Nanowrimo 2008

ANS: Here you gp.


Kyle slowly came into awareness as he gained consciousness. When he was awake enough, his first realization was that he was in horrific pain. His ribs were throbbing. His second realization was that the other side of the bed was empty. He sat up and stretched, cringing in pain. He gingerly moved his body to stand up. Kyle knew he was supposed to stay in bed, but was wondering where Alex was. That was who he went in search of. The apartment was not that spacious, but since Kyle had trouble moving, it took him a whole fifteen minutes to go through the apartment. After all that work, and all that pain, Kyle had concluded that Alex was not there. Kyle was actually kind of disappointed. His thoughts were interrupted when his stomach let out a loud ass growl. Kyle groaned. He realized he had not eaten lunch yesterday, and had had very little appetite when he was served hospital food, so that had not been touched. He was now paying for his lack of eating the day before. Kyle did not want to go through Alex’s refrigerator without the man’s permission. He knew Alex would not care, but he still felt like he needed permission to do that. It was Eric’s programming of Kyle’s mind.

Kyle laid down on the couch. He had not meant to fall asleep again, but that is what had happened. He was woken up by being jostled. When he opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was Alex’s silver eyes. Alex noticed that he was awake, but kept carrying him until they were at the bed. Kyle was gently laid on it. Kyle righted himself so he sat against the headboard, with Alex’s help of course.

Kyle saw that Alex looked a little bit nervous. The younger boy glanced at the clock that was on the nightstand, and saw that it was 11:45. He did not know what time he had fallen asleep the second time. As a result, he did not know how long had he slept. “You were not here when I woke up. Where did you go?”

Alex was breathing very deliberately, as if he was trying to calm himself down. “I had a morning class that I had forgotten to tell you about last night. It is the only class I have for today though. I am yours for the rest of the day.”

Kyle laughed. “Does that include lunch? I didn’t eat breakfast.” He finished sheepishly.

Alex looked puzzled. “Why didn’t just take something? I have cereal and milk, eggs, and waffles.”

“I did not want to take anything without permission.”

Alex gave Kyle’s shoulder a light squeeze. “For now on, you have my permission to take anything you need or want. Kyle, if I was not here, you should have used your common sense and took something for breakfast. The last thing I want is for you to starve. That would defeat my purpose of protecting you.”

Kyle laughed. “We would not want that, would we? So, about that lunch …”

“Does franks and beans sound good?”

Kyle nodded his head emphatically. “That is one of my favorite meals.”

Alex laughed. “It is such a simple thing though.”

“I know, but I love it. I have no idea why, but I do.”

“If you love it, then you will have it for lunch.” Alex stood up. “Stay in bed.”

“Can I eat at the table like a human being at least?”

Alex thought for a moment. “Ok, but you will stay in bed until it is ready. Then I will come and help you to the table. Understand?”

“Yes sir.”

Alex felt the familiar tingling and he fought back an automatic groan. It was just two simple words, but it had so much of an effect. He handed Kyle the television remote and left the room to go to the kitchen.

After Alex had cut up a few franks and had deposited them into the cooking beans, Alex went to lend a hand and help Kyle to the table. Kyle, on the other hand, was already struggling to his feet. Alex ran over to him when he realized this. “I had told you to wait for me to come get you.”

Kyle blushed. “I smelled them, and I knew they were almost done.”

“You are in that big of a rush just for franks and beans. You can’t even wait for me to come and get you?”

Kyle gave a small laugh. “I know it sounds really odd. I just love them so much, and my stomach is saying it wants food now. It is sick of being patient.”

Alex’s eyebrows rose. “Your stomach talks?”

Kyle shrugged. “It only talks when it is hungry.”

“You have a very weird stomach.”

“I know it’s weird. Now, can I just get food in it so it will shut up? It can be very noisy.” As if to emphasize his point, it gave a loud rumbling, causing Kyle to blush. “I told you.”

Alex was amazed. He had thought Kyle had been merely exaggerating. It turned out there was actual truth in his words. “Let’s just get food in you, before your stomach decides to dominate the world.”

Alex stood in front of Kyle who was sitting down. They were face to face. Alex grabbed each of Kyle’s arms, by the elbow, and heaved him up. Kyle gave a little yell from the extreme pain. Alex walked slowly with Kyle. Alex was not holding on to him, but was there in case Kyle lost his balance and fell. With each step he winced. “You are taking painkillers after you eat.”

Kyle shook his head no. “Those pills knock me out. I have rehearsal today and I can’t let Darren down. If I am knocked out, I can’t go.”

“You are in pain though. I am pretty sure Darren will understand.”

