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Adult +
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52
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Chapter 6
To start off, I\'m soooo sorry for the long wait, I sorta had an accident with my iPod which meant this chapter got completely deleted and I had to rewrite it. So don\'t hate me; my iPod on the other hand is accepting hate mail so feel free to drop me a review to express any unsavory thoughts and I\'ll be sure to relay it :)
Thank you for reviewing, the four of you who are, u make my day :)
There\'s a lot of hate for Chris out there :/ you gotta remember that he\'s not psychic. He\'s also a guy, therefore genetically programmed to not be perceptive to certain things.
That\'sjustit: I think this chapter will give you more ammunition to hate me :S although in my defense, I\'m just living up to the \'evil author\' title you\'ve bestowed upon me, which I LOVE btw ;D
This is not beta\'d so sorry for all the mistakes you may encounter.
Chapter 6
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“Melanie, are you okay? Sweet heart, are you crying?”
“No mom, i’m not crying . I’m fine. I’m fine. “ I hastily wipe my tears, and curse my habit of leaving my door partially open to hear her calling if she needs me. Guess it works both ways.
“Just watching this really sad movie.” I add hastily, before she decides to check on me.
“Hmm... What’s it about?” She asks sleepily.
“A girl. Who wanted what she couldn’t have. And she knew she couldnt have it, but... yeah, silly movie really.” Silly me. I stuff my hand in my mouth to prevent the sob that threatens to escape. Stop it, stop it, stop it.
“Honey, if its making you sad, don’t watch it”
“ Yeah, i’m switching it off now, its a silly movie anyway. I think ill sleep now, g’night mom.” I say, closing the door quitely.
“Good night darlin.” Comes my moms faint voice through the closed door
I go back to my bed and cry myself to sleep.
***
Two missed calls, followed by a txt message that reads "Where are you?"
Where am I? In the girls restrooms; hiding.
Again, I\'ve had nothing but people staring and whispering about me all morning. I hate being stared at. Only today they\'r staring not because I\'m apparently the love of Chris\'s life, but because someone else is. Our arrangement has been \'outed\' this morning, upon the arrival of one Ruth Colins. Naturally I was the first one to be introduced. And as much as I hate to say it, she seems nice, although I\'m reserving full judgement until further notice.
"Hiding huh?"
"AAAAAAA, argh!" Tony.
"You scared the crap outta me! Where did you come from?!" I rest my hand on my heaving heart. Seriously, that girl will be the death of me!
"Yeah, I gathered, what with the scream and all. I came outta the cubicle." she says matter of factly.
"Does he know?" she asks non chalantly whilest washing her hands.
"Does who know what?" although I have a sick feeling I know what she\'s talking about.
"Hm, who huh? Sure, let\'s play it that way. Chris. Does he know your all googa over him?"
"I\'m not googa over anyone. And anyway, seriously what\'s it to you?"
you know when you face up to a bully but you feel like your gonna piss yourself with fright? That\'s how I feel right now but I don\'t want this, whatever \'this\' is, to continue. It needs to end. Ofcourse it helps that there\'s a bit of distance between us and that she\'s not being all that aggressive.
"Your an idiot. Why the fuck did you agree to it?" she asks, completely ignoring what I just said. But she\'s got me stumped.
"Agree to what?" I ask confused.
"Oh please, you know the whole doey eyed innocence thing you\'ve got goin will get you into serious shit one of these days. Your just beggin to be corrupted. Why did you agree to pretend to be his girlfriend? Don\'t look at me like that, I heard you in the cafe\' yesterday. Ofcourse that\'s not all I heard, but let\'s explore that some other time." she winks at me!
"Yeah, we\'r not exploring anything." I say blushing.
"You blush? That\'s adorable." she chuckles.
"Are you flirting with me? Coz I don\'t swing that way. Besides, yesterday you were being vile, and today your all pally, are you like schizophrenic or something?" I ask feeling my tension ease, not sensing any hostility, and therefore dropping my guard.
"Not schizophrenic no. High as a kite though. Courtesy of Sky ofcourse. Boy does she hate you."
"That I gathered." I say.
