Christina's Love

The sun shone brightly as the next morning as I made my bed. I cant believe this day is finally here. And I have only about twenty minutes to get ready before he will be here. Oh no! how did I manage to do that? So quickly I went to my closet where the dress I had just bought for today hung and of course it was red. Red is like my power color, I feel the best in it. I slipped on the knee length dress on and put on my matching heels. Afterwards I ran to my mirror to put on my mascara, a little eyeliner and some lipstick. Then I took my hair out of its bun and brushed it until it was smooth and free of tangles. Which didn’t take very long. Then I picked up a few things and put them in my purse. As soon as I finished all that the door rang. “ Oh my gosh! He is here.” I said as I ran out my door and down the stairs to the front door. Thank goodness I somehow managed to finish on time.

I open the front door to see his smiling face. “ Hi Christina! Ready for your surprise?” he asked. “ Oh course I am. Mother! It’s Kyle!” I said yelling the second statement to my mother upstairs. “ Okay have a good time.” Came her reply. “I will mother,” I said. Then Kyle took my hand and I closed the door with the other. He took me to his car and opened the passenger door for me. He closed the door and went around to the driver’s seat and got in and headed down the road. Then after a minute or two Kyle looked at me and says, “ Are you excited?” Of course I am I have been looking forward to today for a long time.” I said. Kyle smiles at this as he continues to drive.

Then after a few minutes of riding around we arrived and I figured out where we were. “ We’re at Park Rose.” I said in delight. Kyle smiles more knowing that he has made me happy. Park Rose is one of the most beautiful parks I have ever seen. It is called Park Rose because obviously Roses are the type of flower you would most likely see. It has really green grass and all alone the park there are bushes full of beautiful red or white roses, but mostly red, and there are even trees that have roses in them. Along every path there are rose bushes lining the way. There have been weddings that were held here. And if not the ceremony the reception. Lots of wedding receptions were held here. Also every single path, will eventually lend to the park’s center where people throw all kinds of parties, activities and special events. I think the best times to see this beautiful park are at sunrise and when the sun is setting. The reason is because at these times the roses seem to glow. It is really a sight to be seen. Then after dark this place is wonderful by candle light. It looks simply enchanting even if people light their flash lights.

I have such great memories in this park. Like when I was ten my mother had me entered in jr. miss Green Meadows. I remembered that I was so nervous when I had to sing my little solo. Which was I could fall in Love by Selena. I was also nervous when I had to dance this Salsa routine with my cousin Brandon. Mother made sure that I grew up well cultured. Which I think its part of the reason that I always treated everyone equally regardless of their race, Origin, or the color of their skin. Which is why in between fittings and I had met Kyle for the first time, I didn’t treat him like an outsider just because he was a Mexican like my cousin Sandra did. She was so mean to him and she still isn’t very nice to him for that matter. But when we had first met that sunny but windy day we instantly became the best of friends. I thought he was cute even then, with his innocent crooked grin. He didn’t really know English then because he had just moved here. So to save him the embarrassment of struggling over English words. I spoke a little in Spanish It wasn’t a lot because at that time I hadn’t learned a lot yet. ( Actually I still don’t know a whole lot, but that’s because my mother had to let go my Spanish tutor as well as some others years ago. So I learn whatever I can pick up when I go out.) I may not have said much in Spanish but I had said enough that it made a lasting impression on a boy who had just moved here from another country, which to a child could seem like a total different planet because all of the differences in tradition, and culture. And also because I was the first person not to treat him any different and that meant a lot. My mother had been polite to him and his family which helped a lot.

Later that day I performed my best now with enthusiasm because I had made a new friend and I wanted desperately to impress him. We played and got to know each other in between each segment of the pageant and this whole thing had taken a week. And we would play whenever I wasn’t performing or when Mother hadn’t made me practice my routines. Which she had done over and over again which she had done until I could do the routines in my sleep. Which I had done sort of. When she made me practice late at night. And whenever I had free time that week I would spend it with tired. I felt bad that there were times when I was practically falling asleep on him. But I would force myself to wake up and come up with a fun game we could play together. And we would have lots of fun. The last day of the completion I was a little nervous because I had to sing one last solo. And the song that I was going to sing was Como la flor also by Selena. And I was nervous because Kyle whose native tongue was Spanish was there watching me. I remember being so afraid that I was going to mess up and that he was going to notice and that he would be disappointed in me. Because I knew that Selena was one of his favorite singers. But as the song started and after the first few words and notes I was lost in the song and I no longer saw the great audience and I just sand my heart out. And when the song ended and everything came back their was silence and then people started to clap and Kyle was clapping to so I guess that I had performed the song well. The audience didn’t stop clapping until the announcer had said that next was the evening gown segment and the questioner portion and after words they would announce who the winner would be.

