Tears

Chapter - Four


I splashed the cold water against my cheeks. I have been scrubbing off the enemy's blood since I came back to headquarters. His blood is repulsive and disgusting. All over my shirt and hands. I pulled my shirt off of my shoulders and threw it aside. I left the bathroom and went to an empty room. I need to think about what I had done. The air was alittle chilly since I didnt change my shirt. I layed down on the couch and pulled my bare arm over my face. I heard a knock at the door. Someone answered it. Good. My body is unable to move after what just happened. The door opened. The door fucking just opened. "Fuck off! Im not in the mood!" I screamed at the intruder. "Kyoharu." It was Ichigo. Goddamn it all! "What?" I asked angerily. "I've done something completely horrible. I didnt know who to turn to, but you." I pulled my arm away from my eyes and looked at him. "What's wrong?" Ichigo pushed my legs away and sat down on the couch. "I dont know how to explain this," he coughed in his bundled hand, "I cheated on Daisuke." My eyes widened. Ichigo cheated on Daisuke? But Ichigo is the most reliable person I ever known! "With who?" I dared to ask. Ichigo swallowed hard before answering, "Kinkachi." I couldnt believe what I was hearing. Ichigo and Kinkachi? They're practically brothers! "I cant believe it," I answered.


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Kinkachi and Ichigo were sitting across eachother, ontop of the hood of Ichigo's car. "I had a really nice time, Ichigo," Kinkachi said. Ichigo looked over to Kinkachi and smiled, "No problem." The air was silent. They were looking away from eachother, looking at the ocean that was ahead of them. The sun barely visible and the sky was dark. "Ichigo?" Kinkachi tugged on Ichigo's arm. "Hm?" Ichigo asked. Kinkachi lifted himself onto his knees and smiled at the red haired man. Ichigo stared back at Kinkachi, puzzled. Kinkachi held Ichigo's cheeks in his hands and pulled him into a soft kiss. Ichigo's eyes widened. He didnt know why Kinkachi was kissing him. He showed no signs of him liking him. Ichigo pulled away. "Kinkachi. I cant do this." Kinkachi pouted and layed his hands on his thighs. "Why not? Is it because Im not experienced." Kinkachi was a virgin and he knew that he was making a big step away from that. "Im already in love with someone else." Kinkachi looked away, blushing. "Im sorry," he replied. "But, I dont want anyone else."


"What are you talking about? What about your roommate?" Ichigo's words were cut off by Kinkachi pushing him on his back and pinning him down. "Just this once," Kinkachi said, kissing Ichigo once again. Ichigo didnt want to be unfaithful to Daisuke, but Kinkachi wasnt taking no for an answer. He wouldnt let go, no matter what. Ichigo felt his body melt more and more into the kiss that Kinkachi was performing on him. Ichigo held Kinkachi's head in his arms and slid his tounge through the other man's mouth. Kinkachi moaned into the kiss and slid his hands into Ichigo's shirt. Ichigo let go just to kiss his neck, "Get in the car," he whispered into Kinkachi's ear. Kinkachi shivered under Ichigo's hot breath. Kinkachi crawled out of Ichigo's grasp and climbed into the back of the car. Ichigo followed and crawled between Kinkachi's spread legs. 'His thighs are so thin.' Ichigo thought as Kinkachi pulled him into another passionate kiss.


"And then you fucked him, right?" I asked. He nodded and looked away. Damn it. "You gotta talk to him. Tell him it's over." I dont want them to be together. That would be too weird. "I was getting to that! Well, after we, you know, I told him....."


"We cant do this ever again and you cant tell anyone." Ichigo said, huffing. Kinkachi nodded and let his head roll back, exposing the sweat dripping down his neck. Ichigo layed his sweat drenched head on Kinkachi's shoulder, breathing heavily. "Ichigo," Kinkachi breathed out. "Hm?" Ichigo asked. "You cant tell anyone eather."


"Wait, hold up. Why are you telling me this if you werent supposed to?" I asked. "I couldnt hold it in." What a lame excuse. "You're not gonna ask Kinkachi about this are you?" Dude. He probably doesnt want to see me ever again after that little insident at our gig. "No," I sighed. "Can you go away now? Im already phisically and mentally drained as it is." I layed down against the couch handle, again. I really need to fucking relax right now. "Why is that?" Ichigo asked. Fuck. Goddamnit! "Cause I fucking killed a guy, okay?" I screamed. "Really? Was it someone I know?" I rolled over on my left. "Yes." Why am I answering his stupid questions? Its not like he needs to know. "Who?" I sighed. "It was Ringo. I shot him dead cause he was at my concert, okay? It's not a big deal." Ichigo stood up and patted my head. "Good job. We should have more members like you." I was kinda shocked that he said that but Im just glad he left.


"Ren. I have something I have to talk to you about," Chihiro said nervously to the one she loved. Ren put his eyes on here, looking concerned. "Is everything okay, Chihiro?" He asked. Chihiro swallowed the lump in her throat. "Not at all." Ren took her by the shoulders. "You can tell me. Im here for you." Chihiro nodded and stared into her lovers eyes. "You remember that day at the bar, where we both were drinking alot and..... had sex?" He nodded. "Yes."


