Beyond Reality

Hello I am just here to reorganise my stories so don't get too excited. This has been posted before. Also on the one shots I have posted before I will reply to any of the reviews that have been left on them. Also I will be deleting the other posting.

Pairing: Alyx & Raven
Story: Harmony
Warnings: Anal, Oral, slight non-con

One Shot:
The First Time

It was all an accident waiting to happen. The borrowed porn was supposed to be normal. It was supposed to straight. I wasn’t supposed to turn it on and see what I saw because seeing what I saw meant there was more to Raven than I thought. I amazed myself when I noticed what was happening on the screen and I didn’t turn it off. I wasn’t disgusted like I thought I would be. It didn’t turn me on but some how I was… I don’t know… intrigued.

It wasn’t strange for me to take without asking. Hell, Raven knew I did it and didn’t say a word about it. But as I sat on my bed watching the borrowed porn and figured out it was gay it sure as hell brought up some questions in my mind about Raven. I expected it to bring up questions about Raven’s sexuality that was to be assumed by me finding gay porn in his room. I didn’t expect the questions that I asked myself about if I liked what I saw, if I was curious about it, if I wasn’t disgusted if I was intrigued then there must have been something more to it. Some thing I didn’t want to admit.

I brought it back set it on his desk right in front of him and as his eyes gazed over the title hand written across the disk I could see him make the connection. He turned toward me looking right into my eyes and saying nothing. So instead I spoke. “Raven why do you have this?” I asked not disgusted not angry just unemotional. He stood up so that we were practically eye to eye being that he is two inches shorter then me he still looked up slightly. He didn’t even try to deny it.

“I like it.” He shrugged taking the disks and calmly putting them back where I got them.

“Are you?” I asked not able to complete my sentence and sure he will understand anyway. He looked back at me staring me right in the eyes and daring me to say it.

“Am I what, Alyx?” His voice was still calm as he said it.

“Gay.” I said my voice still emotionless not sure where this will lead or still what my thoughts on it are.

“Yes. Why does that offend you?” he asked.

“No.” I answered quickly and he smiled at me moving a little closer.

“Did you watch the whole thing or did you just turn it off when you noticed?” He asked and I didn’t answer.
So after around half a year of occasionally borrowing gay porn from Raven I was starting to get more then just intrigued by it. It was starting to affect me, watching it was… turning me on. So one night after a bit of alcohol was in my system I acted on it.

I was at Raven’s house and we were both nursing a bottle of scotch. The alcohol helped me have the courage to say what I did. I handed him the bottle and looked over his body thinking thoughts that led me to question my own sexuality. Still I didn’t stop the words from leaving my mouth. “Hey Raven, why do you do it?” I asked the question had been annoying me for a while because I was starting to ask it of myself.

“What?” He asked not sure what I meant but still I merely responded not embarrassed, the alcohol took that away.

“Like boys.” I answered.

“I just do Alyx, it isn’t any different then liking girls.” He told me and while I was starting to think that there wasn’t really a reason for it myself. Still I couldn’t convince myself so easily it was so taboo.

“Sure it is, I mean girls and guys don’t have the same parts. I mean guys aren’t supposed to have sex with other guys. I mean where would it go?” I knew my question was stupid especially since I had watched that porn and I was well aware of where it went. Still he just laughed at me and pulled me to him.

“That’s kind of obvious, it goes in one boy’s ass.” He told me and yet with my mind so befuddled with alcohol I continued to say dumb things.

“That’s my point nothing is meant to go there.” I said at least part of me still believing it.

“Some girls like it too, it’s not just a gay thing.” He responded and I knew this as well, not first hand but I knew it happened. Still his words made it too easy for me to ask.

“So then which one are you the one who takes it or gives it?” I asked dimly aware that this could easily lead into something and if it was going to lead anywhere I wanted to know the answer.

“I prefer taking it.” He answered very softly and that made me smile because I had had sex before so I figured that if this led anywhere I wouldn’t find it too different. Still though unanswered questions ran through my mind and easily escaped my lips.

