The one thing that keeps me sane...

DISCLAIMER : Yey, I have a reason for this now!!! Why? Because I don't own hot topic or anything in it! okay well, I've bought stuff from there but I do not get paid and didn't come up with the store. So........I don't own it, take no credit for it....and don't even know who the person is who did come up with it...all I know is that that person I love... Other than that this story is mine and if you steal anything I will not hesitate to take drastic measures...

ONWARDS --------->

The two pulled away from each other, Laraine with a blush on his face. “We weren’t having sex on the chair thank you.” Ben shot back. “I wasn’t aware that kissing was a mortal sin.”

“Considering you are kissing a boy right now, unless Lainy lied to us, it is technically a mortal sin.” Anna told him and Ben rolled his eyes. “Sorry, that’s what happens when you live with crazy Catholic people.”

“We better get going though.” Alex said. “Your mom is going to be pissed at us if we don’t get home Lainy.”

Anna stood and set her hands on her hips. “Well, actually, I have some things to talk to Alex about that kind of involve you Lainy. So that means either you have to lock yourself in your room or find somewhere else to be.”

A small smile formed on Laraine’s face and he looked back at Ben. “Mind if I stay with you Benjamin?”

Ben was smiling already and probably would have jumped up and thanked Anna if Laraine hadn’t been sitting in his lap. “Course it is. I thought you’d never ask love.”

“See yah tomorrow Lainy.” Anna smiled at him. “And thank you for having us over Ben. This was really nice.”

“Yeah, we should all hang out again some time.” Zak wrapped his arms around Alex.

Alex yawned and popped his neck. “I agree. Alright, come on. Lets leave these two alone and get home so you can talk to me Anna.”

The three left and Laraine leaned against Ben. They sat there for a moment before Ben tilted Laraine’s head up and started to kiss him. This time when Ben slid a hand between his legs Laraine only moaned and held onto Ben tighter. Ben applied a small amount of pressure to Laraine’s growing need and got a small cry from his lover.

“Daddy!” the two froze remembering Jacoby was still in the house. “Daddy can I come out now!”

Ben kissed Laraine apologetically and stood, setting Laraine back down in the chair, before heading back to Jacoby’s room. “Hey monster.” Ben lifted his son, who looked about ready to pass out. “You need to go to bed.”

“But I wanna play with Lain.” Jacoby began to cry. “P...please...”

Kissing the top of his son’s head Ben walked over to his bed to put him down. “You can play with Lain tomorrow alright? I promise. And hey, the faster you go to sleep the faster you get to wake up and play.”

Jacoby stopped crying and nodded. “Love you daddy.”

Smiling softly Ben kissed Jacoby’s forehead. “Love you too monster.”

When he walked back into the living room he found Laraine picking things up and putting things back where they belonged. He walked up to the boy and wrapped his arms around his waist from behind. He knew what Laraine was going to say if Ben even mentioned the word sex. Jacoby was in the house meaning they couldn’t because somehow that would scar the frail little child’s mind. It wasn’t like Jacoby probably hadn’t seen his mom fucking every guy she saw but Laraine was strict about that kind of thing.

Cautiously Ben began to kiss Laraine’s neck and Laraine tilted his head to the side, eyes closing, as he melted back against Ben. “Benjamin no...” Laraine whimpered, bringing an arm back so he could grab Ben’s hair, as one of Ben’s hands began to undo his pants. “Benjamin we can’t...”

“Hush love.” Ben tightened his hold around Laraine, knowing Laraine’s knees would probably give out. “It’s fine.”

Laraine let out a small cry as Ben’s hand slid into his jeans. “Benjamin...please...” Laraine begged though he didn’t know if he was begging for Ben to stop or continue. “Benjamin...Jacoby is in the house.”

The phone began to ring and Ben cursed loudly as he pulled from Laraine to get it. Laraine turned to watch Ben as he fixed his pants. “Hello?” Ben muttered, clearly annoyed, into the phone.

“Clearly I was interrupting something.” Ryan’s voice came. “Is Lain there? Cause he’s not answering his cell phone and I want to talk to him.”

Ben handed the phone to Laraine and went into the kitchen. “This is Lain.”

“So, did Ben ask you about going to the party tomorrow night?” Ryan asked him.

Laraine sat on the couch. “Yeah, I’m gonna go.”

