Crimson Dreams

Hayden was sitting in his usual spot on the couch. He was reading his book and looked like he was almost done with it. I heard chuckle before setting the book aside and standing up. He turned to face me. His eyes moved slowly over me, starting with my shoes and working his way up. The studying look he gave me made me want to look at myself to make sure the weapons weren't causing lines or some other tell-tale sign. His hands were in his pockets as his eyes finally settled on my own.

"Ready." His voice was neutral but his body language said something was up.

"Yeah. You driving or me?"

"I will drive. You just tell me where you want to go to get pet food."

I nodded and walked out the front door. I had my keys tucked into my back pocket and one of those wrist things that carry an I.D. and a hand full of bills but nothing else. I leaned against his deep red Toyota. Seems him and Alex had some things in common. The furthest from a Toyota I had ever owned was a Lexus. Considering they were one in the same it wasn't far just a different name. He unlocked the car for me and I hopped in.

The ride to the store was not the most comfortable one and it had nothing to do with the car or Macon roads. And nothing to do with Hayden's driving. He was a really good driver. The problem was that no matter what they say in magazines or do in movies, it is just not comfortable to sit in a seat with a gun pressed to the small of your back. I managed to get through the ride without moving around a lot or pulling the gun off.

"Before we get out I would like to talk to you about something." He said as he parked the car in a spot far off from everyone else.

"Okay." Maybe he was just going to kill me and get it over with and all this had been something to throw me off.

"Firstly, I haven't been able to get a hold of my friend so I am not sure if I can leave yet. Would you mind if I continued to stay with you until I know more? I understand if you say no."

"That’s fine." I said all too quickly. "I mean I really hate being alone I have enjoyed the fact that someone is there when I get home." The lie slid off my tongue so quickly I hadn't even thought about it. It wasn't really a lie. I did enjoy coming home to someone but I had to keep reminding myself constantly that he was here to kill me.

"Second, I know you said something about being reminded how alone you are during the holidays so I figured I am alone as well so maybe we could go where all the other alone people are on holidays."

"And where would that be?"

"One night while I was hunting I came across this little bar. It's a hole in the wall of a place but I noticed their sign saying they would be open on Thanksgiving. I figured that would be where I was while you went out and celebrated."

"Who the hell would I celebrate with?"

"I honestly thought you and your master would have made up by now."

"Pffft." That’s all I could say. Anything else and he would taste the lie.

"If he is nearly as hard headed as you are than I dare-say that it will never happen."

"Okay. I will go out with you but it's not a date or anything like that and don't expect anything at the end of the night."

"I am not human." There was a slight edge to his voice.

"What’s that supposed to mean?" I asked.

"Humans expect sex at the end of a date. I am not human." He stated a fact but it didn't answer my question.

"That’s really close to a lie."

"But it's not a lie."

"And it is all I am going to get from you?"

"Yes." He looked to the store. "I need a drink. Can we do this last? This place is open all night."

"Sure."


When we arrived at the bar I was surprised to see how many people were here. I could feel the music pull my heart to its beat. Hayden held the door open for me and I nodded to him before walking into the place. There only two pool tables and one dart machine. The dart machine was so close to the pool table that only one could be played at a time without the games clashing. My years spent training let me know at a quick glance that there were twenty three people in here aside from Hayden and me. One bartender and an exit behind her to the left.

The dance floor took up most of the space and it seemed everyone was dancing. Only two people sat around the bar. Both were men in their late twenties to early thirties. The bartender was about my age with that milk chocolate color to their skin that comes from having mixed heritage. Her face was sharp angles with a soft jaw line and pouty lips. Her eyes round and dark brown. Her nose was sharp and showed the Caucasian in her blood. Her hair was long and puffy with curls but she held it back with a tight ponytail much like my own. The hair gave away the African American in her and it was a safe bet to say her parents were both very good looking people. She was beautiful and looked like she belonged on a runway in Paris and not stuck serving drinks on Thanksgiving in Macon.

Hayden and I sat down at the bar and waited for her to finish dealing with one of the men at the bar. He was trying to buy her a drink but she kept politely telling him she didn't drink but the man kept pushing. He was now trying to get her phone number. She gave him a dazzling smile that had even me smiling as she shook her head and said it was against company rules. Finally she started heading our way and her face lit up as she looked at Hayden.