I loved the gown that I had got for that portion I had felt like a princess in it. It was red with white trim. And mother had curled my hair for that section. Mom also put lipstick, mascara, and eyeliner on me, I let her put foundation and a bit of blush before that but that was so I wouldn’t appear pale under the stage lights. She wanted to put more make up on me like the other contestant’s mothers and older sisters were but I told her that it wasn’t necessary besides I hated the feeling of caked on makeup, still do for that matter. Then the questioner portion came and went. And the four of us standing on stage were nervously waiting for them to announce the winner. They announced first and second runner up. And the last girl and I were both getting scared because only one would win and the other would just get a complementary gift for competing. It was a torturous ten seconds before they announced the winner. “ And the winner of the 2010 jr. little miss Green Meadows is…. Little miss …. Christina Jones!” the announcer said. And I couldn’t believe it. And at ten I still had tears come to my eyes as I accepted my crown and flowers. After the photo up for American Girl Beauties magazine my friends and family came to congratulate me. And Kyle even gave a red rose and those are my favorite. That’s when he discovered that Ioved roses especially red ones because I my eyes lit up as I thanked him and I had gave him a hug. Mother took a picture of the two of us right after that hug. Kyle was grinning even though he was slightly red and I had sparkles in my green eyes and I was beaming with my little tiara holding his rose. I kept the rose. I dried it and preserved it. And that photograph that mother had took of us went into this scrapbook that I had made for Kyle and I.

Two years later in this park I starred the lead in the Musical of Annie. They thought it was perfect that my hair was auburn but I still had to wear a red wig because I had refused to cut it for the role. So even though I had to wear that annoying wig it was still a lot of fun to play the part of fun, free spirited Annie. My best friend Katherine was in it as well she played another orphan which I thinks name was Muffy. And we had so much fun. At practice was like recess for Katherine and I and the actually performance days and nights were like a ball. That’s when I discovered that I could act as well as sing and dance. Critics and talent scouts called me a triple threat, and it was great. That play was the beginning of many plays and musicals to come. And among Annie on the list of productions I was in included, Cinderella, Romeo and Juliet ( That one Kyle and to be in it with me, and we got the lead roles, he said that he couldn’t stand seeing another guy with me in Cinderella so he was in Romeo and Juliet with me.) Another was Sleeping Beauty which he was in with me and it was another that I still had to wear a wig. Right after the musical Annie I was also in Peter Pan, I played Wendy Darling. That one was fun because we got to use Harnesses to fly. And the most recent musical that I was in was the Sound of Music. I played Maria and the weird part was that the girl that played Lesil Mr. Van trap oldest daughter was closer to Maria’s age at twenty and I was fifteen closer to the age of Lesil. That was the weird part.

But other than that it was great because Kyle played Mr. Von Trap. It was great. The girl that played the Baroness was just plain me to me whenever we weren’t actually performing. I think that was because she wanted Kyle for herself but that wasn’t going to happen. Because we were already together by that time. And whenever Kyle and I were off stage together she would watch us with those cold blue eyes scheming ways that never worked to get Kyle for herself. But other than Eve trying to take Kyle from me the performance was so much fun. And that play was on for two weeks. And at closing night that was when Kyle said that he loved me and I told him that I loved him too. It was wonderful. And mother took another picture that I put in one of my scrapbooks. I have more than one now.

A year before that Kyle had given me my first kiss in this park that was such a magical night one that I will always remember. That was the night that Kyle step over the thresh hold from best friends to boyfriend and girlfriend. And two months after that we had went on our first date. And I remember that we were both so nervous. I didn’t know what I was supposed to do or what to expect and all that he knew was what he had been told about dates. But I still remember it as one of the greatest nights of my life. At that time I had my own digital camera so I took my own pictures to put in my scrapbooks.

