Fire and Ice

“I can't control you

You can't control me

I need to feel you

So why's there even you and me?



I love the way you rake my skin

I feel the hate you place inside

I need to get your voice out of my head

Cause I'm that guy you'll never find” from the song Control by Puddle of Mudd

“I despise your masquerade, the dishonest way you pose yourself.” G.D Spradlin in the movie The Godfather Part 2

 

“If you need me to stay in here with you just say so. I don’t want to abandon you while you’re sick.”

Yvette tried to chuckle and it turned into a cough. When she was once again composed she said, “You are just nervous to make up with your boyfriend. Don’t even think of using me as an excuse. I’m going to take some cough medicine and hit my pillow.”

Zane kept looking at the door then at the buzzer, then back to the door. He didn’t even realize it when Yvette put her hand on his arm.

“Listen, I know you guys have some things to work through but be open minded.”

“Hot mafia guy, yeah yeah I got it.”

“Yeah ask him to find one for me.”

She shuffled off to her room and just as her door closed the security buzzer sounded and Zane nearly jumped out of his skin. He laughed at himself then pushed the buzzer. “Cas?”

“Yeah.”

“Come up.”

He hit the door unlock. Then the two minute wait for him to get to the door, and he still had no idea what he was going to say or do. When the knock on the door came he still didn’t know what to do. He still felt like he wanted to turn around and walk away but instead he felt himself walk to the door. Once the door was opened he saw Casi, saw the tentative smile on his dark lips, the question in his eye and something took Zane over. He reached out and grabbed Casi by the shirt, yanking him in so hard Casi felt weightless for a half a second before the bigger man’s arms clamped around him and his lips were pressed to Zane’s hard and ungiving.

Casi wasn’t ready for this, all the day at home and all the way over he thought Zane would be disappointed in him, have to have this long talk with him, and eventually after hours of that they would decide to break up or stay together. This was such a shock Casi just went limp in Zane’s arms at first before he tried to push away from him. As much as he was happy that they weren’t breaking up or talking for hours he still didn’t give up his control like that.

Finally Zane took his mouth from Casi’s but he didn’t wait for Casi to speak or take back the control he obviously wanted back. Zane picked Casi up off of his feet and headed for the bedroom.

Zane had always given his control up to other men. The men he’d always seen were more dominant than he, and it never bothered him. None were ever into the kinky dominance but most of their personalities, like Casi, were much more outgoing than his, all the men more used to calling the shots, and it had always been a slight turn on for him, but when he had had a gun pulled on him, when he was taken by force into a room and held against his will something had turned in him. He needed to take it back, to make sure he never felt that helpless again and he needed to make sure Casi knew that too. Casi, the one who was always in control, how he had to be, obvious to him then, because he had to not only take care of a family but a whole community.

Zane closed the door to his room and finally set Casi down. He took off his shirt and started walking to Casi who was backing away.

“Zane, listen I’m glad you aren’t mad at me but-“

“Who said I wasn’t mad?”

Zane got to him once Casi couldn’t go any further because the back of his legs had met the bed. Zane easily pushed him down to the bed and Casi then finally saw the look of serious determination in his lover’s face. It wasn’t like he was afraid of Zane. He knew instinctively that Zane would never hurt him, but Zane had no intention of relenting, so he became fidgety and nervous beyond anything he’d ever felt. Even more so than what he’d felt going into the Carrillo’s offices.

Casi leaned up on his elbows as Zane stared down at him. He tried to reason with him, but knew before he started that there would be no reasoning with Zane. “Listen baby, I want to tell you everything, but this here, this isn’t going to work.”

The corner of Zane’s mouth rose in an indignant smirk and he said, “Too bad. It works for me.”

Zane got over Casi and grabbed his wrists, pinning them over his head as he pressed his weight down over the smaller man just enough to assure Casi couldn’t move but he could still breath fine. He took Casi’s mouth into another heated kiss and he felt Casi tense then relax then stiffen again as he conflicted within himself whether to give in or fight harder. Zane loved seeing the conflict, it appealed to something deep inside of him but this being a change for both of them he had to tell Casi a couple of things that may ease or enflame his anxiety.

“I told you that I belonged to you and that’s as true now as it was when I said it. More. Well, Casimiro you also belong to me. I’m going to fuck you now and there isn’t much that will deter that unless you absolutely don’t want to be fucked. Then we are going to talk and you are going to tell me everything. Not leave one thing out and finally trust me to be the man you need me to be or it can end. Do you want me to fuck you or not?”

Casi’s eyes were large and he opened and closed his mouth several times before he finally let his body override his mind and anxiety and nodded vigorously. He watched Zane’s smile break over his face as he rose back to standing and flipped open Casi’s trench coat then got to work on his pants until they were pulled off of him and in a heap next to the bed, soon joined by Casi’s underwear, coat and shirt. As he stood above Casi, he was not only happy but surprised to see Casi’s cock was hard as a diamond.

Casi was surprised too. He never thought having another man standing over him, ready to take him would turn him on so much, but as he ran his eyes over Zane as he undressed himself in front of Casi, he saw the pure power of the man in every muscle and most of all in his narrowed icy eyes.

