Nanowrimo 2008

ANS: Here you go.


That was exactly what Kyle did. Within forty five minutes of the rehearsal, he had fallen asleep. Kyle was still a little shaken up and had been sitting on Alex’s lap, letting the older boy rub circles on his back. He had been feeling drowsy, and curled up in Alex’s lap, letting the tired feeling take over.

Kyle had been breathing very erratically. When Alex heard his breaths slow down to relaxed breathing, he glanced down, and saw Kyle’s eyes closed. He smiled at the picture the boy made. Alex shifted in his seat to get to a more comfortable position. Kyle stirred due the movement, but did not wake up. It felt so right to have Kyle in his arms, and it was so comfortable. He too ended up falling asleep.

Darren finished the rehearsal and looked at the sleeping couple. He could not help the slight pang of jealousy that he felt. Yes … he was jealous of Kyle’s and Alex’s obvious blossoming relationship, though there were bumps in the road the two of them had to overcome, Darren knew they would find a way to be together. Unlike what most people might think, Darren was not jealous of Kyle. He was not afraid that he would lose his brother. They had a close relationship, and Alex would make sure that would not happen. He was jealous of Alex. He had liked Kyle since they first met freshman year in homeroom. That was why Darren always gave Kyle hell. Darren had thought he had been straight. Kyle changed Darren’s thinking without even realizing it. Darren hated the thought that he was into guys like that. He had disapproved when his older brother came out to their family about being gay, and to top it off, he was into kinky sex. He had not accepted it. He took it worse than their parents had and was harder on Alex. Then Kyle comes out of nowhere, and manages to win Darren’s heart and change his sexuality without even trying. It was absurd. Darren hated Kyle for doing that to him, and wanted Kyle to be miserable. Darren made it his duty to make Kyle miserable everyday that they saw each other. When Kyle and Alex met, and Alex took an interest in Kyle, Darren felt a burning jealousy well up from deep inside of him. That is why he had tried to sabotage Alex’s and Kyle’s relationship before it even started. He did not want to lose Kyle even though Kyle was not his. Kyle did not even like him as a friend at the time.

Now that Darren was gazing at the two sleeping together, he knew they were meant to be. They fit so perfectly together, like night and day. They belonged together. There were a lot of obstacles though. Darren would do everything he could to help Alex and Kyle get over the obstacles. He would give up his feelings for Kyle. All he wanted was Kyle’s and Alex’s happiness. Darren would find happiness with someone else.

Darren knew those pain killers had knocked Kyle out. There would be no way to wake him. He shook Alex who woke up with a start. Alex was a very light sleeper. He cocked his head at Darren. “Your rehearsal is over?”

Darren forced a smile, not even looking at Kyle. “Yes, we better get going.”

Alex made sure his arms were securely around Kyle before standing up. Kyle shifted in Alex’s arms, trying to get closer while Alex and Darren walked to the car. Darren let himself glance over at Kyle, seeing how comfortable he seemed to be in his older brother’s arms. Darren felt his heart breaking a little bit, but forced himself to smile. Kyle’s happiness meant the world to Darren now. He wanted to help Kyle get together with his brother, even if it hurt him in the process.

Darren opened the backseat door and Alex carefully sat him down. He buckled Kyle’s seatbelt, and then went to the drivers’ side. Alex looked to the backseat to make sure Kyle was still asleep. Sure enough, Kyle was still out, but seemed to be having a restless sleep. He was twisting in his seat. It reminded Alex of Kyle’s first night at his house, when he had that bad dream. Alex hoped Kyle would be ok until they got back to the apartment. The car drive to Darren’s house was silent, except for some whimpering out of Kyle. The dream was not too scary yet, or Kyle would be screaming. Just when Alex arrived at Darren’s house, Kyle’s whimpers turned to outright screams of terror.

Alex turned to Darren. “You go on inside. I will take care of Kyle.”

Darren’s eyes saddened and Alex did not understand why. “Ok.” Alex wanted his younger brother to wait and tell him what was bothering him, but Alex’s concern at the time was Kyle’s frightening scrams. Alex let the younger boy go. The twenty five year old got out of his car and went around to Kyle’s side and tugged the door open. He bent down and caressed Kyle’s cheeks. He took a hold of Kyle’s hand and simply rubbed it. He was just trying to give Kyle comfort, to let Kyle know that he was there and was not going anywhere. With the pressure on Kyle’s hand, the younger boy seemed to relax, and Kyle even leaned into the touch. Alex stood up and kissed Kyle’s forehead. He hoped that silent comfort would last until they got back to the apartment. Throughout the ride, there were still whimpers and small whines, but nothing too serious.

