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Tears of My Sins: The Ultimate Poem Collection

By: kiyosyami
folder Poetry › Free Verse
Rating: Adult +
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One Step Behind

ONE STEP BEHIND
Poem from: Insecure Yet Not Alone (FU)
By: Kiyoshi Tamakashi
(A/N: This is another oldie. Man, it’s so emo XD lawlz XD)

I've always been one step behind others

Laughing, claiming that I AM the leader

That I'm brave, and I'm not scared

But I've lied to myself

I'm not 'strong', and I've never been 'strong'

I'm fragile and I'm human and I'm easily distraught

Broken from the inside out

And I've screamed loudly

And I've cryed

And believed

But it all comes to this 'Me' and the other 'Me'

This 'Me' is stupid, that 'Me' is smart

This 'Me' is afraid, that 'Me' is courageous

This 'Me' is alone, that 'Me' is crowded

This 'Me' is sick, that 'Me' is well

And all this time, I've been in denial

Because I thought this 'Me' is that 'Me'

And that 'Me' is this 'Me', but I'm only kidding myself

Why can't I fix this disease and get 'cleansed'?

I want to be a better person

I want to be the one everyone will depend on

I want to be the one with so many friends

I won't know what to do with myself

"I'm only kidding myself..."

I'm turned around so my back is facing

Everyone else, the 'other's' 'they' 'them'

The one's that tell me I'll never get anywhere

That I'll never do anything with my life

The ones that know who I am

I'm not a man, I'm a coward

I'll always be one step behind them

Who's laughing now?
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