When Kyle stopped and sat down on a bench along the path it brought me back to the present. “ Thinking of when we had first met, all those productions you were in, the productions were in together and of our first kiss?” he asked with a knowing grin. “ Yes.” I said turning slightly red. “ Don’t worry about it I was thinking of the same thing hon.” He said smiling at me the kind of smile that goes straight to your eyes. Then suddenly out of the blue, music starts playing and I looked in the direction that it was coming from. We got up then, and heading towards the center of the park. When we got there a slow song came on. And it took me only a second to realize that it was our song.

So Kyle took my hand and we went to where the other couples were already dancing. Some of the other couples smiled at us for a second before turning their attention back to their partners. Because by now we were well known in this park because of all the productions that we had been in. Anyway, Our first song is actually the very first song that we had slowed danced too. It was an old song created some time in the 1990’s but we didn’t care it was a beautiful song. I remember the very first time we had danced to Our song, it was on our first date, and we had been dancing together to all of the fast songs that had been playing. Then all of a sudden it switches to a slow number. It was awkward putting my arms around his neck, and since it was the first time we slow danced together, it was even more awkward having his hands on my hips.

I remember that we had to watch the other couples at first while we were dancing so that we would know how. Because we were both unsure of how it was done at first. I think it was mostly nerves on my part because I had been taking dance since I was little. But while we were figuring it out we were also listening to the song, and we both enjoyed the song. And fell in love with the lyrics even if we hadn’t told each other I love you yet. So it became our song at that very moment. Kyle twirled me all of a sudden and again I was brought back to what was happening now. Kyle had gotten very good at dancing these last couple of years. “ Kyle I do believe that Our song Love of my life by Darla Day, even though it’s a wedding song, I believe that it relates to us 100%.” I said dreamy like. “ You know I think so too.” Kyle says having a dreamy look in his eyes which wasn’t unlike mine. I am staring deep into his deep brown eyes and he is staring into mine as well. I was seeing our future in his deep brown eyes. Our future of lying next to him at night, all cuddly and warm and having him just hold me close.

Then all of a sound a sudden boom brakes into our dreams of the future. It was missals and machine guns on aircrafts over head. It had ruined our special moment, and just like that people are screaming and running all over the place not knowing where to go. Kyle takes my hand with a worried look on his face. Hand in hand we started to run looking for somewhere to go that we could me safe. When we couldn’t run anymore, Kyle pushes me to the ground and gets on top of me to shield me. I want to cry and scream out. I do start crying a little because I am so scared. The sound of shooting missals and guns overhead on planes could only mean one thing. That is that The World Man Slaughter War, the second war our country is in that supposedly is supposed to end all wars, has come to our beloved town of Green Meadows. And because of W.M.S.W. has come here that means that it is no longer safe here for the women and girls and we would have to be shipped out.

I am worried about Kyle who was still laying on top of me he could be shot I really do hope that doesn’t happen that would be my worst nightmare. Laying there worrying I remember a news bulletin that had been issued a few weeks ago. The war had gotten to Sunnyville, Which was a couple days drive from here, and all the women and girls had been placed on a space jet and sent to Venus. It showed the women and girls boarding and it showed the take off. Then some hours later the news came on again to play a radio transmission stating the safe arrival of the Sunnyville females to Venus. Years ago the government had secretly created the settlement up there so that people could live up their safely. And about twelve years ago, when the war got bad they started shipping women and girls up there. They only do that when a town is declared no longer safe for them. I had hoped that it would never come here though it was inevitable. I had even prayed hard every night that God would keep Green Meadows safe. But now all my hope was dashed because the war has come here and I really don’t want to go to Venus. I mean what fun is it to go to a world without men or boys?! How do they expect us to survive there without them? Fresh tears came to my eyes at the thought.

The shooting around us now seemed so close. I am so frightened that I begin to pray, asking that God would keep us safe and that none of us would get shot. Because one shot can prove to be fatal. Then after a few minute the shooting stopped and the planes went away, though I know that they wont be far away. But at least my praying had worked, and we weren’t shot. Though I wasn’t sure about any of the others I hoped that they were okay. Kyle got up off of me and helped me to my feet. I had a mixture of dirt and grass stains on my dress now but that had been small apples compared to what had happened today. He helped get some of the dirt off my face and get the grass out off my hair. He had this truly upset look in his eyes. And then he said “ Christina, I’m sorry, but I should get you home.” I know that he was right but I couldn’t help the words that came out of my mouth, because I was hurting inside, I really didn’t want this day to end. “ Kyle! Please don’t, please don’t do this, I don’t want to go home just to pack to be somewhere so far away from you that its quite literally on another planet. I just cant do that, because I cant be away from you. To do that would literally kill me from the inside, out. Because I love you so much Kyle and please don’t make me live without you.” I said gently all the words had come straight from my heart. And I had looked deep into those deep brown eyes with so much love hoping against hope that he would understand.

