A Home For Jesse

Chris and Tyler sat in front of Tyler’s laptop Skyping to the jail in Colorado Springs. Chris had promised Tyler not to throw the laptop at the first sight of Adrian’s face but he was starting to regret that promise.

“I just want to know why you let us go a month not knowing that he was alive. Do you even realize what Stiles did to him?”

Adrian Murphy looked defeated and sick at her own actions, “Mr. Berkley, I was afraid. My mother is all I have left. When Stiles sent that picture to my phone I didn’t know what else to do but go along with what he wanted. I can’t tell you how it’s eaten at me, but I also can’t say I would do anything different.”

Tyler gripped Chris’s shoulder as Chris was about to yell again and spoke instead, “Ms. Murphy I’m sure any of us can understand your feeling the need to protect your family. I just don’t understand why you helped us get to Brazil. I mean we’d still be waiting if you hadn’t helped us.”

“It was my way of trying to make up for what I did. I’ve made sure my mother is safe, now, and I will help anyway I can, even from in jail.”

“Who was it at the home that sent the pictures?”

“I assumed an orderly or nurse, but when I looked up the number, it was a prepaid phone.”

“To find your mother so fast…it has to be a hacker working for him. Someone to override security. Maybe even law enforcement.”

“It’s possible. If he could get to me, then why not another cop? All I know, now, is you need to keep your people safe until he’s caught. He’s crazy but he’s also smart. He will strike out any way he can now.”

“We’re already starting on it.” CJ had flown back to the States to start to handle the removal and safekeeping of the families of everyone involved. Vernon was staying with the group in Brazil until they could leave which looked to be a few days away.

“Like I said, anything I can do. I’ve already given my former bosses the real documentation about the bodies found in Stiles’ house. They are still trying to find the connection to Stiles now.”

Chris nodded, “You know there is one. Stiles doesn’t do anything without a purpose.”

When the video call was over Chris went back into the room where Jesse and Manny were both asleep. As he sat next to Jesse’s bed, seeing his soft breathing, the peaceful look on his face he grew even more determined to keep him safe. He would do anything for this man, his man.

“You’re exhausted.”

Chris jumped as Jesse whispered this, “I’m perfect now that you’re back with me.”

“Christopher, I know you’re trying to be my big protective man, but why don’t you go get some sleep? Vernon is here, Luke’s here too. Go on, go to the motel, get some sleep, please?”

Chris felt like Jesse was asking him to tear off his own arm, but he finally agreed, “I’ll send Luke in. I want someone in here with you.”

“Okay.” Chris kissed him softly and got up reluctantly heading for the door. Jesse watched him go with a heavy heart but was glad when Luke came in.

“You look a little better.” Luke sat hard in the chair, looking almost as tired as Chris.

“I’m good. I wish Chris would stop worrying and get me out of here.”

Luke shook his head, “You have no idea what happened to him when he thought you were…”

“Dead.”

“Yeah, Jesse. I have to admit, I always hated the guy just a little. Pretty much partly blamed him for me and you breaking up, but seeing how much he loves you and how much you being gone messed him up…I know you two were the ones that were meant to be. Just like me and Kyle.”

“Yeah, I felt the same without him. You know, though, if it weren’t for you I would never have given him a chance, well any more than to fuck around with anyway. You let me know it was okay to fall for someone.”

Luke smiled, “Well, we showed each other a few things. Got us ready for the guys we were supposed to be with, but I’m really glad you’re still in my life. As my best friend now. I really missed you.”

Jesse felt tears and he didn’t mind them. He reached out and took Luke’s hand, “I’m only sorry I got you all into this. The family in danger now and all of it.”

“Allie said they were okay. Pissed, but okay. Oh, I forgot, she and Ingram are dating.”

“Ingram and Allie? That’s great. He was so infatuated with her.”

“He better be good to her.” Luke straightened his back and Jesse nodded in agreement. “So see, Jes, before you freak out about trouble you think you caused, which you didn’t, it wasn’t your fault Stiles is a dick, you have to think. My sister found Ingram because of you. If it weren’t for you I’d have never been with Kyle. Chris would still be bumping around looking for someone.”

