THERE'S NOTHING BEYOND THIS POINT

Collette did  not go to work that morning.  No one cared anyhow.  She went to

a tiny coffee shop and had a large one.  She bought a pack of cigarettes.  

The girl cursed James for giving her the habit again.  She watched people going

in and out.  She saw Billy's new flame, the one she'd seen before.  The bitch.

Collette left and went to the park to read.  It was wonderfully sunny, she put

on her glasses and scanned the words.  The book wasn't bad.  

  After a little while she stopped and and yawned.  She drank more of the coffee

and went home.  To her utter surprise Billy was sitting on her doorstep.  He

smiled,  his blue eyes and blond curls looked adorable.  Collette was wary of

him...why was he here?

   "I felt like talking to someone.  I'm sorry that we fell out.  I just can't

stand to much of you Collette...its your mouth you know."

   "If you came here to tell me I'm a bitch, I already know."  She didn't invite

him in but sat down one step lower than him.  She lit a cigarette and tried to

appear bored...she was trembling inside and felt like crying.

   "I've missed you, I hope we can remain friends...good friends."

   "What does that mean, when you're bored shitless you will stop by and harass

me just for the hell of it."

   Billy shook his head, his tone was patient.  "One thing in life is certain,

you never change...in a way, that is what I will always love about you."

   

  "Love is the shittiest four letter word I know,"  Collette replied.  Then she

got up and let herself into her apartment.  "I guess I'll see you around."

  She went inside and shut the door.  She walked to the couch and collapsed into

a crying heap.  Why the fuck was her life so complicated.  She was desperately

in love with a guy she couldn't fucking stand for more than five minutes.  It

was hopeless.  She needed to get drunk.

   Two hours later Collette was reasonably wasted, when her door rang she

grumbled hatefully and struggled to answer.  It was Will.  "Want to go over

to Leif's and get stoned?  He said I could bring someone."

  "Sure, cutie pie."  As soon as Will stepped inside the door she put  her

arms around him and kissed him deeply.  Her hand went to his crotch and she

massaged it vigorously.  "Let me  get my coat, it may get windy tonight."

  Leif was a small time pot dealer. He lived alone but there was a girl there.

She had dark hair and big dark eyes.  Probably a prostitute Collette figured.

Leif did not get up, he almost never did.  He lay back slumped in a big soft

chair...his eyes were busy and a bit sleepy looking.  He passed a joint to

Will who  hit it hard.  The girl, poured them wine...she smiled, yet remained

a bit wary of the newcomers.  "This is Lisa," Leif said.

  Lisa put a dvd on the television.  It was cartoons...Rambo cartoons, Leif's

favorites.  "Rambo is a born killer," Leif said.  "You have to respect that,

someone has to be able to kill people."

  "He doesn't kill anyone in the cartoons though," Will added, then took another

puff of the joint.

   "Of course not, its a cartoon...for kids,"  Collette rolled  her eyes.  Guys

could be such idiots.  Lisa stroked Leif's  hairy  chest.  Collette wondered

why she just didn't fuck him right then and there.  Later they listened to music.

The weed was excellent and so was the wine.  Lisa opened another bottle.  Will

grunted and farted.  "So sorry," he said.  "To much taco bell I guess."

  "That shit will kill  you," Leif said.

   "What do you eat,"  Will asked.

   "Pussy."

  Lisa giggled and nibbled on Leif's ear.  Collette lay back on the old couch

and looked at the ceiling.  Her skirt rose high upon her thigh.  Both Will and

Leif drank  in the scenery.  Lisa scowled slightly and kissed Leif full on the

lips.  "When have you seen Billy,"  Leif asked?

  "This morning, I chased him off quick enough."

  "He owes me money," Leif grumbled.

  "Never sell on credit,"  Collette replied and lit a cigarette.  She watched the

smoke climb towards the ceiling where it was caught by the fan and twirled t his

way and that.  "Billy has plenty of money..always ask for cash.  He doesn't

understand that working class people need to get paid."

  "I got plenty of money too," Leif said.  "How else could I afford babes like

Lisa here?"

   "You paid for her?"  Will blurted out.

   "Sure, why not?"  Leif shrugged.  "I'm not gonna go out looking for it."

   "I guess I see your point," Will said and glanced at Collette.  Its a jungle

out there.

   "shut up will," Collette said.

   Lisa went and fetched a bong.  Leif loaded it with hash and they all buzzed

back up again.  He handed them all a little blue pill...acid.  "Enjoy," he

said.  Several hours later Will and Collette left.  It was very late, almost

one AM. "I want to go to Wall mart and pick up a new bra," Collette said.

  They arrived and Will paid for the cab.  She kissed him again.  He fondled her

titty and they went inside arm in arm.  Collette loved to shop Wall Mart late at

night.  The stock guys always looked her up and down so he hiked her short skirt

up a bit more.  Her legs were her best asset, they were long and shapely.  Of

course her hair, eyes, and boobs weren't bad either...or so she'd been told...many

times.  Will gave her a little pat on the ass.  She smiled at him and loaded

her cart with mouthwash, condoms, panties, computer paper, deodorant, lipstick,

toilet tissue, grapes, frozen pizza, diet cola, dvds, and motor oil."

  "What's the motor oil for?"

  "My sister's car...it burns a lot."

   She let Will pay for everything, why not.  He'd just gotten paid and he

lived with his parents.  It made up for the fact he didn't have a car.  A cab

came and took them over to her place.  She kissed him at the door and he left.

He had wanted to come in but it was just to late and she had to go to work

the next day.  She put a dvd in the player and lay on her couch until she

passed out.

  She felt sick all day at work.  Her friend Amy brought her home.  There

he was again.  "Damn Billy, this is getting to be a habit with you...why don't

you go and sex up one of your girlfriends?"

  "Can we talk?" he asked sincerely.

 "Maybe later,"  my ass is dragging, work was hell and I'm sick.  She went inside

and locked the door behind her.  She desperately wanted to let him inside, to

jump into  his arms and kiss away all her pain but it wasn't time yet. "I am

out of my fucking mind," she said to the walls.  She fell into bed and cried

herself to sleep.  Hours later the bell rang.  "Dammit Will," she mumbled and

went to the door in only her panties and bra.  She opened wide and James was

standing there admiring the view.  "Nice," he said.  He looked incredible.

"Come on in,"  Collette groaned and fell on the couch.  "Go int the kitchen

and brew up some coffee."

  James shrugged and did as he was told.  The coffee smelled wonderful.

The Golden Girls was on.  Collette snatched up the remote and changed the

channel. "I hate those old bitches," she complained.  James brought the

coffee.  "It tastes good, you make good coffee...what have you been up too?"

  "Nothing much, I looked for you yesterday,"

  "I was off getting wasted, not going to do that again for awhile."

  "What are you going to do?" he asked.

  "Hopefully get someone to go down on me," she replied and parted her

legs just slightly.