“Sweet!” you could hear Ryan smiling. “Okay, first thing in the morning I will be over there and you and I are going shopping! We’re gonna get your hair done also cause I have the best idea for that.”

This made Laraine laugh and he sat down on the couch. “Alright Ryan, that sounds fun. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”

The moment Laraine hung the phone up and set it one the table he was under Ben on the couch. Ben’s mouth was immediately on his, not giving him any time to argue or protest. Laraine wrapped his arms around Ben’s neck and held the man close as the kiss got more heated and Ben lowered his hips so their bodies met.

“Benjamin...” Laraine tilted his head back to allow Ben better access to his neck. “Please...we can’t...”

“Baby,” Ben lifted his head to look down at Laraine. “Jacoby is my son meaning he could sleep through an atom bomb going off next to his face.” he kissed Laraine softly. “Come on baby. I promise Jacoby isn’t going to randomly show up.”

Laraine bit his lip before nodding his head. Ben began to kiss Laraine again and wrapped an arm around Laraine’s waist before pulling the boy up with him. Laraine lifted his arms to help Ben pull of his shirt and then dropped them around Ben’s neck as they began to kiss again. He grabbed the hem of Ben’s shirt, lifting, causing the kiss to break once more before Ben pulled Laraine on top of him as he lay back.

A moan escaped Laraine’s lips as Ben’s hands slid down to his ass. Their mouths were moving frantically against each other’s, tongues battling. “Pants baby.” Ben muttered before resuming the kiss. “Off.”

Sitting up Laraine quickly undid his pants and striped himself. He leaned back down then and kissed Ben as he began to work on getting Ben’s belt undone. Once he had the belt undone he broke away and undid Ben’s pants all together. Ben lifted his hips and helped Laraine take his pants off before pulling the boy back down and sucking at his neck.

“Oh god Benjamin...” Laraine moaned as their naked bodies touched. “Please...”

“Sit up baby.” Ben muttered and the two sat up again. Ben kissed Laraine before sliding out from under Laraine. “Don’t move love.”

Laraine nodded and watched as Ben walked back into the bedroom. He came back out with a familiar bottle and set it on the table before sitting next to Laraine and pulling him over so he was straddling his waist. A look of confusion passed over Laraine’s face at this and Ben smirked.

“You’re gonna like it baby.” Ben promised and grabbed the tube. He coated his three fingers before pulling Laraine down to kiss him and sliding the first finger into Laraine’s entrance. Laraine pulled his mouth from Ben’s and let out a moan. “Feel good baby? Are you okay?”

Leaning his head down Laraine rested his head on Ben’s shoulder. “Fine.” He breathed and his body tensed a little as Ben’s second finger began to push in.

“Relax love.” Ben ran a hand comfortingly up and down Laraine’s back. Slowly Laraine relaxed again and Ben began to scissor his fingers in his lover. “That’s it baby.” Ben whispered as Laraine began to move his hips against those intruding fingers.

“Ah!” Laraine cried out as Ben struck that place within him. “Oh god Benjamin...please...”

Pulling his fingers from his lover Ben grabbed the tube again and slicked his cock. “Babe sit up.” Ben held Laraine’s hips. Laraine sat up and looked at Ben. “You wanna do this baby?” Ben asked him. “You don’t have to if you don’t want.”

For a moment Laraine just sat there. Not moving. Before he nodded his head. “I do.”

Holding onto Laraine’s hips (Laraine’s hands on Ben’s shoulders) Ben tried to keep himself from just slamming Laraine down onto him. Laraine bit his lip as he slid himself down onto Ben’s hard cock and his eyes clamped shut as he panted, trying to keep himself from letting tears leak past his eyes. It hurt still but Laraine was not going to back out just because of that. He knew the pleasure that could come from this.

They both let out a moan once Ben was fully sheathed inside Laraine and Ben pulled Laraine close, kissing his temple. “You feel so good baby.” Ben whispered to him, trying to fight the urge to move, stroking Laraine’s back to comfort him. “You’re so wonderful.”

Taking a few deep breaths Laraine sat up again and they kissed softly. Experimentally Laraine rolled his hips into Ben’s and Ben moaned. That made Laraine mentally smile. This was something that he might just enjoy.

