Senior Year Soundtrack

~Back at the party~

Reagan was stood in the room with the red bow on the door. She admired herself in the mirror again, not out of vanity but for self assurance. Tonight she was going to give herself to a boy that she was falling for. He was kind, funny and not too mention very handsome. She had heard rumours about him but she didn’t care. She felt a certain way about him and she couldn’t deny that she felt he felt the same.

Managing to pull herself away she went to lay on the end and wait for him. Her eyes locked on the  door that she prayed would open at any minute. He should be coming any second now…

Time went on, her heart sank more. She felt the effects of the booze waring off as she began to curl into a ball. Surely he wouldn’t stand her up? Would he? She pulled out her phone and tried to call him, it didn’t ring and she got his voicemail right away.

She pulled herself from the bed and set off to find him. The first person she found was his best friend Sebastian.

“Sorry, Seb.. have you seen Benji?” She asked timidly. Her usual proud demeanour wavering.

“Eh yeah… he’s um… actually I haven’t seen him for a while. Last I saw he downed a beer and disappeared. I haven’t seen him since…” Seb was swaying as he spoke. Whitney his girlfriend keeping him upright.

“I heard he was looking for his sister… it seemed urgent” Whitney said with a shrug.

“His sister? Did he say why?” Reagan asked, her mind ticking trying to work out the significance of Robyn. Did he want approval to be with her.

Robyn had seen her brother arrive at the party. She still hasn’t spoken to him and tried to avoid him. She didn’t want to run his night more by reminding him of her betrayal. A prank that went down very bad. He almost seen her but she slipped away. She was so nervous for some reason that she only had a cup or two of beer. It wasn’t until she returned to her friends that the truth of her brother was revealed.

“Did Benj find you?” Taylor asked her captain when she rejoined the group.

“No… you know I’m avoiding him!” She said a little heatedly.

“He forgave us!” Lisa said urgently. “He’s been looking for you, I think he wants to forgive you!”

“Forgave you?” Robyn asked a little dumbfounded.

“Yeah” she nodded eagerly. “He actually said he was sorry for overacting and from my guess wanted to make it right with you!”

Robyn didn’t say an other word as she set off to go find her brother. She searched all over and couldn’t find him. Much like Reagan she found Seb.

“Seb! Where is Benji!” She pulled his attention to her.

“Ah Robyn, my former queen…”

“Seb, please where is my brother?” She asked again but keeping her cool.

“As I told Reagan, I haven’t seen him!”

“Reagan’s looking for him too?” This caught Robyn by surprise.

“Yeah it seems everyone wants to find Benji but no one’s seen him.” Whitney added.

“No one’s seen him in this big party?”

“I don’t know what else to tell you babes, I’m sorry my focus is kind of been on one man.” Whitney said apologetically as she hinted at her boyfriend.

“Surely someone has” Robyn huffed as she made her way back into the party. She tried to phone him but it went straight to voicemail.

Meanwhile Reagan was still on the hunt too and came across her cousin.

“Ethan, have you seen Benji?”

“Why are you looking for that fucking loser?” Ethan hissed.

“He’s not a loser, just tell me, have you seen him?” Reagan tried to keep her temper.

“He is a loser! He’s a low life like everyone else he hands out with…”

Ethan’s voice was cut off as his cousins hand slapped him across the face. She stepped forward and gripped the fabric of his top.

“Listen you fucking worm, you are only here because of me, you only have status because of me. Now just fucking tell me if you have seen him?” Reagan said with a growl.

Ethan was too shocked to speak but nodded. His little sidekick Aidan spoke up. “Yeah I saw him in the kitchen last, think he was going outside.

Reagan let go of Ethan and headed to the outside. She look all around but Benji was no where to be seen. As she came back into the massive house she almost collided with someone. It was Robyn.

“Have you seen Benji?” Both girls said almost in perfect unison. The both shared an apologetic smile before Robyn spoke first.

“Sorry, I heard you were looking for my brother but I take it you haven’t found him?”

“No… I was hoping you knew where he was…”

“I know he wouldn’t have left! At least I don’t think he would have.” Robyn said, doubt creeping into her mind. The party was busy but surely her brother couldn’t have just completely vanished.

