Get over it

I'm so sorry it took so long to write this chapter. I struggled with it a lot and rewrote it several times (again). But I hope it was worth the wait.
... I swear I didn't mean to make is so full of sex, haha. ;P

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CHAPTER 5

Afterwards, when they had calmed down, Jesse tried to get up and was constantly pinned to the bed by the laughing Gabriel. He couldn’t be angry at the other man, but he still wanted to clean himself, he felt slippery and eww’y. So Gabriel fetched him a clean towel and wiped them both clean, tossing the used condom to the bedside table. They could take care of that later.

Jesse protested greatly when Gabriel approached him in cleaning purposes and felt weird all the while Gabriel swept him clean. He began to feel aroused again as Gabriel, in his own words, checked that everything was okay and probed his entrance with his fingers, sliding them in and out several times. But he didn’t go further than that and Jesse was left slightly disappointed, even when there was an uncomfortable soreness in his backside that he could feel when he moved.

Gabriel brought them both glasses of water and they both needed several refills, noticing how thirsty they were. They were getting mighty hungry too, but way too tired to actually get up and get something to eat. Jesse knew he had nothing to eat here, so they would have to go shopping soon. But that was for later.

They talked, babbled and joked the whole time, Gabriel did most of the talking, but Jesse answered him and laughed back. Gabriel didn’t want the atmosphere to turn too serious. And when they were finally comfortably snuggled under a blanket on the bed, they were both too drowsy to even think about anything but fell asleep quietly, Gabriel holding Jesse in his arms.

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Jesse was awake first, an hour later, feeling too hot between Gabriel’s arms, a little too sweaty and unclean after everything and no shower in anywhere in between and in complete confusion what he should do now. He glanced at Gabriel and stopped there. His eyes lingered on the darker mans face. He had a faint stubble and he smiled lightly in his deep sleep. He looked stunning. Jesse studied all those features that made the face of his lover, the person he now could admit to himself that he did truly love. It was a scary feeling, but a thrilling one too, and as he kept looking at Gabriel’s face, he felt a peace he had never felt in his life. He felt like he had arrived home. This was where he belonged.

But as much as he wanted to stay right there, he absolutely had to take a pee right now or he would pee in the bed. And that wouldn’t be the way he wanted to wake Gabriel up, he snorted very faintly and grinned to himself.

So as carefully as he could, he sneaked away from the bed. Fortunately he didn’t have to jump over Gabriel. He didn’t feel up to jumping just yet. His bladder warned him painfully and he had to stumble to the bathroom quickly.

He peed and stared at this own reflection from the mirror. He made a face at himself and felt hysterical. He was afraid he would start screaming soon so hurriedly he sat on the toilet seat and buried his face into his hands. He was completely and utterly confused. He was horrified and happy and thrilled and weirded out. He wasn’t sure what the next step was going to be. He didn’t want to make any decisions anymore. He had made this step, this huge step that was going to change his whole life and now he just hoped he could hide himself from the world. With Gabriel. Not alone anymore, he wouldn’t be able anymore. Now that he had gotten a taste of how things could be, he would never be able to turn back and return to his old life.

He didn’t even hear when Gabriel appeared to the door of the bathroom. The tall man leaned to the doorframe and studied Jesse’s crumbled back for a long while before making himself noticed. He stroked Jesse’s blond hair softly and Jesse flinched, his eyes flying open and staring up. And then he saw Gabriel standing there, his naked skin glowing softly in the hazy bathroom light and Jesse relaxed seemingly. He held his hand out and Gabriel stepped closer. Jesse pulled and nuzzled his firm stomach, kissing the point where the black hair led down. His arms folded around Gabriel’s waist and hugged him tightly. Gabriel smoothed Jesse’s hair and let him rest against his stomach. They were both quiet and felt a peace neither of them had felt for a long moment before this day.

After a while Jesse sighed, let go of Gabriel and stood up. Gabriel stepped back to make room for him and then led him back to bed by both of the blond’s hands. Jesse chuckled and then flopped on the bed. Gabriel followed him but neither of them laid down. They looked at each other for a while, then, almost at the same time lifted their hands and took a hold of each other, kissing softly, leaning closer and kissing more eagerly. Then kissing heatedly and passionately and almost desperately. Jesse moved so it was easier to get close enough to feel Gabriel’s whole body. And then he pulled away.

Gabriel was panting. He was hard and he wanted more. But Jesse looked serious and he knew the blond had something he wanted to say so he didn’t try to pull him back. Jesse’s thoughts were distracted for a moment when he studied Gabriel in the light of the sun that still streamed in from the window behind him. His tanned skin looked like silk and his black hair framed his face, making him look like an angel… Gabriel. Jesse grinned and then cleared his throat to gather his thoughts. He looked around.

He saw his phone behind Gabriel, on the shelf with all his books.
“Can you hand me my phone?” he asked and Gabriel raised an eyebrow.
“I need to call Sarah. I need to... sort things with her so we can be openly together”
Gabriel handed him his phone from across the bed and nodded, trying to hide a smile that threatened to split his face into two.