“ Christina! Look at what just happened. We almost got shot and we could have died. Wake up Christina! Wake up to this bitter reality , The W.M.S.W. has come to Green Meadow. And that means, unfortunately, that its no longer safe for you, Christina, and all the people like you! So you and the other women have to GO WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!!!” He yelled at me.

I blinked. I cant believe it. I can not believe it he had yelled at me. I am shocked at how harshly he had just spoken to me for he had never yelled at me before. And those words that he had barked at me hurt, hurt so bad. It wasn’t necessary for him to yell at me. Even when he had disagreed with me those few times over the last six years he had never yelled at me. What was different that he had to yell at me now? I had to look away from Kyle then because I can feel a million tears coming to my eyes but I fought to keep them back. I truly cant believe that he is making me do this. He is forcing me away, which the very thought of was already causing my aching heart to crumble and break. He tries to take my arm but I wiggle away for that would have only added to the pain I was already feeling. So all I could do was silently following him to his car. Kyle opens the door for me when we get there like he always does. And he closes the door and then goes around to the other side.

I just sat in my passenger seat not saying a word because I feel like a can barley breathe. I have never not talked to Kyle, even when I was mad at him which was rare. I had always spoken to him. Now I couldn’t even utter one word. Not when he was starting the car and not when he was driving down the interstate. I had said all that I had to say in the park and he threw my words back at me as if what I had said wasn’t even important. He didn’t have to yell at me like he did, he still would have gotten his point across if he hadn’t. But the thing is he did yell at me. He has gotten mad at me and yet he still hasn’t yelled at me before. Again I wonder why he has to now? I can feel Kyle looking at me from time to time while he was driving even though I am staring out my window. I know that he is bewildered. For I had always told him what was in my heart, and here I was throwing him a curve ball by staying silent and almost statue like. To him its probably like I am someone else and he cant figure out how to get this person to open up to him. He isn’t hard to read for I know him well. But I wonder if he understands at all that it was him that caused me to be like this.

I don’t like this either, this painful silence between us but it hurt even more for me to talk. And I couldn’t bear to say a word, not even now as I see my house coming into view. My heart is throbbing because as soon as I enter my house I have to go straight upstairs and pack for Venus, somewhere I don’t want to be at all. Kyle parks the car in my driveway, and turns off the ignition. I don’t want for him, I open my own door and ran up the porch to my front door. I was about to open the front door when, “ Christina, I’m sorry, I’m sorry about how I said what I did at the park. But don’t you understand that I had to say it, because it was the only way to make you see reason. The war is here, and I don’t want anything to happen to you that would kill me if anything happened to you. And even though it hurts me so much to have to make you got to Venus. Which is so far away from where I am. I have to, to keep you safe. Because I love you so much my Chrissy girl.” I turned around and gave him a look. “ Do you? Because I love you my Teddy bear. And now I’m unsure that you even want to be my teddy bear anymore. Because when you are someone’s teddy bear you are not supposed to yell at them, the way that you had. I will miss you more than you will ever know. Goodbye Kyle!” I said that last part quickly because I can feel all those tears I’ve been holding back start to escape. I just ran into my house, I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t want him to see me cry.

When the door slammed shut behind me, Kyle was crying out after me. “ But Chrissy girl, I am still your teddy bear. Chrissy girl?! Te es mi amor. Chrissy girl? Chrissy girl please?” I couldn’t take it anymore, I ran up the stairs locked myself in my room and collapsed on my bed tears freely pouring out. As my heart was breaking. I screamed and let it all out, everything that I was feeling inside. I hate this war because it was forcing me away from the one I love and I swore that it would never happen. Yet, here it was happening again. I know its cliché but why isn’t life fair?! I just continued to cry and scream till I couldn’t cry or scream no more and when I could I got up off my bed and dragged myself around my room packing up my stuff. Not wanting to pack at all.