"Ah, you sound dissapointed. Good riddance if you ask me. Tell me, are you this naieve with everything? Hell, you could see she was using you a mile off, and you were there lapping up the attention like some silly school girl." she says exasperated.
"What is this? Insult Mel day?" I ask feeling miffed.
Ofcourse I was a little awed with Skys attention, she just seemed so nice, you know? Like she\'d do anything for anyone. I liked that. And contrary to what Tony said, I\'m not upset that Sky hates me, because things turned sour a while ago; after i\'d figured out what apparently everyone thought was obvious.
"just telling you a few home truths. I\'m simple like that."
"Hmm. Should I hide from you everytime your high? Coz you kinda scared the shit outta me."
"Yeah, sorry about that. But it was good shit, so I had to do a coupla things to earn it y\'know?"
"Ofcourse." I say.
"You can\'t hide in here forever you know."
"I\'m not hiding."
"Sure, and I don\'t have dick envy."
I can\'t help but burst out laughing at that.
"Yeah, yeah. Come on, let\'s get outta here. I\'ll pinch Skys ass for you if you like."
"I don\'t have any dope to pay you with so I\'ll have to decline the offer." I say still smiling.
"Just as well, she\'s got a bony ass." which makes me laugh again.
***
"where have you been?" asks Chris.
"Um, I got talkin to Tony and kinda lost track of time, did you want anything?"
"Who\'s Tony?" he asks suprized, and I notice Ruth giving us a curious glance.
"Tony from my Chem class." I tell him and see recognition filter his features.
"K. Listen, I gotta go see coach, would you mind stayin with Ruth? Skys been givin her the evils, and I really want My two favourite girls to get to know each other?"
"Yeah, sure." I reply enthusiastically. Gotta play the part.
"Great." says Chris happily. He gives Ruth a lingering kiss before she pulls away, giving me a quick glance which makes me wonder what she\'s thinking.
She\'s a curious thing. Very graceful, and pretty, but not in a classic sense. She has freckles, and her nose has a slight bump, but oddly enough, they\'r things that add to her \'aura\', they take nothin away from her.
"I\'ll see you later." He tells her softly, the simple sentance said with much promise.
"Laterz Mel." he ruffles my hair, and dodges my swiping hands; laughing as he strolls off.
I look at her warily. I wish people came with lables, like a sweater. So instead of 50% polyester, 50% cotton, her lable could read 80% bitch, 20 % nice; or maybe slightly unbiased percentages that would work in her favour.
I just wish I didn\'t have to decipher her, coz well, I\'m quite rubbish at Reading people sometimes.
"Can I ask you something?" she says contemplativly, breaking the silance.
"Sure, go ahead." that sounded chirpy, right? I\'m aiming for chirpy today; I don\'t have to feel it, just gotta sound it and everything will be allright.
"I know I\'ve been sorta thrust upon you, but I would really like us to be friends. Not because Chris thinks we should but because we want to, y\'know?"
"mm, yeah totally." I say, nodding my head enthusiastically.
"I don\'t want you to take this the wrong way, I really don\'t, but theres something I need to ask..." I nod in a \'go ahead\' gesture, again enthusiastically, despite feeling rather wary.
"Is there anything between you and Chris? I know I sound like a jealous girfriend already, but that\'s not how I mean it, honestly. I just don\'t want to get in the way between you, y\'know? I know your best friends and he always talks about you, but I need to know if there are any feelings beyond that, and if there is, honestly, I\'ll back off, I don\'t want to be in that kinda dynamic anyway, y\'know what I\'m sayin?"
Clever cookie. I genuinly thought that I was masking my feelings well, and that no one would see past my facade. She obviously has and that disturbs me.
"Theres nothing between us besides friendship." I reassure her with the truth.
"Do you love him?" she asks bluntly. Well that\'s an easy answerable question.
"Ofcourse I do. We grew up together, I\'d give him a kidney, ofcourse I love him." I tell her, again, nothing but the truth.
"That was a silly question really. You love him, but really I meant love him romantically. But I s\'pose it\'d feel like incest, what with you guys growin up together as kids, and living practically in eachothers houses. Must be nice to be that tight with someone without the complications."
Without complications. If only she knew. But I guess that means she bought it, so I\'ll sigh in relief.
I nod in agreement.