“If I say that you’re here with me?” Jesse asked, smiling shyly back, “Will I have to explain it to her?”
Gabriel shook his head and because of the seriousness of the moment, tried extra hard to hide his smile, failing and grinning like a madman. “No, she’ll know the rest.”

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Beep Beep

“Hi Jesse! I was hoping you’d call…”
“Hi Sarah”
“…You didn’t show up last night.”
“Yeah. I’m- listen, I have something to tell you.”
“…“
“Are you still there?”
“Yeah. What is it?”
“I- Gabriel is here.”
“Oh… he is?”
“Yes.”
“Have you two… talked?”
“Yeah, he told me everything.”
“- oh… I, um… okay…?”
“You know what I’m-“
“Jesse.”
“Yeah?”
“Do you love him back?”

Jesse glanced at Gabriel, sitting next to him on the bed. He knew the man was listening to the phone call but he wasn’t looking at Jesse. He pretended to be reading the text from a poster but there wasn’t that much text.

“… Yes.”

Jesse looked at Gabriel’s profile as the man’s eyes went wide. He was blushing. And trying to hold back that smile again, practically grounding his teeth to stay serious. Jesse couldn’t help it when a goofy smile spread on his face. He almost giggled into the phone.

“Jesse…”

He forgot he was on the phone.

“Yeah?”
“You know, everyone knows. Everyone knows you’re bi. Those one-night-stands talk. So I’m not horribly surprised.”
“Oh. I…”
“But I’m sad. I really liked you.”
“…um…”
“Well… damn. I guess this is goodbye. Your boyfriend is the jealous type, he won’t share.”

Jesse chuckled, “True.”

Sarah laughed back, but he sounded like he was holding back a cry.
“So… I need to go,” she whispered. Jesse looked at Gabriel who tried to look like he wasn’t listening again. He was fiddling the sheets with his fingers and his toes were rubbing the carpet, he looked like he was ready to fly.

“Okay.”
“Goodbye Jesse.”
“Goodbye Sarah.”

The phone beeped and then went silent. Jesse lowered it down and tossed it next to them on the bed, turning to Gabriel. The dark man was grinning. An ear to ear grin. Jesse had to laugh. Then he was glomped by a two meter tall, muscular naked hockey player who rolled them around until Jesse was on top of him. They were kissing again.

And then Gabriel’s stomach growled like a lion. There was silence and then a deep sigh. “Want to go shopping?” Jesse asked, though he himself really didn’t want to go.
“Can you walk?” Gabriel asked, seeming serious. Jesse made a face at him.
“Yes I can walk!” he huffed and poked Gabriel on the chest. Then, reluctantly, he got up and jumped off the bed, offering his hand to Gabriel who followed him, picking his pants from the floor.

They got dressed in silence, glancing at each other once in a while, Gabriel made a panting noise when Jesse pulled a t-shirt over his shoulders and Jesse started laughing. He seemed to be doing that a lot, maybe more than he had after his childhood. He felt lightheaded.
They moved to the hall and put their sneakers on. Jesse found his wallet and Gabriel grabbed his, and they stepped out of the door, walked down the stairs and then they were on the crowded city street.

Suddenly Jesse realized this was his first time OUT with his boyfriend. He wanted to back down back to the hallway but Gabriel took a firm hold of his hand and started pulling him towards a big market. He must have seen the panic in Jesse’s eyes. The blond followed, shocked and scared and worried and panicky. Every nerve in his body told him to yank the hand away from Gabriel’s, but the louder his brain yelled at him, the tighter his hold of Gabriel’s hand got until both of their fingers were white.

They walked ahead, neither of them talking. Jesse’s heart was beating so fast that he was sure he would soon faint but Gabriel seemed okay. He was a little tense but almost smiling. Turning a corner they ran to a group of young boys dressed in rocker clothes. When they noticed the two tall men walking hand in hand, one of them yelled “FAGS!” with a loud voice. Jesse turned instantly and his eyes flashed dangerously. The boys were almost a head shorter than neither of the men.

Gabriel stopped him by pulling his hand, stepped in front of him and then, to Jesse’s horror, smooched him on the mouth openly in front of the boys. Some of them seemed to choke, one let out a sound like he was going to throw up but most of them burst out laughing. Gabriel grinned at Jesse, who at this point was white as a sheet and standing still like a statue. Gabriel turned to the boys, blew a kiss at them and winked, then dragged Jesse away.

The blond was huffing, breathing hard, needing to say how shocked he was, but when he did open his mouth, he started to laugh madly and Gabriel on his side squeezed his hand and showed his tongue at him. Jesse shook his head that was so full of emotions that he didn’t know what he wanted anymore, so he just stayed quiet and kept smiling.