"Hi Hayden! Same as last night?" She asked

"Please." He returned her smile. "And put her on my tab."

"Okay." She looked at me and toned down her flirting. "What can I get you?"

"Can I get a Zombie please?"

"Yep. Coming right up."

"So you just happened to see the sign?" I asked as I turned to Hayden.

"It's on the front door. Can't miss it as you're coming in."

"Well at least you are making friends." The words came out bitter and I pressed my fist to my mouth."

"I assure you," He leaned in just a little more. "I am not interested in any human no matter her beauty." He leaned back in his barstool as the bartender returned with our drinks.

"So how long have you guys been in town?" She asked while looking at me. "I have only seen Hayden in here last night but you I have never seen here before."

"I live here I just never knew this place was here."

"I hope to see y'all back then." She said before she held her hand out to me. "I am Tiffany."

"Ashley." I took her hand as I tried to ignore the look Hayden was giving me.

"I'll need to see I.D. before you start on your drink."

I nodded and pulled my jacket sleeves up. At least I had thought to bring it. I'd had to tell her Ashley because my real drivers’ license was at Alex's house in a drawer somewhere. I pulled the I.D. out and handed it to her. She looked it over and made sure it was real before handing it back to me and pushing my drink towards me. I put my I.D. up and looked at Hayden.

"What?" I asked innocently.

"Nothing, Ashley." He emphasized the Ashley.

"The name on my I.D. is Ashley. Want to see for yourself?" I asked.

"So why Alex?"

"I was a pet. Do you not name your pets what you will when they become your pets?"

"I guess I can see that." He took a sip of his drink which was a Hurricane. "So what is it really?"

"I don't think I know you well enough to tell you that."

"What would you prefer?"

"Alex."

"Okay Alex. Would you like to dance?"

"Oh I really don't dance."

My words fell on deaf ears apparently as he took my hand and pulled me roughly towards the dance floor. I let him drag me to the dance floor because it was either that or make a scene. I didn't want to make a scene but I was not going to dance. I would just keep walking and he would have to choose between making a scene and following me outside. He pulled me through the people to the center of the dance floor. The music was quieter here. I think it had something to with all the bodies up against each other.

When he stopped walking and turned to face me I walked right on past him. He took two steps and then seen where I was headed. He pulled hard on my arm and I was sent spinning back into him. He didn't give a chance to recover before his hands grabbed my shoulders and held me in place. He rested his cheek against mine before speaking low in my ear.

"I know you can do kiddie dances with the girls in the hospital so don't tell me the same bull that you don't dance. Let the music's beat control your moves."

I looked at the couple dancing to our right. The mans hands were pressed firmly to her waist while they were grinding against each other. Her hand was in her hair and her face was contorted into those orgasm faces the porn stars have. Not that I watched porn. A lot. I had seen a few clips here and there. But I couldn't let Hayden touch me like that. He would feel my weapons and know I was armed. The only way to pull this off was to have him hold my hips or go take off my weapons. I knew which I wasn't about to do.

The song changed into one with a little more bump but slower. Polo had told me that dancing was sex with clothes on. From watching the people around us I would have to agree. I closed my eyes and ran my hands down my waist and over my hips. I looked for the areas where you couldn't feel my weapons before taking Hayden's hands and placing them there. They were low on my hips and closer to my ass. The only other option really was right under my breast.

"Move your hands and I leave. Scene or no."

"Yes ma'am."

I started swinging my hips in rhythm to the music. I still had my eyes closed because I didn't want to see anyone looking at me. I could tell I was stiff and not doing it right. Hayden’s hands flexed a little before he started pulling me closer. Pressed against me he would feel the weapons as well. This was a loosing battle but I had to play his game so I could find something more out. I pulled away from him and held one finger up as I started walking back to the bar.

I downed my drink in one swallow before flagging down Tiffany. She came over with another Zombie in her hand for me and smile on her face.

"New to dancing?" She asked.

"Yeah. Can I get another?" I downed the one she had just brought me. Alcohol doesn't really get me drunk but I feel more relaxed if I get enough in my system. "I also need two gallon sized zippy bags and a trash bag."

She raised an eye brow at me but complied. When she returned she set the drink in front of me before discreetly pushing the other items to me. I balled them in my hand as I finished off yet another one. I could feel her looking at me wearily. When I set the glass down the man on my right asked Tiffany to get me another on him. She gave me a questioning glance and I nodded. Another wouldn't hurt.

