I Submit to Thee

((sorry this one\'s even shorter than the rest of them, but they get longer, I promise. Please R/R - AJI))





I don\'t know how much longer it will be before Vince breaks; before he lets go; before the demon in him takes over. Who will be there when it happens? Who will be the first to be killed?



It scares me, more than it ever scared me before Dana…



Now there was a reason for him to turn.



For him to not care.



For him to let go…



I\'ve been trying to convince him to stay human, to force down the eminent powers within his demon trying to break loose. I felt like it had been working, not much, but enough.



I\'ll tell him that he has to be strong; he\'ll ask, "why?"



I\'ll tell him that everyone\'s still here for him; he\'ll say, "but she\'s gone."



I\'ll tell him that she wouldn\'t have wanted to see him like this; he\'ll say, "she\'s dead, she doesn\'t want anything for anyone anymore."



I\'ll tell him that he can\'t let his demon break him, for her sake. He\'ll tell me to get out.



But when I\'m still there, I can feel him understanding. He doesn\'t mean to do it, to hurt us the way he does, and it hurts him more to know what he\'s doing to us. It makes him want to change more, to fix it; make things the way they used to be. But he knows they can\'t quite go back to normal. Not now.



Because of me.



He blames himself for her death; just as much though, he blames me.



I thought we were making progress, pulling him back from his darkness. He seemed like he was fighting it. Maybe he just couldn\'t push anymore, and was letting that darkness take him. He\'s so far gone that sometimes its hard to tell, but I\'m almost sure he\'s still there…



After all, I\'m still alive.



I can\'t help but wonder though… how much longer will I be? Will he kill me when it happens? What will he do to me… will he even remember? What will that transformation do to him...