And then they were in front of the market. They stepped in to the slightly cooler air. Finally Gabriel let go of his hand and Jesse slowed down.
“How does it feel?” Gabriel whispered into his ear “To be free of your fears.”
Jesse stared at him, Gabriel smiled at him and turned to pick up some tomatoes. Jesse stared at his back and then chuckled, following the dark man.

Maybe he wasn’t, not yet, but he was getting there.

When they had chosen all the groceries, with some minor difficulties since they ate so differently, they went to the cashier and started to argue who would pay the bill. When the young lady at the cash started to look like she would soon fall from her seat giggling, they agreed to split the bill and finally walked out. This time Gabriel didn’t take Jesse’s hand and the blond was a little too afraid to take his himself, so they just walked side by side.

“I need to move.” Gabriel suddenly said and Jesse stopped on his tracks. “What, why?”
“My lease ended, remember? I was gonna go back home.”
“Oh, yeah.” Jesse mumbled, walking ahead. Gabriel followed him.
“So, I don’t know what I should do now… I don’t have a job or anything but I’ve got enough savings for a cheap place. I do have my education as a youth instructor, so I’m gonna start looking for another job here. I can’t continue to work as an assistant coach, the pay is horrible.” Gabriel continued, glancing repeatedly at Jesse. Jesse looked back.
“You’re going to rent an apartment?” he looked slightly annoyed. Gabriel nodded. “Yeah, as soon as I find one cheap enough.”

Jesse stopped. Suddenly he looked furious. Gabriel turned to face him. “What’s wrong?”
“You are going to rent a place? … By yourself?” he asked, sounding very tense. His eyes were full of anger. Gabriel was confused. “I- um… do I have another option?”
Now Jesse looked completely frustrated. And then his eyes turned away. “No. Rent a place for yourself!”
Gabriel circled around him, reaching over and turning Jesse’s face to him. “What did I do wrong?” he asked with worry in his voice.

Jesse frowned back, lowered his eyes and then turned back to stare at Gabriel.
“You said that we were going to be together…” he started but his voice turned fainter and fainter. He had that cold look in his eyes again. Gabriel nodded. “Yes. We are together. I’m not going anywhere.”
Jesse looked angry again. “But you are getting an apartment by yourself.”
Gabriel started to catch up. He was so surprised by the realization what Jesse tried to say that he just blurted it out. “You want us to live together?”

Jesse blushed and looked even angrier. “I kind of thought that was the… deal.” he almost spat the words out. Gabriel stared at him stunned. “I was sure you would fight me if I ever dared to mention that idea, you’re so protective about your own space.” he tried to explain and Jesse’s face softened a little.
“I’m not... that protective” he whispered and finally turned to look back straight into Gabriel’s eyes.
“I know we can’t live in my apartment, it’s too small for us. But we could try to find an apartment together?” he asked very nervously, his brows rising up. Gabriel nodded and started to smile, he wanted to kiss and hug Jesse but the blond seemed so tense he was worried he would run away if he did that so he just started to talk while grinning madly.

“That would be perfect. A place big enough for us and one separate room for you when you need your own space.” he almost laughed when he said this, he was so happy. Jesse looked very happily surprised and nodded. “Yeah.” he breathed out and smiled back lightly. And then he turned away again and walked ahead. Gabriel could see he was blushing even harder than before and wondered what the blond was thinking. He giggled by himself and caught Jesse up.

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Jesse found the plates, glasses and forks while Gabriel cooked their food as fast as he could, they were both starving. Jesse switched the TV on and they sat in front of it on the sofa to eat. It was quiet and comfortable and soon they were full and happy. Nothing good was on TV and they kept glancing at each other.
“Can we pick my stuff up?” Gabriel suddenly suggested and after a short moment of thinking, Jesse nodded.

Gabriel was really moving in! Jesse was a little horrified but everything was happening so fast that he refused to start panicking now. They would settle everything out and then it was time to think what would happen next. And besides the little panic, he felt happy.

They stood up and were soon out again. They moved with Jesse’s car, driving quickly to Gabriel’s apartment and went in. It was almost empty; there were just a few boxes of clothes and books and a few plastic bags. It didn’t take them long to load the stuff into Jesse’s car, drive back to Jesse’s place and carry them up to his apartment.

They started to clear a little room in Jesse’s closets for Gabriel’s things and soon everything was in order. During all of this they talked about everyday stuff, joked about everything and just babbled. Jesse realized he had never in his life talked this much and now that he had started, it was difficult to stay quiet, it felt so natural to talk to Gabriel. And he smiled, he smiled so widely that his cheeks ached and he felt like he had never smiled this much, probably he never had.

When everything was in some sort of order, Gabriel dragged Jesse with him to set his toothbrush next to Jesse’s. He looked as panic flashed in the blonds eyes again. And that was a perfect sign for Gabriel that now they needed to stop and calm down. Jesse was completely overwhelmed. He was suddenly living with his boyfriend!