While she made the drink I went to the bathroom. I locked the door and started unloading weapons. I checked the zippy bags to make sure they were air tight before loading all my knives in one and the gun in the other. I didn't worry about finger prints. I had none on file. I stuck both zippy bags into the trash bag and pulled out another ponytail holder from my pocket. My hair was thick and I tended to break a lot of them. I tied the trash bag up with my ponytail holder and shoved my contraband into the toilet tank. I flushed it to make sure it worked and there would be no cause to look in the tank before walking out the bathroom.

Hayden was sitting at the bar with a fresh drink of his own and watching me walk towards him. I didn't say anything as I picked up my glass. I was about to down this one like I had the others but decided to take it slower before humans started to worry about me. I only killed half of it before walking back out to the dance floor. I could feel Hayden at my back like some heavy weight.

"Teach me." I said as Hayden stopped right behind me.

"To teach you I would have to do more than stand at arms length with my hands on your hip." His hands were on my shoulders and his mouth was against my ear.

"I told you I didn't get out much so teach me. Do whatever you have to do."

"That’s a very broad boundary to give a vampire."

"I trust you not to kill me in front of the humans."

"Too right you are." He chuckled and it didn't sound friendly.

He stepped up so that the front of his body was pressed lightly to the back of mine. I forced myself not to shiver at the feel of him. Nathan had wanted to teach me to do this but I always got too embarrassed and instead he would spend the time holding me and trying to convince me he loved me so we could have sex. The feel of Hayden's groin being pressed to my rear brought me back from my thoughts of Nathan. He had his hands on my waist and made me move every time he did so.

I watched the couples around us and tried to do as they were doing. One lady in front of me was facing her partner with one leg up around his waist while they pushed their groins against each other. Hayden’s arm snaked around my waist with his hand flat on my stomach and his head came to rest on my shoulder.

"Don't try to do what someone else is doing and don't think about sex. Close your eyes and focus on my movements. You can do this."

I closed my eyes and did as he said. I focused on the movement of his hips and swayed with him. He was going slower than the beat so I could keep up. There was no press of other limbs against me so he didn't find it sexual. I released some of my control when I noticed he wasn't being sexual with me and started to move my hips against him more and faster until I was moving to the beat. There was no hesitation in his movements as he caught up to me. His hand pushed slightly against my stomach until I was against him firmly. It was a good idea to remove the weapons cause would have found all of them.

His hands were holding my sides lightly so that when my body moved his hands were rubbing me. It was a gentle caress but it sent heat through my body to pool between my legs. I turned in a motion so fast that the lady next to us gasped. I ignored her while I straddled his leg and started moving against him. He picked up on my rhythm quickly as his arms wrapped around me and pulled me closer. My senses sharpened and I started going dizzy from the smell of arousal all around me. My mind was reeling from so many bodies all aroused and all around me but it felt good.

I felt the last shards of my control slip away as I took a deep breath of everyone’s arousal and caught the sweet scent of my own. It should have frightened me that I was aroused by Hayden and the humans’ arousal but I had no care left. For once I was going to enjoy myself and anyone who didn't like that idea could shove it. My arms moved around Hayden's neck as I wrapped my leg around his waist. The position pushed my body against his firmly and I took full advantage of it. I started rocking my hips so that my groin rubbed firmly against him. The friction of our jeans caused me to throw my head back and moan. My moan was lost to the human ears because the music was too loud but Hayden heard and he responded by thrusting against me.

We moved together to the beat. His groin pushing against mine and each thrust left me panting for more. I smelled his lust start to mix with mine and I pushed harder against him. I was baiting him now and that was flirting with danger but I couldn't resist. I was drunk off my own arousal as well as the humans. His just intensified it. I had never been this aroused with Nathan or anyone else for that matter. The thought of Nathan was quick and fleeting for once and I didn't try to bring it back. Instead I rubbed my body fully against Hayden's and moaned again.

This time when my head came back up from the moan it was to meet Hayden’s lips. He kissed me gently and for once I didn't pull away. I kissed him back as I closed my eyes. The room tilted slightly as he continued to meet my thrust against his body but never once did he break the kiss. Instead his tongue came to caress my lower lip soft and slow. I parted my lips slightly and let my own tongue meet his. He took the invitation and deepened the kiss. His tongue was like velvet against mine and I felt that jerk low in my body that wanted more. I moaned against his mouth as the whole world melted away until there was nothing but Hayden and myself.

