The Obsession

(Chapter 8 -Last chapter!!)

The next night she came by she didn’t find me in my apartment, non the less she had located me, finding me walking along the stretch of the long beach. White sands beneath me, dark almost black waters and a moonlit sky. Mysterious clouds surrounding the pale moon mystifying it but not disturbing its perfection. The little woman was so small and clad in black she melted into the night, had it not been for the fact that I was a vampire I would not have spotted her. She walked soundlessly behind me, but I knew she was there.

“What are you doing out here?” she asked me curiously.
“Thinking, as is my custom to do when I’m alone” I could hear her breathing now lightly. “How did it go at the school?” I asked not really wanting to know. Not really needing to hear how wonderful it must have been.
“It’s really big and spacious, an ancient house”
“I wasn’t asking about the actual building.” I turned to see her sweet face, radiant as ever. “They have more kids like me there, boys and girls with different powers. Some are like me others just telepathic and with other strengths and…gifts.”
“Word of the day?”
“Maybe…but there is something I have to tell you, something I need you to know.” She looked anxious almost worried. I only looked upon her, waiting.

“If I tell you the whole story I think you’ll understand.” Her countenance unchanged still standing strong, still a bit insecure. I listened intently as she spoke. “When I got there I was amazed, the building was almost like a castle, it had been owned by the Order for centuries and up on the walls were pictures. Some old paintings and other recent photographs of all the students that had ever been ‘accepted’ as they called it, to the school.
It’s sort of a tribute to all the boys and girls, men and women who risk their lives every day and night for the sake of making the world a safer place. I was fascinated by how many there had been and intrigued by the students there. They were of all ages from ten years to teenagers to adults, of course all adults are to be placed in different departments of helping and the kids learn from them. Mr. Prydz said if I choose to go there I would be a cadet- beginning training immediately. He introduced me to some of the Elders –who pretty much run the place. The were all very kind to me and tried to horn in on my thoughts.”

She paused looking at me with a faint smile. “I could feel them go though my brain did my best to keep them out though. Gregory told me they did it merely for safety reasons. They’ve had some bad seeds joining them then turning on them, helping evil instead.
My impression of the place was that it was plain wonderful! Such an experience to go through and how much I could learn, I could help so many in my life.” Her exalted state was tangible and I had already made up my mind about the decision and only prayed she would not hate me forever.

“Must confess that I wanted to join their little alliance immediately” she continued “but then Gregory told me something that I didn’t agree with.” She watched my every reaction. “He said that he didn’t understand why I was with you. He questioned my “choice of companionship” and wondered about you. He wondered why I hadn’t killed you already, he said when I told him I couldn’t do such a thing that I have to end it with you. He said that you are evil and could kill me if been given the inclination.”

She chuckled as if that was totally untrue, as if I were a puppy dog who couldn’t hurt a fly. “I told him that he should mind his own business that you have been by my side through the worst of times. I told him of your loyalty and goodness of heart. And I told him that I love you, that there is nothing that can make me attend this school if the price I have to pay is leaving you. Gregory said he couldn’t look the other way when it came to you. And I told him that if he didn’t approve he could go to hell.”

She stopped speaking and I couldn’t conceal my happiness over her words, she had most definitely proven her loyalty, and love for me, but that was not all that mattered. And I would have to do this now, it’s now or never.

“Gregory was right about one thing though. I am evil.
Weather you want to admit it or not, I am evil. I take lives, if not every night, then most of the nights that I walk this earth” I told her frankly.
She was stricken.

“That’s not true, you’re not evil!” she exclaimed “you have helped me fight your own kind and worse.”
“That does not justify my actions. That does not take away the fact that I have killed hundreds of thousands of human souls. Do not attempt to seek understanding this –because you cannot!” I approached her; she backed away from me slowly.
“But you and I, we can…” She started
“We can what?” Do good? Change the world? Make me a saint? You wish for my salvation?” She still backed and I grabbed her arm, clenching it tightly in my preternatural hand. “Do you think this flesh can be unmade from death?”

Her tears fell from her eyes, but she didn’t look as though she was crying. They just fell silently and she had a confused look on her face by my brutal honesty.
It was true and I had to tell her, especially at this point. I wasn’t about to let her give up a chance of a lifetime for someone who wanted her un-dead. For me.

I had hoped that she had understood somehow just how bad I really was. But she hadn’t, she had only seen the romanticized part of my everlasting life, not all the blood spill and torment behind it.
“But baby…” she started again.
“Lynn, you aren’t listening. Apparently I have to MAKE you see what it means to be what I am. I had hoped you would have figured it out for yourself, but since you didn’t I will have to show you.”