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A bit later when I was about half way through my packing, my mother knocks and then comes in. “ I was so worried when I got the news bulletin at work. As soon as I had heard that the W.M.S.W. had come and planes had attacked park Rose I left in a frantic because I had just knew that, that was where Kyle had taken you. Thank heavens you are alright.” She says giving me a hug but when I opened my mouth to reply she continues. “ When I got home you were already home and I heard that you were crying so I had let you be for a while. And Sweetie its okay to cry, I cried to at first, remember? And I know it will be hard to adapt knowing that your alone and you need him. But he cant because he will be here fighting the war and you will be there, But dear, it will get easier for it always does with time. And soon you will get to the point where the only way to rid your self of the pain is to just let him go and you will be able to move on.”

She said looking at me especially since I had just jerked myself from her, when she said that I had to let go of him. “No! I will never let go off him Mother!” I yell. “ Sure I said that too at first sweetie but it’s the only way to move on.” She says trying to reach for me again but I wiggle out of her grasp. “ No, I mean it because it will kill me to let go!” And I would rather live here in danger knowing that I love him then live an unreal life by not loving at all!” I screamed. I couldn’t help it, I have never done that before to my mother but I couldn’t help it. It was like it had to come out. My mother jumped up with her eyes flashing angrily. “ Who told you such a lie that lover boy of yours?! Because such fairytales don’t exist.” She screamed with fire sparks in her hazel eyes. “ No mother leave Kyle out of this he didn’t tell me that!” “ Then what idiot told you such blasphemy?!” I was shocked for I have never heard her say that word. That is by far the worst thing that I have ever heard her say in my life. But I answered her. “ Someone that once upon a time was my father, before he had to go away. And I don’t think Father is a liar do you?”

My mother stood there and screamed, it was shocking I have never heard her scream, never she always had such a quite, calm voice. I couldn’t believe my ears. But I can see her screaming as well as hearing it. I had backed up to because it was sort of frightening. Then my mother said in a voice I have never heard her use before. “ I told you once and I will tell you again NEVER EVER mention YOUR FATHER TO ME AGAIN EVER!!!!” Though that was scary how she said it cold and cruel and still stood up straight. Then looked her in the eyes and said, “ Why? You love him don’t you? So why shouldn’t I mention my father? Why mother?” I backed away as she started screaming again and now her hazel eyes were truly ablaze now. “ Because I said so!!” she said in an icy voice as she slapped me across the face. The force of it had forced me on the floor.

That was so shocking I could hardly believe it even though my face was stinging. She has never laid a hand on me before not even on the rare occasions that I was in trouble for some odd reason or another. I rubbed my stinging face as she stormed out of my room. I got up and sat down on my bed completely taken aback because of all that had happened to day. First Kyle and now mother? What next? Was Destiny going to get angry at me for the first time in her life? This is all just too much for me. I went back to packing because I needed a mundane task to keep my brain occupied.



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I am done with packing now. Oh how I hate this. I don’t want to leave. Then I heard the downstairs phone rang. I heard someone pick it up. So I left my room and I sat down on the steps to listen. “ Hello, Jones residence Lady of the house speaking.” I heard my mother answer in her normal way in her sweet and cheery voice that now sounds fake to me. I wish I could hear the other person, but I don’t have E.S.P. That would be nice though. “ Oh, hello Kyle.” It was Kyle! I wonder what he wants. “ No Kyle you may not talk to Christina right now, but you may talk to Destiny if you would like.” Why isn’t mother letting him talk to me she always does unless I’m feeling too ill to talk. “ No as Christina’s mother I think that you have done quite enough. For Christina is still probably crying her eyes out right now because of whatever it is that you have said to her because she wont tell me.” I have never told her that Kyle had said something to hurt and me. And I am not crying right now and If I was it wouldn’t be because of him it would be because of her. “ And I certainly think not! I think you should stay where you are rather then going to the airport and upsetting her even more now don’t you?”

At this I went back to my room and locked the door. Not even making it to my bed I cried some more. In between tears I said, “ This is going to be unbearable! Who does mother think she is by telling Kyle to stay away? Kyle isn’t just apart of my life, he is my life. And without him I may as well be shot!” Then just as quickly as it came I felt my sadness and desperation dissolve into pure anger.

“ Mother! How I hate her! She thinks just because she let go, that means that I have to!!!” Then I stopped and clasped my hand over my mouth in my entire life I have never said that I hated anyone, not even when Eve was trying to steal Kyle from me and I had just said that I hated my mother. What was happening why was everything changing including myself? I wondered. “ Well, I am certainly not my mother and I am not letting go of Kyle. She is ruining what there is left of my life.” I sighed. At that moment there was a sudden knocking at my door. “ Christina!” “ What?!” I reply. It’s time to go now. Please get your stuff.” “Oh great now I have to go to a life that I didn’t choose. What happened to a little thing that I used to call my life?” I said wondering.