There was nothing but the feel of him hard and ready being pressed against me. I could feel my own wetness. I could smell it. It was a salty sweet smell that brought another moan from my lips. My hands gripped his shirt tightly as I felt that first prick of fang against my bottom lip. I tasted my own blood in our mouths as I heard him moan against my lips. I opened my eyes to see that liquid navy blue fire swimming behind his. His hands were kneading at my back as he pushed me from the dance floor. We were in a far corner away from prying eyes and never once did he break the kiss.

I caught myself as my hands started un-tucking his shirt. I looked up to meet his gaze and what I saw made my whole body grow cold. There was a heat so deep that it burned me to look at him. Nathan had looked at me like that. I pulled back from the kiss and looked him over once more. This time the thought of Nathan didn't leave me.

"He used to look at me that way." I said before I turned and started for the door.

It must have taken Hayden a second to understand I was leaving because I was already at the door when he reached me.

"Where are you going?"

"Any where that doesn't remind me of him." I opened the door and walked out with Hayden right behind me.

"Him who? Your master?"

I laughed at that one. "Alex has never looked at me in such a way." It was the truth.

"Then who?"

"Nathan."

He hoped up onto the trunk of the car and held a hand out to me. "Who is he?"

"Some one I can never talk about." I took his hand and let him pull me onto the trunk beside him.

"Why can you not speak of him?"

"I can talk of him but I can never tell any one what happened between us."

"Why is that?"

"Alex would kill him."

I had never told anyone this story but here I found myself at ease and talking to someone about Nathan. I was going to kill Hayden and every one of his contacts so it didn't matter if he knew did it? At least this way I could get it off my chest and maybe it would be one step closer to being just the past.

"Did he hurt you?"

"Yes and no."

"Will you tell me so I at least know why I suddenly became him?"

I almost told him that he hadn't become him but I thought about it first. The moment he looked at me like that he had become Nathan to me and I couldn't do anything else. Up until that point I had been feeling better than I ever had. Instead I just sighed and nodded. I guess when you put it that way I really had no right not to tell him.

"When I was sixteen Alex took me with him to Perry too meet a friend of his named Nathan. Nathan was a demon and we stayed there for about two months. Alex was there but seeing how he went to bed around sunrise he never really seen Nathan and I sparring. It started out as sparring but then it just turned into us meeting some where outside. We would kiss and all that stuff and then go our separate ways. Both of us were too afraid to let it go further because of Alex. I fell hard for Nathan in those two months. When Alex told me we were going to be going back home soon it took everything I had not to cry and beg him to let me stay. Nathan was smoother about it though and told Alex that I still needed a lot of training with my demon and that if it was okay with us I could stay with him until I was trained.

"Alex agreed and said he would come as often as he could and then he was gone. The moment we heard his car drive off we were all over each other. He trained my demon side during the day and I spent my nights in his bed with him trying to sleep with me. I kept saying no and he would push a little harder each time. He never really forced himself on me and I believe, to this day, that had I not said yes he would never have slept with me. But after three months of him telling me how much he loved me and of our hours spent in his room with us both naked and touching and kissing and that crap I gave in.

"I went to him one night earlier than normal. I had gotten to the point that I didn't even bother with clothing around him. He had to remind me to put clothes on when someone came over to visit. I had read all these books and magazines that had been left lying around the house. I watched all the movies that I had found in the attic. Of course at the time I was too stupid to know that it was intentional. I crawled onto his bed naked as the day I was born and laid back against the pillows. I had wanted it to be so perfect. I didn't want to mess anything up.

"I started doing those things I had seen in the books, the magazines and the movies to myself. He gave me that look. The one you had before I left the bar." I paused but I didn't look at Hayden. If I didn't get it all out now then I never would. I took a deep shaky breath before continuing. "He took off his own clothes and joined me. At first it was just touches and kisses and I liked it. He asked me if I liked it and of course I said yes. But when he got on top of me I got nervous and started to shut down. He laughed as he pushed himself into me. No easing or anything and I just laid there with my eyes closed and cried. When he was through he tossed me a towel and told me to clean up. He told me I was too easy before he laughed again and pulled out a tape recorder from on top of the TV. and then he left.

