’s hips lifted into him and Ben held his hips down to keep Laraine as still as possible.

“Jesus Christ...” Laraine moaned and looked down to watch Ben’s head move up and down between his legs. “Benjamin...”

Ben hummed into the back of his throat and slid his hand between Laraine’s legs to massage the blonde’s balls.

“Ben!” Laraine screamed as he came.

Luckily Ben had been ready for it and did not let one drop of Laraine’s essence slip past his lips. He licked his lips and slid back up by Laraine, laying next to him propped up on his arm. Running a hand softly through Laraine’s hair he smiled at the boy as Laraine tried to catch his breath.

“Benjamin that...” Laraine turned his head to face the guy. “That was amazing...”

That made Ben smiled. “I’m glade you like it hon.” he kissed Laraine and the boy yawned. “Get some sleep love. I’ll call your mom and tell her we’re gonna hang out for a while.”

Laraine nodded and closed his eyes as Ben covered him with the blanket. Ben left the room and looked out his window. He could see Jacoby playing with Brian while Brian’s mom watched them run around the playground. Walking into the kitchen Ben picked up the mess that Jacoby had made with his sandwich and threw it away.

Falling down Ban lay there on his couch trying to think. What was he going to do? He’d told himself that he wasn’t going to do anything with Laraine until it was legal for him to do it...clearly that hadn’t worked out...and now Laraine was telling him that he was thinking about sleeping with him? If Laraine was thinking about Ben doubted that a year would pass before he came to that decision.

“Fuck.” Ben draped an arm over his eyes. “Why does god hate me?” his phone began to go off in his pocket and he jumped slightly. Pulling it out he looked at the phone to see Kathy’s name there. Groaning he opened his phone and held it to his ear. “What Kathy?”

“Ben can you keep Jacoby for the night?” Kathy was clearly at some form of party, Ben could hear it in the background. “It would really mean a lot to me if you did.”

Rolling his eyes Ben sat up and kind of looked back towards his room. “Kathy you can’t do this. You can’t just expect to drop him on me whenever the hell you feel like it. Believe it or not I have things that I do. This is why we had that plan in the beginning.”

Kathy laughed. “Yeah, and if you hadn’t been going through your off and on drug thing that plan might have worked Ben!”

“Kathy you told me eight.” Ben told her. “You better be here at eight cause I have things to take care of.”

“What? Like that kid you’re dating?” Kathy asked him. “Ben honestly, what are you doing with someone like him? He’s just some rich little blonde kid that will never understand one thing about your life.”

Ben clenched his fist in annoyance. “Eight Kathy. Be here.”

“Fine, whatever ‘dad’.” Kathy said and hung up.

Shoving his phone back into his pocket Ben fell back into his original position on the couch. Slowly his eyes closed and he drifted off to sleep. He didn’t know how long he had been asleep but the next thing he knew he felt lips press against his own. Opening his eyes he sat up and glared at the woman smirking at him.

“It’s eight dear.” Kathy told him. “Jacoby over with Brian?”

“Yeah.” Ben nodded. “He’s across the hall.”

Kathy smirked. “I noticed that something foreign is in your bed Ben.”

Ben’s glare intensified. “Kathy get out.”

“I’ll come see yah sometime soon love.” Kathy told him and headed out of the apartment.

Standing, Ben walked back to his room and stood in the doorway watching Laraine sleep. Laraine looked so peaceful. He was laying on his back, arms bent up so his hands rested softly by his head, head tipped to the side, hair carelessly flowing around his face making him look angelic, and his chest was softly rising and falling under the blankets.

Laraine stirred and opened his eyes. He blinked a few times and looked around before his eyes fell on Ben. A smile formed on his face and he sat up, blanket falling to his waist. “Kinda creepy waking up to someone staring at you Benjamin.”

Ben walked over and slid onto the bed next to Laraine. “Sorry. You’re just to cute when you sleep love.”

Looking at the clock Laraine sighed. “Kathy come and get Jacoby?”

“Yeah, a few minutes ago actually.” Ben kissed Laraine softly. “Though she had wanted to leave him with me. She called earlier and asked if I could keep him for the night so she could party.” he brushed his bangs back out of his face. “She thinks it’s okay to just drop him off here anytime, like I don’t have a life of my own.”

“She doesn’t sound like a really good mother.” Laraine muttered. “No offence or anything but she doesn’t.”

Ben laid back against his pillows. “Well, she’s not. It’s not like I’m the best father or anything though.”

Laraine turned and looked down at Ben. “I think you would surprise yourself Benjamin. You’re really responsible and you love him. You could be a great father Benjamin, if you were given a change.”

