Jaden

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I worked hard on this chapter and I hope I did not get too mushy, so sex here but lots of heart to heart. Please I hope to know what your thoughts are, and it really feeds my imagination as I try to complete the next chapter. Until then have a good read and enjoy.

Chapter 22
(Yearning)

Victor and Marcus both turned to look at Adrian. Victor admired his mate’s attire; Adrian was wearing black tight fighting jeans with black leather boots that rose just above his knees. A long sleeved knitted shirt with a collar in dark purple, which highlighted his eyes and hair. Adrian’s hair held back in a loose ponytail with a black leather cord. On his ear lopes, tiny stud diamonds, and a small gold chain with a small diamond in the middle on his slender neck.

On his right hand, he wore a gold band, with diamonds and amethyst gems; on his left hand, he wore another gold ring with a rare blue diamond surrounded by clear white diamonds, which is the highest grade in diamonds. The diamond is a radiant cut and over 5 carats, the impressive diamond held in the claws of a fire-breathing dragon, the symbol of both Victor and Marcus’s family crest.

The black jeans and boots accentuated his shapely legs and his luscious butt, which Victor found hard to look anywhere else. Victor moved in behind Adrian, wrapping his arms around his body and pulling him in closer he whispered, “If you cannot breathe, perhaps I can help you with that.” he placed a light tender kiss, on Adrian’s neck.

Adrian closed his eyes and shuddered in delight. He placed his hands over Victor’s and replied, “What is going on? I can feel it. The both of you, your emotions are in high gear.” Amethyst eyes looked at Victor and Marcus, a line of worry crossing his face.

Marcus looked at Victor, and then he smiled down at Adrian. He told him that he was discussing on how to best help Jaden learn to read and write. Adrian walked out of Victor’s embrace and peeked into the room to see Jaden still sleeping. He was excited about the opportunity to help. “I can help, really I’m quite good.” Adrian said.

The three men talked a little bit more about Jaden’s education and decided to pursue a plan right after the holidays, Marcus reminded them that it was also Jaden’s birthday and he wanted to be able to do something special for him. Adrian was already making a mental list of the things he could do to help, he asked Marcus about the boxes in the foyer left there by Mr. Nate.

“I almost forgot I purchased new computers for Jaden. I thought of setting it up in the room next to mine.” Marcus indicated the room with his hand. “I want to surprise him, for his birthday.”

Adrian loved computers; he had become so fascinated with the technology to the point of being obsessed. Victor refused to allow a computer in the bedroom; many times, he was forced to drag his love away while Adrian tried to justify the need to finish. Always promising that he would finish soon, hours later, he was still in front of the monitor trying to score one more point in whatever game he was playing. Victor smiled when Adrian offered to take care of it; this allowed him time to examine the disc.

“Oh please let me help? I would be happy to set up the computer for you.”

Then Adrian began to count off on each finger what he needed, he asked Marcus what kind of computer it was, did it have a good processor and memory. He walked into the spare room and began to make plans where to put it, and he wanted to check the wireless system, he rattled on and on about how beneficial this would be for Jaden. As he started to head back upstairs to get the equipment, Victor lifted him and swung him over his shoulder.

“Not so fast my dear, you said something about having trouble to breathe?”

Victor patted Adrian’s bottom, and Adrian let out a giggle. He hung over Victor’s shoulder and was almost face to face with his mate’s rear end. With both hands, he reached down and gave it a good squeeze, and then he yelped when Victor squeezed his bottom.

Victor smiled at his brother and told him that they will see to setting everything up for Jaden. Although he was thrown over Victor’s shoulder, Adrian managed to pop up his head, through the mass of hair that had become loose and tousled when Victor tossed him over his shoulder. As he blew hair out of his face he assured Marcus all will be ready soon.

Before Victor walked out, he looked at Marcus and asked if he contacted the council of elders about Jaden. “Not yet.” Marcus answered, and told Victor he wanted to settle other matters first. Victor understood, he bowled his head to Marcus and told him he will support whatever decision he made. Before Adrian could ask any questions, Victor gave him another playful spank and turned to leave the caves to go upstairs with Adrian demanding what is going on.

“I’ll not be so easily distracted Victor, something is a foot and I want to know what it is.”

Victor responded with another playful spank and Adrian yelped.

Marcus watched as they left. He smiled and shook his head; both Victor and Adrian never failed to make him laugh. They were good for each other, and he hoped the same would be for him and Jaden.

