If I Knew Then....

AN: Sorry for the extreme hiatus folks. Writers block has set in. BlackOpalReborn was/is my other name. The entire story has been edited. Minor revisions. Also - new story up called - "Waiting" Enjoy!

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I could see that my lack of “shock and awe” had stunned his lord assholeness a bit. What had he expected? Me to cry and gnash my teeth together crying “oh woe is me?” It wasn’t as if I had actually wanted to be a were-anything. Life just kept right on flinging shit my way.

His eyes had bled completely red again. “Do you honestly think know one cares or knows of any of our existences? If you do, you really are far more naïve and stupid than even I gave you credit for, kitten.”

He began to move steadily closer to my position leaning against the wall. I’d call it more of a saunter really. Like you’ve seen strippers or models walk on the catwalk? Now imagine it with less of the wild ass high heel step and more of the slinkiness. That would be his slow saunter.

“I don’t fucking care anymore….Master….” He still wasn’t getting why I was pissed.  Did he REALLY think that this conversation had really given me any more reason behind kidnapping me than, oh I don’t know, that he fucking just plain old wanted to? Maybe in hundreds of years of existence you just get these itches that have to be scratched. Or maybe Bram just had a psychological problem that had carried over from when he was a human.

He startled me out of my thoughts by two of his fingers tilting my face up to really look into his.  “I asked you what you really knew about were-leopard pards, did I not?”

“Yeah so what the fuck does that have to do with anything?” The two fingers quickly moved into a firm, slightly painful grip on my chin and jaw.

“Care to try that again? Unlike my childer, I do have all night and all day if I so choose…” Aw fuck. Why was it that vampire legends were never exactly accurate?!

“What the fuck” More pressure on my jaw. ”does that have to do with anything, Master?”

“If you had any knowledge, you would have known that any pard you joined would be treating you similarly. You are not “unique” in the abuse bullshit as you have thought it to be.  You are merely finding your place in our pecking order so to speak. And if you truly have not put two and two together kitten…I am the alpha, and you are far from it….”

Omigod! Was this bastard serious?! That still didn’t excuse half of the crap I had been put through. Seriously, what the fuck?!

“And do you believe honestly, oh Master Alpha Vampire Sir,” OK now his grip on my jaw was truly painful. He must have been picking up on my sarcasm. Shucks! “that ‘that’ is a decent excuse for kidnapping me?”

“Oh small bratty insignificant kitten…..do you think that I really care if you find it to be decent or an excuse of any sort? I shall explain it thoroughly for you…” He jerked my face to one side as he let go of my jaw and stood to look down at my position on the floor. “I do not care if something makes sense or not to you as long as you are a part of my family, or under my family’s protection. You do as you are told and perhaps you will be much more comfortable here with us.”

He ran a hand quickly through his hair, the light made the blonde streaks look rather like a white-ish color. Kind of cool really.  “When I took you, it was not my intent to just snatch you up as you seem to think. As you left  the gym you were being followed by someone…something….in either case, you were almost the last were-leopard in the city to be killed. Instead you are the last to remain alive.”  Sooo…wait….He was effectively saying that in order to save my life that evening he had to kidnap me.

Things still weren’t making sense for me. The whole abuse bullshit and all didn’t add up. Maybe I’m just a little bit slow or something. So sue me. Better yet, sue Bram! He at least was loaded!

“So you had no choice but to knock my ass unconscious and drag it here. Followed up by some excellent sessions complete with whips, chains, and oh I don’t know, BROKEN BONES?!” He didn’t move. I stood up and started towards him.  “WHY? NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE?!”

“Have you not been listening, kitten? Because I tried to make the change into our family as close to that of a pard as possible.”

“Really?! Are you fucking serious?! This is ‘NORMAL!?’ You said you had been watching me at some point…Didn’t you think for a moment that I had NO interaction with a pard and would be completely fucking freaked out by being

thrust into a situation like this?!” I was right up in his face now as he stood unmoving as I screamed into it. “NONE OF THIS IS NORMAL! YOU CAN’T TELL ME THOSE ARE THE ONLY REASONS WHY YOU TOOK ME?!”

Bram actually smirked and chuckled darkly at that point. “Of course not…However I do not answer to you kitten.  I took you in a fashion that was surely not my first choice, but I will never say I have not enjoyed it….” He leaned down

into my face only to stop a few centimeters from my face. His lips were….oh god…So much for any protests and tirades I was about to have.

***

He truly was a sight when his dander was up, so to speak.  Martin had yet to figure out that kissing him was hardly a chore for me and it was a most effective means of getting him distracted and to finally shut up. I had my serious doubts about whether or not it made him think any more.

I fisted a hand in his hair and tilted his head backwards so that I could lightly lick a few stripes up the sides of his neck, nuzzling gently where his pulse was located.  I shall admit, originally my intentions had been good, but I was not lying when I said I was alpha. He would have to learn and earn his place amongst us. Everyone else, whether on staff, or in my family, had learned theirs’ quickly and easily. Why was he so difficult?

