Only the Heart Knows Why
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Romance › Slash - Male/Male
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
16
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4,412
Reviews:
26
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Currently Reading:
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Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Beaten
Four: Beaten
(Characters belong to me and Azathoia. Also, please read his story "Only the Heart Knows Why, Quax's Days"… Have a nice day.)
Tuesday morning feels cold. I stand outside of the school building before the first bell rings and smoke a cigarette. I don’t give a damn if it’s not allowed on school grounds; I fucking need it right now. Kaddar left town this morning. He said something about visiting a brother… Since when does he have a brother to visit?! I throw the cigarette down onto the pavement, stomping it out, and light up another one. As I try to relax while the drugs do more damage to my young lungs, I hear giggling and turn to look at the source. A couple girls are talking to each other, and I frown as I notice that they‘re the “rich” kind of girls probably looking for something to make their parents angry. I watch the girls look at me and then giggle some more. Fucking hell, I don’t need this. “Hey, young man.” I look up at the balding teacher. “Smoking is prohibited on school grounds. Put it out now.”
I glare at him, and take a lengthy drag from the cigarette, then drop it to the pavement, putting it out with my shoe. After the teacher walks away, I cough up the smoke. Not one of my best ideas, and damn I hate coughing so much. Ugh, can this day get any worse? I walk up the steps of the school, just as the bell rings and more people go inside. The girls rush passed me, and that pink-haired guy comes up beside me. “Are you okay?” he asks, looking a little worried. Damn, he must’ve watched me try to suffocate myself with the cigarette.
“I’m fine…”
“But you don’t seem fine.”
I turn my glare on him, and he looks away. “Mind your own fucking business,” I growl at him, walking down the hall to class. He catches up to me, though. I stop and turn to him. “Don’t try anything with me. I’ll break your neck if you do…” He nods silently and we walk into the classroom and take our seats. At least after this class I won’t be bothered by him anymore. I can feel him watching me though. I casually write in my notebook, then tear out the page when I’m done and hand it to him to read. It must be the most hate-filled poem I ever wrote. After reading it, he actually gets up and runs out. Only for a moment do I wonder if I was too harsh, but that moment passes quickly enough.
When the bell finally rings, I gather up my things and make my way to the door. I need a cigarette, again, I really need one, now! I pause in the middle of the hall, unable to decide if I want to go outside again, or be a good little student and get to class. My pondering is halted though when someone suddenly punches me in the side of the face. I lose my balance and fall to the ground, bringing a hand up to where I had been punched and looking up at my assailant. Damn, it’s Rufus. “Looks like you don’t have Kaddar around to protect you now, huh?” He picks me up and slams me against the lockers. I cough again as the air is knocked out of me, and I hear a crowd forming. Rufus throws me to the ground, hard. I can barely think straight. Am I really hearing voices now or what? I feel more pain collide with my head. Something is so wrong. My head… just… hurts…
***
I hear voices. Female voices. Plus one male… make that two. Ugh, and none of them are the voice I want to hear. I open my eyes. I see a pink-haired girl. Oh, wait, that’s… “H-Hikari?”
“Ah, you’re awake.” She smiles down at me. It’s been so long since I’ve seen her and Bianca. I remember… we used to be friends until… what happened? It was around when I started dating Kaddar sophomore year. “We were all so worried about you.”
“Yeah,” agrees Bianca. “He seriously beat you bad, didn’t he?”
I roll my eyes. I am so not happy. Where am I? I look around, and spot Pink-Hair. “You again.”
Before he can reply, Hikari starts speaking again. “He’s the one that alerted the teachers about what Rufus was doing to you.”
“And you probably wouldn’t have because you hate my guts now, right?”
She frowns at me. “You used to be a great guy, Kanau! I don’t know what happened to make you change so much, but please just get over it, okay? I really miss you…”
The other girl clears her throat. “Well, either way, I think we should all head back to class.” Bianca starts to pull them out of the room. “C’mon, guys, let him rest.”
I watch them leave, Pink-Haired Guy looking back again one last time before leaving. I sigh and look up at the ceiling.
Memories come back to me. Hikari, Bianca, and I used to hang out all the time. Hikari had always been like a little goody girl, but that was just fine. Then when Kaddar showed up one day, things started to change. I started spending less and less time with Hikari and Bianca, and more time with Kaddar. Hell, I even lost my virginity to him. I roll over on my side. Was it really so bad that I fell in love with him? Sure he’s not the best guy around, but… he does make me happy, and that should be enough. Fuck this… I need a cigarette now. I reach into my pocket, and find it empty. I don’t even have my lighter either! Damn it!!
I sit up quickly and freeze, feeling a sting in my side. Ugh, he really did mess me up. I get up and go over to a mirror, and frown miserably. Black eye… bloody lip… Did I lose any teeth? I don’t wanna find out… Sighing again, I go back to the bed and lay down. At least they didn’t send me to a hospital. I would have to run the fuck out then. I hate hospitals, more than I hate gym. I go to them too often for my own liking. Ugh… My eyes shut and I hear a whisper, “Kaddar, where are you?” It sounds so pathetic and helpless, and then I realize… I said it.