“Are you guys looking for Benji?” A guy said from next to them. To which both girls replied with an almost frantic yes.

“Yeah he left a while ago, he looked pretty drunk. Lucky he had someone to hold him up and help him out.”

“Who?” Robyn pressed, moving towards the guy.

“Who eh I dunno, some chick in a Wonder Woman outfit…. Hey Tony..” the guy had turned to his friend who was speaking with an other girl. “What’s the name of that chick in your maths class again, bushy brown hair and super weird!”

“Abigail Brown…” Reagan responded for the guy.

“Yeah that’s her name, she left the party with Benji. Although Benji was out of it. Light weight.” The guy laughed as he then went to talking to his friends.

“Why would he leave with Abigail?” Reagan said, the feeling of dejection filling her.

Robyn didn’t respond at first, her mind working over time. The notes running through her head. Abigail always had a thing for her brother back in the day. Robyn pulled out her phone and checked an app. She hated herself for not thinking of it before but it was only their mom that used it.

“I…. I need to go!” Robyn said urgently as she rushed away. She began to barbe through the party and ran into Seb.

“Seb, you drive right?” She didn’t wait for a full answer and saw him nodding. “Give me your keys now!” She demanded and thankfully Seb didn’t argue but handed the keys. Robyn snatched them and ran from the party.

“I’m coming Benji!”

~Abigail’s room~

I lay on the bed. My eyes shut. I still couldn’t believe this was happening to me. I had given up trying to free myself. Abigail still wasn’t back so I was alone. Alone with my thoughts. I had no idea what would happen next. The fact she had slipped me a Viagra could only mean she had plans to use me all night.

The room and house was eerliy quiet but then it was broken. Abigail returned to the room.

“Hello my darling, sorry I took so long.” She closed the door and headed over to her desk.

“You know, it really did hurt me what you did to me at the homecoming dance. I thought it was start of something special for us again.” She turned away from me and looked at shrine of me on the wall.

“I’ve almost dedicated all my time to you Benji. I’ve watched over you, made sure you were always safe but you couldn’t see that. You were too busy fucking other sluts!” She slammed her fist down onto the desk. “But all that doesn’t matter, does it?” She turned back around to face me. “You’re mine now Benji and I am yours.”

She leant against the desk as she stared at me. I didn’t want to look at her but I wanted to try and convey my feelings. My fears. My humiliation.

“Can I trust you now Benji?” She asked but I didn’t respond. I didn’t move my head in any direction.

“I’m going to take the scarf away. This time when we make love I want to hear you moan my name!” Abigail appoarched me and sure enough she removed the scarf. I didn’t speak at first, I just flexed my jaw and welcomed the free feeling.

“I didn’t want to have to gag you baby, but you know. I don’t like it when you shout at me!”

“Abigail….” My voice barely broken. “Please just… untie me at least…” I pleaded.

“You will just run away though. I don’t think you’ve fully accepted that you are mine have you?” She said as she threw the scarf away.

“I won’t…. Please…”

“Maybe if you prove to me now. Let’s make love. Show me you are truely mine and I will let you go!” Abigail smiled a nerve ending smile as she climbed onto the bed. However just as she got onto the bed. A loud banging noise caught our attention. Abigail’s eyes snapped to me and before I could shout out, her hand clamped over my mouth.

The banging noise came again and I only work out that it was someone banging on a door. Abigail didn’t move though. Her hand was on my mouth but her head and gaze was locked on her bedroom door.

As the moments passed, the banging stopped but it had been replaced.

“Benji? Benji?” The voice shouted. I knew it anywhere. I managed to twist my head away just enough to call out.

“Robyn help….” My mouth was clamped shut again as Abigail held both her hands over my mouth.

“Benji!” I heard my sister shout back as the sound of her approaching fast.

The bedroom door burst open and there stood my sister. I can’t describe her face. It was one of shock and pure rage. She took one look at me and almost like she flew she lunged at Abigail. Abigail screamed out as she was yanked off of me by her hair.