“You’d have figured it out eventually.”

Luke started laughing, “Yeah after three or four years married to Hannah and not ever wanting sex maybe.”

Jesse and Luke visited for a long time while Chris went to the motel. He went to the bed but tossed and turned. He didn’t want to be in bed, at least not alone. He wanted Jesse with him. He couldn’t stay away from him for long so he went across the hall to the room Tyler was in and knocked.

“I thought you were sleeping.”

Chris went in and watched as Tyler poured them both a drink then sat on the bed. Chris took a gulp and sat in the arm chair, “I will sleep fine once Jesse is out of the hospital and he’s with me.”

“The doctor said tonight. Why don’t we go pick him up a little early?”

“I was thinking the same thing, but I need your help. I want to make a surprise for him.”

Tyler chuckled, “Always the romantic. I ever get a steady girl I will be coming to you for tips, you know that right?”

“I’d be happy to if you’d ever settle down with one and not fifteen!”

“One day when I’m very old.”

Chris got up and put the glass on the bar, “I’m going to go do a little shopping. You go pick Jesse up for me around 5.”

“How romantic is it going to be with Vernon hanging over you?”

“He can wait outside.”

Chris worked hard over the next three hours getting everything set for Jesse. He bought silk sheets for the bed, cokes, flowers, Brazilian food and American munchies, at least as many as he could find at the local markets. He found a cassette tape player and some cassettes of music he had listened to in high school that was romantic but not sappy.

Jesse walked into the room at 5:30 on the dot. He looked around at all Chris had done and laughed, “Chris, this does not look like you were resting!”

“I’ll rest after spending the evening kissing and hugging and watching you relax with me. So, you ready for a real coke?”

Jesse walked over and slipped his arms around Chris’s neck, his smile brightening Chris’s whole life. He kissed his top lip then his bottom lip and the tiny dimple in his chin, “I love you Chris.”

“Baby I love you too. Speaking of which I brought your watch. If you want it, it’s in my bag.”

“Of course I want it. It’s how you first told me you loved me you stubborn asshole.”

Chris’s fingers trailed over Jesse’s face as his other hand caressed his lower back, “We were both stubborn, but no more. No more denials, no more stubbornness, just you and me and spending every day together.”

“That is the plan.” Chris took Jesse over to the table where he had a box with a blue ribbon around it.  Jesse smiled, “What’s this?”

“Open it and see.”

Jesse took the ribbon off and inside the box were a thick white terry cloth robe and a bottle of massage oil. He looked at Chris confused.

“I thought I could lay you down on the bed and give you a nice massage before a night of watching a couple of movies and eating some really bad-for-us-junk-food. Add some meat to our bones.” Jesse nodded but seemed preoccupied, and a little down. Chris hooked his finger under Jesse’s chin and forced him to look at him, “What’s wrong baby? Too much too soon?”

“Chris I get that you don’t want to get any more intimate with me than a massage, I really do, after me being with Devin all this-“

“Shh, baby, you are out of your mind if you think I don’t want to make love to you for hours and hours, but he hurt you. You need to heal. I can wait to make love, I can wait until you are physically and emotionally ready, that’s all. It in no way means I don’t want you.”

Jesse shrugged sadly, “I just feel like damaged fucking goods now.”

Chris was angry and he never wanted to touch Jesse in anger but in this case he felt it perfectly appropriate. His fingers gripped his hair and he raised his face, kissing him hard and deep, driving his tongue into his mouth and crushing Jesse’s small frame to him tightly. He felt Jesse tense only for a second then melt into him and kiss him back hungrily.

When they parted their lips Jesse looked dazed and Chris groaned to him low, “You can be intimate without actual penetration, so if that’s what I need to do to show you how much I want you then you are going to feel every bit of my desire for you Jesse.”

He slowly took Jesse’s shirt off, doing a good job at not becoming angry again at seeing his ribs jutting out and ran his hands over his small chest while kissing his cheek and jaw. When he had Jesse naked he picked him up into his arms and carried him to the bed and laid him gently down, rolling him on his stomach then retrieving the massage oil from the table and kneeling on the bed to Jesse’s side.