“I want to go though. And you promised.”

Alex sighed. He should not have actually said the word ‘promise’ to Kyle. It was coming back to bite him in the ass. “Fine, I will be watching you though. If I think you can’t handle it, I am pulling you out of the rehearsal, no arguments. Do you agree to these terms?”

“That’s not fair. If I’m pulled out, it will be solely based on what you think.”

“My opinion is for your own good. I do not want you to get hurt any further. If you do not agree to my terms, you are not going at all. You have a choice. One, you agree and can go to the rehearsal, at least for awhile. Two, you do not agree and you do not go to rehearsal period. The choice is up to you.”

Kyle sighed. “I do not seem to have a choice. At least with choice one, I can go for a little while.”

Alex nodded. “Am I to believe that choice one is your final answer?”

Kyle rolled his eyes at the reference to the “Do You Want to be a Millionaire” show, but decided to play along. “Yes, that is my final answer.”

Alex grinned. “Ding Ding Ding, we have a winner. Give him a round of applause.”

Kyle just shook his head. Alex could be really nutty when he wanted to. “Can we just get to the table and eat. Standing is not helping anything.”

“Yeah, sure.”

After the delay, they finally made their way to the kitchen. Kyle sat down. He was tempted to let out a sigh of relief, but forced himself to hold it in. If Alex knew he was in that much pain, the painkillers would be forced down his throat. He was determined to go to the play rehearsal. He had already missed yesterday. The microwave timer went off, indicating that the franks and beans were done. Kyle waited in anticipation while Alex made two bowls of it. It had been ages since Kyle had this meal. He was the only one in his family who even liked bake beans, so his mom never bought it at the store unless it was his birthday. The franks and beans was usually the best part of his birthday, which was pretty sad. Once they were served, Kyle wolfed them down. It looked like he had been on a desert island and had not eaten in days. Alex ate at a slower pace, while watching Kyle in amazement.

After a couple of minutes of pure shock, the older boy could not watch it any longer. He pulled at Kyle’s arm. Kyle looked at him, but did not stop eating. Alex gave him a stern look, and Kyle stopped immediately, afraid he had actually upset his savior. “Eat slower. No one is going to take your food away. I do not want you to choke.”

Kyle did not understand why, but he felt something deep inside of him that compelled him to obey Alex’s orders. It was not like he did it out of fear, like it was with Eric. In fact, it was a totally opposite feeling. It was more like it was out of respect, or even a desire to please Alex, to make Alex proud of him. To appease Alex, Kyle slowed down his eating pace, to a normal speed. He still finished before Alex, and looked at the twenty-five year old for any signs of disappointment. All he saw was a smile of reassurance. He was thankful Alex was not upset with him. He did not like the idea of that.

Alex finished his own franks and beans at a leisurely pace. For a very odd reason, Kyle enjoyed watching Alex eat. It was not boring at all. It was actually very alluring. Once finished, Alex took both of their bowls and forks to rinse them off. When finished with that, Alex turned back to Kyle who wore a very odd smile on his face. He raised his eyebrows at the dazed expression, but did not voice his question. Alex leaned against the counter. “So what do you want to do?”

“I don’t know, but I want to get out of here.”

Alex shook his head. “You refuse to take painkillers, and I do not want you to overdo it.”

“Not even a car ride? I just want to get out of the apartment.”

Alex thought about what he had to talk to Kyle about. A car ride might be a good time to have the conversation. He could pull over to a secluded area to talk to Kyle without any interruptions. With that thought in his head, he nodded. “Ok, we will go for a little car ride. Where is your play script? We probably won’t come back before your rehearsal.”

Kyle thought for a moment. “I don’t know WHERE it is now that I think about it. I had it in my backpack at school yesterday. Where is that?”

“That’s a good question. Since Darren is the one who found you passed out, he may know what happened to your backpack. Unfortunately, it’s during school hours and I can’t call him. We will just have to wait until we get to the school.”

“Ok.”

As Kyle slowly struggled to his feet, Alex slipped the bottle of painkillers in his inside shirt pocket that was invisible to the outside world. Alex was going to keep them just in case. There was no certainty if he was actually going to force Kyle to take them. It would be played by ear.

After much work, they finally make it to Alex’s car. Kyle sat in the passenger seat very gratefully. It hurt to just move his stomach. He wondered how he was going to handle drama rehearsal where there was a lot more movement involved. There was no way in hell he was going to let Alex in on his worries.

Alex started the drive. There was silence, both lost in their thoughts. Alex was thinking about how he was going to tell Kyle the truth about his vast sex life. Kyle was thinking about the pain he was in. Neither knew the truth of the other person’s thoughts.

