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Romance › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
38
Views:
2,797
Reviews:
7
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
1
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Reminicing
After Janese got through crying in her mother\'s arms she went to her room to cry some more in private. She held her pillow tight against her body as if it were Jett. In her mind she started going through all their moments. She decided to write in her journal.
Dear Journal,
I feel like trash right now. Jett ran into Romulus and all hell broke loose. Jett just left a couple of hours ago and he threatened me with Kayla. I hope he\'s not going. I can\'t believe Rome told him about what we did at his house. I still remember that day as if it were yesturday. I think it was a Friday and I didn\'t go home like I was supposed to. Romulus and I drove to his house in his friends\'s \'94 Black Camero. His father was deployed somewhere in the Pacific and his mother had left earlier that morning to visit her sick sister in Georgia. Richard wasn\'t around then and my mom was working at her good goverment job. Anyway, when we got to his house we sat on the couch and talked for about ten minutes and then we started to kiss and everything. Rome immediantly put his hands in my panties and began rubbing all on my sweet spots. He used his other hand and pulled my shirt over my head like I was a rag doll or something. I didn\'t like it and I wanted him to stop but for some reason I couldn\'t move. Guess it was because my body never felt that kind of pleasure and I didn\'t want to. Romulus kept on rubbing me and then he shoved his finger inside me. I remember yelling out but he didn\'t pay me any attention. He told me it hurt because it was my first time and it wasn\'t his fault or something like that. I just remember that stinging sensation. Rome put my hand on his penis and told me he wanted me to make love to him. I knew it wasn\'t gonna be love, just sex, so I told him I wasn\'t ready. I thought he would take me home but he said no. He asked me to give him a hand job. I told myself no but like a dumbass I did it anyway. He called himself \"fingering\" me whild I touched him but it didn\'t feel so good to me. After he was done he took me home. When I got there I jumped in the shower and I wished I hadn\'t done wI diI did. Over the course of our relationship he always asked if we could go farther but I always said no. Then at the end of May of our sophomore year, the night before he had to leave, we almost had sex. He was just about to go inside of me when I got my senses back in my head. We didn\'t do anything and I could tell he was upset. He took me home, no kiss goodbye, and I never saw him again. Then Jett Jackson came into my life and I thank God that he did. I felt loved and when Jett touched me I wanted him to. And when we made love on the night of July 29, 2003 I felt like a new creature the day after. That\'s a date I will never forget because I had a man make love to me. And I didn\'t want to run and take a shower afterwards. As a matter of fact we went right back at it! I never thought that in a million years somebody famous would fall in love with me. It\'s not even about the money. Jett could work at McDonald\'s during the summer or at the mall and I wouldn\'t care. Just being with him is...is..I can\'t even describe it! I can\'t put it into words the way I feel about Jett. I remember the way his face looked when we were in the rowboat. And when he first kissed me on the beach, or the way he took the time to put in time. I don\'t want to lose Jett over a lie or some other person. I love him too much.
Janese started crying again as she tried to finish. Her mind said write but her hand didn\'t want to.
\"I don\'t want to lose you Jett. I love you too much.\" Janese dropped her pen and her head fell in her hands.
~*~*~*
Jett finally came to a stop. He didn\'t know where he was or where he wanted to go. When he looked around, he realized that he was in front of the beach house.
\"How did I get here?\" He started to drive again but his foot wouldn\'t lift off the break. Jett cut the car off and got out. He walked into the house. Too tired and angry, he went upstairs and walked in the master bedroom. He plopped down on the bed that he and Janese made love on. \"What am I doin\'?\" Jett stood up and stared at the bed. His mind went back to the day he and Janese made love for the first time. The smell of her body, the sounds of her slight whimpering and moaning as he tasted every inch of her body awakened his senses. Jett touched his face and it was wet. Tears. He was actually crying for a woman. \"Damn Janese. What the hell did you do to me?\" Jett walked around the corner and sat on the step. He pictured Janese\'s creamy, silky frame lying on the floor. Calling him to her. Jett started playing with words in his head. The he began saying them out loud. \"What is love? Love is patient and kind. Love doesn\'t anger easy and it doesn\'t keep record of wrongs.\" Jett rested his head in his hand. \"Can I love? I ask myself this question.\" He felt something come over him and he went to his office to get a pen and paper.
Do I really have what it takes to love?
I ask myself this question
The lady I love, she\'s pure as a dove
But do I really have what it takes to love?
My lady is kind and caring, always helping and sharing
But do I really have what it takes to love?
When I\'m away, she\'s only a phone call away
But do I really have what it takes to love?
She had all of me and I had she
But do I really have what it takes to love?
I asked her to be my wife, to forever go through the good times and strife
But do I really have what it takes to love?
I was a boy when I met her but now a man, when she holds my hand I know she\'s all I need to stand
But do I really have what it takes to love?
Jett stared at the poem he wrote and read it over again.
\"Do I really have what it takes to love you, Janese? I need some help understanding.\"
~*~*~*
Janese turned her radio on and heard Toni Braxton\'s Breathe Again.
\"Toni, I feel you girl.\" She grabbed her pen off the floor and began writing the chorus down.
If I never feel you in my arms again
If I never feel your tender kiss again
If I never hear I love you now and then
Will I ever make love to you once again
Please understand, if love ends
Then I promise you, I promise thatthat I shall
Never breathe again, that I shall never breathe again
At the end of the song, Janese slowly exhaled along with Toni.