He got the oil in his hands, rubbing it over them good to warm it then touching Jesse, tenderly kneading his hands over Jesse’s shoulders, back and buttocks.

“Chris that feels so good.” Jesse purred, letting out small sounds of happiness as Chris’s hands massaged down his legs and feet then back up.

“You haven’t felt anything yet baby, I’m only getting started.”

Jesse’s dreamy smile was exquisite. He felt Jesse’s skin under his hands and could not believe it was real, that his Jesse was really there with him at long last, that he was alive and whole, well at least as whole as he could be. Chris swore that he would take every memory of his ordeal away with loving touches and sweet kisses for the rest of their lives.

“Turn over baby.” Jesse lazily did as Chris asked and Chris took a small amount more of the oil on his hand then laid down beside Jesse running one hand over his chest and arms as he leaned up on his elbow staring into Jesse’s beautiful face.

He slid his hand down and took Jesse’s cock in his grip, and slowly, almost teasingly began to stroke it, every few strokes running his fingers down to his balls then gripping the shaft a little tighter and stroking a little faster. Jesse looked up at him a small smile playing on his lips while he began to breath faster. Chris leaned down and started to kiss him, sucking in one lip then running the tip of his tongue over the side of his neck. Jesse reached out to touch him and Chris shook his head slightly, humming his words into Jesse’s ear, “It’s all for you this time, baby. Just relax and enjoy it.”

Chris kissed him deeper, his hand gripping a little tighter still. Jesse’s body was alive with slow and easy waves of pleasure flowing through him from the attention Chris gave his mouth and cock, his neck and nibbles to his ear. Chris’s hot breath on his skin and whispered groans sent Jesse into an easy and relaxed orgasm that intensified quickly as Chris leaned down to take the last drops of his come into his mouth.

Jesse laughed and brought Chris’s mouth to his, kissed him deep then pushed his hair back from his face, “I’ve never come like that before.”

“Was it good?”

Jesse kissed Chris’s worried eyes, “Yes, it was the best. You make me feel so loved.”

Chris took Jesse’s hand and kissed his knuckles, “You are loved. Very loved, very wanted and very desired.”

“When we do make love again, the regular way, I’m still in charge right?” Jesse was only half smiling, so Chris knew he wanted a real answer but just in case he could say he was kidding. He knew Devin had done a number on his confidence.

“You’re in charge now.  Anything you want is yours. Anything you want me to do will be done. I belong to you…heart, body and soul.”

Jesse sat up and grabbed Chris’s face, giving him a piercing look, “Then you know what I want?”

Chills broke out over Chris’s body at Jesse’s commanding voice, “What?”

His eyes softened and he smiled, “Everything you had planned for us tonight. The movie, the junk food, and most of all when it’s time, I want you to hold me all night while I sleep.”

“Your wish is my command my love.”

They spent the evening enjoying one another, reexploring one another and feeling more themselves than either had in weeks. Chris took care of every need or want Jesse could think of with a wide smile and eager hands.

They found it difficult watching movies in a foreign language until they began to make up their own dialogue, then they turned Rocky and The Devil’s Own into gay romantic comedies that had them both rolling with laughter.

Chris could no longer protest Jesse making him feel as good as he made Jesse feel and was pushed down to the bed while Jesse used his mouth to send him into a screaming orgasm between movies but was allowed to make Jesse come again with his hands and mouth, then before they fell asleep they made love with the help of the massage oil and the friction of their bodies pressed together as they moved their cocks against each other, kissing and gripping onto one another until they were both painted with a layer of their mixed come on their stomachs and upper legs.

Chris feel asleep with Jesse wrapped tightly up in his arms and woke only once to sooth Jesse down from his nightmare. He wanted to cry feeling Jesse trembling, but it didn’t last long, Chris’s calming voice and gentle caresses had Jesse right back to sleep and they both slept the rest of the night together exactly where they both knew they should be.