Take Me From This Pain, Brian's story
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Category:
Angst › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
39
Views:
8,695
Reviews:
80
Recommended:
1
Currently Reading:
1
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Play with me
"Okay, put that last box in the truck," Matt told the moving men as he brought the last of his and Brian's things to the curb.
They'd packed most of Matt's room in the two weeks since they'd returned home and the moving company was taking it all to Boston for them. Since they'd already found a good apartment near the school, they figured they'd get out there a little early so Matt would have time to get ready for college. Brian would finish his high school degree through a GED home study course so he wouldn't have to go to school by himself. This suited both, as Matt was wondering how he was going to handle letting Brian out of his sight for school hours. The two planned to fly out in two days to get their new place set up.
Gary had been removed from life support soon after they got home from their visit to Connecticut, and Matt couldn't have cared less. The man who'd terrorized his boyfriend died that same day. Brian hadn't known how to react at first, but he seemed to relax more with each passing day. When Kevin had heard, he and Jason sighed in relief. Matt remembered the conversation they'd had.
"Dude, no offense to the dead, but thank goodness!" Jason said to Matt when Kevin and Brian were done talking.
"I know what you mean."
"How's Brian taking it?"
"I think he'll be better later, once he realizes the guy's never coming back."
"Yeah, well I think Kevin might just throw a party."
"He always was the feistier brother," Matt grinned.
"How are you and Brian doing?" Jason's voice held a more serious tone.
"We're good so far," Matt replied casually. "He sets the pace and he knows it. I won't do anything he doesn't specifically ask for. I'm not going to hurt him, Jay."
"I know."
"But Kevin doesn't."
"Kevin's getting used to it," Jason laughed. "My sister made him see things from your point of view when we told her."
"I thought you said she was good with what was happening."
"She is. But she was worried at first."
"Funny, Kevin didn't mention that before we left."
"Yeah, well, Kev's not big on letting you know he can identify with you."
"I hope he loosens up."
"Why? You planning on making this relationship permanent?"
"Uh, yeah," Matt growled into the phone as he finished folding the laundry he and Brian had done earlier. "And you're not?"
"That's different."
"How so?"
"Kevin's in a much better emotional place to handle a relationship," Jason argued. "I've been where Brian is and it took me years to get where I am."
Matt sighed quietly and sat down on the bed. If Jason was giving him this much trouble, what must Kevin be thinking, he wondered. But he knew Brian hadn't been casual about accepting his offer for the relationship to begin with. And he also knew that the small blonde would only feel comfortable with him. He'd said so. There was no reason they couldn't be together as long as Brian set the pace.
"Look, Jay, he said he wanted to be with me and I promised to abide by whatever restrictions he places on it. He believes me, why does nobody else?"
"It's not that I don't believe you," Jason countered. "It's just that I know damn well he isn't going to ready for sex anytime soon and you're a typical, red-blooded male. You're going to want some."
"I'd NEVER . . ."
"I know you wouldn't force him," Jason sighed. "I'm just afraid you'll get tired of waiting for him and find someone who is ready. That would kill him."
"I won't cheat on him, either!" Matt yelled into the receiver. "I can control myself, you know. It's not like I've actually HAD sex with a guy before." He suddenly shut his mouth and cringed.
"You're a virgin?" Jason asked in amusement.
"No! Not completely," Matt sighed. "I had sex with girls."
"So you're bi then."
"NO! I only had it twice and I didn't like it."
"It took you two times to determine that?"
"Stop pissing me off!" Matt grunted. "I was drunk both times and I hadn't accepted my sexuality yet."
"Look, it's not that. I'm just worried about Brian," Jason pleaded. "I know what he's going through."
"Believe it or not, I have an idea, too. He does talk to me, you know."
"He does?"
"Yeah. Ever since he talked to Cody and my dad he's been talking about it. Not to everyone. Just to me. It's like he wants to get it off his chest or something."
"He trusts you." Jason's voice now held a hint of respect. "He's telling you because he really trusts you."
"Took him long enough."
"Actually, it didn't take him long at all. It took me much longer to talk about it," Jason muttered. "You promise you'll never cheat on him?"
"I swear it," Matt replied. "Again. I already swore it to him."
It was a weird conversation, Matt thought now. But he didn't really mind it. Jason was just watching out for his lover's brother and Matt would probably have done the same to him in his place. But no one needed to worry because Matt really wanted to help Brian heal and have a long-term, hopefully permanent, relationship with him. Seeing his dad and Cody together made him realize such things were possible if he was willing to work at it. And he was willing to do anything for the small blonde.
