The one thing that keeps me sane...

Disclaimer : Guess what? Just like all the other chapters before this...I still own the characters and the plot! *gasps* no way...
Yes way, and that means that if you steal them...oh...god help you if you steal them!!!

ONWARDS --------->

That made Laraine smile softly. “I’m glad you like it.”

“Shit yeah.” Ben slid his hand into Laraine’s. “Oh,” he turned to the other guy. “Lain this is Brian. Brian, this is Lain.”

“Nice to meet you.” Laraine told him.

Brian nodded. “You also.” he hit Ben’s chest lightly. “I’ll talk to you later Ben.”

Ben turned back to Laraine and smiled down at Laraine. “You like it baby?”

The boy shrugged. “I don’t know. It’s different, I know that much. I think I do.” he smiled. “Hey, where is Jacoby?”
“Angela.” Ben answered. “I really need to start paying her for watching him. She seems more than happy to do it but I feel bad.” he pulled Laraine to him and kissed him. “God baby I want you. You look so fucking hot.”

“Benjamin.” Laraine blushed, realizing others could hear. “Honestly. Control yourself for five minutes.”

Ben laughed. “You seen yourself lately baby? I think god himself would be begging for you.”

That actually brought a laugh from Laraine. “So, what are you supposed to do at a party like this?”

“Get drunk, get stoned, and have sex honestly.” Ben told him. “None of which I think you will do.” he kissed Laraine again. “Unless I can woo you into going upstairs with me.” he slid his hand back into Laraine’s back pocket. “What yah think of that baby?”

“I think,” Laraine wrapped his arms around Ben’s shoulders. “That you need to keep dreaming.”

“Ben are you molesting are sweet little Lain here?” Michael asked as him and Ryan walked up. “Now that’s just not right.”

Ben flipped him off. “Fuck off Michael. He’s my boyfriend I’ll molest him if I want.”

Laraine kind of backed away from Ben. “Excuse me Benjamin?” he asked in a fake annoyed voice.

“Baby you know what I mean.” Ben pulled him up and kissed him again. “I give you permission to molest me whenever you want also love.”

Michael grabbed Ben’s arm. “I have something to talk to you about Ben. Lets go.”

“Be back.” he kissed Laraine again and then followed Michael.

“Where are they going?” Laraine asked him.

Ryan shrugged and grabbed a beer. “Fuck if I know. Come on,” he handed a beer to Laraine. “Let loose Lain. I know you don’t do this very often, if at all.”

A frown came to Laraine’s face. “Ryan I don’t want this.” he set it down. “I need to be competent to take care of Benjamin later tonight.”

“Ben can take care of himself.” Ryan argued. “I want you to loosen up Lain. Have some fun.”

“I can have fun without getting drunk Ryan.” Laraine snapped and then took a deep breath. “Listen, I just don’t want to okay?”

“Sure.” Ryan nodded. “Hey, I have to go to the bathroom. I’m gonna go. I’ll be right back.”

Laraine nodded and took a deep breath as Ryan walked away. He didn’t know anyone here and of course Michael just had to take Ben away from him. Someone tapped his shoulder and he looked over to see that Antony guy standing there.

“Hey.” Antony smirked. “You look a little lonely over here by yourself.”

“Ryan just left.” Laraine told him. “He said he’d be back but I have my doubts.”

Antony laughed. “Ryan your boyfriend?” Laraine laughed and shook his head. “I’ll take that as a definite no. So, you have a boyfriend?”

“Yeah.” Laraine nodded. “I do.” he brushed his hair out of his face again. “What about you?”

“Me? Nah.” He shoved his hands in his pockets. “I’m free as a bird. Kind of sucks though. I’d much rather have someone here with me than being able to look at others.”

Laraine smiled. “Well, maybe you’ll get lucky tonight and find someone.” he looked around a moment. “There are a lot of people here. You never know.”

Antony nodded. “So, who’s your boyfriend?”

“Um,” Laraine folded his arms across his chest. “Benjamin Allster.”

“Don’t know him.” Antony said, shocking Laraine. Everyone knew Ben, especially people at parties like this. “Apparently you expected me to know him.”

Laraine nodded. “He’s well known.”

“Well, clearly not that well known.” Antony told him.


Michael led Ben into the back and Ben dropped down into a chair. There was smoke in the room and Ben knew that smell. “Fuck Michael, what are we doing in here?”

“I was just sent to get you Ben.” Michael set a hand on his shoulder. “I’ll see you later okay?”

“Fuck you.” Ben muttered as Michael left the room. Someone walked into the room and Ben rolled his eyes. “Fucking brilliant. What do you want Greg?”

Greg walked up to Ben and sat in his lap. “Have a deal for you Benjamin.” he ran a finger along Ben’s jaw. “I have a new stock. Wanna come take a look? See if you want anything. I have all your favorites.”

Ben looked at Greg disgusted. “You know I don’t do that shit anymore Greg. Just fuck off okay?”