“You actually like that? Doesn’t it hurt?” I asked vaguely interested in the concept of it myself but still wondering.

“Yeah but only at first and only a little if done right.” He told me but I didn’t really understand.

“Done right?” I asked confused.

“Well yeah, you have to be stretched with fingers first.” He said and that confused me more because they didn’t really do that in the porn he owned.

“How does that work?” I asked letting myself move closer and my hand went to the small of his back. I couldn’t stop myself I wanted it.

“Would you like a demonstration?” He asked his voice lustful so I smiled and grabbed his ass not caring anymore about the consequences. He smiled at my action so I just leaned forward and pressed our lips together. He didn’t object; in fact he wrapped his arms around my neck and held me there making out with me fiercely. I was the first to pull away gasping lightly from our actions.

“Would you really give me one?” I asked and he grinned and pulled me to him kissing me deeply again. He didn’t really answer me but his actions were more then enough of an answer for me. He pulled me even closer so my legs went to straddle his waist and I pushed him on to his back covering his body with mine. We kissed passionately even if it was a little clumsy and somewhere around that the bottle of scotch fell and spilled out but we didn’t really care.

Raven pulled my shirt off of me not seeming to mind me on top of him at all, but he did say he liked to bottom. I just pulled him further onto the bed so that our legs weren’t hanging off. My lips went to his neck and he moaned at the touch. I pulled his shirt off as he started to tweak my nipple making me moan as well. He pulled my lips to his and his hand strayed down to my pants undoing them and shoving the material off of me. I kicked off my shoes but still my hands hesitated at his pants. He had no such reservations. His hand moved to the bulge in my boxers pressing hard against it and making me moan loudly, making me stop caring about being gay for being with him.

I undid his pants and pushed them and his boxers down my hand moving to caress his ass again. He moaned kissing my lips again and dominating my tongue with his. Yet as my hand actually moved between his butt cheeks to do as he had said his hand came away from my hardened sex and pulled mine away as well even as he smirked at me pulling his lips from mine. “You don’t still want a demonstration?” He asked and a little unsure of what he meant I still smiled back when I responded.

“Absolutely.” I said and with my answer he grabbed a tube from his nightstand drawer and after pouring some clear gel on his fingers his hand moved to where mine had been. My befuddled mind realized what he was doing as he started to moan still my fingers moved to his feeling him thrust his fingers in and out of himself. It was so hot I was almost cumming just from the sight of it. I pressed my lips to his again and kissed him deeply my passion matching his. His body arched up as his own fingers fucked deeply and with each thrust up his naked groin rubbed into my clothed one.

Then his hand pulled out and pulled down my boxers instead. He stroked the pulsing red erection that stood out from my hips making me moan at the feeling. I didn’t need him to say anything though I just moved between his legs and slipped inside of him. He felt so tight, it was wonderful and not an ounce of pain showed through on his features as he moaned gratefully with me entering him. I didn’t wait to give him time to adjust, I couldn’t, it felt too good and I had to make it last. I pushed into him again thrusting hard and feeling his hands move to my back, his nails tearing down my flesh. His lips attached themselves to my neck biting down hard encouraging me further as I continued to pummel him.

With teeth and claws he attacked me while I thrusted hard and quick into him, yet neither of us minded. As I fucked him we fought over who could mark the other’s neck more, leaving hickeys and bite marks in our wake. Still we didn’t mind and it just drove our hips together faster and more violently. Then I felt myself getting closer and my hands moved to grab his waist, my nails digging in and my hands showing up a harsh white against the brown of his skin. I pulled him into the thrusts and with each one he met it thrusting his own body closer. Still he managed to cum first shooting his seed over our bodies and spasming around my dick making the hold even tighter and working my erection just right so that it made me shoot off as well. I slammed into him a few last times riding the waves of my own orgasm to completion while griping his side harshly, hearing him moan again at me cumming inside of him.