Jaden woke up to soft kisses and a warm embrace, his eyes fluttered open and he looked into crystal blue eyes. He reached up, folded his arms around Marcus’s neck, and eagerly kissed him back. Then in his best count Dracula voice, Jaden greeted Marcus.

“Good Evening Marcus.”

Marcus’s eyebrow arched and he smiled in return. Jaden sighed contently and tried to get as close as he could to Marcus’s body. He moved up, sat on his lap, and hugged Marcus in a tight embrace.

“Thank you for keeping my Angel near me.” Then Jaden moved back a bit and looked at Marcus, “I know I’m not a little kid anymore, but I never had a teddy bear. Do you think I’m being a big baby about it?” Jaden asked in a shy voice waiting to see what Marcus thought about his need for the teddy bear that he named.

Marcus answered with a big hug, and kissed him. He poured all his feelings into the kiss letting Jaden know that it did not matter. Then he spoke into his ear and told him that he was happy to give him the teddy bear, it made him feel like he did something good for him.

“Marcus I just love you so much.” He kissed Marcus back, letting his mouth open to accept Marcus in. Jaden closed his eyes and cherished the loving affection from him. He could feel Marcus hold him, and his hands caress his face and move slowly into his hair. Jaden could not help but whimper in pleasure, the sensations coursing though his body gave him delightful chills, and he shivered in Marcus’s embrace.

Jaden found himself so hungry for Marcus’s touch and pressed his body closer, no air could get between them. He was like a flower needing sunshine; Jaden whimpered and moaned his desire and need. Marcus was delighted by his reaction with only a kiss and a caress and it intensified his own desires to please him.

He wanted so much more, but the fear kept creeping back into his mind. As much as he tried to ignore his fear, it kept pulling at him. He shut his eyes tight, as visions of violence and pain kept sneaking into his mind.

Hard as he tried, his body would not cooperate with his heart’s desire; he tensed up and began to shake. Almost in a near panic, he pulled away. Jaden cried in frustration, his mind and body in constant turmoil. He wanted so much to forget the past and enjoy Marcus’s attention.

“It is all right my little one, I love you. Remember there is no need to rush. We will move ahead slowly, as long as we love each other, there is no rush.”

Marcus embraced him and kissed his wet cheeks, with his hands wiping away the moisture from his face. Jaden slid off of Marcus’s lap lying down on the bed crying, trying to hide his face in shame. It broke Marcus’s heart to see him like this; he gently moved behind him and slowly caressed his trembling back.

Marcus felt helpless at the moment; he blamed himself for his own weakness. Oh if only he had the power to make Jaden forget the painful past, if only he could make him trust without fear. He felt a strange tightness within his own heart, he wanted so much to make Jaden happy, and at this point he would be elated with a small smile on Jaden’s face.

Instead Marcus pulled Jaden in a comforting hug, smoothing back the hair to see the side of Jaden’s face, leaning in he gave him a tender kiss to his wet cheek. It was going to take time for Jaden to believe he would not be hurt by him.

Victor was right and time is what they have. As a man Marcus was patient, he did not exist for all these years without it. As he continued to caress and soothe his love’s fears, pulling Jaden even closer, allowing his body to become a protective blanket over his little love, he could hear Jaden sigh in comfort and his body calmed.

If he could not speak words of comfort and love, then he let his actions speak for him, as he continued to caress Jaden and he himself almost cried when a tiny little smile appeared.

Marcus signed and breathed into Jaden’s ear, “Oh my sweet little love, there is nothing in the world that I would not do for you.”

Jaden slowly turned to face Marcus, how he loved being so wrapped up in his strong body, it angered him that he ruined the romantic feelings they were having earlier. His eyes and the rest of his face were a little redder and puffy from crying so hard. He licked his lips and pressed them together to keep them from trembling. He was like a small little child trying to hide his fear and shame.

Wanting to chase away the fears Marcus leaned down and gently kissed his trembling lips, he kissed his nose and each eye. With one arm still embracing him, his other hand reached up to caress his face. His thumb wiping away the wetness from Jaden’s tears, as he continued to give kisses on his forehead, his cheeks and back to his lips.

His hand never stopped caressing Jaden’s face, and his fingers slowly smoothed back his messy hair. Marcus liked seeing Jaden with his hair messy he looked so sweet and innocent, and he was rewarded with another sweet smile as Jaden’s eyes closed, sighing and moving into the warmth that is Marcus. When at last Jaden’s trembling slowly faded; he lay peacefully in his arms sighing contently as Marcus buried his face in his neck, giving him small kisses there.