"So, that's it then?" Brian asked as he walked slowly over to where Matt stood and watched the men close the back of the truck.
"Yep," Matt smiled at him. "That's it. Now they drive it out to Massachusetts for us and we meet it there."
Brian nodded and turned his brilliant green eyes to meet Matt's blue ones. He studied the taller boy for a while, seeming to be trying to decipher something.
"You okay?" Matt asked with worry. He hoped Brian wasn't having second thoughts about going with him.
"Yeah, fine."
"You sure?"
"Yes," Brian suddenly smiled and Matt's heart skipped a beat, as it always did during such a rare occasion. "You worried I'm having second thoughts?"
"It did cross my mind."
"Well, relax," Brian replied as he pulled Matt's hand into his own and led him back up the driveway. "I'm thrilled about Boston!"
"You're sure?"
"Positive!" the small blonde giggled. "I'm just a little sad that tonight's the last time we'll be getting together with Ryan, Sherry and Chris for a while."
"Me, too," Matt said as they stepped through the door. "Boy, Sherry and Chris wasted no time getting together, did they?"
"No time?" Brian squealed. "They've liked each other for at least a year!"
"They have?"
"Yes, Mr. Clueless, they have."
They reached Matt's bedroom and dropped down on their bed.
"How do you know?"
"It was so obvious!" Brian rolled his eyes. "They kept looking at each other all the time."
"So why did they never go out until now?"
Brian looked at him like he had a few too many heads on his shoulders. "Are you serious?"
"Yeah."
"Duh! YOU'RE the reason. Chris is good friends with you and on the football team. If he went out with your ex-girlfriend and you had a problem with it, how could he be sure you wouldn't have retaliated somehow?"
"Especially with how I'd been acting," Matt's face reddened with embarrassment.
"Hey, it's all good now," Brian pointed out touching Matt's cheek gently. "They're happy. And we're . . ." he trailed off.
"Very happy," Matt finished and gently touched his lips to Brian's.
Brian smiled and pulled Matt back in for a longer kiss, opening his mouth in invitation.
"You sure?" Matt asked worriedly.
"You'd know it if I wasn't," Brian sighed.
Matt needed no further encouragement and slipped his tongue slowly into Brian's mouth, reveling in the boy's sweet taste. He was very careful to make every move excruciatingly slow so that Brian had plenty of opportunity to stop him. But the small blonde didn't stop him and began whimpering in protest, undulating against Matt's groin.
"Oh, God, Bri," Matt whispered trying to pull away. "Don't do that. I don't want to lose control."
"I want you to!"
"What?"
"I want to make you lose control," Brian whispered against his lips. "I know we're not ready for sex yet, but can I play?"
"Play?" Matt's mind was reeling and he wasn't sure how much he could take.
"Yeah," Brian smiled. "You do it to yourself."
"Exactly WHEN did you see me do that?"
Brian smiled mysteriously as he began to undo Matt's shorts and slowly slip them down over his hips to reveal his boxers.
"In the shower," the small blonde finally said, blushing furiously and not meeting Matt's eyes.
"Uh, we've never showered together," Matt said slowly.
"Sometimes I sneak in when the water's running and you can't hear me," Brian shrugged, still looking down, but also still smiling.
"Naughty little thing, aren't you," Matt grinned and lifted Brian's chin with one hand. "What did you see?"
"You," Brian tried to look away but wasn't having much success. "You were touching yourself."
"You want to see me do that now?"
Matt was really getting turned on by the thought of Brian watching him while he showered but his heart sank as Brian shook his head.
"I want to touch you," Brian finally turned a mischievous look onto him. "I want to make you cry out."
Matt nodded and lay back in awe, and Brian reached for his boxers, removing them slowly. Then he looked into Matt's eyes while he slowly began to touch and caress the taller boy's shaft. Matt couldn't look away from Brian's brilliant eyes as he gave in to every sweet shudder and moaned.
"Like this?" Brian asked.
"Y-yeah."
Brian wrapped his petite fingers around Matt's hardness and began to stroke him in a steady rhythm. Matt tried to hold onto his control but Brian's caresses and careful gaze were too much. He reached his climax far too quickly but gave a shout and spilled into Brian's hands eagerly anyway. There would be other times, he told himself. Brian would probably want to do this again.