"Well, now that that\'s outta the way, Can we be friends? Like real friends, sleepovers and everything kinda friends?" she beams at me, and all I can do is smile in answer, which has her squealing in what I assume is excitment. If she wants to sleepover at my house then she can. I\'m sure she\'s just gonna sneak out to see Chris anyway, so I won\'t have to deal with her much.
"I know, I know, I\'m getting ahead of myself, let\'s wait until you decide that you actually like me coz I already like you, and I\'m a good judge of character." she smiles and I can\'t help but smile back.
Much as I hate to admit it, she\'s nice.
***
@Mel~aka~loopy: can I bail out on you tonight? Have a date wid R.
@Chris*aka*dopey: sure, need an early night n e way.
It\'s starting.
***
***
Two weeks have passed.
Chris and I have transformed into Chris, Ruth and I.
If I\'m honest, it\'s more than I expected; I really though it was gonna be Chris and Ruth, with no room for I.
You know when it kills you that you like someone without wanting to? There\'s just nothing bad I can pinpoint on her, and I like her despite myself.
She did come for a sleepover, and suprizingly she didn\'t sneak away to see Chris. I even told her to go see him and she was like \'i\'m having a sleepover with YOU, not him.\'
So I was subjected to her BB buzzing every two seconds with messages from Chris.
~~~
On the outside I\'m my unusually-until-very-recently chirpy self. A smile for everything and everyone.
On the inside it hurts. To see her do to him what I want to do. To see him so happy, and feeling so selfish and worthless for wanting them to split up.
It\'s tearing me apart.
~~~
After the toilet incident with Tony, she sorta plopped her self next to me in Chemistry, and now we sit next to each other in all the classes we share.
If I only had two words to describe Tony, now that I know her, they would be: sarcastic and Hilarious. She makes me laugh. Not the fake smiles and laughs I bestow upon everyone these days, no, real gutteral laughs that for at least a second make me forget my pain. Looking at her I know that that\'s what her aim was by them in the first place. She always gives me a little satisfied smile when I laugh, and I know she knows what I\'m going through. I haven\'t told anyone, but I feel she senses something.
Chris hates her. Says she\'s crude and rude, and not someone he would have ever associated with me.
I don\'t care though, because for the first time, I think I have a girl best friend.
***
It\'s lunch period, I\'m sitting with Tony, laughing my ass off.
"Oh, but that\'s not all, he goes \'I bet you\'d like a hard cock\' i was like \'sure, are you offering?\' he looks at me suprized but then gets this cocky smile, and says \'baby, it\'s hard and waitin for you\' and I\'m like \'it\'s so nice of you to donate your cock so willingly, I\'ve been on the transplant waiting list for like EVER!\' he looks at me all confused, and I just pull my pen knive out and say \'how do you wanna do this?\' Hahaha, Let\'s just say I\'ve never seen someone run so fast in my life!"
I\'m laughing so hard, tears are rolling down my face.
"MEL! MEL!" Chris is shouting my name, I turn around, wiping tears from my eyes, and see him running towards me. I wave at him and my hand freezes it\'s motion mid air. Something about how he\'s running and shouting for me doesn\'t feel right.
When he reaches me, he grabs my hand and pulls me with him.
"Hey; what? What\'s wrong?" I ask but he ignores me and just marches off, pulling me behind him.
"Oi, pretty boy! She asked you a question!" says a pissed off Tony.
I yank my hand away from him, halting his movement; anxiety and dread filling me.
"What is wrong?" I ask slowly, punctuating each word with a pause, noting his red eyes, brimming with unshed tears.
"Its Helen. She\'s... Oh God Mel, I\'m so sorry." he says, his tears finally spilling.
"She\'s what?" I ask, numb dread filling me.
"She\'s gone." he whispers.
"Gone where?" I ask, breaking from my trance. I look frantically for my car keys, faintly thanking God I took it this morning, and run to my car.
Everythings fine everythings fine everythings fine, I chant in my head. I\'ll get home, and she\'ll be infront of the TV and everything will be fine.
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tbc
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y\'know, this story was originally gonna be about 5 chapters. Boy loves girl, girl loves boy, they tell each other how they feel and live happily ever after. In other words this story was gonna be really crap. So I guess it\'s good that my imagination is comin up with lots twists n turns... Right? Right?