"I'm pregnate." Ren's eyes widened and his mouth fell open ajar in shock. "Chihiro." Chihiro shut her eyes, worried. "That's wonderful! How is that not okay?"
"It's not okay because I dont want it!" Chihiro screamed. Her cheeks were red and her eyes were on the verge of tears. She wasnt ready for a baby. Not yet. She's only 20 years old. "Why dont you want it?" Ren asked. Chihiro shook her head, trying her hardest to keep the tears for falling. "I'm not ready for a baby," she answered. She couldnt look at Ren. It was too hard. Ren stroked Chihiro's arm, concerned. "Everything will turn out fine." Chihiro looked up at Ren. She couldnt hold back her tears. She fell into Ren's arms and cried.


Kinkachi layed on the couch in his dormroom. His roommate Reito left to go to some "awesome" party. He was left alone on his birthday. His 17th birthday. "Everyone forgot," Kinkachi reminded himself, depressed more than ever. It was near 7 pm and no one visited. No "Happy Birthday"s, no 17 pinches, no nothing. "Even the band forgot." He said, closing his eyes and inhaling deeply. 'I need a cigarette.' Kinkachi thought. He pulled himself up and walked over to the counter, picking up his hard pack of cigarettes. Kinkachi was about to go out to the balcony but there was a knock on the door. Kinkachi scowled and opened the door. The cigarette in his mouth fell when his mouth opened in shock. "Ichigo?" Kinkachi asked. Ichigo smiled, in his hands was a bouquet of roses and daisies. "You dont think I would forget your birthday would you?" Kinkachi tried to speak but the words werent tumbling out. Ichigo pushed the flowers over to Kinkachi, signaling him to take them. Kinkachi took his hint and took the flowers and tried to act natural. "Thanks, Ichigo. The flowers are so beautiful," Kinkachi smiled, trying his hardest to look happy.


Kinkachi and Ichigo went into the living space and sat down on the couch. The air was rather awkward but Ichigo cut through that. "So, how have you been?" Kinkachi hardly heard him. His thoughts were so clouded with that day. The day they made love in the back of Ichigo's car. 'That was over two months ago, Kinkachi! Get over it already!' Kinkachi yelled at himself in his head. "I'm alright. We found a new vocalist."
"Really?" Ichigo asked. Kinkachi nodded and looked away. "Where is everyone?" Kinkachi's head swung up. "Um.." he muttered. Ichigo turned to Kinkachi. "You're not telling me no one ca.... Kinkachi," Ichigo pulled Kinkachi into his arms, hugging him. "I'm sorry." Kinkachi didn't want to hug him back because he knew that he had feelings for the other man. Kinkachi pulled away and shook his head, "Theres no meaning to feel sorry. I'm sure they're all just busy." Kinkachi looked away from Ichigo. "Kinkachi, look at me." Ichigo ordered. Kinkachi did what he was told. "At least Im here right?" Kinkachi couldnt help but smile and agree. "Here," Ichigo pulled out a card, "This is another gift." Kinkachi looked up at Ichigo and pulled the card out of his hands. Kinkachi opened the envelope and then the card. Inside was a gift card. "What is this for?"


"It's a gift card to Cafe Java." Kinkachi's eyes widened. He never knew that Ichigo knew his favorite coffee place. "How much is on this?" Kinkachi asked, smiling. "Guess." Ichigo answered. "$10?" Ichigo laughed. "Are you kidding? Add another zero." Kinkachi's eyes widened and his mouth hung open. "One hundered dollars? Are you serious?" Ichigo nodded, smiling happily. Kinkachi smiled from ear to ear and hugged Ichigo with all his might. "Thank you so much! This is the best birthday present ever!" Kinkachi pulled out of their hug and kissed Ichigo. Kinkachi pulled away in shock after he understood what he was doing. "I-Im sorry." Kinkachi studdered, jolting for the door. Ichigo grabbed Kinkachi's arm and swung him around. Kinkachi fell and landed in Ichigo's chest. Before Kinkachi could pull away, Ichigo pushed him against the wall and smashed his lips against his. Kinkachi squeezed his eyes shut. No one could imagine how badly Kinkachi wanted this to happen. Ever since that day in the car, he couldnt stop thinking and dreaming about this happening again. Now that this is finally happening again, he was confused. "I-Ichigo," Kinkachi studdered, trying to escape. "I thought you didnt want this to happen again." Kinkachi didnt want Ichigo to regret this. Ichigo didnt answer, trying to kiss his best friend everywhere he could. Kinkachi finally gave into Ichigo and pulled his arms around the red head's neck. "Where's your room?" Ichigo asked against the other man's neck. "Over there." Kinkachi pointed down the hall and they both headed to the room.


"Ichigo?" Daisuke asked when he felt another body fall onto his bed. "Ichigo, where were you?" Ichigo turned around, his back facing his lover. "I had to work late." Ichigo lied. Daisuke pulled himself ontop of Ichigo, kissing his neck. "Not tonight, Daisuke." Ichigo muttered. Daisuke instantly backed off. This was the first time he had ever rejected sex. "Is there anything wrong?" Daisuke asked, confused. Ichigo sighed and answered, "Nothing. I just had a long day and I'm tired." Daisuke did a double-take and layed back down. 'Its nothing.' Daisuke kept telling himself. 'Its okay.'