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Chapter 4
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I couldnt believe what i was hearing. someone dead was lusting
after me and yet he couldnt perform and i dont believe that this act was
allowed here. "and there you are again reading my mind." my voice really shaky
because he knew the thought in my mind, and yet i wanted him to know
that i was thinking it. "your mind is open to me wether you like it or not."
he said this with a definte purr in his voice and it only made me want
him more. "this is the part i hate. not being able to act on my feelings."
i said with saddness in my voice. I had removed myself from him again,
being dead and yet having all this power over death and life and everything
was thrilling and overwellming but what i really wanted was to just have
the physical contact with someone such as himself but i couldnt and
wouldnt ever be able to.

I walked to the big bay window with the transparent curtains that
showed outwards to the kingdom and all that surrounded it.The sun was going
down and the clouds grew thin and everything was visiable. "its beautiful
isnt it?" maruis said sitting on my couch relaxing and keeping his
distance, i guess he could feel my need for sepration. "yes, it really is."
placing my hand on the glass it made me long to be back on earth in my loft with
the huge naked windows open to world and when i was alone with the naked
windows, it seemed as though everything moved and went along smoothly
depending on my mood.

"You know, i saw you down on earth, several times. you seem so
lonely but you had almost everyone there for you, and yet you pulled away
from them at times when you need someone at the most hernious times. you
were stubbourn. and you hated them for loving you and you hated yourself,
for loving them back." he had moved closer to me and touched my shoulder
and grazed his finger along the path of black feathers which were my
wings. I could only hang my head and the shadow of the night sky gave him a
almost glowing affect and the light coming from my room made him look more
human than i felt. "you seem to know everything about me. did you see me
when i being raped and beaten by my step-fathers, being taken advantage of by
my sibling, who probably will only be sad that i am dead because they
cant loan anymore money from me anymore."


"I wanted to stop them, believe me i did. even then when you were
just getting to know Loki, i wanted to stop those men from hurting you,
taking your youth everytime they touched you. It took everything in me from
not going down to earth in human form but God, said that if you met me
before the right time, your life would be competle different from the path
set for you. and i could not change that, or we would not be here right now.
everything in your life was pre-determined.

That last word broke the last shred of me that was longing for my
human life. I was angry, more along the lines of furious and i wasnt about
to let it go. Leaving him in a brush of anger i went to retrive my scythe and
left my room. my anger rising with each step and all the angels and the
fallen must have sensed it because they came from there rooms and made way a
path for me back to room where my transformation had taken place. "Athena,
wait." was the only words i could hear coming from Loki and Maruis in
unison. they ran to catch up with me, and when they finally caught up
with me, a powerful force came over me and i threw them away from me, and
they landed hard on the marble floor and yet Maruis flew into one of the
black and golden columns that surrounded this place.

Not looking back at them, i returned to this great hall and there
she was sitting on her throne as though she had been expecting me."HOW
DARE YOU, MY PATH? MY FUTURE WAS TO BE RAPED AND BEATEN SENSELESS BY
STEP-FATHERS, BOYFRIENDS, GIRLFRIENDS, AND HAVING MY BEST FRIEND'S
MOTHER PLAN MY DEATH AND PAY SOMEONE TO RAPE ME, YOU COULD HAVE
INTERVEINED!!!!"
my voice was so deep with rage and anger i was speaking words in a
one that i have not noticed. speaking the words as i did my lips were wet
with blood, my own. My voice was too strong for me to handle and i crumbled
to the floor choking on the blood that filled my mouth. i couldnt
breathe, my was blinded and all i could see was red, blood red and i wanted to act
out my rage, but i was being held down by the weight of something else. It
wasnt human.

"My child, forgive me. i know that you have lived a life of hell
and torture but it was pre-determined and i could not change it after it
had been done." her voice was full of saddness and over-wheling pain. she
was fully sorry for the pain she put me through for 29yrs. I couldnt
breath, i was choking, gasping and when i could get my footing i was thrown back
againsted the wall of the hall, and it shook me so hard that i became
unconious. when Loki and Marius were allowed back into the hall, there
eyes were drawn the black pool of blood and instantly look at her majasty,
"god, please dont kill her. dont make her fall again, she cant face anything
else. have mercy." Loki said these words with tears down his face and
then with a point of her finger, the two men were directed to my body,
lying on the floor in the kneeling poistion. "know this child, it was
pre-destined. but i will not have anyone challenge me or deify me in anyway. RISE"
and i was lifted on my feet, my head
hanging and yet i wasnt on the floor but above her, and the blood
was still dripping from my mouth in drops.


"Your majasty, please. let her go.
it was my falut for telling her, i though she already knew, forgive me
but i will not lose her again. please." maruis' words swayed her and she
dropped me hard on the ground, my face in the blood and my wings still
in the upright position. "Marius, you my son love this woman from
centuries ago and i have brought her to you again, and if you wish to have her
forever and compelte then make it so." she said her words and then
left the hall and Loki and Marius rushed to my side.

Each of them lifted me into there laps, my head in Marius' and my
body in Loki's. the power that god had acted on me was felt throughout the
entire palace and nobody was saved from my rage and the punishment
that i faced. the blood held a scream that flowed from the floor and yet i
didnt know anything that happened. Being thrown into the wall had been
painful and Marius felt this the most, he flinced and his body stung all over
when i was thrown down. Loki looked at Marius and his face was sad and
blood tears fell down his face seeing my face covered in my blood and being
unresponive to human touch. "she was rough on her, but right in the
lines of authority." loki agreed with marius. In all the time that they have
lived there in this kingdom, nobody since Luicfer had exacted so much
rage and yet i wasnt anything like him, i wasnt jealous, i was pissed.

*TBC*