Running a hand up through Laraine’s hair Ben pulled him down so he could kiss those soft lips. “Maybe, I dunno. I didn’t have anything to learn from. At least nothing good. I wouldn’t know what to do.” he smiled up at Laraine. “You’d be a good dad.”

“You never know.” Laraine told him. “Maybe I will and maybe I wont. Depending on if I want children or not.”

“True.” Ben pulled Laraine down and held the boy against him. “I wish that I could get Kathy to let me have him more often but...she’d rather go to court and with my records I probably wouldn’t see him again.”

Curling up into the older guy Laraine sighed. “Did you call my mom Benjamin?”

Ben groaned. “Shit.”

“It’s okay.” Laraine told him. “She knows I came over here and she knows the number if she gets worried.”

“You hungry sugah? I don’t think you’ve eaten all day and if you have it’s been those cracker things your mom had at the memorial.” Ben began to play with Laraine’s hair.

A yawn left Laraine. “Not really. I probably should be because I really only did eat those cracker things but I’m not.”

Ben’s phone began to vibrate and he pulled it out to see who it was. “I don’t know this person.” he grumbled before answering it. “Ben here.” Laraine sat up with him as Ben all of a sudden sat strait. “Are you sure?” he asked, panic in the usually calm voice. “Yeah...yeah I’ll be right there.”

“Benjamin?” Laraine asked and Ben got up and grabbed a jacket out of his closet. “Benjamin what is going on?”

“I need to go to the hospital.” Ben told him and turned to Laraine. “Kathy got into a car accident.”

Laraine’s eyes widened and he quickly looked around to find his clothes. “Do you want me to come with you Benjamin?”

The old guy ran a hand through his hair trying to think. “Not right now babe. Kathy doesn’t think to highly of you and I don’t want to put you in the middle of this.” he kissed Laraine. “Come on I’ll take you home first.”

“Benjamin no.” Laraine told him as he finally got his pants on. “I can call my mom and have her come get me or I can walk. You need to go.”

“Call your mom and make sure she can come get you.” Ben ordered. “If not I’m taking you home.” he left the room.

Pulling his phone out Laraine called his mom. “Mom? Hey, can you come get me?” he looked around for his shirt. “Mom, Benjamin needs to get to the hospital and I don’t want him to have to take me home before he goes.” he rolled his eyes. “I’ll tell you if you come and get me. Thank you.” hanging up he walked into the hall and jumped coming face to face with Ben.

“Here.” Ben handed him his shirt. “Your mom coming?” Laraine nodded, worried. “Don’t worry love. I’ll call you later okay?”

“Alright.” Laraine muttered and Ben kissed him. “Bye.”

Ben hugged him close and kissed him again. “I love you Lain.”

A smile graced Laraine’s face. “I love you, too.”

With that Ben turned and left the apartment. Laraine pulled his shirt over his head as he walked into the living room and sat on the couch. He looked over and picked up a picture that was on the table next to the couch. It was a picture of Ben holding Jacoby when he had just been a baby. Setting the picture back down Laraine looked to see the picture Jess had took of him and Ben at the beach next to the one of Ben and his son. This one was of course a little different since Laraine and Ben were sitting on a log, at sunset, kissing at the beginning of their relationship. It had really shocked Laraine since that had been back before Laraine had known Ben had a soft side to him.

Looking at the other table on the other side of the couch Laraine looked at those pictures. There was a recent picture of Ben and Jacoby on that one. Ben was laying on the couch, propped up on the armrest, and Jacoby was asleep on his chest. Ben was smiling at the camera and Laraine could only assume Michael had taken the picture, since Michael was usually at Ben’s. Either that or Kathy and Ben had been getting along. Next to it, again, was a picture of himself and Ben. It had been taken by Ryan on the way home from one of their little adventures. It had actually been back before Ben and himself had been dating. It was of Ben and himself, asleep in the back of the car, Laraine leaning against Ben.

Someone knocked on the door making Laraine jump and he walked over to the door. He looked out and saw his mom so he opened the door and slid out. She smiled at him and they walked down the stairs towards the car. They got in the car and Carol began to drive.

“What happened?” Carol asked him.

“His old girlfriend Kathy got into a car accident and the hospital called him.” Laraine told him. “Benjamin was worried about Jacoby.”

Carol looked over at her son a second. “Is Jacoby one of your friends?”

Laraine sighed knowing his mom wasn’t going to want to hear this. “Jacoby is Benjamin’s son.” the car actually swerved a little. “Mother! Road! Stay on it!”

She seemed just a tad shocked. “Benjamin has a son?!? Laraine are you kidding me?”

“No.” Laraine told her. “Trust me I was a little shocked when I heard it too. I just met him today.”