I moved my lips up the side of his face, to his mouth. He tried to twist away to avoid my kiss, but I merely tightened my fist in his hair, causing him to gasp and open his mouth enough for me to being my assault.  It would only serve to be even more enjoyable breaking him in thoroughly to where he ranked in my eyes in this household…I shall also admit to being a sadist in the purest form.

I broke off the kiss. “Martin…you shall learn your place here.  I apologize only rarely and shall do so now…and only once so pay attention.” His eyes locked with mine with challenge and question.  Oh yes, I was definitely enjoying this.

“I apologize for the way in which you were introduced to this family, however I shall never apologize for saving your miserable kitten ass, whether you are please by the way in which it has occurred or not.” He opened his mouth, his smartass comments already read in his mind, but stopped short as I tightened my grip in his hair. “I apologize specifically for assuming you knew more about pard life than you did and being rather harsh, this information

considered.  However….now that you are aware of my rules…you shall get no more apologies from me for your treatment.  Remember rules and follow them, and you will get more freedoms and more of my respect. Continue to fuck up as you like to think of it as, and everything else you have endured so far will seem as if it were a cake walk.”

He shuddered. Oh dear, it seems my eyes had gone completely red and my fangs had completely elongated. “Do you understand me, kitten?”

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What was I supposed to say? Damn the vamp could kiss! I still was freaking confused. Sean, Blue, and Sebastard had seemed to all get it, and lived by the rules.  It was true that they all allowed him to be their alpha in a sense. I didn’t fucking want this though! I would have to be subservient for a while…

“Yes.” His hand tightened again, this time though he didn’t say anything, but merely arched an eyebrow.

“Yes, Master.” He let go and I collapsed to the ground. Shit! That I hadn’t expected.

“Kitten, I do hope that we shall begin to get along better….” Uh huh? Really?

“Also, Kitten?”

“Yes?” More pauses, and Bram had adopted a look on his face of infinite patience. Right…. “master…”

He continued to walk towards the door with his back turned towards me as I just sat slumped on the ground. He paused at the doorway.

“Another reason behind your treatment?” Ok wait…more reasons?! “I think it is best to inform you that Were-leopards are in fact cherished pets or what you probably would consider to be slaves for vampires. And I want you to be mine….” My mouth dropped open in shock and complete anger that I did my best fish impression while he shut and locked the door. FUCK! You have got to be kidding me!

***

Thaddeus sat with me…well at least as close to sitting with me as he could.  Bram had implemented the first aspect of my next punishment and hopefully the last for a while. He was muffled through the locked door, but was doing a good job at talking loudly enough that we could converse a bit.

“So why did you cut your hair again? I mean, Sean, agapi mou, that’s just stupid. You KNEW how much he liked it that way, and with everything else that had gone on recently….damn.”

Yes my timing was bad. “I’m sick of being a weakest link, Thaddy.  Sire adores me but let’s face it, any time anything happens, I’m the first one to be looked at as not threatening.  Hell, even Martin was looked at as more of a threat than I!” My silver manacles clanked a bit as I moved my hands up to rest on my knees as I sat leaning back against the wall.  They burned, but after having a silver cross with holy water branded into my back, this seemed to be nothing.

“I’m tired of being the delicate china doll.” I think I heard Thad’s grin before his laughter actually.

“Sean, you are too pretty even with short hair to be considered anything other than delicate, but a china doll never. You’re not fragile and Bram knows that as well. “ He paused for a moment. I tried not to read his thoughts, but it was hard not to.

“You know more of the reasons why Bram took Martin, don’t you?!”

“Stay the fuck outta my head, Sean. You know better.” He hissed through the door.

“Yeah so, you were debating on telling me anyways, and I didn’t get it…so tell me!”

I heard him stand up as if to leave. Shit then I’d really be in solitary confinement like I was supposed to be. Bram had completely severed any mental links with me.  It felt like a rather large hole, but thankfully Thad and even Sebastian for whatever reason hadn’t. “Please tell me before you leave Thad. I’m stuck in here for the next two nights....”

“You know how you’ve never been to an actual ‘court’ or vampire ball?”

“Well yes?”

“That’s why you don’t know.  Were’s, particularly leopards, are looked at as a hot commodity. Other than the fact that someone’s been going on a killing rampage for the leopard pards, Bram wants Martin literally as a pet/slave. It’s a sign of position.  I just never thought he’d ever take one….let alone in this fashion; although the homicides are a good reason…but I digress.”

I was dumbfounded.  A pet? A slave? I suppose Thaddy was right. I’ve never been to a court or one of the mass balls.  I wouldn’t really know about all of our customs and sessions.  Something besides just hunger began to gnaw in my stomach.  I was feeling guilt.  Poor Martin. That explained why Bram was insisting on being called Master by him…which had not made much sense to me to being with….