“How fucking dare you!!” Robyn was almost screaming as she attacked Abigail. I couldn’t see much but Robyn wasn’t holding back. She was full on punching and kicking Abigail who was crying out.

A movement came from the door and I had realised at first that Robyn wasn’t alone. Someone in a leather cat suit with her blonde hair flowing down moved over and grabbed my sister. “Robyn stop.” Reagan said as she managed to pull my sister away from Abigail.

“Reagan let me go, I’m going to fucking kill her!” Robyn spat, I’ve never seen her so angry.

“Robyn… please…” I said. They both turned to me. I wasn’t sure how I felt with Reagan seeing me like this but I was glad some one was at least here to save me. Robyn instantly stopped struggling and like a switch a calm overcame her. They both worked in a wordless union as each of them came to one side of the bed.

It wasn’t easy but they managed to untie me.

“No! He’s mine!” Abigail spoke from the floor. I had now sat up and had covered my modesty with my boxers. Abigail’s face was bruised and bloody. I found that I didn’t feel any sorry for her.

“He’s not yours!” Reagan spoke, in a eerily calm voice. “You are an evil twisted horrible human being Abigail Brown. If you ever and I mean ever look or speak of Benji again, I will not only let Robyn finish the job, I will help her. Do you understand me!”

Abigail didn’t respond and Reagan didn’t wait for one as she turned back to me.

“Where are your clothes?” My sister asked softly.

“I don’t know… just find my phone and get me out of here.”

“Where’s his phone?” Robyn’s harsh voice was back as she asked Abigail. Abigail just timidly pointed to her desk.

“Come on Benji” Reagan said as the two of them helped me from the bed.

“I can walk…” I said as I found my feet. Robyn let go and grabbed my phone as Reagan still held onto me and lead me out of the room. Robyn had knelt down beside Abigail and was clearly saying something that I couldn’t hear and probably didn’t want too.

We got outside and I noticed the familiar car.

“Seb’s not here as well…” I said in a small panic. “No, your sister borrowed her car” Reagan replied she lead me towards it. As we got to the car, Robyn had caught up with us. I got into the back and Reagan got in with me. No words were spoken between the three of us. Reagan just held me close as we drove home.

When we got home Reagan helped me out and Robyn skipped ahead. As we got to the front door she turned back to us.

“Ok moms asleep by the looks of things, let’s get you into your room!”

Reagan never let me go until we got into my room. She helped me over to my bed and I sat on the edge.

“I…” I began to speak but my voice cracked.

“Sshhh just rest… you’re safe now.” Reagan hushed me. Robyn came and sat the other side of me. I was beyond thankful for them both. I had so many questions and so many things to say but I just felt defeated. I was mentally drained.

With their comfort I started to doze off, they must have lay me back. I could hear them talking but nothing was registering. The soft close of my door sprang me awake. I was alone in my room. I found myself curling into a ball.

I don’t know how long passed as I stared into the darkness but I heard my door open.

“Hello?” I asked, my voice a lot more timid than a man would like to admit.

“Benji, it’s just me, I came to check on you” the voice of my sister replied.

“Robyn… can you please stay with me. I can’t sleep on my own.”

“Of course” she said without question and she came across and climbed into bed with me. That instant sense of comfort came back to me.

“Robyn… I’m so sorry for everything!” I whispered, teetering on the verge of sobbing.

“Ssshhh you have nothing to be sorry for, I can’t imagine the hell you’ve been through. We will go to the police in the morning!”

“No…. No police.. please… I can’t face that.” She was right though, the police should be involved but I couldn’t face even more embarrassment and humiliation.

“Benji… she deserves to be punished for what she did, hell she deserves to be dead!” Robyn’s voice was laced with anger.

“Please Robyn, please just… just for me?” I felt Robyn’s tense body relaxing slightly as she pulled me into her.

“Ok Benji… but I promise she won’t get away with it!” I just nodded and cuddled into her. It wasn’t in any kind of sexual way but I can’t describe the comfort it brought me. I could only describe it as how a vulnerable woman felt in the arms of a strong man or the arms of her father. Weird comparison I know but it’s what I felt.