I looked over his sweat and cum covered body as I pulled out of him liking the sight of the white cum smeared over his dark flesh. The sight was so enticing that before I knew what I was doing my lips and tongue leaned forth eager to clean the fluid from off his skin. I drank up his seed without a second thought barely bothering to taste it as I instead noticed what my actions did to him. He was hard again, his dick stood up proudly in a puddle of his cum. I hesitated unsure what to do as his erection was right before my lips and I hadn’t exactly planned on giving him a real blowjob.

Still Raven didn’t seem to have any problem with forcing me. His hands moved to my hair and not so kindly pulled my head to his dick. A bit shocked my lips still wrapped around him and my tongue very slowly licked his sex. Still Raven seemed to enjoy the movement and moaned softly. His soft moan drove me on to lick him again. Then Raven’s hands moved again shoving his entire dick into my mouth and forcing me to deep throat him. “Alyx just suck.” His voice husked and still I did as he said choking slightly at the length shoved down my throat. As I applied suction he moaned loudly, “That’s better, keep going.” He told me and with his praise I managed to push past the awkwardness of it and sucked him off.

He started thrusting his hips up again even though by then I had learned to hold his hips down. The quickening rate of his thrusts was the only warning I received of his impending orgasm and with one last cruel thrust forcing him into my throat again he came hard. I swallowed the thick liquid trying not to think about it as more then just his dick went limp under me.

I pulled back from him his hands no longer keeping me still as they came loose from my hair. Looking at him I almost felt hurt and a bit used from the way he forced me into giving him a blowjob. Still as I looked over his relaxed form and the pleasant smile on his face I found it hard to be mad at him. Raven pulled me to him and kissed my lips softly. His hand lazily moved to my half-hard dick and he started stroking me again. Regardless of the fact that his forcing himself upon me made lose interest his hand soon convinced me otherwise.

I was thrusting up to meet his hand as his lips moved back to my neck, marking me yet again. Then he moved down intent on returning the favor that I had been forced to give. He wrapped his lips around my dick and I moaned at the feeling knowing full well that he was more then experienced in that area. He sucked hard on my dick nibbling on the tip as well and just making me moan over and over again at his actions. I thrusted up into his mouth not able to help myself yet his hands on my hips held me still.

His hands cupped my balls as his lips moved on my dick making me gasp. His actions were still clumsy from him being drunk but the fact that I was drunk as well made me love his actions even more. I came in his mouth shooting my own seed down into his throat. My hands pulled his hair cruelly as I came hard and I didn’t feel the least bad about it with the way that he forced me into blowing him.

It took me until the next morning when I was no longer drunk to realize exactly what I had done. I woke up knowing where I was that wasn’t what made me scream. Raven was lying in my arms completely naked and I was naked as well. We both smelled of cum and sweat and some incriminating evidence was yet on our bodies and the sheets. I screamed not believing that I would take it that far. Of course that woke Raven up and he covered my mouth with his hand. “Hey calm down, what’s up?” He asked me not seeming phased at all with waking up to us naked in his bed together.

“You… I’m… why are we naked? Raven what happened last night?” I asked still disbelieving regardless of the facts that stared me in the face along with my own memories.

“Alyx you know what happened last night.” He told me and the truth was he was right I did know I just didn’t want to admit it even to myself.

“Did we… Oh my god tell me we didn’t.” I said knowing already that my fears were dumbfounded we had sex and I knew it.

“Alyx, you know we had sex, you started it.” He told and that part at least I knew was true because I did remember his lustful offer of a demonstration and my actions that led up to it.

“No.” I denied it all even to myself. I was not gay I didn’t sleep with Raven I couldn’t have I didn’t like him that way. Even as I tried to deny it I knew that I didn’t have to like him that way my interest in my own sexuality and his looks more then made up for the lack of romantic feelings for him. Still I couldn’t believe it and I wouldn’t admit it.