"I cleaned up while I cried and then I railed myself for crying and being a child. I had messed things up so bad and I knew he would never forgive me for it but I had to try. After I was cleaned I went looking for him. I finally found him in his study. I opened the door to find him having sex with another woman while on the TV. was the video he'd just taken of me and him. I ran to my room and wrote him a note. I told him I knew I had messed things up and I was sorry and that I understood why he went to someone else’s bed. I promised not to tell Alex so long as he never showed up at our home.

"I left without any of my things. I ran to Byron and grabbed the first man I seen. I dragged him into an alley and went through the motions with him. All I succeeded in doing was bleeding more and scaring that man. My white pants were ruined and I called the only person I could think of who was close. April was another friend of Alex's. She took me to her house and tried to get me to shower. I didn't want to wash away my shame of having messed everything up with Nathan so I didn't shower. Instead I grabbed her liquor and dared her to say anything to me about it as I drank. I went through four bottles trying to get drunk and it didn't work.

"Finally I called Alex to come and get me. When I got into the car with him I was still wearing my bloody clothes and I smelled of sex. He was pissed and wanted to know who had done it but after hours of drilling me and April only to come up with nothing, he took me home. I told him he needed to call Nathan and let Nathan know I was gone because he didn't know I had left. I heard him talking to Nathan on the phone and apparently Nathan kept his end of the story.

"Alex goes to Nathan's every other week to have their men’s weekend and when he comes back he tells me Nathan asks after me and tells me about there weekends together. At first I would just go to my room and cry but then I started using fake I.D.s to get into clubs and going home with the first guy to buy me a drink. Now when I get sad or hurt I turn to a human for sex. I feel nothing from sex. I can only fake with humans so I stick to them. Alex hates that I sleep with humans but I can't explain to him why. He hates that until I choose a side I won't reach my full potential but I am leaning more towards demon. I still have those feelings for Nathan but I can’t get over how bad I fucked things up with him to go back to him. But at the same time he ruined me. I know what he did was wrong but I can't stop myself from blaming myself. I just wish I had never been born. I wish I hadn't chosen this....."

My words trailed off and I finally let myself cry. I cried openly and fully with my body shaking with every breath. I felt Hayden's arms wrap around me and pull me to him. I didn't fight him. I had never told anyone every detail of what had happened. The few I had told only knew I had a bad first experience. I spilled myself over into his lap as I curled into a ball and cried.

"Is she okay?" A woman asked.

"We just found out her father died." Hayden said sadly.

"Bless her heart." She too sounded honestly mournful. "Poor dear will never like Thanksgiving again. Are you looking out for her?"

"Yes ma'am. I will be taking her home as soon as I can calm her down."

The woman didn't anything else but I heard her walk away and start talking to someone else. My sobs had finally quieted down a notch or two and we were back to having the parking lot to ourselves. Hayden pressed his lips to my forehead in a soft kiss that felt like butterfly wings beating gently across my head. His hands tenderly stroked my back and I felt my desire for him start to build. He wasn't trying to seduce me but rather comfort me.

"It wasn't your fault. You didn't mess anything up at all." He cooed.

I stiffened as his words nestled in my head. I had been trying to convince myself that same thing since the night it happened but I still felt it was my fault. I felt it every time I slept with a man. If I was honest with myself I would admit that I kept sleeping with human after human waiting to do it right so I could go back to Nathan and make everything okay again.

"I would never have done those kinds of things to you." Hayden spoke against my neck and his breath sent a shiver down my spine.

I jumped off of him quickly and the movement sent him falling back against the cars rear window as I spilled off the trunk to land sprawled out on the ground. I was up on my feet and running back into the bar before Hayden pulled himself up. He didn't chase after me this time. I ran in to the bar to see Tiffany about to pick up my drink. I called her name and she looked up with a smile until she caught the look on my face. When I reached the bar I held my hand out for my drink. She handed it back to me.

"Everything alright?" She asked as I downed my drink and then grabbed Hayden's and killed it as well.

"Just found out my dad died." I stuck with the lie Hayden had come up with.

"I am so sorry. Want me to get you another drink? On the house."

"No. But thank you." I sighed and then gave her a smile. She was beautiful and nice. "I will be coming back here more often. For now I need to get home."