“Thad?” He had left me to myself; my guilty feelings, sadness…and an emotion I had not felt in a long, long time….a small amount of the green eyed monster known as jealousy. At least it would be dawn soon…

***

Sebastian  was not the best looking of his brothers to say the least, but he was definitely the one with the most determined, stubborn spirit. It would be such a pleasure to break that eventually.  I pushed my hair up out of my face as I traced circles over his back.  He had fallen asleep on his stomach. He was right, at least that evening about not being on the bottom.

Thankfully I was versatile enough to actually enjoy bottoming every now and again.  Bastian was an excellent  lover…I had not expected any less of one of Bram’s childer.  In fact, I would’ve been shocked if my brother’s childer were remotely poor in bed.

I got out of our bed and stalked over to the window.  When you were my age, you were actually lucky enough to be able to withstand sunlight in short amounts, and you have the pleasure of waking earlier.  The rays of the sun were just starting to go down over the horizon. Excellent. It was time to show Bastian just who was on the bottom and who would be submitting in this arrangement.

I pulled a blood bag out of one of our duffel bags and sank my teeth into it thoughtfully.  Our arrangement was simple. Get him out of Bram’s direct family, help him to join a new one, and he would give me what I wanted…So I’m a vampire with simple but also extreme tastes….Sex….no vanilla.

Bram was a sadist….but he paled in comparison to what I was capable of putting my lovers through. Sebastian really did not have a clue. He thought himself to be all top, and no bottom.  Oh how I would get him to sing. Breaking him to my cock was going to be a pleasure.

Tossing aside my now drained blood bag, I stared at Bastian’s delectable derrière. I wonder if he had ever woken for the evening already with his lover being balls deep in him?  There was always a first time for everything.

I spread his cheeks and looked down at small pink rosette I was presented with.  Knowing Bram, he was not cherry, but either way, he had probably bottomed rarely within his brethren.  I spat into my hand and began to jerk my length.  Before anyone thinks anything about my having been an Asian human and “length” being in the same sentence….let me just say a big “Fuck You!” I am respectably long, 8”, but it’s my girth that generally frightened my lovers.  Imagine a few centimeters short of a coke can.

I smirked a bit evilly.  I was going to wake him up with just the first thrust. He was starting to move slightly. Show time.  I spat one more time on my hand and slicked up my dick a bit more, lined up my dick and thrust home in one strong motion that immediately had the waking Bastian bucking upwards with a scream.

“That’s right baby….oh…wait! You said you never bottomed!” I thrust hard as he continued to buck up, struggling to dislodged my cock from his tight hole.  Oh yeah…He felt virgin but definitely wasn’t.

“What the fuck, Kai?! Get out of my ass.”

“Oh wait, Get off on your ass? With pleasure!” I thrust forward leaning up over his back, attempting to push my legs between his more to keep them spread and allowing me to get deeper in his sweet ass.

“Kai!” He kept trying to push me out. It only succeeded in squeezing me harder and tighter. I grabbed one of his arms and twisted it quickly up behind his back.

“That’s right baby, keep yelling my name and struggling! You’re only turning me on more….That’s right keep bucking up against me!” I felt him falter, apparently surprised for a moment, and began to struggle more earnestly.

“This is sick, get the fuck off of me!”

“Bastian….”I angle my thrust and felt him shudder as I hit that special spot of nerves inside him.  He moaned. Oh yeah. Just like that again!

“T-this wasn’t what I agreed-“ I cut him off, angling my thrust again.

“Make a deal with the devil….” I thrust harder and deeper this time making him scream. Expect the rules to change.

***

I woke up in a different room, again, than I had fallen asleep in.  I was relieved to still have a pair of boxer shorts.  A plate of pancakes sat to one side on the floor next to me. Nice. I went to stretched and was pleasantly surprised to find myself not chained up….make that except for a fucking collar. Still still…this was better than most  morning/evenings/ whatevers so far in this hell hole in a beautiful shell!

I picked up one of the pancakes and folded it up like a taco and basically inhaled it. I really don’t think I had even swallowed or chewed one iota.  Looking around I was a bit disappointed that the only furniture was a large pillow that I had been sleeping on. Bummer.

It was definitely time to explore. I had no idea what time it was, or where in the “castle” I was…for fuck’s sake, for all I knew I could’ve been locked in a fucking tower like Rupunzel or something. Major suck! I grabbed two more of the pancakes to take with me and headed to the door.  I paused and listened.  It didn’t sound like anyone else was moving around….but ok I’ll admit, so far the vamps were 10 and 0 for me on being able to hear their movement.

I took another bite and opened the door. Afterall, what was the worst that could happen? I’d break another ankle? HAHA! Well….I could be horribly mistaken after all.  A rather short squat man stood out in the hallway staring at me with his arms crossed his chest. Um….hello? “Hi?”

He whacked me hard with what seemed to be a small whip before I could even blink.  “Try again properly, slave….”

Oh…can’t I just have ONE good morning/evening?!