“You want to sit down and talk?” Gabriel asked and took Jesse’s hand into his, stroking his palm with his thumb. Jesse thought, then grinned slightly. “Do we have to talk? What if we just have sex?”
Gabriel sniggered and moved closer to Jesse, pulling him against his body. “Talk first, fun later.”
Jesse lifted an eyebrow and smiled crookedly. “Are you sure?”
Gabriel licked his lips and then approached Jesse’s lips. “Not anymore, no.”

“Maybe we should use the sofa then, maybe it gives us a little more time to talk?” Jesse said teasingly and started to lead Gabriel to the living room by both of his hands like Gabriel had done to him before. The darker man pouted disappointedly that Jesse wasn’t in his arms anymore, but followed behind obediently. When they sat down, he was almost serious again. And before Jesse could do anything, Gabriel pulled him closer, between his legs so Jesse was leaning on his chest. Gabriel locked his arms around the blond so he couldn’t move away.

“Now, before neither of us gets any other ideas, I want to jump right into it. Tell me why you are so scared?”

Jesse was silent and Gabriel could feel how tense he suddenly was. But it was easier to start talking without seeing the looks on the dark mans face.

“I don’t know exactly why.” Jesse whispered, shaking his head. “It makes no sense really, does it?” He turned slightly so he could see Gabriel nodding. He felt the nod against his shoulder.
“Everything doesn’t have to make sense.” Gabriel said back softly and Jesse sighed. He stroked his fingers against Gabriel’s arm. It was little hairy. He wanted to kiss it. He smiled to himself.

“I think I’ve just been really lost for a long time. I’ve chosen the easy way out, when in fact it was the difficult way all this time… the wrong way. I just thought that as long as I would blend in, fit in and wouldn’t cause any talk, I could become happy. And that just made me sink deeper and deeper into the depression.”

Gabriel leaned his cheek against Jesse’s neck. He didn’t really know what to say. His view in life had always been so different. He had been independent since he was about fifteen and had made up his own mind, rebelling against every stereotype you could think of and had searched to find himself in every possible way, smart and not so smart ways. When he wasn’t happy, he did something to change his life. That way he had found himself and the way he wanted to be. He squeezed Jesse.

“I guess I should have asked for help… somewhere. But how do you do that when you don’t even know what’s wrong? Nothing just felt good or right. I just didn’t really like my life or anything about it. But nothing was seemingly wrong. I had everything a person could hope for and still… you know…” He leaned heavier against Gabriel.
“I know” Gabriel whispered into his ear and slowly rocked him from side to side. Before this the movement would have felt stupid and too childish for Jesse, but now it was really comforting. He was scared how much he had opened himself up for Gabriel and was worried that one day it would bite him back, but… the risk was worth it. He hugged Gabriel’s hands and leaned his head against Gabriel’s. The dark man kissed his neck and hummed.

They sat there in silence for a long moment. All they could hear was each others breathing and the faint sounds from the streets below. It felt so calm and safe that Jesse felt overwhelmed. He had not felt this feeling in… a very, very long time. There had been that time with the red-haired boy he had been seeing, when he had allowed himself to dream that maybe he could stay like this, but he had shut down his heart and left him because he made Jesse feel too good, he had been frightened.

What a fool had he been.

On the other side, if life had not gone the way it had, he might have never met Gabriel. He had to smile and slowly he took a hold of Gabriel’s arms, opened them and turned around in his arms. His back protested the uncomfortable position so he slid to the floor in front of Gabriel. The dark man looked down at him and smiled softly, his hands stroking Jesse’s arms. The blond pulled Gabriel’s other leg down to the floor and spread his thighs, settling between them. He nuzzled his stomach, lifting his shirt up and smelling his scent.

Gabriel stopped him when his fingers started to open his belt buckle. “As much as I want you to continue, can I remind you that neither of us has showered in almost 24 hours?”
Jesse’s nose wrinkled at the realization, though he really didn’t think Gabriel smelled bad, on the contrary, he smelled like Gabriel. Unhappily he rose to his knees and together they pulled themselves up. Then Gabriel grinned.
“Shower?”

Jesse stared at him for a very small moment and then grinned back and nodded furiously. “Hell yeah.” he said and before Gabriel could say anything, he had tossed his t-shirt onto the sofa and was pulling Gabriel’s shirt off. And as soon as he got that off, he started to drag the other man to the bathroom, his hands around Gabriel’s warm, naked torso. He growled happily when Gabriel took a hold of his pants and pulled them down his thighs. He helped him to kick them off. His boxers followed behind as he finally opened Gabriel’s belt and wrenched his jeans down. Gabriel would have fallen to the floor if he hadn’t taken a strong hold of Jesse’s shoulders.

They both laughed and stumbled towards the bathroom until they were at the door and both naked. Kissing furiously they groped at each others hair, face, bodies and in turn pushed each other against the door frames. Jesse moaned “Mphh… towels?”
“After shower…” Gabriel breathed back against his lips. “… condoms?” he asked in turn and Jesse reached for a cabinet to their right, fumbled with the door and managed to drop half of the things from the cabinet to the floor before his hand reached a packet of condoms. The lube was in the bedroom, he groaned desperately, he didn’t want to stop now.