I took her with me, clenching her hand in mine, dragging her further along the beach, tracking a mortal. Someone whose scent I’d caught a long time ago, someone whose taste suited my hunger, some delicate youth who was to be my first innocent victim in about five hundred years.

I had spent the first century of my immortal life feeding on innocents. That would have destroyed me would I have continued, but I quitted, not only for them, but mostly for me. Because I am still very much enamored with the world.
I still have the need for living, loving and enjoying all the small and great miracles of this earth, especially the mortals.

But now I was about to break this pact I had made with myself to not take an innocent life, about to make this sacrifice to do the one thing I ached not to.
To let Lynn go, one last time.

After all I did care for her, I cared for Lynn’s well-being and there is no way SHE would let ME go if I didn’t show her the monstrosity of death.
She was of course in denial, she was a smart girl, but she didn’t want to realize that I was wicked –in the worst sense. And mostly I think she was denying the fact that I would do it to her. Surely with time I would turn her if she didn’t get away from me. Now was the time to be strong and to do it while I still had some strength left in me would be for the best.

A young man stood not too far away from us, dangerously for him, but he did not move he merely stood there looking out over the water feeling the cool breeze on his sensitive white skin searching for nothing, perhaps waiting for destiny to come along. He looked up at the moon, then down at the dark waters of the night seeing the beauteous moon’s reflection on the surface. He smiled a little at the beauty of the sight as I smiled at the beauty of my sight.
My eyes shined a bit from the reflecting light of the moon and the young boy’s face turned towards me when I beckoned him to, silently in my vampiric call.

The boy perhaps seventeen years of age was undoubtedly beautiful. He had short blonde hair, spiked and tumbled in a modern fashion. Bright eyes with the gorgeous blue glittering like jewels in the night. His narrow and softly pointed nose looked almost exotic together with those full and thick lips –perfection in such a young face. The boy was uncertain of why such a dark and beautiful creature as myself with an equally beautiful girl in hand would approach him.

I scanned him again, gorgeous and slender, modern clothes, but an old soul in a new body. And I wondered if he had been destined to just stand there and wait to be killed. Maybe he was just at the wrong place at the wrong time? Poor unlucky boy, but he just smiled warmly at me and flirtatiously at Lynn.
I let her go of my firm grip and came closer to the boy.
It disturbed me that he wasn’t even nervous.

“Hello” I called to him “me and my girl saw you standing here, what’s your name?” the boy kept his eyes on Lynn. “Johnny” he said his voice dark but barely a whisper, his gaze shifted to me, I had begun my enthralling of him keeping him locked to me.
Lynn watched nervously frozen to the spot.
“Johnny” I said when he shifted back to her, hesitantly “look at me” and as told he fixed his eyes to mine. I put my cold hand on his soft warm face, letting it linger just underneath his lower lip, and then I brushed that one lightly with my thumb. The boy gasped, now aroused and entirely under my spell. I smiled at his human responses and moved in closer to him, now seeing Lynn’s worried features.

“Don’t worry darling he won’t suffer…much, he might very well enjoy it, but he will die, which is the main thing that happens when I feed.”
She looked horrified at me eyes watching, all glossy from the tearing.
“Do you think me to be so good now, my love?” I said then I grabbed the handsome specimen of a human by the neck and flashed my fangs, eyes of mine turning green and then I savagely bit down on the male’s throat. I could feel his pleasure and instant pain when I drew the first drops of blood from him. The sweetness of young blood so good and so much more pleasant sentiments of the innocents than the psychos I usually hunt.

Johnny had trouble breathing now and even Lynn could hear his breath grow more and more ragged. She watched him in horror, how slowly all life was draining away from the once so vital boy. He gasped desperately seeking air, clutching on to me in my tight embrace I held him with my strong arms, almost crushing his fragile human body in my hunger.
The boy had made little resistance and had been no match for my preternatural strength, he was now so weakened I could let him go. And I dropped him and he fell to the ground. Lynn’s eyes had changed from horror to sadness.

“Is he?” she asked me
“Do you wish for it? Do you want him to die, or perhaps you want him to be like me?” I asked in a sharp low tone. My beauteous girl shook her head and held her hand over her mouth when looking down at the poor boy lying there.
“He’s still alive!” she realized.

“So he is to be a vampire then? He is to do, what I just did to him to thousands of other people in this world, maybe even millions?”
She shook her head again. “No, No” she cried out.
“Then you want him to die?” I asked knowing the impossibility of her deciding this, and I knew she could not make a choice of letting a human die or a monster live –it was as she saw now not an option and she couldn’t do anything but stand there, just stand and be shocked.

