Why me....

I’m sorry it took so long I had a whole bunch of stuff happen :D well I wanted to say thank you to some of my reviewers
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The early morning labor and the letter had exhausted Vincent and he decided to rest be fore his big meeting with Damien. ‘I just need a good nap… and then I might be ready for tonight…’ his thoughts trailed off as he walked upstairs to his bedroom. He set his alarm for eight o’clock, and fell asleep.

“Please faster I cant take it anymore…”Vincent moaned to Damien as he continued to stroke his length at a horrible slow pace, it was torture.
“No… you need to be patient if you want me to-’Vincent cut him off by pulling Damien away from him and laying him on his back, then pinning him so he couldn’t move away. Damien moaned as he was pinned by the bigger man, and began to wiggle underneath him. Vincent tried to keep him still, but he couldn’t resist the feeling of the other man rubbing against him.
Vincent moaned again and grinded into Damien to make him sit still. Damien moaned back and met his grinding “ you’re the one who- OH!” Vincent had grabbed his hips and pulled him roughly against himself “You, keep, teasing, me…” Vincent punctuated every word with a thrust against Damien.
“I want you to-” Vincent shot up out of his bed “Not again…” Vincent punched a pillow and checked the time, he decided to get ready, and ignore his little problem.

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‘Why do I get tortured by life…what did I do to deserve this? Who did I piss off up there?’ Vincent thought to himself as he walked himself toward the park trying to get himself to calm down a bit. His nerves were on edge and his heart was beating rapidly, his mind was all over the place.
‘What the hell am I going to do when I get there? Vincent had just decided to go, what he was going to do when he got there, he really hadn’t considered yet.

‘Should I kick his ass? I want to… but I want him to tell me why he did…why he…fuck.’
Vincent cursed to himself because he was quickly approaching the park, he could see it now.
Vincent finally made it to the entrance of the park and everything seemed to move in slow motion. He saw Damien’s car sitting in the parking lot, and when he didn’t see him near his car, went toward the trail that led into the park. His heart was pounding in his chest he could hear the blood going through his veins and he finally made it to the playground.

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‘What the hell am I going to tell him if he asks me why I did it? I cant just say, ‘oh I find you so attractive, and that you have been a fantasy haunting my dreams, and with that liquid courage going through me I thought it was about time I tested how straight you really are’ No I have a feeling like he would pummel me harder…wait what if he chooses to beat me up, what will I do then…son of a bitch why, WHY DID I DO THIS!?!?’ Damien heard some noise on the trail leading to the playground and looked up from his silent berating of himself.

When he looked up his saw the eyes of the man who had been tormenting him, and whom he intern had possible tormented as well.
And everything froze both looking at each other and neither know what to say just the sounds of bugs in the tress. Vincent began to walk over to Damien’s position on the swing, Damien had his eyes locked on him the whole time until Vincent stopped, and he looked down to the ground.
Vincent started to think about that night when Damien had…kissed him and was filled with so much rage and confusion he couldn’t contain himself. He pushed Damien out of the swing, and watched as he tumbled backward. Damien got himself up of the ground only to get punched in the stomach by Vincent’s fist and he once again tumbled to the ground.

Damien thought bitterly to himself ‘At least I don’t have to try and explain why I kissed him, he picked option one…’ Vincent pounced on him when he fell to the ground and raised his fist. Damien cringed, turning his head and closing his eyes for the on coming assault.
Vincent screamed and punched the dirt next to Damien’s head growling into the night air.
Damien opened his eyes and looked at Vincent’s unhappy face wondering what he was thinking.

Vincent brought his hands up and tangled them in his hair and let out a frustrated scream. Damien flinched again from the noise Vincent was making, he didn’t want to say anything but he didn’t want the object of his desire to be unhappy in any way ‘I did this to him…what’s wrong with me…I’m a monster… I should be…’Vincent interrupted his thoughts when he finally spoke “Damien look at me in the eyes.” he demanded.

Damien met his eyes and Vincent noticed again ‘there not smiling, he looks afraid…’ Vincent then sighed a bit and spoke again “ I’m not going to hit you anymore, I’m sorry actually I… I just don’t know…what to do.” Vincent finally let himself breakdown, there had been to much stress for him the past couple days, no break at all, his body, dreams and thoughts were all aimed at this one boy. All he wanted was a break.
Damien got up from his position on the ground and looked at all the confusion passing Vincent’s face “ I’m so very sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you…I really don’t know what came over me, I just…”Damien trailed off as Vincent looked at him angrily again but didn’t raise a hand.

“But why did you, you know, I’m not gay what made you think that…kissing me was alright?” Vincent looked at him with a need for answers he couldn’t figure anything out anymore. Damien looked into his eyes for what seemed like a long time “I can’t really tell you why, it just happened. I don’t know…will you ever be able to forgive me or is this friendship over?” Damien looked away at the second half of his question, not wanting to see the anger in Vincent’s eyes.

Vincent sat next to Damien in silence, thinking about his answer ‘Can I still be his friend? Everything was going fine until, this…’ he flailed mentally ‘…but what should I do, he’s a good friend, had my back in so many fights…but he kissed me…’he thought of himself picking the petals off of a flower in the ‘he loves me , he loves me not’ fashion.
Vincent brought himself out of his thoughts and looked over at Damien, he seemed to be in about the same state of confusion as Vincent.

“You know…I cant change the way I am, and yes I am attracted to you, but I won’t act on those feelings, if you still want to be friends, if you don’t want anything to do with me after tonight…” Damien paused for a long time”…then I will never speak to you a- again.”
Damien was upset about at the thought of never being able to speak to Vincent again, no longer being friends, when Vincent was his only one. Damien felt the tears pricking the corners of his eyes.
Vincent listened intently ‘So he is attracted to me, and the alcohol must have made him act on his attraction…’ Vincent groaned and fell onto his back making a mental note not to get this guy drunk with him again.
Damien flinched at the noise and pulled his knees to his chest.

“I can’t say I’m ready to forgive you for what, happened, but I don’t want to…” Vincent paused to make sure Damien was listening. Damien looked absolutely terrified of his answer.
“I don’t want to stop being friends with you…” Vincent sighed and closed his eyes for a few minutes. When he opened them again, he looked into Damien’s eyes and they were filled with tears. Vincent became alarmed “What’s wrong are you alright?” Damien opened his mouth and closed it again.
Vincent put his hand on Damien’s shoulder “I’m always going to be your friend, we just sort of hit a bump in the road, I just need some time to get over that.” Vincent explained to his friend trying to get him to understand that he shouldn’t be upset.

Damien found his voice “I thought I was going to lose you, and you’re my only friend out here. When I…came out, all my friends left me for dead. It’s just…I don’t like to be alone, it’s like hell.” Damien sighed and let himself fall on to his back next to Vincent.
Vincent sighed to “Well you wont have to worry about that from me…”he said as he looked into the sky.

‘I should lighten things up a bit, I need a stress reliever, and what’s better then a little teasing.’ Vincent laughed a bit, which caught Damien’s attention.
“What?” Damien asked a little confused, he just spilled his heart out and his friend was laughing.
“Do you really think I’m sexy?” Damien looked at him with alarm but then seen the expression on his face and knew he was teasing, and thought it was he should repay the favor.
“Oh yeah I do, but you better be careful if you touch me, you might just catch The GAY!!!” he laughed saying it as if it were a terminal illness.
Vincent gasped with false alarm and they both shared a good long laugh.
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