“Marcus” Jaden sighed; his words came out like a soft warm breeze. “Oh Marcus, I don’t deserve you. You’re my dream come true.”

Marcus let out a soft chuckle; “If truth be told, you are the dream that came true for me.” he smiled down at Jaden and could not resist giving him another kiss on the lips.

Jaden’s hand caressed the side of Marcus’s face and he smiled again, feeling safe and protected. Then his eyebrows frowned and he became serious.

“I’m sorry I freaked out, I really wanted to, to, you know do more then kissing. I want you so badly and then I have to act like that. I , you deserve better and you shouldn’t have to put up with me, I mean like this.”

Marcus shook his head, his finger over Jaden’s lips gently caressing him, Jaden let out a frustrated sigh as he closed his eyes trying to hold back tears. However one tear did slowly fall and Marcus kissed it away.

“Jaden please do not be angry with yourself, you have not ruined anything. I know you love me and I love you. You need time to heal, we both need time and it will be fine. I am not in any hurry, I have you here with me and together we will learn to love each other more.”

Jaden quickly cut in, “Oh God Marcus, I know you would never harm me, I know that! But my freaking head won’t leave me alone. I can’t keep freaking out like that every time you and I get close. It’s like I’m a tease and I’m not like that, I love you so much so why do I have to get crazy and act like some stupid little kid.”

Before Marcus could say anything, Jaden became more agitated, “I hate this, I hate being afraid all the time! How can you really want me, I’m such a fucking mess!”

Jaden laid back and puffed out his breath in anger, he stared up at the ceiling of the room. His eyes blinking fast to keep tears from falling. Marcus tilted his face back to him with his finger under his chin.

“I love my little mess, I love you and I will always love you. If all I can do is love you then that is what I will do. You are my love, my life! the very air I breathe is you. I will do whatever it takes to help you through this. For you are the heart that keeps this body alive, do not punish yourself for nothing you have done. Give it time Jaden, and allow me to help you.”

Jaden looked into Marcus’s eyes and wanted to start crying all over again, never in his life had he heard anyone speak so lovingly to him. Aside from Lizzie, no one ever made him feel so much emotion, what did he ever do to deserve him? with both of his small hands he reached up to touch Marcus’s face and pulled him down for a kiss.

“Marcus if this is a dream, then please don’t wake me up. I love you like I never thought I could. I want you to be happy; I want you to be safe. But god Marcus, you deserve someone who can do that for you, not someone who’s going to freak out every time you touch him. that’s not love, that’s like I’m being disgusted by your touch and it shouldn’t’ be that way. What are you supposed to think when we’re gettin hot and heavy, then all of sudden I pull away? That’s no good and it can’t be healthy if I keep stringing you along like that.”

Jaden then pulled Marcus in a tight hug, holding on to him as if afraid of him getting away. “I love you and I want you so much, but I can’t be selfish and you deserve to be happy. So, so if you want to call this off, I’ll, I mean I will understa, stand! And I won’t stop you from finding someone who can love you the way you deserve to be loved.”

Marcus held on to Jaden as he closed his eyes, it pained him to hear these words. But he had no intention of going anywhere. He pulled Jaden back so he could look at him. as gently as possible he spoke firmly trying to keep anger out of his voice.

“Tell me you do not love me and I will move on, tell me truthfully that I am not the man you want, tell me and look into my eyes so that I can believe you. If I am truly upsetting you and making you unhappy then tell me now, and from this moment on we will be friends. I will always look after you and protect you, but I will not ask anymore then friendship.”

Jaden buried his face in Marcus’s chest and he broke down crying so hard.

“No! I love you, I love you! Please, please Marcus don’t leave me, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I just want you to be happy, to have someone to love you without pushing you away. You deserve so much love in your life and I was afraid that I wasn’t good enough for you, cause of my messed up head. You have no idea! How much I want you to be normal and in love with you.”

Marcus smiled as he hugged Jaden back, kissing the top of his head, his own tension fading away.

“Forgive me my love for being so harsh with you. But the air had to be cleared, it is settled we simply cannot be without each other. All that matters now is that we love each other, and the rest will work itself out. Hush my love do not cry, let us just take each day as it comes. As long as we keep in mind that our love is there to help and guide us all will be fine. What is it that I heard young humans say? Ah yes, give yourself a break Jaden and let yourself go, relax babe? It’ll be ok?”