Alex knew where he was going. There was an abandoned shopping center he went to if the need to jerk off arose. It was pretty close to everything he did and everywhere he went. It was never out of his way. They could talk without being disturbed.

Alex pulled into the parking lot and shifted the car into park. He then switched the engine off. One of the things he was truly anal about was wasting gas. It was just way too much money.

Kyle was really confused. “Why are we stopping? I thought we were just going to drive around aimlessly.”

Alex took a deep breath. This was not going to be easy to break to an abused teenager. “Kyle, last night I told you that there were things that you needed to know about me.”

Kyle nodded in understanding. “I vaguely remember that.”

“I thought this would be the ample time to discuss it with you.”

Kyle smiled. “I’m all ears.” Truth be told, Kyle really liked Alex, and remembered Alex saying they would go no farther until they talked about certain things. The quicker they talked, the quicker they can try a relationship.

“I am a bit worried about how you are going to react. I am into what is known as a polyamorous relationship. I have many subs to choose from and I go to each one of them periodically.”

Kyle looked down at his hands; still not quite understanding what Alex was trying to say. “If we got together, you would stop that, right?” He finished in a weak voice.

Alex shook his head sadly. “Having many partners is part of my lifestyle. A lot of people who participate in D/s have many partners. Sometimes, there is only one partner. It can be either way.”

“You are not willing to give it up for me?”

“I do not think I could.”

“I guess I am not that important to you.”

Alex’s heart was breaking. Kyle sounded so small. “You are important to me, but I have been living like this for 5 years. I can’t just give up the way I live. Don’t you understand?”

“I understand that you can’t be trusted, just like Eric can’t be trusted.”

“DO NOT EVER COMPARE ME TO ERIC!!” Kyle had jumped when Alex began to yell at him. He continued in a softer voice. “Unlike Eric, I actually care about you and want what is best for you.”

“What is best for me is having someone who truly cares about me.”

Alex sighed. He knew this was not going to be easy. “Even if I have many relationships, that does not mean I am not going to care about you. None of my subs have my personal contact information. They do not even know where I live. I do not trust that information to just anybody. Doesn’t that mean something to you?”

“You never meant to develop feelings for me. You did not even realize you were going to want to pursue a relationship with me.”

Alex chuckled. “I knew something was going to develop between us from the first time I met you.”

Kyle was shocked. “Is that the only reason you were so nice to me? The whole time, were you just trying to get in my pants?”

Alex shook his head frantically. He did not realize Kyle would take it this wrong way. “I actually care about you. It has nothing to do with sex. I will not deny the fact I am extremely attracted to you because I am. My feelings run deeper them merely physical attraction though. I want you to be safe, and I will care for you. You will not be like my other partners. I LIKE all of them, but my feelings do not go any farther than that. Although my feelings for you are not there yet, I know they will eventually turn into love. No matter how many partners I have, you will always come first.”

“Just like when I called you from school yesterday that first time?” Alex made a surprised face, which was answer enough for Kyle. “So, I was right. You were with one of your many partners.”

Alex knew there was no point in lying. “Yes, I was.”

“I was not important enough for you to answer my call.”

“I did not know it was you.”

“That is no excuse. What if it was an emergency? What if Eric was hurting me? You are the only person who knew besides Darren, and I would not put your little brother in that kind of danger. If that is the level of your attentiveness, I want nothing to do with you romantically.”

Alex was becoming scared that he would lose Kyle. “I made a mistake. That kind of mistake will never happen again. This I promise you with my whole heart. You said you liked the feeling of the kiss.”

“I did.”

“Are you willing to throw away everything we may be able to have because I made one mistake?”

“I do not want to, but I do not know if I can trust you. Can we just be friends for a little bit? See where it goes from there?”

Alex nodded. “Ok, I will grant your request. Let’s just play it by ear.” Alex looked at his watch. They had 45 minutes until Kyle had to be at drama rehearsal. “There’s nothing we can really do since you are having trouble walking. Do you want to just go to the auditorium and hang out there for the remainder of the time?”

Kyle nodded. “That sounds great.

The car ride to the school was eerily quiet. Unlike on the way to the shopping center, this quiet was eerie and slightly uncomfortable. Kyle was really disappointed. He truly did not know if anything could be more between them. A relationship was built on trust, and if Kyle did not trust Alex, he did not think there could be anything. Alex, on the other hand, was disappointed too, but with himself. He knew Kyle was hurt now and did not know how to handle that.

They arrived at the school.


ANS: R&R