“I guess it’s really not all that shocking but...Laraine...” Carol glanced at her son. “Are you okay with that?”

For a moment it was silent. “I didn’t think I would be. When I told you Ben and I broke up it was because he had told me he had a son. Then...I just thought about it for a while. I mean, I really like Benjamin...and I realize that him having a kid...that’s something really big but...I mean...I dunno. I guess I am okay with it.” he sighed. “I’m just worried. I really hope Kathy and Jacoby are okay...especially Jacoby.”

Carol shook her head. “This shouldn’t happen. A child should never get hurt like this.” she stopped at the light. “And have you met this Kathy?”

“No.” Laraine answered. “Well, once I did but she doesn’t like me. She doesn’t think Benjamin should be with me since we’re not from the same background and she hates that Benjamin would rather be with me than her.” he brushed hair from his face. “I really don’t like the fact that Jacoby lives with her. He’d be so much better off living with Benjamin.”

They began to drive again and Carol reached across to set a hand on Laraine’s shoulder. “Everything will be fine Lain. Sooner or later everything is fine.”

Laraine looked out the window and his eyes widened. “Mom pull over!” she sort of blinked but did so. Laraine got out of the car and looked at the person walking down the sidewalk. “Ryan what are you doing?”

Ryan looked up a little shocked. “Lain...hey.” he walked up to the car. “Michael and I had a fight...so I left. Don’t get me wrong...I’m gonna go back. I just needed some air.”

“What did you two fight about now?” Laraine asked him.

“I told him that I wasn’t gonna go to my house tonight to get my stuff and he told me it was better to do it before my mom had a flip and burned all my shit. However, I want to give my mom time to cool herself down before I go back over there and she shoots me.” Ryan answered. “Somehow that turned into a huge thing and here I am.”

Laraine smirked. “You wanna come over for a while Ryan?”

Ryan shrugged. “That okay with your mom, Lain?”

“Mom?” Laraine turned back to his mom. “You mind of Ryan comes over for a while?”

“Of course not.” Carol smiled and leaned so she could see Ryan. “Hey there Ryan.”

The two got into the car and continued their way back to Laraine’s house. When they got home the two went up to Laraine’s room and sat down on the bed. Clearly they were both bothered by what had happened tonight. Laraine by not knowing what was going on with Ben and Ryan clearly had understated what had happened between him and Michael.
“Were you with Ben?” Ryan asked him.

“Yeah.” Laraine answered.

Ryan smirked. “You sleep with him?”

Laraine smiled. “No. I didn’t.” he looked over at Ryan. “I told him I was thinking about it...about sleeping with him and all. We just...took it one step closer.”

That made Ryan laugh. “One step closer? What the shit does that means Lain?”

A blush flew across Laraine’s face. “Uh...nothing.”

“Don’t make me play the guessing game Lain.” Ryan told him and then sighed. “He gave you a blowjob didn’t he?” Laraine nodded. “Way to go Lain.” Ryan laughed. “You’re growing up so fast.”

“Ryan can it!” Laraine snapped at him in a joking manner. His phone began to go off and he looked at it. “It’s Michael.”

Ryan grabbed the phone and opened it. “Hey.” he rolled his eyes and Laraine laughed. “That’s cause I’m at his house darling. They drove by and picked me up.” he sighed. “No, it was him and his mom. I don’t know where Ben is.” Ryan’s eyes widened. “Kathy what?” he ran a hand through his hair. “Well, is Jacoby okay?” He groaned. “What do you mean you don’t know? Get your ass over there and find out!” It was silent a moment. “Fine. I’ll be back later.” with that Ryan hung the phone up. “Lain why didn’t you tell me what had happened with Kathy?”

“I’m trying to keep my mind off it.” Laraine muttered. “I asked Benjamin if he wanted me to come with him but he told me to just come home. I haven’t heard from him since he left and I’m scared for him. I don’t want to think about what could happen...or is happening.”

For a moment they sat there in silence. “God...I don’t know what Ben would do if Jacoby died. It was that little kid who was Ben’s snap back into reality.”

Laraine hugged himself. “I met him today, Jacoby. He’s sweet and Ben loves him so much. I’m so afraid...I want to be there with Benjamin but he told me to stay home. I’m afraid of what he’ll do if something bad happens.”

Just then rain hit against Laraine’s windows by the gallons. He sat there staring at the water and Ryan chimed in then. “That’s not a good sign.”

Laraine’s phone began to go off again and he looked at it. “It’s Benjamin...” he felt his stomach turn in nots as he slowly opened the phone and held it to his ear. “Hey...” Laraine barely got out and the next thing Ryan saw was Laraine’s hand come up to cover his mouth and tears falling immediately from his eyes. “Oh god...”

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