Suddenly Jaden stopped his crying and popped his head up to look at Marcus; he was looking down at him with a big grin on his face. It was so alien to hear Marcus speak in that fashion that he burst out laughing. They both broke down laughing and hugged each other again. Kisses were exchanged and they settled down on the bed looking into each other’s eyes, leaning towards each other until their noses touched. They spoke softly to each other vowing to make it work and as they whispered into each other’s mouth, words of love and devotion they would kiss as if sealing the deal.

They lay like that for awhile, talking in a low whisper as if keeping secrets. The sheets crumpled up beneath them as their bodies were pressed together, legs and arms entwined in each other’s embrace. Feeling as if a weight had been lifted off of their shoulders they freely kissed and touched, but it was more out of comfort and support then sexual. Their voices like a soft summer breeze, gently caressing their skin.

After a while, Marcus got up and took Jaden’s hand, as he led him off the bed. Holding him in his arms Marcus whispered to him as if sharing a secret. “No more tears my love, come with me I have a surprise to show you.”

Jaden sniffed and hiccupped, looking so vulnerable and sweet. He looked up at Marcus with curiosity in his eyes and nodded. However, before they left the room, Jaden tugged on his sleeve to get Marcus’s attention.

“I love you Marcus, I’m gonna keep telling you that until it makes you sick to hear it.”

Jaden was surprised when Marcus gathered him up in his arms, holding him as if someone threatened to take him away. Kissing him hard on his cheek and looked in his eyes as if he was trying to hypnotize him.

“I could never get sick of hearing those words, and by the way vampires do not get sick. So tell me Jaden, tell me everyday of your life you love me, and I will tell you, I love you too.”

Jaden smiled back at Marcus, reaching up to touch the face that he loved so much.

“Marcus, I want you to know that I do trust you. Someday I’ll get over this freaking crap, and when I do, I gonna wear you out.”

Marcus’s eyebrow arched in surprise, “Well in that case, I had better make sure to stay fit and strong for you.”

Realizing what he said Jaden blushed, Marcus found Jaden’s embarrassment to be so adorable, wrapping his arms around Jaden, he whispered into his ear.

“No need to rush things my love, when it happens I will treat you with the tenderest care. I will make love to you and treat you the way you deserve, you are my little prince and I will always be your faithful servant.”

Jaden shuddered in his embrace and sighed happily, “Marcus it’s all I can think about these last few days with you, I fantasize what it would be like to be with you in that way. I, I, I mean to know what it would feel like, to have you. Um I mean to be with you, touching and kissing me when you are like, like. oh god I’m such dork and I have such a dirty mind, I can’t wait to see you naked and doing things to me that make me want to scream, I mean scream in good way and I, oh crap I’ll shut up now.” Jaden covered his face against Marcus’s chest.

Marcus let out a small laugh, and squeezed him closer to himself. Jaden also laughed as he hugged him back.

“Oh Jaden, you are so precious to me. Think of this as an excellent opportunity to really know each other. If you must know, I cannot help but wonder what it would be like to make love to you. We are in this together.” Marcus spoke in a soft caring voice and tilted Jaden’s head up to kiss his tender lips, his tongue seeking permission to enter and taste him.

They stood there by the doorway holding and kissing each other, lost in each other’s tender embrace. Reluctantly Marcus then pulled back and took Jaden’s hand to lead him out of the room. Reminding him that he had a surprise to show him, as they walked out Jaden heard sounds coming from the room next to theirs. When he tried to look, Marcus smiled and pulled him away.

“But what’s going on?” Jaden asked.

“Adrian is working on a project for me, and he hates to be interrupted.”

“Oh.” Jaden shrugged his shoulders and continued to follow Marcus. Still in the caves below the house, they passed the living room area to an entrance that could not be seen when you first enter the space. The entrance itself was narrow, so Jaden had to go behind Marcus and followed him as he began to walk into a narrow corridor and then going down more steps, further into the grounds below.

Jaden thought of it as going down to the basement of the caves. At the bottom landing, the space opened up to a larger chamber. Hanging on the walls, Jaden could see lighted scones, lighting the way into another chamber. The air smelled wet and he could hear droplets of water, and as strange as it may seem he thought he could hear water running like a waterfall. Here the caves felt warm, almost like a sauna, he had no idea how far into the grounds they were. As he looked up, he could see stalactites hang from the ceiling of the caves interior, the unusual sight created over many years by Mother Nature as mineralized water drips into the cave. Once he passed into the next chamber, he stood there shocked at the beauty his eyes saw. For a few minutes, he was at a loss for words. Then he smiled a big grin and spreading his arms out, so excited with this new discovery.

“This is fucking awesome!”