House Cat [temporarily complete]

c.h.a.p.t.e.r t.w.e.n.t.y f.i.v.e

The full-grown slumped down onto the floor and let his head drop forward. Why couldn\'t the answer have been no?

He wasn\'t going to cry. He swore to himself under his breath as he felt hot tears stinging at his eyes-- how long would this torture go on for? Why couldn\'t it have been no? Why did his love shred him to pieces like this!

Dorian leaned back against the door and closed his eyes tight, screwing them shut and keeping in the hissed curses. \"If yes, then when?\" he rasped. \"When will you let us in?\"

Isiel sat up slowly, rubbing his eyes little as his ears began to perk up slightly. He felt bad when he saw how defeated Dorian looked and crawled to the end of the bed, unsure whether going any closer would even be tolerated let alone welcomed, \"Now?\"

Lifting his head, Dorian opened his eyes, though they remained narrowed. \"Now,\" he said in disbelief. \"You\'ll let us...\" he choked back the sob in his throat. \"...Love you, and make mistakes, and you\'ll stand up strong when something is hurting you, and you\'ll let us help you stay strong? You\'re just... you\'re just able to flick it on like a switch, you\'re able to say \'now\' like that? Why did it take getting this far before you\'d say yes?\"

Isiel tilted his head, managing to look a tad brighter as he thought about his response even if his heart still ached, \"....I don\'t want you to give up on me....I\'m not happy, but I\'ll try now and if it doesn\'t work I will go away.\"

Dorian sighed and ran a hand through his mop of raven hair. \"Don\'t do it for me. Don\'t do it for Eiji or anybody else. Do it for yourself. All we want is your happiness. All I want is for you to be happy, and for Eiji to be happy... and just maybe, for me to be happy, though more and more I\'m thinking that isn\'t possible. Maybe I\'m the problem here. I was the one who got in the way between you and Eiji, wasn\'t I? And I\'m the one upsetting you now and trying to force you to do things you don\'t want to. I\'m the one who upset you in the first place and I\'m the one that has always been the bad influence in your life.\"

Isiel jumped down from the bed, remaining on all fours as he approached Dorian, but still kept little distance between them, settling on his knees to watch the older neko and offer him a weak, but well-intentioned smile, an almost experimental expression for him after so many days of looking miserable, \"It\'s not that bad....I might be a stupid kitten still, but I couldn\'t love someone who always made me feel bad.\"

Dorian\'s gaze flicked up towards Isiel immediately, and he paled as he muttered, \"You couldn\'t what someone who always made you feel bad?\"

Isiel blinked and repeated the sentence slowly, looking slightly worried by the sudden drain of color from Dorian\'s face.

The black and white neko shuddered and wiped the tears out of his eyes before they fell, laughing slightly. \"I never thought I\'d hear that from you again in my life,\" he murmured in a weak voice, \"I wish I could kiss you right now.\"

Isiel scooted a bit closer to just within arms reach, his expression remained something close to calm, \"It\'s okay. I understand.\"

The neko narrowed an eye. \"Understand what?\" he mumbled.

The neko shook his head, thoroughly confused now. \"Wait. You understand why I can\'t kiss you? The reason I can\'t is because you still haven\'t forgiven me. What in the name of all that\'s sacred would you have to force me to kiss you for? I just said I wished that I could.\"

\"I have forgiven you...I just...\" Taking a deep breath he tried to collect his thoughts and not sound weak, \"It\'s not me that you love. I don\'t think it would be fair on either of us.\"

\"Of course it\'s you that I love,\" Dorian said slowly, frowning. \"Why would this torture me so badly, why would I put myself through hell all this time if I didn\'t? I happen to love Eiji as well as you, but I do love you, Isiel.\"

\"But you said....\" Isiel shook his head, pushing away the things Dorian had said in the heat of the moment and managing to look rather clueless at the same time. With a degree of growing confidence he hadn\'t shown in a long time Isiel shuffled the remaining distance between them and sat next to Dorian, \"Really?\"

\"Really,\" the black neko whispered, turning to face Isiel and leaning forward just slightly, brushing his lips across the boy\'s cheek. \"But you wouldn\'t give me that chance to tell you before. All you did was run away.\"

Isiel purred very softly, linking his hands around Dorian\'s arm and settling against his side, \"I thought it was hopeless when you said you hated me. I wanted to join Oriel.\"

\"Sadly, my little Isiel, it\'s very easy to love and hate a person both at the same time,\" Dorian murmured, licking the boy\'s cheek softly. \"But let\'s not worry about those, hm? Does this mean I can kiss you now?\"

Isiel closed his eyes as Dorian licked his cheek and a soft rumbling purr rose up in his chest. He wanted so much to feel better, to feel appreciated and safe once more that he nodded without hesitation.

Without another moment gone to waste, Dorian leaned forward and wrapped his arms around the smaller boy, and crushed his lips against Isiel\'s. Immediately a soft moan bled from him as he wrapped both arms and legs around the familiar body, and Dorian made a soft mewl as he ran his tongue along Isiel\'s lower lip. He let himself slide away from the wall and onto his back, so that he felt the weight of Isiel on top of him and between his legs.

Isiel was almost too wrapped up in returning the kiss to flail slightly as they suddenly shifted position and once more he was lying onto of the black and white neko. His affection and the love which still persisted even after the older neko had all but rejected him was blatant in his quiet enthusiasm and the way his body trembled in Dorian\'s embrace and his cheeks prickled with heat and intense color like a shy kitten receiving his first kiss.