Leaning his head against Ben’s shoulder Greg pouted. “Awe, come on Benny, I know you want some. You used to be so much fun before. Specially when you were high.” he licked the side of Ben’s face. “You got morals now cause of that boy Ben?”

“How the fuck do you know about Lain?” Ben snapped.

“Ben please,” Greg snaked so he was standing up and leaned down on the armrests. “You think we don’t hear these things? People have seen you with him Ben. It’s not like we don’t watch you just because you aren’t one of us anymore.”

That made Ben frown. “Greg go fuck yourself. I’m not getting anything from you alright and not just because of Lain. You can just fucking leave me alone because I am not going to buy any shit from you.”

Greg walked over to something and when he came back to Ben he was holding a needle. “Best stuff here Ben. Don’t you just wanna try some?”

Ben pushed Greg’s hand away. “Fuck off Greg! What do you fucking not understand about that? I’m not going to get fucking hooked on that shit again and not be able to take care of my boyfriend and my son! So fuck off!”

That clearly pissed Greg off. “Fuck Ben do you think you have changed or something? Bullshit! You haven’t changed and you never fucking will! I have a better chance of coming clean then you have of changing! Just because you don’t do drugs anymore doesn’t mean you are some saint and better than the rest of us. You are still the same lowlife fucker as you were back then.” he slapped Ben softly. “Just more pretty.”

“You know what Greg?” Ben stood. “I fucking know I can’t get rid of my past and clearly I can’t get the fuck away from your sorry ass but I can try to make up for what I have done and I can try to be a fucking better person. So you can just suck my dick you little fucking fairy and stay the hell away from me.”

“And the boy?” Greg asked as Ben turned to leave. Ben froze hearing this and turned back to Greg. “This Lain you talk about. What’s to keep me from, say...having something bad happen to him? How selfish of you to bring suck an innocent child down with you.”

That was the last straw. Ben punched Greg square across the face and sent him strait to the ground before grabbing his collar and hauling him up. “How about you stay the fuck away from him Greg? I swear to god, you fucking look at Lain and I will cut off your dick and feed it to you. You understand me?” Greg nodded and Ben let him fall to the floor. “I’m happy we understand each other.”


“Benjamin.” Laraine smiled as Ben walked up to him. “What happened to you? You vanished.”

“Nothing babe.” Ben leaned down and kissed him. “You having fun?”

Laraine nodded. “I met some guy named Antony. I don’t know where he went to though. Said he was going to go get a drink but I don’t think he’s coming back.”

That made Ben smirked. “He probably knew not to fuck with you.” Ben slid both his hands down into Laraine’s back pockets. “You wanna come home with me tonight baby?”

A blush spread across Laraine’s face. “Sure.”

“Hey,” Ben leaned down and kissed under Laraine’s ear. “You still hurt baby?”

“Benjamin I’m fine.” Laraine wrapped his arms around Ben’s shoulders. “I told you that this morning.”

“Uhhuh.” Ben sat down and pulled Laraine to sit next to him. Laraine winced as he dropped onto the couch. “Fucking liar.” Ben pulled Laraine over so he was straddling his waist. “Baby I’m so sorry.” Ben kissed him. “I don’t have anything with me.”

Laraine shook his head. “I’m fine. It’s good.” he rested his forehead against Ben’s. “I swear.”

Kissing the boy Ben pulled him close. “Sweetheart you are a horrible liar. I want you to tell me the next time I hurt you okay baby? Even the smallest bit I want you to tell me if it hurts you.”

“Okay.” Laraine muttered. “I will.”

“Promise me baby.” Ben ordered.

Laraine smiled softly. “I promise Benjamin.”

Ryan came over and plopped down next to Laraine and Ben. “Sorry to interrupt your love thing here but Michael and I are leaving. What are you two going to do?”

“You wanna go home baby?” Ben asked Laraine. Laraine shrugged and leaned against Ben, muttering something along the lines of only if Ben wanted to leave. “I think we’ll stay here a little longer and then head home.”

“Alright.” Ryan stood. “Talk to you two later.”

Ben kissed Laraine. “Baby I have to go to the bathroom.”

Laraine crawled off of Ben and sat there. “I’ll stay here.” he watched Ben walk away and the next thing he knew Antony was sitting next to him. “Hey.”

“Was that Ben?” Antony asked him and Laraine nodded. “He looks familiar to me now that I have seen him. But I don’t know who he is.”

“Yeah, we’re gonna leave soon.” Laraine told him.

“Awe,” Antony pouted. “And here I was hoping that I was going to be able to hang out with you a little longer.”

Laraine smiled softly. “Maybe some other time.” he looked around. “Benjamin is coming back.”

Antony stood quickly. “I’ll go so he doesn’t think anything.”

Before Laraine could even think the guy was gone. “Hey baby.” Ben pulled him up. “You ready to go?”

