What love is

Chapter Four
The Talk
(Warning: NC-17)

As I was looking through my closet trying to decide on what to wear, Monica tapped on my door and said “Hey I’m going down to the kitchen to get started making lunch, is there anything in particular you want or would sandwiches be ok?”

“Sandwiches are fine with me, but I just want half of one, and without cheese or anything fattening, ok?”

“Oh come on Melissa, one little piece of cheese is not going to ruin your figure, besides, you’re a kid, you shouldn’t worry about that so much, you’ll burn it off in no time.”

“Well I just don’t want to get fat like Su…I mean, like this girl I know,” I almost screwed up and told on myself, it was time to put on the innocent little girl act so I wouldn’t look like the cat that ate the canary.

I could hear her giggling outside my door and she said, “Ok then, just come to the kitchen, I’ll make them any way you want,” and then walked away.

I couldn’t decide what I wanted to wear, so I just grabbed an old pair of shorts and my pink tank top and threw them on and headed down to the kitchen. When I went in, she was standing at the counter slicing the lettuce and tomato and without turning around she said “I was beginning to wonder if you were coming?”

“Oh, I just couldn’t decide on an outfit so I just threw these on,” I replied and walked over to the counter. She stopped what she was doing for a moment and looked at me and then went back to making the sandwiches, only she got sort of quiet and started acting weird, and I asked her if she needed any help?

“Um…no, no I got it, thanks sweetie. I …I was just thinking, since your birthday is tomorrow, would you like to have one of your gifts now? I think you could use them and since its raining and everything, we….”

“No I’d still rather just wait, the rain has spoiled it enough already and if you gave it to me now it wouldn’t be as much fun,” I told her and she just kept looking at me, her eye’s darted all over my face and at my chest.

“Ok sweetie, I just thought I’d ask. Why don’t you go and sit at the table and I’ll bring the platter?”

“Ok, would you bring me a coke too?”

“Sure sweetie.”

I turned from her and went out of the kitchen and as I approached the dining room door, I saw my reflection in the glass. My tank top was so form fitting that you could see every contour of my little tits. I may as well had been topless! My chest wasn’t very developed, but I wasn’t flat either. My nipples were so puffy It looked like I had cut a ping-pong ball in half and stuffed it in my top. And the left one was a little larger than the right, but it wasn’t that noticeable though.

I sat down at the table and as I waited, I thought about the phone call where Sarah said, “She turns you on don’t she?” And what does she mean “I’m torturing her?” Is that why she’s acting all weird? She sure was checking me out when we were in the tub. Maybe I could try doing little things to test her? Hmmm…lets see…

Suddenly, my thought was broken as Monica came in with the platter, she placed it on the table and sat across from me. “Just as you asked, no cheese and nothing fattening,” she said smiling.

“Thanks Monica.”

“Hey Melissa, how would you like to have a party next weekend since the rain has ruined this one?”

“Sure! That would be great!” I answered, pretending I was surprised.

“Well, I’ll have to check with your mom but I don’t think she’ll have a problem with it. I got the idea when I was on the phone with Sarah and I asked her to come and maybe bring some friends.”

“Yeah, Sarah sounds really cool! Um… from what you’ve told me I mean. What kind of party would it be?” I asked and leaned back in the chair holding the coke bottle to my lips, and I began slowly and playfully licking around on it as she answered.

“I thought of it being a pool party, we could set up the stereo at the outdoor pool or if it was raining again, we could have it inside, it would just be Sarah and her friend Jessica, and maybe Linda or Susan? They’re friends of mine, and of cores you could invite your friends if you want?” she said, watching me toy with the bottle. I thought to myself, yeah I’m not stupid, I know why you want to have a party, you want to have sex with those girls, I don’t want my friends to know you’re gay!

“Nah, April wouldn’t know how to act around grown-ups, she’s so immature, just like her brothers.” I replied and continued my torture test. It was obviously getting her attention; I could tell because she started acting weird again.

“Well is there someone else you would like to invite?” she asked reaching for her drink, her hands were trembling and she knocked it over, “Shit! Look at me! I’m so clumsy today! Sorry about the language…well, at least the cap is still on, that would of been a mess wouldn’t it?”

I was trying hard not to laugh, I was amazed at the way she was acting just by watching my tongue! It was as if I was in control of her, and I liked that. This is so much fun!

“Why are you so stressed out Monica?” I asked and hid my grin by picking up my sandwich and taking a bite.