“ Christina! Did you hear me?!!” My mother yelled from downstairs. “ Yes mother! Give me a minute.” I yelled back at her. “ Fine! We will be waiting but Christina don’t be long!” She snapped back. “ Fine!” I snapped right back. So I bend over and pick up my six suitcases and three duffle bags. I have no idea how I managed to pick up and carry them all. “ So mother’s punishment besides keeping Kyle away is for me to carry all my stuff in the car all by myself. Well, fine if that’s the way she wants it then release the hounds.” I said to myself. So very carefully began to carry all my stuff downstairs and out the door. When I got to the car and put my stuff in I realized that mother and my little sister each had about three times the amount of luggage then I did. My mother obviously noticed that because she asks, “ Christina, are you sure that you have everything?” I look at her and then say, “ Mother, if I’m forced to have a new life, I might as well start it with a lite burden.” Of course I said this in a gentle way.

Mother looked at me hard for a moment and then her eyes lit up, then she said. “ Oh, I get it you it’s a play on words. You don’t mean burden as in shame or regret, but as in a lot of stuff. My Christina, you sure are witty today.” She says laughing. “ Okay, okay mother I didn’t say it to be funny.” I muttered as I got into the car. It kills me knowing that I will not see Kyle in such a long time, now that I’m going to Venus. I wonder what he is doing right now? Is he helping his mama and his hermanas to the airport? Or is he with his padre and hermano packing to head off to fight? I hate thinking how very soon he will have a gun in his hand and fighting a war that neither one of us wanted or started. Again, life just isn’t fair.

Well I am now at the airport, it took an hour to get here. Even though I don’t want to be here, I really wish that I didn’t have to be here at all…. Hmm… I wonder… If I was to make a break for it I wonder how far I would get before they notice I am gone? I wonder to myself wistfully. Mother has our things where the baggage go before it goes on the jet plane. I look around before I went to Z 14. Women and young girls even were swarming ahead. As if they don’t remember where they have come only where they were going. “ What’s the point o going forward if you don’t think about what’s behind you?” I whispered to myself.

Some of these women seem afraid, probably of the war, a lot of the women and young girls seem very afraid. Why are they so afraid when we are going to leave this very planet for another that’s free of the bloodbath here? It’s the men and boys that should be afraid for they are forced to fight in the bloodbath endangering their very lives? If they are going to be free of the nightmare that this world had turned into in just a few hours. Then why are they acting like the danger is going to follow them wherever they go. The shadows of the nightmare may follow but not the danger. So they need to stop worrying about themselves and worry about the men in their lives that they are leaving to face the bloody nightmare without them.

Then I caught sight of a couple slightly older then me. But they were a couple years older maybe about four or five years older than me. And they were getting ready to part. The young man had red hair and green eyes, fair complexion and was about five feet nine inches tall. He had a medium build and was holding his girl. And looked as if he was trying to calm here. She has long black hair and brown eyes, medium complexion. She stood smaller than him at about five feet six inches, and she had a slim build. “Luke mi amor, I hate to leave you when it isn’t right for me to be keep safe and for you to be in constant danger!” She cried. Well, there is another at last who agrees with me. Luke held her closer and said, “ Oh Alicia, It makes me feel so much better knowing that you are safe, even though it is so far away.” “ Yeah safe in a world that can never survive for how can a world survive without men? Such a world is destined to fail. For it is impossible for two women to make a child.” She said her lips trembling.