Dear Journal,
I feel like trash right now. Jett ran into Romulus and all hell broke loose. Jett just left a couple of hours ago and he threatened me with Kayla. I hope he\'s not going. I can\'t believe Rome told him about what we did at his house. I still remember that day as if it were yesturday. I think it was a Friday and I didn\'t go home like I was supposed to. Romulus and I drove to his house in his friends\'s \'94 Black Camero. His father was deployed somewhere in the Pacific and his mother had left earlier that morning to visit her sick sister in Georgia. Richard wasn\'t around then and my mom was working at her good goverment job. Anyway, when we got to his house we sat on the couch and talked for about ten minutes and then we started to kiss and everything. Rome immediantly put his hands in my panties and began rubbing all on my sweet spots. He used his other hand and pulled my shirt over my head like I was a rag doll or something. I didn\'t like it and I wanted him to stop but for some reason I couldn\'t move. Guess it was because my body never felt that kind of pleasure and I didn\'t want to. Romulus kept on rubbing me and then he shoved his finger inside me. I remember yelling out but he didn\'t pay me any attention. He told me it hurt because it was my first time and it wasn\'t his fault or something like that. I just remember that stinging sensation. Rome put my hand on his penis and told me he wanted me to make love to him. I knew it wasn\'t gonna be love, just sex, so I told him I wasn\'t ready. I thought he would take me home but he said no. He asked me to give him a hand job. I told myself no but like a dumbass I did it anyway. He called himself \"fingering\" me whild I touched him but it didn\'t feel so good to me. After he was done he took me home. When I got there I jumped in the shower and I wished I hadn\'t done wI diI did. Over the course of our relationship he always asked if we could go farther but I always said no. Then at the end of May of our sophomore year, the night before he had to leave, we almost had sex. He was just about to go inside of me when I got my senses back in my head. We didn\'t do anything and I could tell he was upset. He took me home, no kiss goodbye, and I never saw him again. Then Jett Jackson came into my life and I thank God that he did. I felt loved and when Jett touched me I wanted him to. And when we made love on the night of July 29, 2003 I felt like a new creature the day after. That\'s a date I will never forget because I had a man make love to me. And I didn\'t want to run and take a shower afterwards. As a matter of fact we went right back at it! I never thought that in a million years somebody famous would fall in love with me. It\'s not even about the money. Jett could work at McDonald\'s during the summer or at the mall and I wouldn\'t care. Just being with him is...is..I can\'t even describe it! I can\'t put it into words the way I feel about Jett. I remember the way his face looked when we were in the rowboat. And when he first kissed me on the beach, or the way he took the time to put in time. I don\'t want to lose Jett over a lie or some other person. I love him too much.
Janese started crying again as she tried to finish. Her mind said write but her hand didn\'t want to.
\"I don\'t want to lose you Jett. I love you too much.\" Janese dropped her pen and her head fell in her hands.
~*~*~*
Jett finally came to a stop. He didn\'t know where he was or where he wanted to go. When he looked around, he realized that he was in front of the beach house.
\"How did I get here?\" He started to drive again but his foot wouldn\'t lift off the break. Jett cut the car off and got out. He walked into the house. Too tired and angry, he went upstairs and walked in the master bedroom. He plopped down on the bed that he and Janese made love on. \"What am I doin\'?\" Jett stood up and stared at the bed. His mind went back to the day he and Janese made love for the first time. The smell of her body, the sounds of her slight whimpering and moaning as he tasted every inch of her body awakened his senses. Jett touched his face and it was wet. Tears. He was actually crying for a woman. \"Damn Janese. What the hell did you do to me?\" Jett walked around the corner and sat on the step. He pictured Janese\'s creamy, silky frame lying on the floor. Calling him to her. Jett started playing with words in his head. The he began saying them out loud. \"What is love? Love is patient and kind. Love doesn\'t anger easy and it doesn\'t keep record of wrongs.\" Jett rested his head in his hand. \"Can I love? I ask myself this question.\" He felt something come over him and he went to his office to get a pen and paper.
Do I really have what it takes to love?
I ask myself this question
The lady I love, she\'s pure as a dove
But do I really have what it takes to love?
My lady is kind and caring, always helping and sharing
But do I really have what it takes to love?
When I\'m away, she\'s only a phone call away
But do I really have what it takes to love?
She had all of me and I had she
But do I really have what it takes to love?
I asked her to be my wife, to forever go through the good times and strife
But do I really have what it takes to love?
I was a boy when I met her but now a man, when she holds my hand I know she\'s all I need to stand
But do I really have what it takes to love?
Jett stared at the poem he wrote and read it over again.
\"Do I really have what it takes to love you, Janese? I need some help understanding.\"
~*~*~*
Janese turned her radio on and heard Toni Braxton\'s Breathe Again.
\"Toni, I feel you girl.\" She grabbed her pen off the floor and began writing the chorus down.
If I never feel you in my arms again
If I never feel your tender kiss again
If I never hear I love you now and then
Will I ever make love to you once again
Please understand, if love ends
Then I promise you, I promise thatthat I shall
Never breathe again, that I shall never breathe again
At the end of the song, Janese slowly exhaled along with Toni.