“Oh god baby.” Ben moaned as Laraine rose so Ben was barely inside him still and then slid back down. “Fuck.” Ben ran his hands over Laraine’s chest and down to his thighs. “You’re so fucking beautiful.”

Laraine rose again and lowered himself, a soft moan escaping his lips now. “O...only...for you Ben...jamin.” he panted out.

“Damn strait.” Ben groaned as Laraine began a slow rhythm. He refrained from thrusting up into Laraine. “Fuck baby...”

Slowly Laraine began to rock faster and their breathing began to get more rapid. Reaching between Laraine’s legs Ben took hold of his weeping erection. A moan left Laraine’s lips and he faltered in his movements a moment before biting his lip. “I...I’m gonna...” Laraine whimpered and before he knew it he was on the floor under Ben. He arched his back as Ben thrust in and out of him at a near brutal pace. “Benjamin!” he cried out, fingers digging into the carpet as he thrust his hips back against the older man’s.

“That’s it baby.” Ben groaned in Laraine’s ear. “Let me hear you. I wanna hear you baby.”

“Oh god...” Laraine moaned and tossed his head. “Shit Benjamin...please...oh god please...I love you...god I love you...”

Ben kissed Laraine sloppily and licked at the boy’s parted lips. “You’re gorgeous baby...fucking amazing.” he slid his hand under Laraine’s shoulder blade and grabbed onto his shoulder, thrusting harder. “Fuck baby, cum for me.”

With those words Laraine arched his back and let out a cry as he came hard between their bodies. Only a few more thrusts later Ben came inside Laraine and caught himself on his forearms before he fell onto the boy. They both just sat there a moment, panting and trying to get a grip on reality. Ben kissed Laraine softly and pulled out of the boy. Laraine winced and let out a small whimper.

“Fuck baby.” Ben muttered feeling Laraine wince. “Did I hurt you?”

“I...I’m fine Benjamin.” Laraine whispered, trying not to let his discomfort show. “Promise.”

Ben studied Laraine a moment before sitting up. “Baby,” he sighed seeing small traces of blood. “You need to tell me if I am hurting you.”

Laraine sat up with a small wince and made a small sound of disapproval again. “I’m fine Benjamin. Really, it doesn’t hurt that much.”

That brought a small laugh from Ben’s lips. “Love don’t lie to me.” He pulled Laraine to him and lifted the boy with him. “Let’s get you an Advil, get cleaned up, and go to sleep.”

Nodding into Ben’s shoulder Laraine sighed. “That sounds nice.”


next day, roughly five o’clock pm

Ryan drug Laraine into the hair saloon and pushed him into the chair. The lady walked up and wrapped the thing around Laraine before asking what kind of hair style he wanted. An evil grin appeared on Ryan’s face and he pulled a picture out of his pocket, not letting Laraine see. The woman nodded and grabbed the scissors but Laraine turned around to face Ryan.

“Ryan let me see.” Laraine argued.

“Lainy, trust me.” Ryan told him. “You’re gonna look hot and everyone at the party is going to be drooling over you. Just trust me.”

Cautiously Laraine sat back against the chair and closed his eyes, not wanting to see how much hair she was cutting off. The cutting the hair part was fine, he was okay with that. It really didn’t feel like she cut all that much off. However when he felt her putting something cold and liquid touch his hair, that was a different story. He was way to afraid to open his eyes now.

“Ryan what the hell is going on?” Laraine asked him.

Ryan set a hand on his shoulder. “Trust me Lain. You’ll love it.” he leaned down to whisper to Laraine. “And so will Ben.”

Laraine didn’t know how long he had sat in that chair for but finally the lady told him he could open his eyes. When he did his jaw literally dropped. His bangs were tapered from the front to the back on one side, starting at his nose and going up to the top of his ear. The top part of his hair was still blonde but the under part of his hair was now black and his bangs had blood red streaks in them. The rest of his hair was short and spiked. He could not believe it...though he had to admit he liked it.

“Watcha think?” Ryan asked him.

Laraine sat there in awe a moment. “I like it.”

“Knew you would.” Ryan gave the lady the money. “Come on! Shopping time!” he grabbed Laraine’s hand and pulled him out of the hair saloon and down the mall. “We’re going to my favorite place in the world! Hot Topic!”

“Ryan I don’t wear clothes from there.” Laraine argued.