She sighed and said, “Oh, I dunno, I guess Sarah’s got me thinking about…things, and the thought of us being stranded here because of all the flooding, and…I dunno I just…well…its hard not to be stressed out…I think I need to go lay down for a bit sweetie if you don’t mind?”

“Ok Monica…I’m sorry…I mean, sure go ahead I’ll be ok.”

“Oh honey, no, you have nothing to be sorry about, its me…I … you haven’t done anything wrong.”

“Its ok Monica I understand, I just meant that I’m sorry… you don’t feel well, you can go lay down if you want?”

“Ok, thank you sweetie.”

She left the dining room and went up stairs and I had completely lost my appetite. I realized that Monica was becoming my best friend and for the first time in my life, I had someone that I could really talk to, someone I could share secrets with. I had no right to do that to her! Its true what Sarah said, I’m torturing her! I don’t want to lose this friendship! Sure April was my friend, but she was so immature and childish and wasn’t that good at keeping secrets either. Then I thought about the party she was planning on having and suddenly, the thought of her having sex with another girl caused a bad feeling in my stomach. I couldn’t let her do it! I’ll have sex with her myself before I let that happen!

I got up and cleared the table and went to my room. I thought about the look on Monica’s face when I was licking on that bottle. Suddenly, I knew exactly how she was feeling. I laid on my bed thinking of what I should do, I like her a lot, she’s unlike anyone I’ve ever met, but could I really have sex with her? Could I actually lick her, and let her lick me? I thought back about when April and I were in the utility room by the pool, I don’t think what we did in there qualified us as real lesbians, we were just messing around, but what if I’m wrong? I guess the question is, what is a real lesbian? And what qualifies a person as a real one? Maybe I should tell Monica about what we did? I’m sure she would know the answer.

Then I felt that urge again, that same urge that I felt that day in the utility room, only this time, it was much stronger. I sat up on the bed and noticed that slippery feeling between my legs as I put one foot on the floor. I was soaking wet down there! I took off my shorts and panties and went into my bathroom to clean up, I’d never seen so much of that clear stuff coming from my chia pet before! I went to my dresser to find something to throw on and I thought I may as well just put my jersey shirt back on, its not like we’ll be going anywhere anyway. Then I remembered that I’d left it in Monica’s bathroom so I just grabbed the blue one, it was almost the same but it was thicker and not nearly as comfortable.

As I slipped it on, it slid over my nipples which were already tingling and that urge grew even stronger, I felt bad for what I’d been doing to Monica and the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to talk to her. I went out of my room and when I got to her door I was about to knock but I noticed that it wasn’t shut all the way, so I went in and stood next to her bed where she was laying, and I reached and touched her shoulder.

“Monica?” I said softly and she opened her eyes and looked up at me.

“Melissa! What’s wrong sweetie? Are you ok?” she asked and sat up on the side of the bed.

“Can we talk for a minute?”

“Sure sweetie, is everything ok?”

“Yes everything’s fine, I just wanted to … I need to talk to you about something, um…remember in the cellar… when you said I can trust you?”

“Here sit down sweetie, yes, what’s on your mind?” She asked looking at me sincerely and caringly and I suddenly began having second thoughts.

“ … Um, maybe I better not? … I changed my mind, I’m sorry I bothered you Monica,” I started to turn away but she took my hand and held it.

“Wait Melissa, honey talk to me, you can trust me, I promise. It must be something important or you wouldn’t have came in here wanting to talk, am I right?”

“…yes.”

“Well come and sit down and lets talk about it, ok?”

“Alright, …that day that Mr. Hensley was looking in at me and April……”

“Oh honey he didn’t do anything to you did he?”

“No!”

“Ok, just making sure sweetie, please, go on.”

“Well, me and April were in the cellar just before that…and we were looking at those girls in the magazines…and um…you have to promise you won’t tell ok?”

“Trust me sweetie, I won’t.”

“Well, we wanted to try what they were doing, but not there because we knew he would come down. So we told my mom we were going to put on our bikini’s and swim, then we went into the utility room by the pool and…we….um…,”

“Its ok sweetie you can tell me…did you and April experiment?”

“…well I …”

“Oh honey, its ok, lots of girls experiment. It’s just curiosity, kid’s do that sometimes. It’s not your fault that pervert was peeking, you didn’t know.”

“That’s not what I was talking about.”