She hadn’t realized before what I really was and I was selfish to keep it from her, but now she knew. Now she truly saw and there was nothing to do but move on from here. Only one thing we could do actually, and that was to go our separate ways. For what kind of human could live with this kind of monstrosity, knowing how ugly it all was. Now at least there were no illusions left. Now she could walk away and never regret it.

I took the boy in my arms again when I heard his heavy breathing, his limp body in my arms. I interlocked eyes with Lynn and then I bit down on his throat once more –finishing it, closing the circle, draining him till the last drop.
When I was done I gently laid him down on the sandy beach.

“You see now, don’t you?” I asked and she gave out a small “Yes”
“You think you know now, but I tell you I have been and am still a thousand times worse. I have not fed; I have feasted upon women, children, the old and the young alike. The healthy and the sick, it didn’t matter to me who they were or why” I paused thinking of how I should dispose of the body.
“But spite being the monster that I am, I cannot help that I care about you. You must have your illusions shattered for your own sake.
Lynn you belong with those people –with your warriors. That is were you need to be.” She looked hesitant then she came closer to me.
“And who are you to tell me where I belong? You are not my parent, you are not me, and you don’t know what I really want” she said painfully.
“But I know very well what you DON’T want, and you have proven it tonight with your tears and your sympathy for the boy whose life I just took.” I answered looking into her brilliant blue eyes –the epitome of sadness now.
I traced a tear that ran down her cheek with my index finger.

“Mr. Prydz, he could be like a mentor or even a father to you. He could teach you things you only ever dreamed of knowing.” I said trying my best to convince her I did indeed know what she wanted. Face contorted in internal pain now glared at me trying to smile unsuccessfully.

“I was just kind of hoping that you could be with me, like you’ve been up until now.” I just shook m y head and she knew that it was pointless.
“Lynn” I beckoned to her, cupping her sweet face in my hands. I looked deep into her infinite pools of eyes those ocean blues that begged me not to say goodbye. I kissed her tenderly; she said nothing and her silent tears dropped like silver beads from her eyes.
Our lips interlocked again feeling the slight tongue slip into my mouth and trace the inside of my upper lip, it tickled. She pulled closer to me and I held her so tight I thought I’d smother her, but she was breathing and she was hurting and I was hurting too.

The wind took on a strange force and perhaps sought to move us from where we were standing. That long dark hair that feminine structure of it tumbled freely in the wind, caressing the side of my face when landing on me. The long strands smelled like roses, yes roses and jasmine.
I pulled her away from me gently, she didn’t want to let go but was pretty much forced to. Her features were without hope and dark as dark as this wretched night.

“Okay” she said finally “I play the good girl, I’ll do my part, tell Gregory that you’re no longer in my life. But tell me one thing before you leave me” she took her time looking at me knowing she would never see my face again “don’t you love me?” she asked after a while not letting her voice fail her.
My face contorted in pain that she had not known before.
“In all my life, all my long years, I have only loved you.” I said simply, and then held her in my arms again and if it hadn’t been for the sunrise that was about to happen I would have stayed with her until morning.

“So this is goodbye then?” she asked drying her tears with her hands.
“Goodbye Lynn, I will always be watching you. After all I did promise I’d be with you forever.” She even seemed to smile a little now.
“Unfair” she said “you can watch me, but I can never see you”
“If you ever need me, just call my name and I’ll be there for you.” I knew full and well she wouldn’t do that, she could never do that. None the less she nodded and watched me as I turned away from her, picking up the dead boy on the ground having to dispose of the body. I was well on my way towards the ocean almost leaping into the air to fly out and dump the body in the sea when I heard her call.

“Alexander”
I turned around; she was so small over there.
“I love you” she whispered knowing I’d hear it. That was unmistakably like her to choose a timing like that to tell me she loved me.
I smiled at her and threw a kiss at her direction, then I leaped up into the air, flying over the dark waters of the ocean to find a suitable place for the boy’s burial. Too bad for him he was caught in the midst of this drama that had been displayed just moments ago.

But I didn’t think of him after that, I thought only of one thing. Can you guess what that was, and is still? She will definitely plague my mind with the bittersweet memories of her even after she’s gone.
I am cursed to miss her, love her and not have her all at once.
She will grow old, but I shall always look upon her as I did the first time I had seen her; all new and rosy-cheeked, young, strong, agile and beautiful.
And this is were I take my departure of the story of my Obsession, because of all the obvious reasons, and this reason being the most important of all, that this is THE END.”


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End Of The Obsession
Note: sorry it took so long to get it out been busy w/school!
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