Ryan rolled his eyes. “I know, that’s why we’re going. Because at this party is going to be a bunch of people who do. Which means you need to fit in and not stand out. Trust me, you do not want to stand out at a party like this.”

They entered Hot Topic and Laraine immediately felt out of place. At least his hair fit. Ryan immediately had shirts in his hands and was throwing them at Laraine telling him to try them on. By the time they left the store Laraine had three new shirts and a sweater. One that had a band on it, another that had a picture of a movie, and the other was just a black one. However, all of them were tight. The sweater was also tight and had a picture of Jack Skeleton on the back of it.

“I don’t have pants to go with these.” Laraine muttered as they walked down the mall. “These are clothes that you need to like, wear tight pants with.”

“Girl pants.” Ryan smirked. “And that is where we are headed next. You already have the shoes so that is good, the shirts and the sweater, and now you need the pants. After that we go to my place and have some fun.”

When they got back to Ryan’s no one was there. They went back to Ryan’s room and threw the stuff on the bed. Ryan picked out a hair of the tight black pants, the movie shirt, and made Laraine go change. When Laraine came out of the bathroom he was immediately sat down and freaked out seeing make up in front of him.

“No way!” Laraine argued. “Ryan no way! I draw the line with this!”

“Just eyeliner.” Ryan crossed his heart. “After that I’m done.”

Laraine sort of hesitated before nodding. “Alright.”

Ryan grabbed the eyeliner and began to put it on him. “Lain you look hot.” he said as he finished the first eye. “I’m almost starting to get jealous of Ben.”

“Shut up Ryan.” Laraine muttered and opened his eyes and Ryan pulled back. “Is there anything else you would like to do to me?”

Ryan shook his head. “Nah, I think you’re good.” he smiled. “I’d pierce your ear if you want.”

“No.” Laraine argued. “This is going to freak my mom out enough.”

“True.” Ryan nodded. “Come on. We’ll watch a movie and then head over to the party. Everyone is going to be shocked to see you!”

Laraine looked at himself in the mirror. “I’m shocked enough for everyone.”

party time!!!


The house was already packed by the time that Laraine and Ryan showed up. Laraine spotted Ben’s car meaning him and Michael were already inside somewhere. That made him feel better. The moment he found Ben was the moment he felt more comfortable, especially if Ben thought he looked good. That would make him feel all the much better.

When they walked inside immediately Ryan and him had guys looking at them, making Laraine very uncomfortable. Ryan just told him to stick close and linked their arms together. The walked around for a while. Laraine having to tell people that no, he was not interested. Ryan doing the same. Ryan finally saw Michael and pulled Laraine over there.

“Lain, wow.” Michael looked him over. “Shit you look nice.” Ryan jabbed him in the stomach. “Babe you know I think your hot. It’s not every day I see Lain looking like one of us.”

That made Laraine blush. “Thank you Michael. Have you seen Benjamin?”

“Uh,” Michael looked around. “He’s here somewhere, I know that much. He probably went to find someone he knows. Don’t worry about it.”

Nodding Laraine kind of looked around. “I see him.” they all looked to see Ben talking to some guy not to far away. “I’m gonna go see him.”

“Be careful Lain.” Ryan told him.

Laraine began to make his way through the crowd and was almost to Ben when someone grabbed his arm. “Hey there, I’m Cley, what’s your name?”

“Lain.” he told the man, a little freaked out. “Excuse me but I have to go...”

The guy did not loosen his grip as Laraine tried to go. “Come on, don’t you wanna have some fun?”

Laraine shook his head. “Please, let me go.”

“Fuck off Cley. He said no.” someone said and the guy backed away. Laraine turned and smiled at his savior. “Hey, sorry about that. Cley can be a real dick.”

“It’s okay.” Laraine brushed his bangs out of his face. “Thank you.”

The guy smiled. “Antony.” he told him.

“Lain.” he introduced himself. “I...I have to go.”

Antony nodded. “Sure. Hopefully I’ll see you later.”

Laraine just smiled and walked away from him. God this place was insane. He walked up to Ben and tapped the guy on the shoulder. “Hey there Benjamin.”

Ben turned and his eyes widened. “Lain?” he asked and Laraine nodded. “Fuck.” he smiled and ran a hand through Laraine’s hair. “Shit baby you look hot.”


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