How Do I Say This

 

Jay drove me home last night and to say it was awkward was an understatement. I couldn't look him in the eye. The air in the car was so tense you could have cut it with a knife! When we arrived at my house, I would usually give him a goodbye kiss but last night I opened the door and ran for the safety of my house. 

I rolled in my bed as I thought about last night. Urg! I'm so stupid. I shouldn't be embarrassed that my man and me  got down and dirty. In fact I'm going to call him. I picked up the phone then thought better of it. My family still beat me when they were sure I didn't have to go to school meaning the weekends, the days I didn't see Jay. Not that they mattered...I was healing faster these days due to Jay marking me.

What was I going to do?! I needed to clear things up with Jay. Yet, I felt if I did  talk to him I would make a bigger fool of myself then I have already. 

'I want our mate,' my wolf, Sam whined. 

"I do too Sam, but how do you go back to normal when you've done "that"?"

'I don't know either but I want them.' She whispered.

I nodded in agreement. I would go see Jay and we would talk..and fix this.

With that in mind, I went to take a hot shower knowing full well I would get in trouble but nothing mattered as long as I had my talk with Jay.

I stared at the mansion in fear. It was HUGE! And it wasn't even the pack house, this was the alpha's personal house! It could probably swallow me up and no one would notice. The driveway was a four mile walk. And the long line of fancy cars weren't  making me feel any better. In fact all I really wanted to turn around and forget my mission.

'I want my mate.' My wolf whined. Ugh!

I was sweaty and sore by the time I made it to the stairs. Fuck! Who knew this would end up as exercise! Never again will I come to his house unless I really really need to.

I rose my hand to knock,but I lowered it. What was I doing? I could have just told him though our connection rite. So why was I so focused on wanting face to face? These new emotions are killing me, leaving me confused. I just wanted to see him so bad.

'Listen to what you want.' Sam softly spoke.

With that in mind I knocked. The door was immediately opened and I was pulled inside and the door slammed behind me.

The person who pulled me in was elderly, but strong...that's wolves for you. He couldn't have been over seventy. You could tell he had once been taller like every other male wolf, and his snow white hair was full without any patches of bald anywhere.

"Head straight down this hall, then turn left." He smiled.He gave me that warm comfortable feeling you get from your grandparents.

I nodded my thanks and was off again before I realized I hadn't told him the reason I came here.  I turned to ask where Jay was but the old man was gone. O...k I thought.

I turned into the room the old man had told me to. I opened it and was surprised to find about ten pairs of eyes staring at me.

The room was full of men including Jay and the alpha. It should have been a crime to have all these handsome men all in one room. A pair of eyes, that weren't Jay's caught my attention. They were beautiful, a deep sea blue with swirls of green.

A growl slipping from the owner of the beautiful eyes froze me.

"Mine." The owner of the eyes growled out. A whined so desperately wanted to escape my throat but I was able to hold it down.

Gasps filled the air.

I turned away from the pair of eyes and their owner.

"Can I speak to Jay outside, please?"

"No,' the alpha spoke.'take a seat since you have become apart of this discussion."

I nodded, scared to anger my alpha.

"Now, as I was saying. We would be honored for our pack to become joined with yours." The alpha proposed.

"Yes, old friend now I don't have to marry my only daughter away to your son. Now that my son has found his mate in your pack." The old man, whom I'm guessing was the alpha of another pack commented.

I frowned. Who was the mate of who?

Beautiful eyes got up and walked over to me.

"Hello, my sweet mate." He kissed my hand. It felt so right like when I was with Jay.

I looked at him,actually looked.He was beautiful,even more so than a girl. He had long hair like a waterfall,and was tall like other male shifters. His lips a light shade of red, that looked so kissable.

Then I realized what he just said.

"What?" I yelled.

"I'm, sorry to burst your bubble but my mate is over there." I pointed at Jay, who looked calm. What the fuck?! Why wasn't he mad? 

Jay walked over to us and pulled me into his arms.

"Hun, calm down. He's our other mate." He calmly stated.