Unforgivables

(((gabriel\'s pov)))


Walking back inside I sat at the island. His words were playing in my head. I had a guard who made sure nothing bad happened to me? That wasn\'t true. Was it? That man...he didn\'t protect me. He was just always there. It wasn\'t my fault, I didn\'t ask him to! I didn\'t even want him there. I wanted him as far away from me as I could possibly have him. It made me uncomfortable and...uneasy.

So that was slightly redundant. Whatever. My eyes shot up as Nicholas entered the room and then they went strait back to the table in front of me. I hated him. I hated him so much. Nicholas had been the first person to rape me and I knew that he had gone to the others and said something because not soon after I had found myself at the mercy of god only knew how many men. Sometimes the same guy and sometimes not. I couldn\'t keep track anymore.

\"Where is Christopher?\" Nicholas asked me. \"Do you know?\"

\"He\'s in the field.\" I said quietly. \"He went out there to think for a while.\"

Nicholas left me then and I let out a sigh of releaf. The less time I had to spend around that guy the better. I just really didn\'t like the look he had on his face and I never had. He just had a really back look to him. I looked up again as that man came in and keep an eye on him as he went to the fridge.

\"Can I get you something?\" I asked softly. It was my job after all. Not one person ever came into the kitchen to get something their self. I always had to get stuff for these guys. \"Sir?\"

\"I have hands and feet.\" he told me. \"I am perfect capable of getting things myself.\"

I rolled my eyes behind his back. \"Don\'t tell anyone else that or I might be out of the job.\"

He looked back at me and I looked away. That had been slightly rude and I had meant it against the other guards. \"What do they do to you?\" I blushed at the question. \"I\'d like to know.\"

\"Doesn\'t matter.\" I answered. \"Besides, no one will stop them.\"

\"I can stop them.\" he told me. \"What do they do to you?\"

I looked at him now. \"What is your name?\"

He smirked. \"My name doesn\'t matter to you.\"
Figures. Every time I asked him what his name was he always gave me the same answer, that it wasn\'t my concern. Some bullshit like that. Something that really didn\'t even make sense. \"Forgive me for wanting to know what to call you during these lovely little talks we have.\"

He closed the fridge and walked up to me. \"Come with me.\"

I stared at him a moment. \"Come with you where?\"

\"Just come with me.\" He grabbed my wrist and pulled me along.

We went out the back door and over to the barn. My heart was thundering in my chest. What did he want with me? I had actually found some kind of comfort in the guy so if he was planning what I asumed he was planning then...oh god I couldn\'t think of that. When we got into the barn he let me go so he could close the door. He grabbed my arm once again and pulled me towards one of the little offices there were. Now my heart was really pounding because I remembered fully well what the guards used these little offices for. Boy did I remember.

\"Why are we here?\" I was backing away from him as he closed the door. He turned back to me but didn\'t answer my question. \"Why did you bring me here?\" he walked up to me and I looked down. \"If you plan on raping me I would suggest you do it at night.\"

\"That\'s what the others have done to you?\" he asked and I gave him a small nod. \"They have raped you?\"

I shrugged. \"Like I said,\" I looked up at him. \"Not like you can stop it right?\"

His hand lightly touched the side of my face and I turned my head and closed my eyes. \"You grew up Gabriel...though I\'m not sure in all the right ways.\" his breath was running over my face now. \"What was your first sexual experience Gabriel?\"

My mind tripped over itself. \"That...that is none of your concern.\"

\"You can tell me.\" he reasured. \"I promise not to tell anyone else. Not like I talk to these guys here anyway.\"

\"If I tell you,\" I looked up at him now to find us really close. \"Will you tell me your name?\"

\"Swear it.\" he nodded.

I looked away from him. \"I lost my virginity to my best friend. Someone I loved very much but never had the chance to tell him how much I truly did. I never had the chance because...because people like you killed him.\"
He was silent a moment. \"What was his name?\"

\"I don\'t want to say.\" I answered. \"All I have of him is memories and I wont give those to you.\"

\"What\'s wrong with making new memories?\" I stepped back with him and my back hit the wall. \"By the way, you know my name.\"

My head went up and he was kissing me. I sat there shocked. This was nothing like one of the kisses that the other men gave me. This kiss was soft, and sweet, and gentle. I actually closed my eyes from the pleasure. My hands slid to his shoulders as he licked my lips and I opened my mouth to let him in.

His hands grabbed behind my legs and he lifted me up so he could pin me against the wall. A swarm of bad memories slapped me in the face. I began to struggled against him. Trying to get him to let me go.

\"Please get off...\" I whimpered. \"Please...\"

\"Shh.\" he stopped kissing me and held me close. \"I\'m not going to hurt you. Calm down Gabi, calm down Gab. You\'re okay now.\"

I looked at him. \"What did you call me?\"

He smile softly at me. \"You\'re even more beautiful now Gab, it\'s amazing.\"

My mind was flooding. This couldn\'t be...he looked so different. I quickly pushed him off me and ran to the other side of the room. \"Don\'t do that! You bastard why would you do that? Don\'t! How dare you! How dare you talk to me like that!\"

Slowly I slid down the wall and hugged my knees to myself. I didn\'t want this. I didn\'t want feeling. I wanted to be alone and to make everything go away. \"Gab...\" he said softly. \"Gab look at me.\"

I shook my head defiantly. \"Leave me alone...please.\"

\"Gabriel look at me this moment!\" he ordered.

Slowly I let my head raise and I gasped seeing what I saw. Pale, white skin had taken place of the tan, golden, cat-like eyes had taken place of the brown, and layered, shoulder length hair had taken place of the short brown. Alexis...that was Alexis...

\"Oh my god...\" I tried to get further away but I was against a wall. \"Oh my god...\"

\"It\'s been a while hasn\'t it?\" Alexis asked me. \"Since we\'ve /actually/ seen each other.\"
He walked over to me and I tried to back away again. \"This is a trick...a horrible trick. Alexis is dead...you\'re dead.\"

A smile graced his lips. \"Gabi, you can\'t kill something that is already dead to begin with.\"


A/N : Muahahahaha. Well, that was fun. I am thinking about having the next chapter be a sex scene.

sex scene Vs. no sex scene

I\'ll weigh my options. Though it does have to do with how many of you want to see Alexis and Gabriel do it. Because if I write a sex scene it will be between Alexis and Gabriel. You think about it and get back to me.


- When you finally realize what you have done...why is it always to late?