She nodded as she gave her condolences. I laid four hundred dollars on the counter and walked to the bathroom. I added a little stagger so that if she was watching I would look slightly impaired. If a human had drunk as much as I had they would be lucky to be walking. I pulled my weapons out and started putting them all back on. Nothing had gotten wet. That was a good thing. I felt more secure with my weapons back on. I felt more in control. I threw the bags away in the trash as I headed back out the bar.

"Alex!" Tiffany flagged me back over to her. I walked to the bar and she pushed some cash towards me. Must be my change from the four hundred.

I smiled and shook my head as I passed it back to her. "The four hundred was for you and Hayden was going to come back in a pay the tab."

Her eyes got big as she looked at me in shock but as she tried to find her words I walked out the bar. Hayden was sitting on the trunk still.

"That was nice of you." He said.

"You still owe her a tab."

"So I do." He hopped off the trunk and went back to the bar.

I stood there and waited. I didn't know what to do. I had just bared myself to a man I barely knew and now he had information to tell my enemies. He was probably making that call now to laugh about my sorrows with his sire. I had known he would but I told him anyways. It was way too easy to be myself around Hayden. His sire had chosen him well for the task of turning me against Alex or getting close enough to kill me.

I felt Hayden's aura pour out the building and closed my eyes at the feeling it brought to me. I felt secure again. I almost smiled as he came closer. I was losing my mind and quickly. I turned on him and shook my head as I started backing up from him.

"I got to go." I said quickly. The look on his face said clearly he didn't want me to leave. "I can't be around you right now. I will lose all my control that I have worked so hard to gain."

"Please let me take you to your house and if you wish I will leave."

"No." I said quickly as my ass bumped into his car. "You can stay. Please. I just need to be alone right now. I will come back."

"But I brought you out therefore I am responsible for your safety. There are women disappearing left and right around here. I can't let you just run off into the night when I am the reason you are running."

"I am not human. Remember?"

He just nodded and sighed with a sound of reassignment. "I forget that. I will wait up 'til you get home and if you wish me to leave I will do so gracefully and with no hard feelings."

"I don't want you to leave. I just need to go sort things out." And satiate my desire for you. That last was added only in my head. I knew what I was going to do now. I resisted the urge to hug him and turned around to sprint off into the woods. "Be home shortly. Don't get the pet food without me." I called to him before breaking out into a full run.


I ran mostly ran circles and zigzags all at full speeds. I slowly but surely made my way back towards my old apartment. When I was sure I hadn't been followed I ran the perimeter of the complex before sitting on the front step leading to my apartment. I pulled my phone out and called one of the few numbers I knew by heart. He answered on the second ring and sounded a little distracted.

"Is Ethan still in my old apartment?" I asked without saying hello.

"No. It's empty."

"Are you busy?" I asked because he sounded very distracted like he was fighting with someone or maybe I had interrupted one of those moments and he had to answer because it was me.

"Not really. Are you okay? Do you need help?" He was at full attention now.

"No. I am fine. Is there anyone in hearing range?" I asked.

"Marco is standing beside me."

"Oh." At least I knew now that he wasn't in the middle of sex. "Can you get out of hearing range?"

"Yeah. Give me a minute."

I heard Marco complaining in the back ground and then I heard wind blowing quickly. The sound hurt my ears so I pulled the phone away from me until it finally stopped.

"Okay." Polo said.

"Still feel like giving it a go?" I asked.

"Giving what a go?"

"Still feel like giving it a go?" I asked again but this time stressing the last part.

"Where are you?"

"How soon can you get to my old apartment?"

"I am almost there." He hung up.

He had understood me the first time but he was confirming. That’s how Polo was. Make them say it again just to be sure they understood what they were saying and you got the message clearly. He had taught me that lesson when he was training me. I heard foot steps and this time I turned to see him jogging down the hill. He veered right and cut through the woods instead of going all the way to the bottom and having to climb up the stairs. He stopped two stairs below me so that our faces were even.

"Are you sure?" He asked that one simple question

I leaned forward and wrapped my arms around his neck. "As long as you follow the rules."

"Which are?"

"For now it is only to not go beneath my clothing with any part of your body."

"I would never force myself on you Alex."

"I know." I took his hand and led him to the apartment. "That’s part of the reason why I asked you to do this."

"What’s the other part?" He asked as I opened the door and stepped through pulling him in and shutting it again.

"I have been attracted to you since I was sixteen."