Sunshine and Shadow

Warnings: This is NC-17. It is GRAPHIC. There is non-consensual sex, a lot of it. There is yuri (girls with other girls), a lot of it. There is physical and psychological torture, a lot of it. And there probably won’t be a happy ending. If these things squick you, make you want to be mad at me, erm *points to the warning* You are warned.

On a lighter note of warnings: It’s a Tolkein Rip Off Shameless Self Insert (Admittedly, I can’t name even one elf-fantasy store that ISN”T a Tolkein Rip Off.) If you hate SI’s on principle, don’t flame me about, kay? I will point to the warning here and laugh.

Finally, I hope at leone one other person enjoys the story! That’s why I am sharing. I’ll shut up now and let you get to it!


Sunshine and Shadow
Chapter Three

"We shall call you Sunshine," he whispered in my ear as I tried to drown out the horrors of the day in sleep. The group of men had finally stopped for the night, erecting several shelters and starting numerous fires. I had hoped, to be allowed to at least sleep outside, where I belonged, but the silky one had dragged me into his shelter. Shi had been shoved into another. I longed for the feel of the breeze, the scent of spring, and more than ever I longed to be able to call on nature. If just to feel the world about me again. I could live without revenge if I could simply have my freedom again. And Shi's as well.

"Sunshine and Shadow," he whispered. "My Lady will be pleased. Perfect complements."

I shivered, visibly. Shi and I had been called similar things when we had been lovers. For I was Light to her Dark. I was pale with silver hair and eyes. Her body was that of a warrior strong, and gracefully muscled. Mine was that of a scholar, a sorceress, small, dainty. She had favored dark clothes of mottled browns. I had tended towards dresses of vibrant greens and blues. We had seemed perfectly paired.

"That bothers you, Sunshine. I can tell. Do not worry, I cannot have you until after my Mistress takes what she pleases. You are not mine to enjoy, yet. And I will not touch Shi, nor let any other, until we arrive in the City. For then what threat do I have? Why does that threat bother you so? Are you so barbaric that you lie with your own sex? I had heard tales. I would not be surprised."

I did not answer, and simply curled away from him, as close to the opening of his shelter as I could get. I tried to listen for the sounds of nature, but they seemed impossibly distant.

"Yes, you are. It has been said that the females of your kind who lie with other females are interested in nothing but sex."

He moved closer to me, placing his arms around my shoulders. "Would it be raf yof you were willing? Then you would simply be the whore my Mistress expects." I tried to move yet further away, bumping into the flimsy side of the building we were in.

"Careful, don't want it to fall down. Unless you prefer to be watched?" He laughed then. "I have heard that is the preference of your kind. With no shelters to offer privacy."

I remembered the times Shi and I had been together. It had been a matching of souls, borne out of love. They had been the most private and intimate moments of my life. This man was so ignorant as to insult something he knew nothing of. I could hold it in no longer. Perhaps he would kill me, if I provoked him enough. Perhaps he would kill my friend.

"And I have heard that your kind mate with anything from the pigs, to yourself," I spat at him. "I have heard that you know nothing of love, or souls, and join for only physical pleasure." I had struggled to stand up, my arms and ankles still bound, but I had managed.

This time I expected the blow, and dodged his outstretched fist. His knee barely missed my stomach, as I moved out of the way. Anger seemed to grow in his eyes and he shouted.

"Allan!" Another man entered the shelter. It was the one I had seen holding Shi, so long ago. He grasped my shoulders tightly. His strength was surprising and I found that I could no longer dodge the silky one's blows. He slapped my face forcefully.

"You will not speak to me again, unless I ask for an answer!" he bellowed, striking out at my legs, causing my balance to falter. "And you will not stand in my presence unless I have ordered it!" He kicked at my legs once more, and I fell to my knees wincing at the pain. He punched me three times in the stomach, bringing the force of his blows down rapidly. "And you will NOT dodge. If I wish to punish you, I will." He ran his hand along my face and I could not help but flinch.

He punched my face, close fisted this time, drawing blood from my nose. "I SAID you will not dodge." He ran his hand down my cheek and I forced myself to be still. He then kneeled, bringing his mouth to my face. I shuddered as he licked along my face, lapping up the blood he had drawn. "I will have you," he whispered breathfully, "but only after my Mistress is done. Take her Allan. I think I shall not be able to control myself."

"Yes Lord." Allan lifted me to my feet roughly and dragged me along outside. I tried to slow down the process, to feel the grass beneath my feet, to smell the spring in the air, to hear the call of the owls. All I felt was panic as Allan drug me into another shelter. "Please..." I whispered.

He backhanded me absent mindedly. "Did I ask you anything?" he asked tauntingly. I stared at the sky, trying to see the stars, surprised by another blow. "I said. Did I ask you anything?"

"No." I answered, still trying to feel something, anything. He pulled me roughly into the shelter and dumped me unceremoniously upon the floor of it. I curled within myself and attempted to sleep. Perhaps I would wake up to less trying circumstances.