(Characters belong to me and Azathoia. Also, please read his story "Only the Heart Knows Why, Quax's Days"… Have a nice day.)
Tuesday morning feels cold. I stand outside of the school building before the first bell rings and smoke a cigarette. I don’t give a damn if it’s not allowed on school grounds; I fucking need it right now. Kaddar left town this morning. He said something about visiting a brother… Since when does he have a brother to visit?! I throw the cigarette down onto the pavement, stomping it out, and light up another one. As I try to relax while the drugs do more damage to my young lungs, I hear giggling and turn to look at the source. A couple girls are talking to each other, and I frown as I notice that they‘re the “rich” kind of girls probably looking for something to make their parents angry. I watch the girls look at me and then giggle some more. Fucking hell, I don’t need this. “Hey, young man.” I look up at the balding teacher. “Smoking is prohibited on school grounds. Put it out now.”
I glare at him, and take a lengthy drag from the cigarette, then drop it to the pavement, putting it out with my shoe. After the teacher walks away, I cough up the smoke. Not one of my best ideas, and damn I hate coughing so much. Ugh, can this day get any worse? I walk up the steps of the school, just as the bell rings and more people go inside. The girls rush passed me, and that pink-haired guy comes up beside me. “Are you okay?” he asks, looking a little worried. Damn, he must’ve watched me try to suffocate myself with the cigarette.
“I’m fine…”
“But you don’t seem fine.”
I turn my glare on him, and he looks away. “Mind your own fucking business,” I growl at him, walking down the hall to class. He catches up to me, though. I stop and turn to him. “Don’t try anything with me. I’ll break your neck if you do…” He nods silently and we walk into the classroom and take our seats. At least after this class I won’t be bothered by him anymore. I can feel him watching me though. I casually write in my notebook, then tear out the page when I’m done and hand it to him to read. It must be the most hate-filled poem I ever wrote. After reading it, he actually gets up and runs out. Only for a moment do I wonder if I was too harsh, but that moment passes quickly enough.
When the bell finally rings, I gather up my things and make my way to the door. I need a cigarette, again, I really need one, now! I pause in the middle of the hall, unable to decide if I want to go outside again, or be a good little student and get to class. My pondering is halted though when someone suddenly punches me in the side of the face. I lose my balance and fall to the ground, bringing a hand up to where I had been punched and looking up at my assailant. Damn, it’s Rufus. “Looks like you don’t have Kaddar around to protect you now, huh?” He picks me up and slams me against the lockers. I cough again as the air is knocked out of me, and I hear a crowd forming. Rufus throws me to the ground, hard. I can barely think straight. Am I really hearing voices now or what? I feel more pain collide with my head. Something is so wrong. My head… just… hurts…
***
I hear voices. Female voices. Plus one male… make that two. Ugh, and none of them are the voice I want to hear. I open my eyes. I see a pink-haired girl. Oh, wait, that’s… “H-Hikari?”
“Ah, you’re awake.” She smiles down at me. It’s been so long since I’ve seen her and Bianca. I remember… we used to be friends until… what happened? It was around when I started dating Kaddar sophomore year. “We were all so worried about you.”
“Yeah,” agrees Bianca. “He seriously beat you bad, didn’t he?”
I roll my eyes. I am so not happy. Where am I? I look around, and spot Pink-Hair. “You again.”
Before he can reply, Hikari starts speaking again. “He’s the one that alerted the teachers about what Rufus was doing to you.”
“And you probably wouldn’t have because you hate my guts now, right?”
She frowns at me. “You used to be a great guy, Kanau! I don’t know what happened to make you change so much, but please just get over it, okay? I really miss you…”
The other girl clears her throat. “Well, either way, I think we should all head back to class.” Bianca starts to pull them out of the room. “C’mon, guys, let him rest.”
I watch them leave, Pink-Haired Guy looking back again one last time before leaving. I sigh and look up at the ceiling.
Memories come back to me. Hikari, Bianca, and I used to hang out all the time. Hikari had always been like a little goody girl, but that was just fine. Then when Kaddar showed up one day, things started to change. I started spending less and less time with Hikari and Bianca, and more time with Kaddar. Hell, I even lost my virginity to him. I roll over on my side. Was it really so bad that I fell in love with him? Sure he’s not the best guy around, but… he does make me happy, and that should be enough. Fuck this… I need a cigarette now. I reach into my pocket, and find it empty. I don’t even have my lighter either! Damn it!!
I sit up quickly and freeze, feeling a sting in my side. Ugh, he really did mess me up. I get up and go over to a mirror, and frown miserably. Black eye… bloody lip… Did I lose any teeth? I don’t wanna find out… Sighing again, I go back to the bed and lay down. At least they didn’t send me to a hospital. I would have to run the fuck out then. I hate hospitals, more than I hate gym. I go to them too often for my own liking. Ugh… My eyes shut and I hear a whisper, “Kaddar, where are you?” It sounds so pathetic and helpless, and then I realize… I said it.