Into Your Own

Ch. 3: Seeing is Believing
Jimmy was a nice guy. He was smart too, and for a guy I guess he wasn't all that unfortunate looking; it was just too bad for him that I had absolutely no interest in boys what so ever, not that I would ever tell him that. I was without friends once in this town I had no wish to repeat it the ordeal. When he had first made friends with me I was so happy, but I had not seen my current problem arising back in second grade when boys had still thought girls were pretty grouse. It seemed to me that Jimmy was infatuated with me. And it was becoming rather apparent. I believe most of the school already thought we were going out, not that I would ever credited the rumors, but I guess they had seen Jimmy's looks just as much as I had. At the moment I was trying to detour him by ignoring it and hoping it would go away. I couldn't tell him the truth even though he was my best friend. He was a die hard Christian like everyone else in this town, and Lisa was right Jimmy was a blubber mouth. And I didn't fancy getting beat up every day; I could go up against one or two but against a group I was pretty helpless. So it had been my mission for about a year to get rid of that feeling. And I couldn't find how to do it. I had tried being disgusting and mean. I had tried ignoring him or just being buddy buddy. I had even kneed him in the groin once when I had found him breathing deeply over me while I slept in class one time; he had never really forgiven me for that. But none of it had worked, he still gave me his sad puppy dog eyes. He had never even looked at another girl. He probably thought I was completely oblivious or that I thought he was a geek like everyone else. Jimmy had no self esteem. It really was kind of annoying to be the object of a guy's attention when you knew there was no hope of it ever happening.
At the particular moment I was fending him off once again. He wanted me to stay help him out with the school play this semester. He did the lights, and he was pretty good. I wouldn't have minded working on the play, but it was really a one man job so I knew it was just a ploy to get into a small box with me.
"I told you Jimmy I can't I have stuff to do at home."
"Like what Evie. All you do is read-"
"I like to read," and before he could speak again I continued with, "and I have things to do around the house like clean and make dinner. You guys stay until like six o'clock. I can't so that my dad is counting on me. I'll help you out on the weekends like always Jimmy."
Jimmy didn't look happy but he knew where to push his luck and when I pulled the 'I don't have a mom to take care of these things for me' card he didn't push it. It was like these people had never seen a single parent. It was like they thought I was disabled or something because I didn't have a mom. I didn't really see the benefit of one. My dad and I got along just find and he never pressured me to do what I didn't want to like attend church. So Jimmy pouted a little as we talked about high school drama like Dan and Heather's big break up at the mall until he had to go the play practice at 3:30, a half an hour after school ended.
It was on my way home I marveled over the predicament of the day. I had been very surprised when Lisa had sat down next to me at lunch, and I didn't really know why in hell I would have accepted her offer. God knows I didn't really need the money and I didn't give a shit about my looks, but what can I say I'm a sucker for a girl with a cute smile and Hello Kitty underwear, and it wasn't really like I had anything else to do. Whatever I go if nothing else I would get free pizza out of it, and if it didn't work out I could always quit. It wasn't like she could or would force me to do it. Well ... I could quit unless she offered something more temping than pizza, like per say that nice little ass I had gotten such a good view of today when she sat down in her miny skirt. It was because of this train of thought that I almost missed them. Brad and Lisa making out like no tomorrow on the bleachers.
I was completely shocked. I knew that they'd been going out since the day they were born, but I had never thought Lisa would let Brad make such a public act. He was practically on top of her. He was so big as was his letterman's jacket that you could barely make out Lisa. You wouldn't have even have known she was there if it wasn't for a part of shapely legs dangling beside Brad's. They were really going out at it and it was kind of disgusting, but I just couldn't look away. So this was her after school activity. It was the only thing that went through my mind as I stood there dumb struck with my mouth open and my bag on the ground at my feet. Then he moved over a little and pulled away from her mouth as he started to nuzzle her neck and suddenly I could see Lisa. She looked ... amazing ... with her back slightly arched, her eyes closes and her hair flung back from her face. Apparently Brad had found a good place because her leg was rubbing up against his, and I would bet money that she was making cooing noises with that full mouth. Then Brad started to dive under her shirt and because of his big hands and her tight shirt he shoved the whole thing up and I could see her Hello Kitty bra again. By this time I was totally captivated by her and couldn't have looked away even if the world was coming to the end. I was also getting very aroused, biting my lip because I wanted it to be me down there attempting to unhook that ridiculous bra. I wanted it to be my slender fingers giving Lisa so much pleasure not Brad's broad, clumsy ones. But that would never happen so I watched and just when it seemed like Brad was finally going to get the damn thing open, and I was finally going to get a look at the perfect breast Lisa seemed to feel my intense stare or realize where they were. Her eyes sapped open with an astounding clarity for someone who had just been going at it. She started to look around them. I could hear her, "Brad ... Brad stop. Think about where we are." She pushed at his shoulder with her tinny hands, and he sat up. Lisa started to put herself to rights still looking around, and I came to my senses. What the hell was I doing. I grabbed my bag and quickly started to walk way hoping Lisa hadn't seen me.
I walked home almost in a run. What was I thinking?! Watching them together! What if someone had seen me? God damn it! I was a year away form getting the hell out of here without anyone finding out. Shit! What was going on with me? Fuck! Fuck! Fucky fuck! I really need a cold shower.
Upon reaching home I saw that I still had a half an hour until Lisa was to arrive meaning that I couldn't have been watching them for more than ten minutes which would make the chances good that no one had seen me. The street by which I was standing was rarely used and the school traffic had died down by the time I had stumbled on them. What I really needed was a cold shower both because of my mad rush home and my response to what I had seen. Thankfully I had just enough time. I popped in and out of my shower, trying not to think about what I had witnessed.
I had just put my clothes and was drying my hair when the door bell rung, heralding the first of many changes that would happen to my life due to Lisa Chambell. I could already feel my cheeks start to heat.