K, I\'m gonna go hide now and wait for you to tell me how much you hate this new development :S
Thank you for reviewing, the four of you who are, u make my day :)
There\'s a lot of hate for Chris out there :/ you gotta remember that he\'s not psychic. He\'s also a guy, therefore genetically programmed to not be perceptive to certain things.
That\'sjustit: I think this chapter will give you more ammunition to hate me :S although in my defense, I\'m just living up to the \'evil author\' title you\'ve bestowed upon me, which I LOVE btw ;D
This is not beta\'d so sorry for all the mistakes you may encounter.
Chapter 6
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“Melanie, are you okay? Sweet heart, are you crying?”
“No mom, i’m not crying . I’m fine. I’m fine. “ I hastily wipe my tears, and curse my habit of leaving my door partially open to hear her calling if she needs me. Guess it works both ways.
“Just watching this really sad movie.” I add hastily, before she decides to check on me.
“Hmm... What’s it about?” She asks sleepily.
“A girl. Who wanted what she couldn’t have. And she knew she couldnt have it, but... yeah, silly movie really.” Silly me. I stuff my hand in my mouth to prevent the sob that threatens to escape. Stop it, stop it, stop it.
“Honey, if its making you sad, don’t watch it”
“ Yeah, i’m switching it off now, its a silly movie anyway. I think ill sleep now, g’night mom.” I say, closing the door quitely.
“Good night darlin.” Comes my moms faint voice through the closed door
I go back to my bed and cry myself to sleep.
***
Two missed calls, followed by a txt message that reads "Where are you?"
Where am I? In the girls restrooms; hiding.
Again, I\'ve had nothing but people staring and whispering about me all morning. I hate being stared at. Only today they\'r staring not because I\'m apparently the love of Chris\'s life, but because someone else is. Our arrangement has been \'outed\' this morning, upon the arrival of one Ruth Colins. Naturally I was the first one to be introduced. And as much as I hate to say it, she seems nice, although I\'m reserving full judgement until further notice.
"Hiding huh?"
"AAAAAAA, argh!" Tony.
"You scared the crap outta me! Where did you come from?!" I rest my hand on my heaving heart. Seriously, that girl will be the death of me!
"Yeah, I gathered, what with the scream and all. I came outta the cubicle." she says matter of factly.
"Does he know?" she asks non chalantly whilest washing her hands.
"Does who know what?" although I have a sick feeling I know what she\'s talking about.
"Hm, who huh? Sure, let\'s play it that way. Chris. Does he know your all googa over him?"
"I\'m not googa over anyone. And anyway, seriously what\'s it to you?"
you know when you face up to a bully but you feel like your gonna piss yourself with fright? That\'s how I feel right now but I don\'t want this, whatever \'this\' is, to continue. It needs to end. Ofcourse it helps that there\'s a bit of distance between us and that she\'s not being all that aggressive.
"Your an idiot. Why the fuck did you agree to it?" she asks, completely ignoring what I just said. But she\'s got me stumped.
"Agree to what?" I ask confused.
"Oh please, you know the whole doey eyed innocence thing you\'ve got goin will get you into serious shit one of these days. Your just beggin to be corrupted. Why did you agree to pretend to be his girlfriend? Don\'t look at me like that, I heard you in the cafe\' yesterday. Ofcourse that\'s not all I heard, but let\'s explore that some other time." she winks at me!
"Yeah, we\'r not exploring anything." I say blushing.
"You blush? That\'s adorable." she chuckles.
"Are you flirting with me? Coz I don\'t swing that way. Besides, yesterday you were being vile, and today your all pally, are you like schizophrenic or something?" I ask feeling my tension ease, not sensing any hostility, and therefore dropping my guard.
"Not schizophrenic no. High as a kite though. Courtesy of Sky ofcourse. Boy does she hate you."
"That I gathered." I say.
"Ah, you sound dissapointed. Good riddance if you ask me. Tell me, are you this naieve with everything? Hell, you could see she was using you a mile off, and you were there lapping up the attention like some silly school girl." she says exasperated.
"What is this? Insult Mel day?" I ask feeling miffed.