“Oh … I’m sorry sweetie, well then I guess I’m not sure I understand what your asking?”

“It’s about what happened when we did it.”

“Well, would you like to explain it to me? You don’t have to be afraid sweetie, anything we talk about will stay in this room, ok?”

“Ok … um, April and I got undressed and she said she wanted me to go first…so…I said ok and she laid on the bench and I did it just a second and she said, “That wasn’t long enough, if you lick me for ten minutes I’ll do you for ten minutes, ok?” and I said ok, well after ten minutes was up, she said “what does it taste like?” and I said its not bad. And she said, “It feels really good,” and she asked me to do it just five more minutes, and I said ok but you have to do me that long too, and she said she would. So I did her longer than fifteen minutes and when time was up and I laid down on the bench, she chickened out and she wouldn’t do it! She kept saying “I can’t, I can’t.” I got so mad at her I told her to leave! And I didn‘t get my turn.”

“Oh honey, I’m sorry, and that was really… unfair of her, but, I’m still not sure what you’re wanting to know sweetie?”

“I was wondering if that means that I’m a real lesbian because I licked a girl once?”

“Honey, you’re much too young to even be thinking about these things. You and April experimented, and that doesn’t mean that you’re a lesbian. You wont know the answer to that until you’ve had boyfriends, and then you can decide which you prefer. Sweetie I think you are trying to grow up to fast, you should enjoy being a kid for now, and don’t worry about those things.”

“What if I said that I wasn’t through experimenting, I mean, how am I supposed to know? I never got my turn, April chickened out on me! And I am NOT a kid anymore, OK?”

“Well, I think you should wait a couple of years, then you could make better decisions about it.”

I didn’t like that word ‘wait’ so I decided that this is it, I’m going to tell her what I want, even if she says no!

“I don’t want to wait, I want to experiment now…with you.”

“Melissa!? What’s gotten into you lately? Is this some sort of joke? Who put you up to this? Did Sarah call and talk to you while I was asleep? Melissa why…” her words stopped as I slipped off my jersey shirt to show that it was no joke, I stood there naked gazing into her eyes, my face was without expression, my heart was pounding.

“Melissa…what are you doing? I… I don’t think this is a…good idea, …I …”

I placed my hands on her shoulders and looked into her eyes and whispered “please…no one will ever know, I promise.”

I began to slowly unbutton her pajama top as I stared into her eyes, and to my surprise, she didn’t attempt to try and stop me. When the last button was undone, she stood without breaking our gaze and whispered to me, “you’re serious about this aren’t you?” I nodded slowly and mutely and she finished removing her top still looking at me.

I looked down at her bare breasts as faint flashes of lightning filtered through the thin curtains of the windows. I slowly reached and touched her left breast and she placed her fingertips gently under my chin and lifted my face up to hers and looked deeply into my eyes and said softly, “I’ll satisfy your curiosity, because you asked me to, but this must be kept secret, and it must never leave this room, do you understand?”

Her breath was shaky, and she seemed even more nervous than I was. “I can keep secrets Monica, I’m not a baby…I want to do this,” I said as I inched even closer to her. And with her thumb still on my chin, she applied slight pressure to open my mouth and then covered my lips with hers and I closed my eyes and instinctively offered her my tongue.

As we kissed, a warm feeling ran through my whole body, I was as light as a feather, and I put my arms around her and suddenly it was like I couldn’t get enough of her, I squeezed her tighter, and just the thought of us touching each other caused me to moan and my breathing grew heavier as she caressed my back slowly up and down. When we broke from the kiss, I sat on the bed and she slipped out of her pajama bottoms and panties and stood in front of me. She took my shoulders and laid me back on the pillow as she climbed on top of me placing her knees on either side of me and sat on my legs and bent down and began kissing my lips and ears, and she whispered “oh Melissa, I‘m going to make this so good for you,” then moved to my neck and to my chest working her way down, she took my entire left tit into her mouth and sucked and licked on my nipple.