Zane crawled over him and once more took his wrists and held them over his head while he kissed his lips then kissed down to his chest and took Casi’s nipple between his teeth barely biting down but send waves of curious electricity through Casi. Biting just a bit harder and Casi moaned out from clenched teeth still trying not to enjoy it as much as he was. Zane easily held Casi down while he moved his hips to rub his erection against Casi’s. Just that friction alone was driving Casi nearly out of his head but when Zane caught both of his wrists in one hand and his other hand snaked between their bodies to Casi’s hole he thought he would literally explode.

Casi wasn’t lubed but it didn’t stop Zane from running his finger around the entrance pressing just at the hole enough to make Casi tense in fear and need of him possibly entering. He wanted the man to enter him, the need was stronger than he could express in words.

“If you’re going to fuck me then do it!”

Zane moved his head, lips barely skimming over the smaller man’s skin until he got to Casi’s earlobe, bit down hard and said, “No.”

Casi writhed under him, needing to take the control to get what he needed from Zane, but he knew there was no use so he went with it, feeling an orgasm building in him without even being entered, and only the slightest friction of Zane’s cock against his. He’d never felt anything like it and he wasn’t sure if he hated it or loved it more than any sex he’d ever had.

Zane’s grip on his wrists wasn’t painful, but plenty enough to know he wasn’t going to be able to move his hands so he tried to move other parts of him, running his feet along the sheets and his legs kicked out on either side of Zane’s body, moving his hips trying for more friction, but Zane raised up and away just enough so Casi couldn’t reach. The moans of frustration grew louder and louder and Zane chuckled at his lover but his own desire made him hurry the game along. While still holding his lover still he reached over to the drawer and got out the lube, popping the top with his thumb and squeezing it onto his fingers. He did enter Casi then, letting his finger go deep and rough, going straight to Casi’s prostate and tapping there while he watched Casi’s face flush and grow taut with anger and lust.

“Fuck fuck fuck me!”

“No not yet. I don’t think you need it enough.”

Casi looked at him like he’d got insane. “I fucking need it! Please Zane, baby please fuck me.”

“Tell me, Tell me that you belong to me.”

“You know I do! I’m yours I belong to you, I need you I love you!”

Zane wasn’t surprised by the admission but it did effect him. His grip on Casi loosened and his face softened. Casi came out of his lust craze after hearing it come from his mouth and he opened his eyes to Zane.

“I love you Zane. I love you.”

“Yeah? You’re not just saying that so I’ll give in?”

“No, I mean it.”

Zane leaned down for a kiss that wasn’t hard or deep but tender and more passionate than any he had given Casi before. Casi left his hands above his head, even though he could have easily taken then away he left them in Zane’s loose grip and kissed his lover back. Zane finished the kiss but left his mouth on Casi’s while he said, “I love you too.”

He lifted up and took the condom from the drawer and rolled it over his cock quickly, and slicked it with lube then got back over Casi and held his arms once more. He put his cock to Casi’s entrance. He pushed in just a tiny bit, just enough to let Casi think he’d won.

“You want it Casimiro? Do you want me inside of you, fucking you deep?”

“Yes, oh yes, Zane please fuck me.”

“Then tell me you will never keep anything from me again. Ever.”

“Never baby, I’ll never keep anything from you.”

Zane smiled and pushed in all at once. Casi banged his head against the mattress, the burn intense but he knew the burn would quickly turn into pleasure so he willed his muscles to relax and take the big intrusion. Zane gave him a few seconds to adjust but as he watched Casi’s face flush even more and his eyes roll back he knew it was enough and he started pounding Casi harder and deeper than he ever had before. Every bit of fear he felt at seeing the gun on Casi, every bit of anger he’d felt at other men in control of his lover, even if it had had to be with a gun, the threats came out through his body as he fucked into the man who had just confessed his love to him. Every thrust was his body’s response to being afraid but being afraid because of how much he was in love too.

Casi struggle against Zane’s hand around his wrist, wanting so bad to touch the perfect body of the man on top of him, to feel the muscles rippling as he used every single one in the process of putting all of his strength into fucking him, giving him what he’d begged for. Casi didn’t even realize until his throat began to hurt that the screams of pleasure he was hearing were his own.

His screams and his alone as Zane’s grunting had turned silent, the sound as well as the air being caught in his chest as he neared his release. When he came he bit down on Casi’s throat just as it reached his collar bone and stayed there while his own scream finally found it’s way to the surface. He knew Casi had come as well, feeling his lover twitching below him and the come spreading over both of their stomachs.

He’s hand let go of Casi’s wrists, his body fell to the side and he let himself relax for the first time in days, but never took his eyes from Casi.

“I can’t believe you just did that.”

Zane laughed and admitted, “I can’t either.”

Casi wasn’t angry, he was amazed at how intense it had been, and how good it felt to give himself over to someone.

Zane let his breathing return to normal before he sat up and grabbed Casi under the arms and pulled him up to lay next to him on the pillows.

“It’s time to talk now.”

Casi nodded slightly and said, “I guess it is.”

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