———

I spent a full week confined to my room. Mom took some seriously more convincing to not go to the police than Robyn did. We never told mom the full story but I don’t think she was too naive to think what most likely happened. Seb called me everyday but I wasn’t ready to talk to him. Reagan said I needed my space and didn’t come over but we text everyday. My rock and saviour was Robyn she stayed in my bed that whole first week and the second. The nightmare didn’t come every night and thanks to Robyn and indeed Reagan, I could feel myself getting slowly back to normal.

In fairness to Seb, he phoned me everyday. Even though I never answered, he always still phoned. I couldn’t help but smile at his reaction when I finally answered.

“Praise the sweet baby Jesus, you’re alive!” He boomed down the phone.

“Yeah I’m alive” I couldn’t help but chuckle.

“What the hell is going on man? Everyone thinks you’ve dropped off the face of the earth and your sister is being cagey as fuck.”

“Yeah sorry bro, I’ve been stuck in my bed the whole time.” It wasn’t a lie just not the exact truth.

“God you aren’t dieing on me? You better not be!” There was a hint of panic in his voice.

“No Seb, I’m not dieing, I’ll be back to school next week I think.” The thought gave me a chill but I couldn’t live in my room the rest of my life.

“Thank fuck, I’ve missed you man!”

“I’ve missed you too” I admitted. “So what’s been happening?” A part of me wish I never asked but there was something nice about hearing and rant and ramble. He eventually did breathe and said he would stop phoning me since I was clearly alive.

“I’m glad you finally spoke to him” Robyn said as she leant against my door frame.

“Thought I owed him as much.”

“God he’s been at me everyday at school asking for you.” She said in half annoyance.

“I’m sorry, I can never thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me.” I told her.

“You don’t ever need to thank me Benji, I’m just sorry it happened. I constantly think was there something I could have done different.” I could sense the guilt she had, there was no need for it. She was there when I really need it.

“Robyn… if you hadn’t found me, I have no idea if I would ever have come back from it. You were there when I really needed you!” I held my arms out for her and with a tearful face she approached and hugged me.

“I’m just sorry” she said as she sobbed into my t shirt. It’s funny how life works. She was my rock when I needed her and now I will be hers.

“Looks like we are both sorry huh?” I said trying to lighten the mood. “Let’s stop saying we are sorry and accept that we both need each other and will both be there for the other whenever.”

“Mhmm” she said as I felt her nod against me. We held a little longer before we parted. We got onto the bed and sat against the wall.

“One thing I’ve been meaning to ask… how did you find me?”

“Well I would have found you quicker if I had remembered quicker than I did. Remember that app mom made us get when we got our phones?” It took a second and then clicked. It was an app that showed the location of the three of us.

“Smart mother ours” I chuckled.

“So yeah I heard you were looking for me at the party and wanted to find you but no one knew where you where. Then I ran into Reagan, who was looking for you too…”

“Um yeah…” I cut into my sister. “So truth is, Reagan and I were supposed to meet in a room and you know…” for some reason it’s not that I couldn’t say it, but I didn’t know the right word to say.

“I get you” she smiled softly.

“So yeah, guess she was pretty pissed I went MIA… I’ll be honest I was shocked when she appeared after you.”

“Well after I left the party and found Seb’s car, she insisted on coming. In truth I didn’t need much convincing or looking to argue. I just knew in my gut something wasn’t right and I needed to get to you.”

“I still can’t believe she did what she did…” No one had heard or seen of Abigail since it happened. Apart of me was glad that she wasn’t around. I’m not one hundred percent sure how I would react.

“I hope I never see her again for her sake…”

“I don’t doubt that.” I smiled as I took her hand and squeezed it.

“Aww look at my two darlings” mom said from the door. “Come on dinners nearly ready.”

———

Life was getting back to some kind of normal. It had been a while since that weekend and I was cleared to return to school. When I say cleared, a conversation with my mother happened and it was agreed I should and could go back. The fact that Christmas wasn’t far away was a benefit.