Ofcourse I was a little awed with Skys attention, she just seemed so nice, you know? Like she\'d do anything for anyone. I liked that. And contrary to what Tony said, I\'m not upset that Sky hates me, because things turned sour a while ago; after i\'d figured out what apparently everyone thought was obvious.
"just telling you a few home truths. I\'m simple like that."
"Hmm. Should I hide from you everytime your high? Coz you kinda scared the shit outta me."
"Yeah, sorry about that. But it was good shit, so I had to do a coupla things to earn it y\'know?"
"Ofcourse." I say.
"You can\'t hide in here forever you know."
"I\'m not hiding."
"Sure, and I don\'t have dick envy."
I can\'t help but burst out laughing at that.
"Yeah, yeah. Come on, let\'s get outta here. I\'ll pinch Skys ass for you if you like."
"I don\'t have any dope to pay you with so I\'ll have to decline the offer." I say still smiling.
"Just as well, she\'s got a bony ass." which makes me laugh again.
***
"where have you been?" asks Chris.
"Um, I got talkin to Tony and kinda lost track of time, did you want anything?"
"Who\'s Tony?" he asks suprized, and I notice Ruth giving us a curious glance.
"Tony from my Chem class." I tell him and see recognition filter his features.
"K. Listen, I gotta go see coach, would you mind stayin with Ruth? Skys been givin her the evils, and I really want My two favourite girls to get to know each other?"
"Yeah, sure." I reply enthusiastically. Gotta play the part.
"Great." says Chris happily. He gives Ruth a lingering kiss before she pulls away, giving me a quick glance which makes me wonder what she\'s thinking.
She\'s a curious thing. Very graceful, and pretty, but not in a classic sense. She has freckles, and her nose has a slight bump, but oddly enough, they\'r things that add to her \'aura\', they take nothin away from her.
"I\'ll see you later." He tells her softly, the simple sentance said with much promise.
"Laterz Mel." he ruffles my hair, and dodges my swiping hands; laughing as he strolls off.
I look at her warily. I wish people came with lables, like a sweater. So instead of 50% polyester, 50% cotton, her lable could read 80% bitch, 20 % nice; or maybe slightly unbiased percentages that would work in her favour.
I just wish I didn\'t have to decipher her, coz well, I\'m quite rubbish at Reading people sometimes.
"Can I ask you something?" she says contemplativly, breaking the silance.
"Sure, go ahead." that sounded chirpy, right? I\'m aiming for chirpy today; I don\'t have to feel it, just gotta sound it and everything will be allright.
"I know I\'ve been sorta thrust upon you, but I would really like us to be friends. Not because Chris thinks we should but because we want to, y\'know?"
"mm, yeah totally." I say, nodding my head enthusiastically.
"I don\'t want you to take this the wrong way, I really don\'t, but theres something I need to ask..." I nod in a \'go ahead\' gesture, again enthusiastically, despite feeling rather wary.
"Is there anything between you and Chris? I know I sound like a jealous girfriend already, but that\'s not how I mean it, honestly. I just don\'t want to get in the way between you, y\'know? I know your best friends and he always talks about you, but I need to know if there are any feelings beyond that, and if there is, honestly, I\'ll back off, I don\'t want to be in that kinda dynamic anyway, y\'know what I\'m sayin?"
Clever cookie. I genuinly thought that I was masking my feelings well, and that no one would see past my facade. She obviously has and that disturbs me.
"Theres nothing between us besides friendship." I reassure her with the truth.
"Do you love him?" she asks bluntly. Well that\'s an easy answerable question.
"Ofcourse I do. We grew up together, I\'d give him a kidney, ofcourse I love him." I tell her, again, nothing but the truth.
"That was a silly question really. You love him, but really I meant love him romantically. But I s\'pose it\'d feel like incest, what with you guys growin up together as kids, and living practically in eachothers houses. Must be nice to be that tight with someone without the complications."
Without complications. If only she knew. But I guess that means she bought it, so I\'ll sigh in relief.
I nod in agreement.
"Well, now that that\'s outta the way, Can we be friends? Like real friends, sleepovers and everything kinda friends?" she beams at me, and all I can do is smile in answer, which has her squealing in what I assume is excitment. If she wants to sleepover at my house then she can. I\'m sure she\'s just gonna sneak out to see Chris anyway, so I won\'t have to deal with her much.