“ Alicia, my dear, its not going to be forever, soon when the war is over, you could come back and we will be married and wont have to give this temporary housing placement another thought.” Alicia cried even more and then said, “ All you men say that but do you ever actually mean it? You guys always say that the war is going to be over soon but for years it has been going on. I remember when I was about ten years old and my brother left to volunteer for it and he had said the same thing. That really soon the war would end and when it does he will come back to me and we will continue our game. And its been ten years since then and I don’t even know if my brother is alive.” Alicia continued to fly and sob. “ Flight Z14 flight from Earth to Venus is now boarding. Flight Z14 Flight from Earth to Venus now boarding.” Said an airport announcer. Luke started hugging and rubbing Alicia’s back. “ Alicia, honey, your flight is boarding.”
Alicia looked up at Luke and said, “ Luke, if you love me as much as I know you do, then don’t make me take that flight and don’t make me leave you.” And as she said that so hopefully she still looked like she could brake at any moment. Then Luke looked as if he were about to cry as he said, “ Alicia, I love you very much but its too dangerous for you to stay you have to go now.” Alicia pulled away from him at this moment and started to walk away, but turned back as tears begun to run down her face. “ Luke, I love you more than you will ever know, but by forcing me to go, your breaking my heart worst than it was before, and unlike I ever thought possible. And Luke I shall never understand why you have pushed me away in dark times such as these. Instead of pulling me closer to get through it together. I guess all I can say now is goodbye Luke. And who knows when we will meet again. For no one but Dios in Heaven, truly knows who will survive in the outcome of war.” She said. Tears streaming down her face and then she turned and ran onto the plane.

Luke watched after her, with tears of his own leaking onto his face. “ I’m so sorry Alicia, I hope that you understand some day. I love you and I always will.” He said and as he was breaking down he turned and he turned and left. “Wow, that looked familiar.” Said a voice behind me. I nodded. I admit the whole time watching that I was getting flashbacks of my goodbye to Kyle on the front porch. Wait! Kyle? My heart began to beat about twenty beats faster than its normal tempo. I turned to see the one person that I thought I wouldn’t see.

“ Kyle, I didn’t think you would come.” I cried out. “ What?” Said Kyle in clear confusion. He also gently began to rub my cheeks, to wipe away tears that I hadn’t know was even there. “ Kyle, what are you doing here?” I asked. His gentle touch was bringing shocks right through me and making me feel senseless. “ What in the heck gave you the idea that I wouldn’t come?” he asked as he continued to rub my cheek. I fought to regain control of my senses. I look up into his deep brown eyes. Hoping that he could read the signals that I was trying to send him with my eyes.

It took him a moment but he finally came to a look of understanding, “ Oh hell! You heard the phone call didn’t you?” He said as he was still gently caressing my cheek. “ Yes. Why else would I say that?” I said still struggling to control my senses. “ Oh my Chrissy girl don’t you know that your mother couldn’t keep me away from saying adios to mi chica.” He said. I love it when it switches to Spanish all of a sudden. He was staring deep into my eyes, and I could tell he was terrible sad about this and he was masking something else lurking deeper. Seeing this in Kyle I felt a stabbing pain in my heart that was crippling. I felt the tears swell up in my eyes again. He is making this really hard for me. “ Oh my dear teddy bear, even though I don’t want t go. I’m glad you’re here with me.” I was holding back what I wanted to say knowing that it would only hurt him more. I feel him pulling me even closer, he sweeps his hand across my face bringing my mouth to his. I closed my eyes as he began to kiss me.

Everything around us began to melt away, and my thoughts started swimming in my head. Kyle is here with me and that’s all that matters. Kyle and I, that’s all that would ever matter. I was feeling sparks being shot through me stronger that ever before, because this is the most passionate that he has ever kissed me. I cant believe how this one kiss was braking me down so much that all I could do was feel and I was definitely was feeling for him. I began to kiss back more passionately because he had made me need him and this kiss. I shuddered with a need stronger than anything that I had ever felt with him before. He was promising that there was more than just this with this kiss. I feel so weak. I held on to Kyle a bit tighter to just support myself. Because now I was tingling in a way that was new to me, I felt hungry but it was a different hunger that had nothing to do with food and everything to do with Kyle that was making me feel all these new things.

I could feel that whatever was inside of him was growing stronger because his kiss was growing that much more passionate. And he was pulling me so closer. Oh! I can feel his shudder just as strong as I can feel my own. So I am sure that he can feel my shudder as well as I can sure feel it. Oh! What is my name again? My hands were around his waist, and my hands were caressing his back as well as his hips. And his hands were traveling along my back and my sides. Oh! How I wish that his hands would touch and explore other places and that would be heavenly because places that never seemed to want anything before was suddenly screaming to be touched. I will take what I can though because I am enjoying this so much. This dazzlingly kiss was creating a fire within me and its amazing. I am afraid to stop, afraid of what I’d have to face once we stop. But I didn’t want to stop for it’s the only time I’d ever truly felt alive for such a long time. Kyle, my teddy bear makes me feel so alive.