Over the weeks I had been getting out and about. I had hung out with Seb, sometimes with his sister and Aubrey there. We didn’t really do much band stuff as I just could find myself wanting too. Reagan and I had been on a couple of sort of dates as well. In fact she was outside waiting for me right now. She wanted to treat me the last weekend before I was back to school on Monday.

“Hey handsome” she greated me with a kiss as I climbed into her car. She had had it a while now but it still had that new car smell.

“Hi you” I returned the kiss with tenderness. Reagan was another major reason my life seemed normal again. She just knew how to act and be around me. We’ve made our loads but it never went further than that.

“Come on we don’t want to be late” she pulled herself away from me and smiled her cut mischievous smile.

“Late for what?”

“You’ll see” she flashed a wink as the car took off. I hounded her the whole way with loads of theories what was going to happen. She was tight lipped the whole time and any time she spoke to was nothing to answer me.

We finally pulled up to a parking lot.

“You’re joking” I said with a soft chuckle.

“That’s right Mr, didn’t want to be late for me kicking your ass at mini golf.” Reagan smirked as we put the car into park. The car parked infront of the massive sign of a Hippo wearing a cowboy hat and holding a putter. “You really want me to humiliate you?” I challenged her.

“Yeah right! I like the ah you talk though, let’s make this interesting?”

“What’s the bet?” I said.

“Mmm if you win, unlikely… you can have a golden favour. Which means you can ask for anything and I can’t say no!” I laughed lightly because so far there was nothing she’s said no too.

“And when I win… mmmm you have to do a private singing performance for me!”

“Ha. Yeah I’ll be kicking your ass sorry baby!” To be honest I would sing for her but weres the fun in not having a bit of competition. Also my ego is still bruised form when she handed me my ass at the arcades.

It was a real fun date. We were both super competitive, it felt like neither wanted to win to avoid loosing the bet but just to win and have bragging rights. She was score keeper of course and it was neck and neck. It was the final hole. Reagan went first and potted it in three. It was all down to this. Pot it in one to win the game, two to draw, three and I would loose. I took my time to study the hole. It was possible to sink it in one but the accuracy had to be spot on. Reagan was being a good sport as ever and heckling me the whole time.

A smugness ran over me and after I was so sure I was bang on, I lifted my putter to swing. I then looked at Reagan and winked at her, keeping eye contact I swung forward and connected with the ball.

Time seemed to slow right down. Like we were in some cheesy movie where the hero wins at the last second. We watched as the ball stayed true and then slowly but surely headed for the hole. It tattered in the edge before it fell in.

“No fucking way….” Reagan gasped. Her mouth wide with shock as her mouth covered it. “I can’t believe it.” She giggled in disbelief. I lamely celebrated by cocking the putter like a gun and firing it at the hole.

“Ok I have to admit… that was pretty sexy!” She said with a grin as she turned to me and out her arms around my shoulders.

“I’m glad I claimed some of my ego back” I teased back as I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her into me.

“Don’t get used to it Mr!” She flashed a smile before leaning in to kiss me. I kissed her back and could have gotten lost in the moment if it wasn’t for the next players coughing and hurrying us on.

“Ok winner buys pizza!” I say to her as we get back into the car.

“Usually the loser does?”

“Not this time” I smiled at her as I place my hand on her leg. She then placed her hand on top of mine. It was simple food, we just went for a McDonald’s because who doesn’t live the Golden Arches.

“You know, you never let me return the favour…” I said to her when we were back in the car.

“What do you mean?” She said.

“You know the cinema… the car… this car…”

“Benji… I don’t…” it was cute to see her flustered. It was the first time we had mentioned anything sexual like that way. I had to truely admit to myself that I did want it.

“Reagan” I placed my hand on her leg. The more time I spent with Reagan the more my old feelings came back. The feeling of wanting her. The feeling of wanting to pleasure a woman on my terms. Was I fully over my ordeal. Probably not. Reagan had been the best and most supportive and I felt ready to take that next step.

“You have been the best though all of this. Kissing you ain’t enough for me anymore, I want more, I need more.”

“Benji… I want nothing more but are you sure?”

“There’s only one way to find out?” I challenged her.