“Benjamin you don’t wanna go.” Laraine argued. “You stay here and I’ll meet you back at your place okay?” Ben went to argue but Laraine cut him off. “It’s not that long of a walk and I’ll have my cell phone on.” he kissed Ben. “Please.”

“Better idea.” Ben kissed him. “I will take you home and then come back. How about that?”

Laraine smiled. “I’d like that.”

Ben took his hand. “Lets go then.” he and Laraine walked out to the car. When they got in Ben pulled Laraine over and they began to kiss. “God baby I don’t think I’ll make it back to the party.” he pulled away and turned on the car. As he turned on the car he froze, looking in the window of the house.

“Benjamin?” Laraine asked him. “Benjamin what’s wrong?”

Shaking his head Ben put the car in reverse. “Nothing.” he smiled at Laraine. “Just thought I saw a ghost is all.”

yey, back at Ben’s

The two stumbled into the apartment and Ben dropped Laraine’s shirt somewhere on the floor as they hit a wall. He picked Laraine up and sat him on the nearest solid object (kitchen table) and began to undo his pants. Laraine grabbed the hem of Ben’s shirt and pulled it up over his head, delaying Ben from taking off his pants for a second.

“Fuck baby.” Ben smirked as he pulled off Laraine’s pants to find the boy not wearing any underwear. “You are just full of surprises tonight aren’t you?”

Laraine smiled softly and leaned over to kiss Ben’s neck. “I have one more for you Benjamin.”

Ben groaned and ran his hands down Laraine’s smooth back as the boy began to undo his pants. “Fuck baby you are driving me insane.”

Standing Laraine made Ben back away a little and then dropped to his knees. He bit his lips and smiled softly up at Ben before pulled the guys pants off him. Ben slid his hand into Laraine’s hair and moaned as that hot, pink tongue came out from those kiss swollen lips and licked the tip of his erection.

“Fuck.” Ben let out as Laraine encased the head of his cock in his mouth. He had died on gone to heaven. That was the only explanation for what was happening. “Shit baby.”

Finally Laraine opened his mouth and slid Ben’s cock in as far as it would go before pulling his head back and sliding back down. He’d learned from what Ben had done to him kind of what to do and he was hoping the he was doing this partially right. From the sounds Ben was making he was pretty sure he was.

Ben was trying his hardest not to ram his whole cock into that heavenly mouth. Just the sight of Laraine on his knees, in front of him, doing that was enough to send Ben over the edge. Let alone the things that little shit was doing with his tongue.

“Fuck baby.” Ben pulled Laraine up and kissed him hard.

“What?” Laraine asked, panting softly. “Did I do something wrong?”

Ben smiled and ran a hand through Laraine’s hair. “Oh no. That was wonderful baby. I just don’t want this to end like that.” with a small nod Laraine allowed Ben to kiss him. “Don’t move baby.” Ben muttered before walking over and grabbing the lube from under the couch. He walked back over and kissed Laraine before turning him and standing him at the edge of the table. “Tell me if it hurts love.”

“Uh...” Laraine braced himself against the table as Ben began to slide in. “Benjamin...”

Placing a soft kiss to Laraine’s shoulder Ben slid the rest of the way into the boy. He paused a moment, giving Laraine time to relax. “You hurt hun?”

Shaking his head a little Laraine took a deep breath. “I...I’m fine.”

Slowly Ben pulled so he was almost out of Laraine before thrusting back in. Quickly their movements got more frantic and needy. Laraine finally let his body give way and fell so he was leaning over the table, forearms supporting him. His mouth was open as he let out pants and gasps.

“Fuck baby...” Ben groaned and snaked a hand under Laraine’s chest to pull him flush against him. “I wanna hear you baby...come on...” he slid his other hand around and wrapped it around Laraine’s hard cock. “Come one baby...”

“Benjamin...” Laraine wrapped his arms around the man and laced his hands into his hair. “Please...god it feels so...good...please...please...more...” the pleasure was dangerously high now and Laraine arched his back, head falling on Ben’s shoulder, as he came hard.

Holding Laraine up, Ben thrust a few more times before coming hard inside of him. Before the last of his energy gave way Ben lifted Laraine bridal style and laid them both on the couch, Laraine resting softly on his chest. For a moment it was only silence. Laraine’s eyes were closed as he listened to Ben’s breathing slowly become more even.

“You alright?” Ben asked, pulling a blanket over them.

“Perfect.” Laraine lifted his head and kissed Ben. “I love you Benjamin.”

Ben smiled softly and kissed Laraine back. “Will you move in with me baby?”

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Yes!!! Two chapters up in one morning!!! Take that!!!!
Anyway, review, you know you want to...
Oh god...I love knowing what is going to happen...I'm even excited to write it!!! However, if you wanna know what I know then you are going to have to review...I'll give you a hint.
HINT : Antony is gonna play a big roll in this.
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~Kay