My thoughts were still floating around with these feelings of love and need. I had separate thoughts rolling around in there as well. Like school dances with Kyle, the good part of Kyle’s birthdays, and the bad; daydreams of being Mrs. Kyle Garcia, and having his children. And of a memory that I have been trying so hard to forget, I have been able to block from my mind till now. Right now it’s vague. A vague memory of the only other time I really cried. Of the only other time that I have had to say goodbye. All these thoughts along with the feelings of love and need are still jumbling about. How does Kyle make me need him so much that when I’m alone I feel as if I’m not whole? I need him to feel whole and to feel like I can be myself. How am I going to be able to handle being on a separate planet? I decide to push those thoughts away they aren’t helping, and just deepen the kiss in sweet surrender to Kyle as well as both of our needs. I kiss him hard and with everything that I have. It feels so completely good to give into the sheer need of him, and his needs.

But before we could do anything else I feel a hand on my shoulder and it forces Kyle and I apart. I looked up and saw it was a flight attendant and my mother was right behind him. “ I’m sorry miss, truly sorry, but you have to board the plane now,” he said looking like he knew exactly what I was going through. I looked back at Kyle who was still holding me and looking at the attendant his expression suddenly blank. I feel tears threatening to emerge again. My mother notices this and says, “ Kyle, I thought I told you to stay away, and now look what you’ve done. You’re doing exactly what I said would happen, Your causing her to be more upset then she needs to be.” Mother said angrily.

“Mrs. Jones, you should know that it would take a lot more than you simply telling me to stay away would ever keep me away from my Chrissy girl.” Mother looked furious at this point. The flight attendant looked at this all and said,” Mam, she didn’t looked upset before we interrupted that amazing kiss.” Mother looked at him and said, “ I’m going to regret this later but shut up and butt out of what is not your freaken business!” She said coldly. I was crying all over again at this point. “ Dear its time to go now before we make a scene. She said using that fake sweet voice as she and the flight attendant started leading me away. I could feel Kyle’s hold on me loosen, and give away. My heart shattered in my chest and my head started to spin. I cant do this.

“ I can’t do this! And it isn’t fair that you are all making me!” I cried out. I dug my feet in the ground to stop them from moving me though I was beginning to shake, “ Christina, my dear don’t be ridicules let’s go.” She said as she and the flight attendant started pulling me again. “ No!! I cant leave Kyle. He needs me and I need him. I cant go!” I told her through tears and sobs. I started shaking so hard that I fell over to the floor.

“ Chrissy girl!” Kyle said as he went down to me, as mother and the flight attendant began to hover over me. “ Christina! Get a hold of your self!” Mother said. “ Nooo!! Mother didn’t you know that by telling Kyle to stay away you were causing me more pain then this?! Kyle is my love and my life, and by tearing us apart; you are the one causing me to deteriorate or in lame man’s terms, you are killing me because life without my teddy bear and love, I might as well not have a heart because life is worthless!” I said continuing to cry on the floor. I can feel Kyle gently holding me trying to get me to calm down.

“ Christina this is for your own good.” Mother said as she and the flight attendant lifted me up away from Kyle’s grasp. They started to drag me away, and even though I was weak and shaking terribly, I struggled. Pulling myself every which way trying to free myself from their grasp. This isn’t fair they shouldn’t make me go. Don’t they know that they are killing me? I started to thrust myself back and forth even though I was shaking badly. I feel myself screaming. “ No! No! Nooo!! Let me go and live or watch me die!” The hands still held me firmly with a death grip. Kyle was looking at me expressionless but there were tears in his eyes. I feel as if I am watching this scene from somewhere else as if it wasn’t happening to me. “ Kyle! Please! Help me! PLEASE!” I cried out, Kyle looked down at his feet. “ Teddy bear! HELP ME wont you?” I said crying out again. Kyle looked at me for a second then back at his feet again. But he didn’t look away fast enough for me not to see the utter pain that was echoing in his eyes. He wasn’t going to help me. He was going to let me be forced away by those no longer feeling love.

I was now losing pieces of my heart. My heart was shattered and now I am losing the pieces, I cried out one last time so that the world would know the pain I feel inside. “ AAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh!!!!!” It started like that and I continued my painful cry until my foot hit the platform. I felt myself go limp as I was being carried to my seat, as a vague, painful memory came crashing back to me.