“Where?” Was all she said.

“My house!” I knew my mom was out and Robyn being home didn’t really concern me. Reagan just nodded and we took off. We made it back to my house in record time without breaking too many laws. Extra bonus that no one was home. It just added to my need for her.

We got to my room and I closed the door. The last time she had been in my room was that night but I pushed the thought from my head. This was about Reagan and I.

She just stood there a little timidly as she bit her lip. I closed in on her. We kissed. We kissed deeply. There was more to this kiss though. The promise that it would lead to more afterwards. I pulled her body to mine. Her breathing becoming sharper as her arousal rose, my own arousal growing in my pants.

I edged her back as we fell onto my bed, she giggled but I caught her off as I kissed her again. Kissing this insatiable woman was like heaven. Just how her body reacted to me. A deep mutual attraction.

“Oh Benji…” she whispered as my lips found her neck. It was evident it was a weak point for her as her hips became needier. Her hands pulling and grabbing at me. It was clear she had wanted this level of attention but had kept it in check, until now.

I breathed in her scent and embraced all of her. I worked myself down the bed and started to pull down her yoga pants. They were pulled off and tossed away. Her cotton panties were damp and cock twitched at the sight.

“Benji… please… I’ve never… no one…”

“Ssshh baby, I’ve got you. Just tell me what feels good and what doesn’t” I smiled at her as I now pulled her panties off. Her pussy was clean shaven save for a small patch of hair just above her hood.

“Is it, ok?” She asked shyly. It was adorable to see a woman usually so sure of herself be vulnerable.

“It’s beautiful” I said as I gazed at her puffed lips. Aroused and ready for my attention. I leant down and got myself between her legs. I wanted to dive in but she deserved the best treatment. I softly kissed her inner thighs and grew closer each time.

“Benji…” she breathed as she took deep breaths. I just lost myself in her and shut the outside world off. My lips did eventually find hers and her whole body shuddered at the new sensations.

“Shit” she hissed as my lips slowly and sensual kissed her slit. She was damp and wet. Her hips became needier as she craved for a deeper touch. I gave her that and my tongue split her lips. Tasting her fully for the first time. Sensational.

“Oh my god” she groaned as my tongue explored her most inner sanctum. Every nerve ending in her skin tingled as I pleasured her. Her chest rising and lowering as she took in short fast breaths. With a grin I took it up a notch and paid attention to her clit.

“Holy fuck!!” She almost screamed as I sucked her clit into my mouth. I would take her over the edge in no time.

“Fuck Benji, like holy fuck… that feels amazing, no beyond amazing” her whole body wriggled as I kept my mouth locked on her clit. I was going to make this goddess cream all over my face and I was ready for it. I needed it. I needed that step back into true reality. That want for true intimacy.

“Benji… Benji…. I think… i’m going too… nngghhhhhhhh” her legs clamped around my head as her hips shot up off the bed. She squealed out as her body spasmed. It was the best feeling. To have this effect on the hottest girl I’ve ever been with and to bring her this pleasure.

Her hips stayed off the bed for a few moments before she came crashing back down and her legs went limp. I took a deep breath but I didn’t move away. I kept my mouth right where it was and kissed her more.

“Wow wow” she pleaded at a weak attempt to stop me but I had no intention of stopping. I let her relax and recover before I started again. This time my tongue delving into the depths of her creamy cunt and lapping at her juices.

“Benji… I need…. Oh fuck don’t stop!!” I smiled inwardly as I stuck to the task at hand. Delving my tongue deep between her folds.

I took Reagan to another orgasm and then another after for that good measure.

“Benji I need a minute” she said as she weakly and feebly pulled at me with her arms. I did pull myself away from her this time I climbed back up the bed to lay next to her.

“That was fucking magical” she breathed.

“I dont think I’ve ever heard you swear as much” I teased.

“Can you blame me? God my crotch is on fire” she said with a satisfied glow on her face.

“The pleasure was all mine” I replied as I lay there looking at her. I could feel my feelings growing deeper for her. Deeper than some fling. It was in that moment that I knew I wanted Reagan to be my girlfriend.

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