Once arriving at the apartment, Alex took Kyle in his arms. They made it into the elevator, and up to Alex’s floor without incident. Upon getting closer to the door, they saw a young man sitting down waiting next to their door. Upon closer inspection, Alex realized it was Kyle and Eric’s older brother, Jonathan, the one who prevented Eric from getting pummeled into the ground at the hospital.

Alex groaned, alerting Jonathan to his presence. He looked up with tired eyes. Jonathan saw Kyle limp in Alex’s arms and immediately grew worried for his younger brother. Alex must have known what he was thinking because he was quick to reassure Jonathan. “Don’t worry. Kyle took a couple of pain killers and fell asleep. He’s just knocked out from the medicine. It would be almost impossible to wake him up, and I would not want to anyways.”

Jonathan breathed a sigh of relief. “I really need to talk to you.”

“First let me get into the apartment, and put Kyle into bed.” Alex shifted Kyle to unlock the apartment door.

Jonathan eyebrows rose. “Into bed? Do you sleep with him?”

Kyle shook his head as he opened the door. “Don’t worry. You do not have to go into big brother protective mode. When I said ‘into bed’, I meant as the basic sense. We share a bed because Kyle has nightmares throughout the night. He feels safer when there is someone next to him. Nothing happens between us other then comfort though.” This was all said as Alex went to the bedroom with Jonathan on his heels. Jonathan watched as Alex lightly deposited his younger brother into bed, covering him up securely with the blanket.

Alex turned around and led Jonathan to the couch. “Do you want a drink?”

Jonathan shook his head. “No, I’m not planning to stay here too long.”

Alex nodded, waiting for Jonathan to continue. When Jonathan did not voice anything, he questioned Jonathan about what he was here for.

Jonathan looked at him with sad eyes, the trace of drowsiness long gone. “Do you really care about him, or are you just playing with his heart and fragile emotions?”

Alex raised his eyebrows at the direct question. “You know, you took Eric’s side over Kyle’s. I should probably be asking you the same thing.”

Very deliberately, he replied, “Just – answer – the – question.”

Alex sighed, feeling it was way too late to argue with Jonathan. “Fine, I do care about your little brother very much. My feelings are not strictly platonic though. I know Kyle feels the same way about me too.

Unfortunately, thanks to your other brother, Kyle is scared to death of a relationship with me.”

“Even if Eric was abusive, and I am not saying I believe that, why would he be scared of a relationship with you? Aren’t you “rescuing” him?” Jonathan still did not believe the notion that one of his brothers was hurting the other.

Alex sighed. “I am into a different lifestyle and I have numerous partners at one time. Eric also has numerous partners at one time. I have a feeling Kyle is comparing me and him. Since that is the same, he is scared.”

Jonathan sighed. “Do you honestly believe that Eric was hurting Kyle?”

Alex frowned. “I do not have to “believe”. I saw it with my own eyes more than once, him and his new sex partner Aaron. Eric has physically, emotionally, and sexually abused Kyle. Kyle has not told me for how long yet or many of the details, but I know it has been for at least a year, if not longer.” Alex took a deep breath. “Jonathan, it’s obvious you do care about your little brother. If you did not, you would not have come here. I still don’t know how you found out where I live, by that’s beside the point. If you care about Kyle, do the right thing for him.”

Jonathan looked like he was holding in tears. “What is that?”

“Let him stay with me. He is safe here.”

“What about our mother?”

Alex took a deep breath. He knew Kyle would be fuming at him if he told Jonathan the final thing, but there was no choice. Kyle needed to be kept safe. “Kyle will not do this with his own free will, and he is going to be furious with me when he finds out I told you to do this. Either tell your mom or go to the police.”

Even though Jonathan was starting to believe what Alex was saying about Eric, he still felt some absurd sense of loyalty to Eric. “I don’t even know what is fully going on. Why don’t YOU tell someone?”

“I can’t force myself to, but I want Kyle to get safe. And as for not knowing what is fully going on, you do not really need to know the details. The police will come to Kyle for them. Just tell them that he’s is being abused physically, sexually, and emotionally.” Alex noticed Jonathan’s hesitation. “You said you wanted to help Kyle. This is how you can help.”

Jonathan took a deep breath. “Ok, I will go to the police.”

ANS: R&R