The Renegade

The Renegade

Disclaimer: I donwn awn any of these characters, except Hotaru, otherwise this isn't a true story

Keita’s P.O.V.

“Ryohei!!! Ryohei!!!” Why? We finally meet, why do you have to abandon me again? Are you trying to punish me for leaving you behind? I know I was a coward, when you wouldn’t accept me I did run away like a coward. Afraid of getting hurt, afraid of admitting the truth that you don’t love me!
“Ryohei!!! I LOVE YOU!!!” I screamed as loud as I can. I didn’t care if anyone heard me because I don’t want to lie anymore.
“I love you! I love you! Chiba, Ryohei I love you!” Screaming and yelling in front of your door. I don’t know where to go, I just wish you could hear me somehow…
“Keita! Why? This isn’t right! You won’t even look at me ever since you saw him! This isn’t right!” Hotaru grabbed my arm and cried out. I saw her tears flowing down.
“Sorry…” That was all I can say.
“Sorry? That’s it? This is all you can say to me? I love you Keita! I love you with all my heart I even love you more than myself how can you do this to me?!”
Seeing Hotaru crying uncontrollably I began to hate myself even more. Escaped to Hotaru when I was hurt I only cared about myself but never thought of the pain I putted on her. But I can’t lie to myself Ryohei is the one I love and I only want to be with him.
“Hotaru…”
“I love you…” She hugged me, I never notice before the sky can be so somber. Every drop of tear it cried fall on the ground reflected his face. Ryohei…I touched my face but there’s no moisture, little by little I was unable to hear the rain falling on the ground, the world around me is silent, unable to hear anything.
I wonder, is this what the end feels like…?

[Keita at old high school…10 years later]

A strong wind blew across the school forced the leaves to fall down on the ground like an uncontrollable rain.
“Isn’t it beautiful, Keita?”
“Yes, Mrs. Saga, but beauty doesn’t last forever, soon it will be buried in the earth and disappear forever. Why is it always the things we love the most last for the shortest time?” Keita looked out the window unable to hide the sadness in his eyes.
“Yes, time is cruel people here leave when they completed their study and new people will come in, it’s the same routine every year I think I’m really too old for this.”
“I still remember the stories you told us in biology, you told us the funniest stories. What a great time we.” K.” Keita smiled.
“I remember, you always had to be the clown in class, did nothing but fooling around I’m surprised to see you back here in school.”
“I just miss the old time I had here, in this biology class.” Keita looked around the room, “This was my seat and that was…my best friends’.” Keita pointed to the seats next to each other in the back. Keita smiled. He didn’t have the courage to mention the name afraid if he did pain would surface, like it did for the last eight years.
“Mrs. Saga?” a boy knocked on the door.
“Yes?”
“Mr. Hiroaki wondered if he could borrow your microscopes for the cell’s lab.”
“Sure, they’re right over there.” Mrs. Saga pointed to the back of the room.
“I’ll help,” Keita volunteered and picked up two microscopes, “Where does he want it?” Keita turned around and asked.
“Room 341,” the small boy answered, “Thank you.” He added.
“No problem.” Keita smiled.
No one knows how much he wish he can be back in here again just like 10 years ago. Before anything happen, before he left, and before he disappeared…
“What grade are you in?” Keita asked as he followed behind the boy.
“I’m a sophomore,” he smiled, “I never saw you here before, are you a new teacher?”
“No, you should take a look at my grades in high school I don’t think any school would want me to teach.” Keita joked. “I’m a former student here just back for a visit.”
“Red blood cells are the most abundant cell type in the blood, does anyone know the approximate diameter of a red blood cell?”
As they walking through the hallway a voice came out of one of the classroom.
This voice…it sounds so familiar…
“Mr. Chiba, there’s someone at the door!” A student in the back of the room suddenly called out, putting everyone’s attention on Keita. The teacher put down his book and looked up.
“Ryohei?” froze at the doorway unable to move.


The face that I dream of every night, Chiba Ryohei…
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The sky got darker as we walked on the sidewalk. I followed behind Ryohei but neither of us spoke, this is the first time that I’m scared by the silence between us. I really wanted to reach out my hand and grab him, to let him know how much I missed him during these years. But I couldn’t, afraid that he would run away like last time, afraid that I would lose him again, too afraid to take any chances. We arrived at Ryohei’s house.
“Want to come in?”
“Um…okay…” Ryohei feels different, a lot more mature…
The room is full of Ryohei’s scent, suddenly a house I never been in before feels familiar. His house is plain and simple, not a lot of decoration just plain white like before.
“Would you like some tea?” he sat in front of me.
“No, that’s okay.” I looked in his eyes and saw nothing but emptiness, “Ryohei how are you these years? Where have you been? Do I still have a place in your heart?”
Ryohei looked up after noticed my stare he quickly turned away, why are you avoiding me? Am I not even worth for you to even look at?
“Where have you been?” Finally getting the words out of my mouth to break the silence.
“I went to college for four years and got into teaching.” He answered quietly, almost like he didn’t care. No! It can’t be, if he didn’t care why’d he chose biology? The course we took together? If he didn’t care, why did he choose the school we went to together?
“Ryohei, I missed you.” I looked at him straight in his eyes, whatever it is I took the chance, I can’t deny it anymore, I live for him, it’s my reason…I’m born for him!
“……….” He didn’t say anything.
“Ryohei, you love me too, right?” I looked at him again but this time it’s nothing but despair. He‘ll never know how much pain he brought me by just looking down. Inside of me, it’s full of fear of losing you don’t you know?
“Don’t leave me, give me a second chance….” I grabbed his arm as he stood up. “Keita, it’s not right.” I heard the sound of my heart shattering when he refused me and tried to leave.
“Ryohei!” All I can do is crying out for his name. I can’t think of anything else but him.