Degree's of Despiration
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Category:
Angst › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
3
Views:
960
Reviews:
1
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
How low will you go?
"FUCK!" Eliza screeched out loud, scaring the queue of people behind her as she discovered she had no money in her account. "˜Breathe' she thought in her head as she tried to calm down "˜it'll be ok Handle won't let me down, he's my friend'. She needed a hit - she needed something. Life was so shit at the moment, she had just heard from Chantal who told her she still loved and missed her. Her parents were arguing and her dad had stayed out last night. Then on top of all of this she had college exams to pass.
She threw what she hoped was an apologetic look at the other people in the queue to the ATM and ran as fast as she could to Handle. He was with someone but she didn't mind waiting- she wanted his full attention. As soon as they were alone she broke down and in between tears told him the whole story. He held her close as she told it, when Eliza finished he took a deep breath;
"I care about you so much, you know that babe but I can't keep giving you freebies. I told you before you're beautiful but I'm running a business, I can't keep letting my feelings cloud that. But I want to help you I'm sure we can find a way!"
"But I have no money and no way of getting any. But I need this I really need this. Please" The tears fell uncontrollably but Handle pulled her closer
"Hush now, it'll be ok my sweet!" He kissed her hair. Sliding an arm around her he whispered "I'll do something for you, if you do something for me" Eliza was about to question what the favour was, but the look on his face stopped the words forming on her lips.
As soon as she looked up, Handle kissed her. To start with it was just a sensitive peck then it became more passionate until he began to slide his hand up her top to grab her breast. When his embrace became rough Eliza pulled away but she realised that this was the only way she was going to get the hit she so needed and besides he's doing this because he loves me! He's the only one that has been here for me. She looked around her and noticed the state of the place as he slowly slide off her trousers and laid her down on a pile of flattened boxes that were under the railway bridge. Eliza's eyes closed and one thought spun in her head as he gently got what he "˜owed' her.
"˜You'll get your hit!' "˜You'll get your hit!' "˜You'll get your hit!' "˜You'll get your hit!' "˜YOU'LL GET YOUR HIT!' Just as quickly as the thought had started it stopped and Handle was still. Eliza didn't know what to do so she lay there seeing that he had fallen asleep and she still needed her drugs. She lay there for what seemed like forever thinking about what she had just done and trying to decide what to do next when he rolled over kissed her softly on her cheek and handed her a pouch of something. She mumbled that she had to go and ran off as quickly as she could. Eliza only made it to the end of the road before the temptation grew too much. Not stopping until a weeks supply was gone and the pouch lay empty. She exhaled slowly, she felt so free.
* * *
The walls spun and then very slowly turned white as Eliza opened her eyes. It hurt but when she got used the light she realised that she was in hospital and she had a pain in her arm worse than her eyes. She tried to sit up but everything started to spin and arms reached out
"No dear don't try and sit up, you'll feel a bit woozy we had to pump a lot of drugs out of you system" she paused "Oh that young man will be pleased you've woken up. He hasn't left since he carried you in two days ago. Now why would a pretty girl like you want to kill yourself? Especially with a gorgeous man like that!"
"I wasn't trying to kill myself"¦. I never meant to hurt myself" Eliza replied as Handle walked in and the nurse tucked the covers around Eliza before saying
"I'll leave you two to it. But you can't stay long she needs her rest!"
As soon as the nurse left an awkward silence filled the room. The two just looked at each other, every time they tried to talk the sentences overlapped until they just slipped into an uneasy silence. Eventually Handle asked
"Were you"¦um"¦actually you know"¦"¦"¦.Trying to"¦. um"¦ well kill yourself? No sooner had he finished the sentence than Eliza jumped into to say
"No it wasn't meant to be like that. I just wanted the pain to stop! I needed something it had been too long."
Handle smiled a weak smile "phew. I was worried it was my fault that maybe you'd done it "˜coz of the way I acted!"
"Never! I care about you. You're my one true friend at the moment." Eliza smiled and pulled Handle in to hug her. He held her tight before pulling away smiling,
"I almost forgot I have something for you!" he reached into his pocket pulling out a simple jewellery box and handed it to her. Eliza opened it slowly and gasped. It was the most gorgeous thing she had ever seen an amber necklace with a silver chain. "I saw it and it made me think of your eyes. They were the first thing that I noticed about you and the first thing I fell in love with. Your beautiful amber tiger eyes." Eliza opened her mouth to speak but no word could express how she felt so she pulled Handle close and kissed him.