“Lube?” Gabriel asked, like reading his mind. Jesse nodded and breathed deep with relief as Gabriel leaned around his back to reach a little bag hanging from a hook on the wall. It was one of Gabriel’s. He quickly pulled out a familiar tube of lube and Jesse almost laughed out of relief and then attacked Gabriel’s lips again.

The shower was small and the curtain protested as they ripped it away, a few of the plastic clamps stretched and then plonked off the metal pipe supporting the curtain. They ignored it and stumbled to the shower. Gabriel fumbled with the shower and managed to pour freezing cold water on them before he could turn it hot. Jesse ripped the box of comdoms open and took one, hiding it into his hand while he put the bottle of lube to the shampoo shelve.

Then they were both drenched in warm water, their hair hanging down wetly, limply. Jesse clanged at Gabriel, who was following his preparation operation. Gabriel looked incredibly hot under the steaming water. He had pulled off his hair-band and his black hair was falling on his wide shoulders. His skin looked so good that Jesse wanted to lick him all over. So, that’s what he proceeded to do.

He lowered his face to kiss Gabriel’s collar bone and moved down from there, kissing and licking his way to his nipple, caressing his chest with his other hand while the other held the condom tightly in his fist. He did not want to loose it! Gabriel’s hands rose to his hair and to Jesse’s surprise, spread shampoo on to his hair. The tall man proceeded to rub and massage the shampoo into his hair gently. Jesse moaned, his lips around Gabriel’s nipple and Gabriel answered by arching against him so Jesse could clearly feel his erection press against his stomach.

His hand travelled down Gabriels body to meet the hard member. He stroked it softly, teasingly and then had to lean back as Gabriel forced his face up to rinse his hair. He held his breath as the warm water washed over his face and enjoyed Gabriel’s touches on his neck and scalp. He felt the slightly taller man thrust his hips against his so their erections rubbed against each other again and again and soon he had to take a hold of Gabriel’s hips to pull him closer with each thrust.

“Oh god… mmm” Gabriel moaned against his neck and his hands started to travel down from Jesse’s hair to his back and finally to his backside, squeezing hard. Jesse searched for the shampoo bottle and poured some onto his hand and them latched it all on Gabriel’s hair. The darker man smiled and leaned back against the wall as Jesse started to mimic his actions from before, massaging the shampoo on.

Suddenly Gabriel opened his bright green eyes and lunged on Jesse, swirling them around so he was under the showerhead. The water ran down his hair and face and body, rinsing the shampoo away. Jesse helped with his hand as much as he could from admiring Gabriels body and eating him with his eyes. Gabriel stared back at him from under his brows and then grinned like a big black cat and suddenly he was on his knees in front of Jesse.

Jesse stared down with his eyes wide and gasped for breath as Gabriel swallowed his cock into his mouth. “Nghhhhh” he moaned, his hands in Gabriel’s hair. Gabriel pulled away until only the tip of his cock was in his mouth anymore, then swirled his tongue around the head. Jesse’s legs shivered and he leaned his full weight against the wall. Gabriel took his balls into one hand and rolled them like billiard balls, sucking at the head of his cock at the same time, then swallowed it completely again. And Jesse sucked a breath in and bit his lip to keep a harsh moan from escaping. He felt Gabriel’s other hand venture behind his back and spreading his cheeks and without thinking about it more, he offered the man the tube of lube from the shelf. Gabriel took it, his hand gently stroking his cock from shaft to head and back, gripping it tightly and stroking again.
“Can you handle a second time already or do you want to do me?”

Jesse’s head was not working right. He blinked down and nodded, then realized that he needed to answer with words. “Uh… I’ll tell you if it hurts.” he choked out and grabbed the hand that was stroking him, making it go faster. “Ahhh” he sighed heavily and let his legs spread slightly as Gabriel nudged his backside. Then he felt a slick finger on his entrance. He relaxed as well as he could and Gabriel pushed it on. And out. And in and out and in, deep this time, swirling it around inside him and them back out. The movement of the finger didn’t hurt, it burned slightly, but as Gabriel continued moving it, the burning sensation started to disappear. More lube and soon there two fingers. In and out and deep and moving inside and pushing and twisting and spreading, there was a wet sound coming from both behind him and in front of him, Gabriel had returned to sucking him deep into his mouth and stroking his shaft with his hand, fast.

Jesse knew that he would come any moment. He wasn’t used to this. He never let anyone touch him like this, never let anyone put a finger inside him, not even talking about two. And the view was so incredible that he had to hold his breath not to start panting really loudly. His hand stroked Gabriel’s cheek, followed the line of his cheekbone to his mouth and touched his own cock as it disappeared between the beautiful, eager lips. Gabriel moaned and smiled around his shaft, his fingers thrusted deeper inside making Jesse in turn thrust into Gabriel’s mouth. He didn’t seem to mind. Jesse was starting to see stars and he couldn’t really think clearly anymore.