"I know, I know, I\'m getting ahead of myself, let\'s wait until you decide that you actually like me coz I already like you, and I\'m a good judge of character." she smiles and I can\'t help but smile back.
Much as I hate to admit it, she\'s nice.
***
@Mel~aka~loopy: can I bail out on you tonight? Have a date wid R.
@Chris*aka*dopey: sure, need an early night n e way.
It\'s starting.
***
***
Two weeks have passed.
Chris and I have transformed into Chris, Ruth and I.
If I\'m honest, it\'s more than I expected; I really though it was gonna be Chris and Ruth, with no room for I.
You know when it kills you that you like someone without wanting to? There\'s just nothing bad I can pinpoint on her, and I like her despite myself.
She did come for a sleepover, and suprizingly she didn\'t sneak away to see Chris. I even told her to go see him and she was like \'i\'m having a sleepover with YOU, not him.\'
So I was subjected to her BB buzzing every two seconds with messages from Chris.
~~~
On the outside I\'m my unusually-until-very-recently chirpy self. A smile for everything and everyone.
On the inside it hurts. To see her do to him what I want to do. To see him so happy, and feeling so selfish and worthless for wanting them to split up.
It\'s tearing me apart.
~~~
After the toilet incident with Tony, she sorta plopped her self next to me in Chemistry, and now we sit next to each other in all the classes we share.
If I only had two words to describe Tony, now that I know her, they would be: sarcastic and Hilarious. She makes me laugh. Not the fake smiles and laughs I bestow upon everyone these days, no, real gutteral laughs that for at least a second make me forget my pain. Looking at her I know that that\'s what her aim was by them in the first place. She always gives me a little satisfied smile when I laugh, and I know she knows what I\'m going through. I haven\'t told anyone, but I feel she senses something.
Chris hates her. Says she\'s crude and rude, and not someone he would have ever associated with me.
I don\'t care though, because for the first time, I think I have a girl best friend.
***
It\'s lunch period, I\'m sitting with Tony, laughing my ass off.
"Oh, but that\'s not all, he goes \'I bet you\'d like a hard cock\' i was like \'sure, are you offering?\' he looks at me suprized but then gets this cocky smile, and says \'baby, it\'s hard and waitin for you\' and I\'m like \'it\'s so nice of you to donate your cock so willingly, I\'ve been on the transplant waiting list for like EVER!\' he looks at me all confused, and I just pull my pen knive out and say \'how do you wanna do this?\' Hahaha, Let\'s just say I\'ve never seen someone run so fast in my life!"
I\'m laughing so hard, tears are rolling down my face.
"MEL! MEL!" Chris is shouting my name, I turn around, wiping tears from my eyes, and see him running towards me. I wave at him and my hand freezes it\'s motion mid air. Something about how he\'s running and shouting for me doesn\'t feel right.
When he reaches me, he grabs my hand and pulls me with him.
"Hey; what? What\'s wrong?" I ask but he ignores me and just marches off, pulling me behind him.
"Oi, pretty boy! She asked you a question!" says a pissed off Tony.
I yank my hand away from him, halting his movement; anxiety and dread filling me.
"What is wrong?" I ask slowly, punctuating each word with a pause, noting his red eyes, brimming with unshed tears.
"Its Helen. She\'s... Oh God Mel, I\'m so sorry." he says, his tears finally spilling.
"She\'s what?" I ask, numb dread filling me.
"She\'s gone." he whispers.
"Gone where?" I ask, breaking from my trance. I look frantically for my car keys, faintly thanking God I took it this morning, and run to my car.
Everythings fine everythings fine everythings fine, I chant in my head. I\'ll get home, and she\'ll be infront of the TV and everything will be fine.
---
tbc
---
y\'know, this story was originally gonna be about 5 chapters. Boy loves girl, girl loves boy, they tell each other how they feel and live happily ever after. In other words this story was gonna be really crap. So I guess it\'s good that my imagination is comin up with lots twists n turns... Right? Right?
K, I\'m gonna go hide now and wait for you to tell me how much you hate this new development :S