Love, Lust and Lycanthropy

Finally she is done her classes but she didn’t learn a whole lot having her mind on other things, relationship things, she didn’t want to lose another boyfriend not another one that she was hopelessly in love with, she decides to get it over with and heads straight to his place she lets herself in with the spare key and walks into the apartment without knocking, she didn’t care if it was rude or if she walked in on Karen and Jacob she just wanted to stop feeling worried.

Jacob is waiting for her on the couch, she sits beside him, and leans into him “So what did you want to talk to me about?”

Jacob takes a deep breath, “there’s something I want you to know, but I\'m not sure how to say it exactly I\'ve been thinking all day and I haven\'t come up with much.”

“I know how you feel,” she says under her breath. “Just say it if you cant think of anyway to sugar coat it.”

Jacob smirks at her bluntness, its so unlike her, “Fine then,” he takes a long pause, “I\'m not human,” Sandra’s eyes fill with confusion,

“And just what does that mean?”

“It means just that; I\'m not human at least not any more, I haven\'t been since high school, I had sex with someone, I loved them more than anything, during sex she lost control, she turned into a werewolf right under me, she tore me up pretty bad, bad enough that the full moon after that I changed too,”

Sandra\'s jaw is inches from the floor, of all the things she was expecting that wasn\'t even near the list, “So you\'re a werewolf?” Jacob nods, “Why didn’t you tell me?” instantly she regrets saying it, Jacob opens his mouth to speak but she puts up her hand shaking her head, “No, no I know why, you didn’t want to scare me right?”

“Close I didn’t want to expose myself like that, no one but others like me know that I\'m a werewolf,” he takes another deep breath, “that’s also why I didn’t want to have sex with you, not only the changing during sex but I have superhuman strength I can bench press a car, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I hurt you,”

“How bad could you possibly hurt me?” she knew it was a stupid question but she didn’t care, she wanted to know.

“I know some who have shattered a human’s pelvis during sex, they didn’t survive it,” her jaw hits the floor this time, “So you can see why I didn’t want to risk it,”

“Yeah,” she utters, her mind trying to picture what he said; she covers her mouth with her hand, she bends down putting her head between her legs, she takes long slow breaths trying to calm herself, that last thing she needed was to go hysterical, she feels Jacobs hand on her back rubbing in slow circles.

“I also want to show you what I look like when I shapechange, I don\'t think it’s fair for you to only see what is on the outside,” she feels like screaming, but she wouldn’t do that no, she would be strong, she wasn\'t going to let a little thing like her boyfriend being a werewolf keep her from him, he was too perfect, maybe this was the imperfection she needed to make him more real,

The door to the apartment opens and Karen walks in, “You son of a bitch, you fucking told her didn’t you?” Jacob stands up,

“So what if I did? It’s my secret to tell,”

“Bullshit what about the others? They would be pissed if they found out; they’d probably kill both of you,”

“I told her about me, I didn’t mention any others, so now you\'re in just a much shit as I would be if anyone found out,” Karen looks at him hatred filling her eyes,

“Not if I just killed her,” she makes a move for Sandra but Jacob grabs her and knocks her to the floor, he pins her arms behind her back and kneels on her legs,

“If you even try that again I won’t hesitate to kill you myself,” Jacob says his face right against her ear, Karen’s face goes white and tears try to make their way from her eyes. She shuts them tight to keep it all in, “Now will you behave?” she nods not trusting her voice to sound as hurt and scared as she felt. Jacob slowly gets off her, helping her get back up,

“I can’t believe you’ve done this Jacob, we are so fucking screwed,” she rubs her arms as if they were cold. Sandra has inched her way as far away from Karen as she can, “You know what happened the last time someone gave away our secrets,”

“I haven\'t done any of that I just told her what I was, that’s it.” Karen’s eyes lose some of the fear,

“That’s it?” Jacob nods, Karen falls to her knee’s “So I\'m the one that fucked up,” Jacob kneels behind her and hugs her,

“I doubt that they would do anything harsh, all you did was say there were others like us, most people know about werewolves and that there are quite a few of us out there,” Karen wraps her arms around Jacob’s holding him to herself, Sandra wants to scream at Karen to get off of him, but she knew better than to make an angry and scared werewolf even more so.

Jacob nuzzles into Karen’s neck, the motion looks very canine, Karen responds by rubbing her neck against his face, Sandra can’t take it anymore and says, ‘What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” Karen snarls at her,

“It’s a werewolf thing lets just leave it at that you stupid bitch,” Karen hisses at her, Jacob bites into her neck hard enough to draw blood, Karen yelps,

“I told you to behave, if you don\'t it’ll be much worse next time,” Karen clutches at the bite, both in pain and to stop the bleeding, she gets down on all fours,

“I\'m sorry,” she turns to face him and takes his hand in hers she rubs her face against it, Jacob gives Sandra a look as if saying, ‘don\'t say anything’ Jacob lets her finish and then stands up, Karen lingers on the floor, she has a look on her face as if she is half expecting to be kicked.

Jacob wipes his lips with his fingers and runs his tongue over his lips getting rid of the blood. “Go to your room and stay there till I tell you otherwise,”

“Yes Jacob,” she takes two steps crawling away from him, then stands, and does exactly as he said, he waits until she is in her room before he speaks again not so that Karen wouldn’t hear them, if she wanted to, she could easily eavesdrop from down the hall.

“I\'m sorry you had to see that.” Jacob says, feeling ashamed,

“What was that?” she stays as far away as possible,

“Trust me it was normal for werewolves, I can’t tell you much more without risking my own life and hers, I can’t even really tell you why that is, I just need you to trust me.” He extends his hand to her, she very hesitantly takes it, he leads her back to the couch sitting her down, he sits beside her, “I think you should go back to your place for a while to let what I\'ve told you sink in and to consider what you want to do about the situation,” Sandra nods, gets up and leaves.

Jacob goes to Karen’s room and knocks as he enters, she is curled up on her bed with a pillow, her back to the door, Jacob lays down beside her, “I\'m sorry I had to do that,” Karen is still fighting the tears in her eyes and is slowly losing. “I didn’t mean to draw blood,”

“I know,” she says curling up into the fetal position, Jacob spoons with her for a while until she is asleep.