Step to the Side of the Fan

"I hate you. I....I'm sorry, David...I...I hate you. You're a disgrace to that uniform..and to yourself. You're..just a horrible human being." Trevor sniffled and paced in front of the bench his ex was sitting on. He stopped and looked at the man, "It makes me sick...being close to you... I. God, David."



David stood up and moved up to Trevor, putting his hands on the man's shoulders, "Hey, hey...just..take a deep breath, calm down..." He swallowed, "Trevor, baby...I..I know you hate me right now, but..what about later down the road? You know...when it was good, it was great. I'll...I'll leave you alone..but.." He sighed heavily and pulled the man into a hug, which Trevor intially tried to shrug out of, but accepted, "If you ever need me, I'm a phone call away."



Trevor sniffled and buried his face in that familiar chest, then pushed back, "I don't need you, Dave. I never did. I loved you...with my whole heart...and you broke it. God, sometimes I wanna just...beat the shit outta you."



David snorted, "Didn't punching me make ya feel better?"



"For the moment, yeah."



"Wanna do it again?"



"Kinda."



David smirked and held his arms out, "Take your best shot."



Now it was Trevor's turn to snort. He moved up to the man like he was gonna kiss him... Just when David's guard was down enough, he struck, kneeing the bastard right in the dangly bits. David collapsed with a groan, holding his groin.



Trevor smirked, "Wow. I feel so much better now."



David groaned and rolled on the ground, "I'll bet...fucker."



Snickering, Trevor helped him up, then sighed, "But it is over for us. I...just don't think I can go back to the way it was."



"Won't ever be like it was. I can only make it better...and I want to... I...I want you there when I get home...I miss...I miss seeing you, hugging you, kissing you..holding you...God, I miss making love to you. I miss you, Trev...and it's killin' me."



"You'll get over it. I have."



"Don't say that...please. I don't want it to be over..." David rubbed his eyes. "I...I...I've lost you...and..it hurts."



"You have no one to blame but yourself. You made your bed, lay in it. And I can promise you this...you're never gonna find anyone else like me. Never once did I nag, or get pissy...or overly angry when you fucked up...except when you really fucked up. I was always there, ready to help you pick yourself up... I was patient and I loved you. Really loved you....But you know...this is getting old. It's the same song, second verse. And I'm tired, David..I'm tired of dealing with you and all this shit. I just...I want to moveon..but you keep comin' around, making it that much harder. For the love of god, Just leave me the fuck alone! Or I will enforce that restraining order we were in court for."



David sighed heavily and looked down, "Alright...alright. I'm sorry, baby...I'm sorry....I know...I know that'll never..ever...make up for what I did..but...I'm sorry."



"I think that's the first honest thing you've said to me all day. Now, I've got a meeting. If I see you at my house...I'm callin' the cops. Got it?"



David just nodded, "One more thing though...Can I have one last kiss? Something to remember you by?"



Trevor sighed, "Fine."



Moving up to Trevor, David cupped the man's cheek, then leaned in and kissed him softly. His heart skipped a beat when Trevor started to kiss him back, against better judgement.



After a moment, Trevor stepped back and wiped his lips, "Goodbye, David..."



David swallowed and nodded, a tear rolling down his cheek, "I love you, Trevor."



Trevor shook his head, "No, you don't." He turned and headed for the parking lot, leaving David standing by the park bench. As he got into his car, he felt this...huge weight lift off his chest. It was really over. Finally... After a year of torture...and ten years of...bullshit... It was over. Trevor started his car, then pulled out of the parking lot, heading toward the city. Toward home...and Craig...and the rest of his life...



-------------------------------------------



Trevor never heard from David again, or...at least the man stopped stalking him. And they kept tabs on each other via social network sites.



David got out of the Navy and had moved on and settled in with a good woman from Montana...they were expecting their first child in May. They were to be married that following July. And he was happy.



Trevor found a new kind of happiness with Craig. The man had moved in with him and they got a dog, named Tiberius... And life was good.