“I’m gonna cum…” he whispered, slightly afraid that the statement would stop Gabriel. The dark man pulled away from his cock but his hand proceeded to stroke him to the tip again. “Then come.” he said and once again took Jesse into his mouth. “Is it really okay?” Jesse asked, thinking about the condom and how it would ruin the moment if they stopped to put it on and how he really, really wanted to come into Gabriel’s mouth.

The thought made his cock pulse with sudden extra pleasure and for a short moment he was sure he was going to burst at that second, but he struggled through it, breathing deep through his nose.

“I’ve been tested, I’m clean. You?” mumbled Gabriel between sucking and licking and sucking more. Jesse nodded and then moaned “yessssss, clean to-oohh.” as he felt clearly that this time the pleasure pooling between his legs could not be held away anymore. He was so ready. Gabriel had three fingers inside him, fucking him fast and deep and his head was popping back and forward.

And then Jesse came so hard that his eyes squeezed shut and his whole body shuddered. His muscled trembled and his semen surged into Gabriel’s mouth and throat and the dark man sucked and stroked and fucked him with his fingers and Jesse trashed in ecstasy. He actually screamed, his hands squeezing into Gabriel’s shoulders and he moved violently against his mouth, fingers, mouth. His inner muscled squeezed Gabriel’s fingers and the dark man had trouble staying calm, he was so incredibly turned on by this scene.

Slowly the orgasm began to ease and Jesse leaned to the wall even harder, his legs feeling like jelly, shaking desperately. He was panting, his hands were shaking and he felt like he would fall down any moment. Gabriel slowed down, licked his shaft clean and then kissed the head of his penis, stroking it for the final time before letting go. Jesse shivered as an aftershock thrummed through his body. Gabriel’s fingers slid out. Jesse stared at the man as he rose up and kissed his lips softly. He could taste his own semen on Gabriel’s lips and before it would have made him sick, now it just turned him on.

He felt Gabriel’s very straining erection press against his stomach and the dark man pushed himself against Jesse. “I don’t think we should do it again this soon, you might be really sore tomorrow.” he whispered as he buried his face against Jesse’s neck, kissing him there. He was hot and shivering slightly, with want probably, Jesse couldn’t understand how he could be so calm. “Are you actually refusing on fu- making love to me?” he asked, his lips in a crooked smile.

“You have no idea how hard it is for me to… not do it. Oh gods I want you so much. If I get you up, will you do me?” Gabriel whispered into his ear all the while humping his stomach, his hands straining against Jesse’s backside, his fingers flexing.
“You are too thoughtful. I think I could handle one more time… but if you really want, you can try to get me up. Being this close to you, I’m pretty sure if wouldn’t take that much.” Jesse chuckled softly, stroking the other mans back, massaging his tense muscles. His cock was twitching into life already, how could it not with Gabriel thrusting against him like this and breathing hotly into his ear.

Jesse waited for Gabriel’s answer and turned the shower off. They were both wrinkly and wet. He hugged Gabriel back, stroking and tickling his wide back and let Gabriel move against him. Finally the dark man lifted his head from his neck, his eyes were blazing with desire. “If you can… I really want you inside me.” he asked quietly, almost growling and Jesse had to smile. He stroked Gabriel’s long black hair back away from his face and kissed him. “You know, you are way too good for me” he whispered against his lips but Gabriel shook his head and grinned. “Nothing is too good for you.”

Jesse grinned back and offered the unused condom to Gabriel and stepped off the shower, giving his hand to the other man who followed him. “I hope I’ll be up to your standards” he mumbled to himself but of course Gabriel heard him and chuckled.
“If you start to worry about your technique, I’m just gonna jerk off in front of you.”
Jesse turned with wide eyes.
“No.” he said before he could think and then turned red. “- I … I mean, I’d love to watch that but I want to…” he ended the sentence to a shrug but Gabriel just laughed softly and kissed the top of his nose. “Good, then… just make me feel good.”
“That’s the problem. I’m afraid I’m going to hurt you.”
“Why would you?” Gabriel frowned. “You’ve done it before.”
Jesse was even redder by now and looked ashamed. “Well yeah… but before I didn’t really care if the other person felt good or not… not really.”

Gabriel stared at him. Jesse turned his face away, certain that Gabriel was now appalled by him. And then he was really scared. What if Gabriel was appalled? What if he got angry and left? What if he realized that this had been a stupid decision and regretted it now?

The change in his mood must have been clear on his face because Gabriel was suddenly hugging him close as tightly as he could. “Don’t worry so much. I am able to talk and tell you what I feel.” Gabriel whispered into his ear.
“And besides, you wouldn’t have such a reputation as a great lover if you really sucked that badly in bed.” he chuckled and Jesse had to smile a little smugly. He really had that good of a reputation?