"You're so beautiful when you lose control," Brian whispered lovingly as he used a nearby towel to clean his hands and Matt's stomach off. Then he moved into Matt's arms and held him as they both drifted off into a peaceful nap.
They'd packed most of Matt's room in the two weeks since they'd returned home and the moving company was taking it all to Boston for them. Since they'd already found a good apartment near the school, they figured they'd get out there a little early so Matt would have time to get ready for college. Brian would finish his high school degree through a GED home study course so he wouldn't have to go to school by himself. This suited both, as Matt was wondering how he was going to handle letting Brian out of his sight for school hours. The two planned to fly out in two days to get their new place set up.
Gary had been removed from life support soon after they got home from their visit to Connecticut, and Matt couldn't have cared less. The man who'd terrorized his boyfriend died that same day. Brian hadn't known how to react at first, but he seemed to relax more with each passing day. When Kevin had heard, he and Jason sighed in relief. Matt remembered the conversation they'd had.
"Dude, no offense to the dead, but thank goodness!" Jason said to Matt when Kevin and Brian were done talking.
"I know what you mean."
"How's Brian taking it?"
"I think he'll be better later, once he realizes the guy's never coming back."
"Yeah, well I think Kevin might just throw a party."
"He always was the feistier brother," Matt grinned.
"How are you and Brian doing?" Jason's voice held a more serious tone.
"We're good so far," Matt replied casually. "He sets the pace and he knows it. I won't do anything he doesn't specifically ask for. I'm not going to hurt him, Jay."
"I know."
"But Kevin doesn't."
"Kevin's getting used to it," Jason laughed. "My sister made him see things from your point of view when we told her."
"I thought you said she was good with what was happening."
"She is. But she was worried at first."
"Funny, Kevin didn't mention that before we left."
"Yeah, well, Kev's not big on letting you know he can identify with you."
"I hope he loosens up."
"Why? You planning on making this relationship permanent?"
"Uh, yeah," Matt growled into the phone as he finished folding the laundry he and Brian had done earlier. "And you're not?"
"That's different."
"How so?"
"Kevin's in a much better emotional place to handle a relationship," Jason argued. "I've been where Brian is and it took me years to get where I am."
Matt sighed quietly and sat down on the bed. If Jason was giving him this much trouble, what must Kevin be thinking, he wondered. But he knew Brian hadn't been casual about accepting his offer for the relationship to begin with. And he also knew that the small blonde would only feel comfortable with him. He'd said so. There was no reason they couldn't be together as long as Brian set the pace.
"Look, Jay, he said he wanted to be with me and I promised to abide by whatever restrictions he places on it. He believes me, why does nobody else?"
"It's not that I don't believe you," Jason countered. "It's just that I know damn well he isn't going to ready for sex anytime soon and you're a typical, red-blooded male. You're going to want some."
"I'd NEVER . . ."
"I know you wouldn't force him," Jason sighed. "I'm just afraid you'll get tired of waiting for him and find someone who is ready. That would kill him."
"I won't cheat on him, either!" Matt yelled into the receiver. "I can control myself, you know. It's not like I've actually HAD sex with a guy before." He suddenly shut his mouth and cringed.
"You're a virgin?" Jason asked in amusement.
"No! Not completely," Matt sighed. "I had sex with girls."
"So you're bi then."
"NO! I only had it twice and I didn't like it."
"It took you two times to determine that?"
"Stop pissing me off!" Matt grunted. "I was drunk both times and I hadn't accepted my sexuality yet."
"Look, it's not that. I'm just worried about Brian," Jason pleaded. "I know what he's going through."
"Believe it or not, I have an idea, too. He does talk to me, you know."
"He does?"
"Yeah. Ever since he talked to Cody and my dad he's been talking about it. Not to everyone. Just to me. It's like he wants to get it off his chest or something."
"He trusts you." Jason's voice now held a hint of respect. "He's telling you because he really trusts you."
"Took him long enough."
"Actually, it didn't take him long at all. It took me much longer to talk about it," Jason muttered. "You promise you'll never cheat on him?"
"I swear it," Matt replied. "Again. I already swore it to him."
It was a weird conversation, Matt thought now. But he didn't really mind it. Jason was just watching out for his lover's brother and Matt would probably have done the same to him in his place. But no one needed to worry because Matt really wanted to help Brian heal and have a long-term, hopefully permanent, relationship with him. Seeing his dad and Cody together made him realize such things were possible if he was willing to work at it. And he was willing to do anything for the small blonde.