She kissed on my belly and probed her tongue into my navel moaning, then moved to my mound and kissed on it gently. My mind was spinning wildly waiting on her to touch my pussy with her mouth, and I looked down at her and she was looking at it and whispering “oh Melissa, oh baby, you’re so wet, your flower is so beautiful,” And with every word I could feel her breath on it, her lips were so close, she noticed me looking at her and I managed to whisper to her “please…don’t stop now,” and she stared at my sweaty face, her eyes were like glass and she said,

“Don’t worry, I wont chicken out on you…oh baby… I can assure you…the pleasure is all mine sweetie,” and with that, she began licking all around it avoiding the middle part, and I was taking handfuls of the bed sheets and began to whimper softly under my breath, my breathing grew rapid and my heart was pounding in my chest so hard I was dizzy, I started squirming my hips as I felt her getting closer and finally her tongue found my clit and I put my hands on the back of her head as she began sucking it and I began crying out “Oh, Oh, oh, oh.” and she sucked and licked faster and faster and I felt that urge building stronger than I’d ever felt it, and I cried out to her “Monica…stop….I’m gonna pee!” But she kept going and she wouldn’t stop, and I couldn’t hold it anymore so I let go, and when I did she pressed her mouth on me and sucked hard, then probed her tongue in my hole as deep as she could! I pulled hard on the bed sheets with every powerful contraction of my throbbing pussy, it was like the lightning that flashed through the windows was a part of these new sensations, and I looked down at her as she placed her hands under the bends of my knees and lifted my legs and spread them as wide as they would go and wildly licked me up and down and thrust her tongue inside me and rapidly twirled it in my opening and shock waves shot through me as my pussy contracted again and again squeezing her hot tongue as she forced it even deeper in. The excitement was so great that my whole body jerked and twitched and I fell limp from exhaustion as she continued licking me slowly and lovingly and grasping my clit with her lips and kept sucking the juice from me. I was in heaven it seemed.

She moved up beside me and kissed me on the lips and laid almost on top of me, she hooked her leg over both of mine, and hugged my whole body tightly as if I were her rag doll.

“I’m sorry Monica…I didn’t mean to pee, but I told you to stop!”

She laughed a little and said, “You didn’t pee sweetie, that is what is called an orgasm, and I feel very honored to have helped you get your very first one.”

“Ok so now its my turn to help you get yours.”

“Oh sweetie, I got mine the minute I saw your beautiful flower, and even more when I tasted you.”

“I want to do you now, I want to taste you,” I almost demanded and sat up as that urge started building again. I didn’t know what came over me, but I just had to get my mouth on her. I thought back on that day that I licked April and realized how un-experienced I was after what I’d just experienced.

I wanted so badly to give her the same pleasure she’d gave me, and as I crawled between her legs, she opened them wide for me and revealed her sex which opened up like a beautiful tropical flower, the aroma of her pussy excited me and the saliva in my mouth grew thick as I lowered my mouth to her. I flicked it with my tongue and then took her clit into my mouth not wanting to tease her or make her wait. And I remembered April saying “owe! Be careful with your teeth!” so I made sure not to let them touch as I licked and sucked her, trying to remember every detail of how she did me.

She was so smooth, there was not one hair on her and not even a trace of stubble. I loved sucking her clit into my mouth and feeling it slip between my lips, and as I did it she moaned and moved her hips slowly up and down and I flattened my tongue and pressed hard on it as she continued her motions. Suddenly I felt her hands on my head and she pressed my face harder on to her and arched her back, her pussy became so creamy and as her hands fell away and she relaxed her hips, I continued licking her and I explored every part of her hot soaking pussy with my tongue.

When I finished I climbed up beside her and asked, “did I do it right?” And she rolled on to her side facing me and kissed me deeply and said, “you were perfect sweetie, and if you do decide you’re lesbian, I think you would be a great one.”
I smiled and stared at her as she gently rubbed my nipple and I asked, “can we do this again tomorrow?”

“…Um…we’ll see, Melissa, do you understand why no one can ever know about this?”

“I’m not stupid, I’ll never tell, this is our secret, you don’t have to worry about it.”

“Ok sweetie, I trust you, and anytime you want to talk about things don’t be afraid, ok? I really enjoy talking to you and I’ll be here for you. I’d rather you come to me than have to try and learn on your own, I just don’t want you to get hurt, ok?

“Ok, thanks Monica.”

“Sure sweetie, anytime, we should get some sleep, tomorrow is your big day.”

“Can I just sleep in here? I really don’t want to go back to my room with all the thunder and lighting going on.”

“Of cores you can silly, It’ll be nice cuddling with you,” she said and wrapped her arms around me and hugged me. I’d finally found someone that really liked me, and I could really talk to without feeling restricted. I drifted off to sleep smiling with the thought of my new found friendship.

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