She threw what she hoped was an apologetic look at the other people in the queue to the ATM and ran as fast as she could to Handle. He was with someone but she didn't mind waiting- she wanted his full attention. As soon as they were alone she broke down and in between tears told him the whole story. He held her close as she told it, when Eliza finished he took a deep breath;
"I care about you so much, you know that babe but I can't keep giving you freebies. I told you before you're beautiful but I'm running a business, I can't keep letting my feelings cloud that. But I want to help you I'm sure we can find a way!"
"But I have no money and no way of getting any. But I need this I really need this. Please" The tears fell uncontrollably but Handle pulled her closer
"Hush now, it'll be ok my sweet!" He kissed her hair. Sliding an arm around her he whispered "I'll do something for you, if you do something for me" Eliza was about to question what the favour was, but the look on his face stopped the words forming on her lips.
As soon as she looked up, Handle kissed her. To start with it was just a sensitive peck then it became more passionate until he began to slide his hand up her top to grab her breast. When his embrace became rough Eliza pulled away but she realised that this was the only way she was going to get the hit she so needed and besides he's doing this because he loves me! He's the only one that has been here for me. She looked around her and noticed the state of the place as he slowly slide off her trousers and laid her down on a pile of flattened boxes that were under the railway bridge. Eliza's eyes closed and one thought spun in her head as he gently got what he "˜owed' her.
"˜You'll get your hit!' "˜You'll get your hit!' "˜You'll get your hit!' "˜You'll get your hit!' "˜YOU'LL GET YOUR HIT!' Just as quickly as the thought had started it stopped and Handle was still. Eliza didn't know what to do so she lay there seeing that he had fallen asleep and she still needed her drugs. She lay there for what seemed like forever thinking about what she had just done and trying to decide what to do next when he rolled over kissed her softly on her cheek and handed her a pouch of something. She mumbled that she had to go and ran off as quickly as she could. Eliza only made it to the end of the road before the temptation grew too much. Not stopping until a weeks supply was gone and the pouch lay empty. She exhaled slowly, she felt so free.
* * *
The walls spun and then very slowly turned white as Eliza opened her eyes. It hurt but when she got used the light she realised that she was in hospital and she had a pain in her arm worse than her eyes. She tried to sit up but everything started to spin and arms reached out
"No dear don't try and sit up, you'll feel a bit woozy we had to pump a lot of drugs out of you system" she paused "Oh that young man will be pleased you've woken up. He hasn't left since he carried you in two days ago. Now why would a pretty girl like you want to kill yourself? Especially with a gorgeous man like that!"
"I wasn't trying to kill myself"¦. I never meant to hurt myself" Eliza replied as Handle walked in and the nurse tucked the covers around Eliza before saying
"I'll leave you two to it. But you can't stay long she needs her rest!"
As soon as the nurse left an awkward silence filled the room. The two just looked at each other, every time they tried to talk the sentences overlapped until they just slipped into an uneasy silence. Eventually Handle asked
"Were you"¦um"¦actually you know"¦"¦"¦.Trying to"¦. um"¦ well kill yourself? No sooner had he finished the sentence than Eliza jumped into to say
"No it wasn't meant to be like that. I just wanted the pain to stop! I needed something it had been too long."
Handle smiled a weak smile "phew. I was worried it was my fault that maybe you'd done it "˜coz of the way I acted!"
"Never! I care about you. You're my one true friend at the moment." Eliza smiled and pulled Handle in to hug her. He held her tight before pulling away smiling,
"I almost forgot I have something for you!" he reached into his pocket pulling out a simple jewellery box and handed it to her. Eliza opened it slowly and gasped. It was the most gorgeous thing she had ever seen an amber necklace with a silver chain. "I saw it and it made me think of your eyes. They were the first thing that I noticed about you and the first thing I fell in love with. Your beautiful amber tiger eyes." Eliza opened her mouth to speak but no word could express how she felt so she pulled Handle close and kissed him.