He was smiling again when Gabriel stepped a step away and grabbed the tube of lube from the floor of the shower and led Jesse to the bedroom by the hand. He stopped next to the bed and let Jesse reach for an unused towel from the cabinet. When the blond turned back to him, Gabriel was standing on the floor proudly, his erection pointing straight at Jesse. The blond licked his lips as he approached Gabriel with the towel. “Mmmm.” he hummed and Gabriel grinned at him widely.

Jesse started with his hair, rubbed it for a while with the towel and then moved down his body, drying every pit of his lover he could see. Gabriel was obviously enjoying this treatment very much. He purred like a big cat as Jesse rubbed his legs with the towel.

Then Jesse dried himself, a lot faster. Gabriel turned around and flopped on the bed on his stomach, leaning on his arms and turned to watch at Jesse. His backside was flexing slightly as he humped the sheets.

The blond tossed the towel away and crawled over Gabriel. His cock was starting to harden again as he leaned against the bare back of his lover and kissed his neck, massaging his hard, muscled shoulders. Gabriel hummed with pleasure and closed his eyes. Jesse slid his hands over his back and kneaded the tenseness away from the muscles slowly. He was going to make this last, he decided, no quickies, he wanted to make Gabriel crazy with pleasure. He smiled to himself.

He kissed Gabriel’s neck and back, massaged his arms and the back of his head until Gabriel was practically drooling. He could have had fallen asleep if he wasn’t so painfully hard and horny that all his thoughts were on getting laid… being made love to. Jesse’s hand moved lower and massaged his lower back, sliding to his buttocks and squeezing them. And then up again and teasingly just sliding his thumbs over the crack of his ass every time he went over his buttocks. Gabriel groaned.

Then, to his happiness, Gabriel heard the sound of the tube of lube opening and his heart started to beat harder. He wanted this so badly! He had really enjoyed topping Jesse, but he had always loved bottoming so much more, he found so much more pleasure in having someone inside him, taking him. And he had dreamed of doing it with this man ever since they had met for the first time such a long time. Dreamed about how it would feel, what they would do and say. And now it was actually happening. Gabriel almost came at the thought and involuntarily his butt rose up to meet Jesse’s hands. He couldn’t help it.

Jesse was happily surprised by the eagerness of the big man and obediently spread his cheeks and massaged his opening softly. He put his two lubed fingers on the opening and was about to press them just slightly against it when Gabriel moved again and the fingers pressed in. Both of them groaned at the same time.

Jesse lifted himself slightly so Gabriel could move more freely and immediately the dark man started to push himself against Jesse’s fingers, moaning, groaning and panting. Jesse had decided to make this last but at the sight of this happening right in front of him and his fingers being involved in this show, he wasn’t so sure anymore. His cock was completely recovered and hard yet again. He couldn’t remember the last time that he had been so quickly ready again. He smiled as his other hand started to draw a circular pattern around Gabriel’s entrance, sliding every once in a while deeper and touching the back of his balls, stroking the sensitive skin between the entrance and the balls.

Gabriel rose to his knees and arms and moved back and forth, his head hanging between his arms, forehead against the sheets. Then he suddenly jumped, yelping and groaning at the same time. Jesse had flexed his fingers inside him and thrust them a little deeper than they could really go. He was suddenly petrified that he had hurt Gabriel but when the man turned to look at him with eyes so green he could drown in them, he knew he had managed to do the exact opposite. “Holy hell do that- mmmmm again” Gabriel croaked, his voice ragged and wheezy.
“- with your cock.” he added and grinned faintly, shakily. Jesse was about to answer, but could think of nothing to say back, his mouth was hanging open and Gabriel chuckled, moving again. His whole body shivered.

“As much as I enjoy you admiring me, I would really appreciate it if you would please take me now. Please.” Gabriel pleaded and managed to sound so desperate that Jesse hurried to find the condom, which was immediately offered to him by Gabriel. He ripped the cover open and struggled it on with shaky hands while Gabriel was catching his breath and trying to calm down a bit. Then the dark haired man offered him the tube of lube.

“Put some more on so you don’t have to be so careful.” he advised and Jesse did as told. He didn’t feel nearly as confident as he usually felt at this point, but he did feel a lot better, happier, excited. He smiled wickedly just as Gabriel turned to look at him again and the dark haired man blushed deep red. Jesse blinked confusedly.

Gabriel seemed slightly sheepish as he whispered very raggedly. “Would you please enter me before I cum just by looking at you smiling?” his look turned almost painful and Jesse’s smile just turned smugger. “Okay.” he answered and then he was already pressing in. He was ready to do that carefully, slowly again, but Gabriel had another thought in mind and pressed his body very snugly against Jesse until he was balls deep inside Gabriel’s ass. They both groaned very loudly.