Isiel pressed himself closer to Dorian, clutching at his shoulders as if he had nothing else to hold onto and although he wasn\'t quite as confident as during their last encounter, perhaps hampered by the fact that Dorian had lied to him he still willingly stole control of the kiss from him and slipped his tongue between his parted lips, exploring his body with more consideration than he\'d show anyone else.

Immediately the full-grown arched his back and mewled, sucking on the tongue that filled his mouth and slicking his own tongue along it, as his hands wrestled with the boy\'s clothes, willing them away if not trying to get them off Isiel\'s body. Between kisses he moaned out little whispering admissions, though mostly it was a serenade of \"Isiel, Isiel!\" over and over. How he\'d missed this, how he\'d needed this, how he longed for Isiel when he couldn\'t have him. \"Ohhh, Isiel, nnnnhh...\"

Isiel broke away just briefly to unbutton his shirt, at least conceding that liberty to Dorian even if he didn\'t intend on going as far as they\'d gone before - something about it just seemed wrong - maybe it was the idea of himself in a dominant role which although instilled into him to the point where he could give a convincing performance, was never what he truly desired or some sense of loyalty to Eiji he couldn\'t and wouldn\'t shake off. Leaning back down he captured Dorian\'s mouth for another passionate kiss, silencing his whispered chants and kitten-like mewling if only for a few seconds before he pulled away once more, unintentionally teasing him.

If it was anybody else with Dorian he would have taken the way Isiel was acting to be torture, but he knew that the boy wouldn\'t do such a thing even if he knew how. The elder neko was still driven to madness, intention or not on Isiel\'s part, and finally he grabbed hold of the smaller body and sat up. \"Not on the floor; we were so crude that first time,\" he hissed as he carried the half-naked boy to the bed and laid him out on it. \"I want this to be beautiful, as beautiful as you are,\" Dorian murmured as he was the one this time to get on top of Isiel. He slipped his tongue between the boy\'s lips and moaned low in his throat as one hand slid along Isiel\'s soft, bare arm and found the boy\'s hand, where he laced their fingers together and held on tightly.

Isiel gripped Dorian\'s hand equally as tightly, not wanting to ever let go. Beneath the warm weight of his closest friend he felt contented, safe and maybe even loved for the first time in too long and it showed as he curled his free arm round Dorian\'s neck, running hesitant fingers through his silken hair and settling eventually to stroke the nape of his neck encouragingly. Only when he was breathless, his chest heaving and lips swollen from Dorian\'s affections did he turn his face away, smiling to himself.

When the mouth was taken from him, he was still more than glad to have anything else to taste and touch. As Isiel turned his head away, Dorian lunged for the throat, licking and nipping gently before kissing hungrily. \"Nnnnh, Isiel... I love you so much...\" the neko breathed as he settled between the boy\'s legs and began to grind his hips against Isiel\'s groin. \"It\'s been hell for me without you...\" He growled for the first time in his life during play like this, instead of a mewl-- Dorian bit down upon Isiel\'s neck in the feline stance that a male took when taking his mate, and he gripped the boy\'s hand tightly while his other hand slid along the bare chest and his thumb brushed over a soft pink nipple.

Isiel felt his heart skip a beat when Dorian whispered to him and spread his legs further, whimpering in an utterly submissive, kittenish way. It was something of a luxury to be able to let someone else take the lead and he immersed himself in the strange, but not unwelcome sensation of stinging pain and pleasure as the other neko bit down upon his soft, sun-deprived skin and touched him so intimately, \"....love you too...\"

He couldn\'t take this play for much longer at this rate; Dorian decided to switch gears and slow things down again, and his hand slid along Isiel\'s stomach and hips and down to his pants, which he unfastened quickly and tugged down with the strange underwear. Tossing the clothes aside, he immediately turned his head and placed kisses on the boy\'s inner thigh-- soft, delicate pressing of his lips against the smooth skin he used to take seeing for granted. \"I hate that you have to wear these clothes,\" he whispered against the delicious-smelling skin. \"I can\'t see the curve of your legs or the round corner of your ass when you move just right while walking. Isiel... mmmh.... I love every part of you.\" He kissed along the thigh towards the groin but stopped there and turned to the other thigh to repeat the motions, this time running his tongue along the pale flesh.

A faint wave of vulnerability passed over Isiel as Dorian disposed of the clothing which kept his body so well hidden these days - it was true, although he\'d enjoyed the finery on some level he also longed for the freedom of his old modest attire that made him feel less like a normal human boy. Dorian\'s tender kisses, mere whispers over his skin tickled almost unbearably, and he covered his lips with the back of one hand, blushing furiously and trying not to squirm with delight.

When he saw he wasn\'t being pushed away, Dorian changed direction and continued his kisses down towards the waiting length. But, once more, when he reached it, he completely bypassed it, and his kisses trailed under the warm sac as he parted the legs before him a little further and pushed them forward, lifting the boy\'s rear off the bed slightly. \"Mmmmr, Isiellll,\" the elder neko breathed hotly as his tongue slid out from between his lips and touched against the smooth round flesh behind those legs. He ran the slick tongue along Isiel\'s skin with a drawn out moan, until his tongue slipped down between the soft cheeks and touched down upon the opening found there. He lapped at it several times, slicking and praising before touching the tip of his tongue to the entrance, waiting to see if he\'d be denied.

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