"So, that's it then?" Brian asked as he walked slowly over to where Matt stood and watched the men close the back of the truck.
"Yep," Matt smiled at him. "That's it. Now they drive it out to Massachusetts for us and we meet it there."
Brian nodded and turned his brilliant green eyes to meet Matt's blue ones. He studied the taller boy for a while, seeming to be trying to decipher something.
"You okay?" Matt asked with worry. He hoped Brian wasn't having second thoughts about going with him.
"Yeah, fine."
"You sure?"
"Yes," Brian suddenly smiled and Matt's heart skipped a beat, as it always did during such a rare occasion. "You worried I'm having second thoughts?"
"It did cross my mind."
"Well, relax," Brian replied as he pulled Matt's hand into his own and led him back up the driveway. "I'm thrilled about Boston!"
"You're sure?"
"Positive!" the small blonde giggled. "I'm just a little sad that tonight's the last time we'll be getting together with Ryan, Sherry and Chris for a while."
"Me, too," Matt said as they stepped through the door. "Boy, Sherry and Chris wasted no time getting together, did they?"
"No time?" Brian squealed. "They've liked each other for at least a year!"
"They have?"
"Yes, Mr. Clueless, they have."
They reached Matt's bedroom and dropped down on their bed.
"How do you know?"
"It was so obvious!" Brian rolled his eyes. "They kept looking at each other all the time."
"So why did they never go out until now?"
Brian looked at him like he had a few too many heads on his shoulders. "Are you serious?"
"Yeah."
"Duh! YOU'RE the reason. Chris is good friends with you and on the football team. If he went out with your ex-girlfriend and you had a problem with it, how could he be sure you wouldn't have retaliated somehow?"
"Especially with how I'd been acting," Matt's face reddened with embarrassment.
"Hey, it's all good now," Brian pointed out touching Matt's cheek gently. "They're happy. And we're . . ." he trailed off.
"Very happy," Matt finished and gently touched his lips to Brian's.
Brian smiled and pulled Matt back in for a longer kiss, opening his mouth in invitation.
"You sure?" Matt asked worriedly.
"You'd know it if I wasn't," Brian sighed.
Matt needed no further encouragement and slipped his tongue slowly into Brian's mouth, reveling in the boy's sweet taste. He was very careful to make every move excruciatingly slow so that Brian had plenty of opportunity to stop him. But the small blonde didn't stop him and began whimpering in protest, undulating against Matt's groin.
"Oh, God, Bri," Matt whispered trying to pull away. "Don't do that. I don't want to lose control."
"I want you to!"
"What?"
"I want to make you lose control," Brian whispered against his lips. "I know we're not ready for sex yet, but can I play?"
"Play?" Matt's mind was reeling and he wasn't sure how much he could take.
"Yeah," Brian smiled. "You do it to yourself."
"Exactly WHEN did you see me do that?"
Brian smiled mysteriously as he began to undo Matt's shorts and slowly slip them down over his hips to reveal his boxers.
"In the shower," the small blonde finally said, blushing furiously and not meeting Matt's eyes.
"Uh, we've never showered together," Matt said slowly.
"Sometimes I sneak in when the water's running and you can't hear me," Brian shrugged, still looking down, but also still smiling.
"Naughty little thing, aren't you," Matt grinned and lifted Brian's chin with one hand. "What did you see?"
"You," Brian tried to look away but wasn't having much success. "You were touching yourself."
"You want to see me do that now?"
Matt was really getting turned on by the thought of Brian watching him while he showered but his heart sank as Brian shook his head.
"I want to touch you," Brian finally turned a mischievous look onto him. "I want to make you cry out."
Matt nodded and lay back in awe, and Brian reached for his boxers, removing them slowly. Then he looked into Matt's eyes while he slowly began to touch and caress the taller boy's shaft. Matt couldn't look away from Brian's brilliant eyes as he gave in to every sweet shudder and moaned.
"Like this?" Brian asked.
"Y-yeah."
Brian wrapped his petite fingers around Matt's hardness and began to stroke him in a steady rhythm. Matt tried to hold onto his control but Brian's caresses and careful gaze were too much. He reached his climax far too quickly but gave a shout and spilled into Brian's hands eagerly anyway. There would be other times, he told himself. Brian would probably want to do this again.
"You're so beautiful when you lose control," Brian whispered lovingly as he used a nearby towel to clean his hands and Matt's stomach off. Then he moved into Matt's arms and held him as they both drifted off into a peaceful nap.