“Jeesus…” Jesse moaned and Gabriel managed to chuckle. “Do not speak the lords name in vain.” he mumbled and Jesse laughed back. “…Christ.”
“Evi- iiihhhhhhh!” Gabriel started to say but the word turned into an almost scream as Jesse finally moved and pulled out, almost all the way and then softly pressed back in. Gabriel was huffing and breathing and trembling, his eyes tightly shut.

And then neither of them could speak anymore. Jesse concentrated on pushing and pulling and stroking Gabriel’s backside and trying to keep the man from pummelling himself too hard against him, he wasn’t scared of hurting Gabriel anymore, he was scared that Gabriel would hurt himself! It didn’t take a very long time, actually just a very brief, pleasure foggy moment for Gabriel’s breath to turn faster and faster and his inner muscles starting to tighten around Jesse’s cock. His legs in front of Jesse were shaking visibly and he obviously had a hard time supporting his weight with his arms and hands. And then his upper body collapsed against the sheets so his ass was high up and still ramming against Jesse’s cock.

“Oh oh oh oh- my – go- ohh- oh-“ he continued it like a mantra as he moved faster and faster and less controlled, shaky. His voice turned higher and his face turned into a grimace that Jesse could just see behind his wide shoulder as Gabriel tossed his head back. Then he convulsed so hard that Jesse almost slipped out. He had to hold onto Gabriel to keep him still enough to keep pushing into him and Gabriel cried, sobbed out Jesse’s name. His muscles tensed hard and then he dropped. Completely boneless to the sheets with a long, wailing groan.

Jesse was helplessly unsure if he could continue moving or if he should stop because every time he tried to move even a little, Gabriel’s whole body shook with tremors resonating from his backside. So he pulled out and let Gabriel come back to earth.

It took a while. When the dark-haired man finally turned to look at him, he still looked completely out of it, smiling, with his eyes half closed. Damn he looked so good that Jesse moaned, stroking himself. Gabriel’s eyes moved to his cock and he looked very happy. He made Jesse move so he could pull his legs from under his and then Gabriel crawled around until they were facing each other.

“Hand, mouth or butt?” Gabriel asked, still smiling sleepily. Jesse stared back. “Umm…” he answered and since he had not answered, Gabriel started with a hand. It felt so good that Jesse thrusted into his fist. Then Jesse got his speech back.
“Is it okay if I continue?” he asked carefully and Gabriel nodded, sliding closer to the edge of the bed and over it. He turned around and settled himself to lean against the bed. “This okay?” he asked and Jesse grinned, stepping off from the bed and circling around Gabriel.

He kneeled behind the dark man and took a hold of his waist. He pushed in again, this time a little less carefully, Gabriel could pull away if he pushed too hard and after seeing what he had just seen, he doubted he was that sensitive. He pulled out and pushed back in and folded his arms around Gabriel’s torso, hugging him. Gabriel pushed against him as he pushed in and took a hold of his hands in front of his chest. Jesse closed his eyes and rocked forward and backward. They were no longer going fast, this was slow and deep and quiet.

Gabriel was breathing deeply and hard and leaned his head against Jesse’s shoulder, his damn hair sliding along Jesse’s skin. Jesse kissed his neck and rocked forward. Back, in, out, hugging, Gabriel squeezed his cock with his inner muscles and Jesse moaned into his ear. He was getting close.

He didn’t want to go any faster, he wanted to make it last, at least this time, third time’s a charm, or how ever did it go? His head wasn’t really clear enough to remember. He concentrated on the feeling of the other man in his arms, kissed his neck, his ear, stroked his chest and stomach, finding it sticky with Gabriel’s own juices. He realized they would have to go to the shower again and smiled. And moaned. The tension, the pleasure, it was pooling again. It wasn’t the harsh sudden rush as it had been before, it was hot, liquid pleasure, swirling from inside him and getting closer and closer to the surface. He felt his balls getting rock hard, his cock swollen inside Gabriel and moved just little, tiny movements. Pressed him face against Gabriel’s black hair, close to his warm, sweaty skin and bit his lip.

But he couldn’t hold the moan in as he came, again. He hugged Gabriel and the dark man hugged him back, letting him fuck him, milk himself limp and drowsy. He almost chuckled into Gabriel’s ear when it was over, when his body suddenly felt at least ten tons heavier and he had trouble keeping his eyes open. Gabriel turned enough to give his forehead a kiss.

“Don’t fall asleep yet.” he whispered to Jesse, who just chuckled back. He moved enough so Gabriel could get up. The man turned and removed the condom from Jesse’s spent penis and tossed it to the bedroom table, where the last one was still laying. And then he pulled Jesse to his feet and to the bed.
“We… um, shower.” Jesse mumbled against his chest and Gabriel mussed his half dry blond hair.
“Yeah, we’ll just rest for a moment.” Gabriel answered and nuzzled Jesse’s neck, breathing in the scent that was purely Jesse.
“Just a moment.”

They were both asleep in seconds.


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TBC

That was actually the end of the "main story", it still continues, but these short chapters telling about their life after this big leap. I hope you'll like them too, I'll be back later.
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