All Over Again

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The Real Reason


June 10, 1999 (Thursday)

“Well that's the last of it,” Lucas said as he clapped his hands together and wiped them on his pants. We had loaded his truck with my things. I was done with finals and I had officially survived my freshman year.

I kept glancing around hoping Mel would show up soon, I had clean my room and turned in my key already.

I had told Mel the day before, that I was going to move back home only this time I was going to stay with Lucas.

We both didn't speak about the fact that we were going to be separated for three months, neither of us mention if we should stay in contact or what not.

In reality we were still skeptical about things. We didn't voiced it but we were. One of us had to make it official, if not we were going to be beating around the bush forever.

“So who are we waiting for?” Asked Lucas as he glanced at his watch and looked around.

“We're waiting for my friend,” I mumbled, were we even girlfriends? what exactly were we? I mean we liked each other way more than friends. Did I think about us together in the future, not really but did I think of her constantly, all the time of course. My mind could not stay in one topic, I doubted myself so much. I question everything. Were we or were we not. I mean what ultimately killed us what the lack of communication. The fact that we were too afraid to speak up, but not anymore I had made up mind and as long as I didn't loose the courage I had summoned something would be done.

“Is that her?” Lucas asked as he nodded with his head, I turned around to see Mel running from the direction of the Library.

“Yeah,” I exclaimed too happily, Lucas just 'mhm' me as I knew he suspected something.

I walked up to her as she approached me gasping for air, she leaned over and grabbed her knees.

“So-rry,” Mel gasped as she stood up taking deep breath, she was sweaty and I notice one of the legs from her glasses was wrapped in scotch tape. I felt something in my chest as she looked so so-

“My last final ran a little longer than expected, but I nailed it.” she pumped her fist in the air as she then try to fixed her glasses as they were slipping from her face.

“What happened?” I reached for them as she moved her head away from me.

“They're barely hanging on, the scotch tape worked nicer than I though.”

I raised an eyebrow at her, “I dropped some paper and as I was picking them up, they fell of my face right when I was standing up and I stepped on them. Since I didn't get warranty on it, I have to save up again to get me a new pair. So for now I look like a major nerd.” She smiled as she looked up to see Lucas leaning on the truck and my things on the back.

“So your leaving huh?” she asked as I saw her take a deep breath and she held it.

I grabbed her hands, “Just for the summer, I have no where to stay. I'll be back in September okay.”

Her eyes were getting red and her lower lip was quivering, “Don't,” I whispered as I kissed her cheek and pulled her into a hug.

“I'm sorry,” she mumbled, “Don't be, We'll get this right you hear.”

She nodded as I pulled back and I grabbed her arm. Her eyes were red and Lucas was sympathetically looking at her.

“Mel this is Lucas my older brother. I'm gonna be staying with him over the summer. Lucas this is Melissa.” they shook hands and I suddenly blurted out, “my girlfriend,” Lucas and Mel froze mid hand shake.

“Uhh nice to meet you.” Mel mumbled as she looked at me with a 'are you fucking kidding me,' look.

“Whoa,” Lucas uttered as they both let go and swallowed hard.

“Talk about elephant in the room.” Lucas mumbled as I saw him scrutinize Mel under his gaze.

“So you broke Justin's nose?” Lucas broke the silence and Mel chuckled. “It was that or a kick to the balls. I felt the nose was more appropriate.”

Lucas chuckled as Mel laughed.

“Here,” I handed Mel a piece of paper, I had scribbled Lucas address and his home number.

She nodded as Lucas cough once again getting our attention. “I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but we have to hit the road. Your more than welcome to drop in on us if ya want.” Lucas shook Mel's hand again. Then he pulled her into an embraced as he patted her back.

“I like you,” he said as he ruffled her hair and walked to the truck.

“It was a pleasure to meet ya,”

Mel nodded as Lucas waved and got in the truck, I hugged Mel tightly as I felt her sniffle.

“Call me, write me,” I said as I pulled back and I cupped her face and I kissed her, not on the cheek this time, but fully on the lips and I felt it. It wasn't electricity that I felt but it was like my heart skipped a beat, and my breathing stopped and I felt this warm fuzzy feeling shooting through me.

I pulled back to see a flushed Mel and I some how was gasping for air. Our first kiss was breathless.

“Bye,” Mel uttered as she walked away.


(Present Saturday 7:30 am)

The sun was barely invading the master bedroom, as Ellie was facing the direction of the window. One ray was directly on her face and she felt the warmth on her nose. She opened her eyes and groaned as she turned around. She fought with her legs as she manage to completely turned her back on the bothersome sun ray.

She notice Mel flat on her back, one arm was over her face as she was shielding her face and the other was on her stomach.

Her chest rose slightly. Up and down, Ellie scooted closer as she extended her hand and placed it on top of the hand that was on Mel's stomach.

“Hmmm,” Mel mumbled, 'damn you light sleeper,' Ellie cursed mentally. Mel smacked her lips as she licked them, her arm felt numb as she raised it and let it fall to the side.

“Ow!” exclaimed Ellie and Mel shot up and realized she had hit Ellie on the fore head.

“Oh god, I'm so sorry!” Mel leaned over to rub Ellie's forehead.

“You punk,” Ellie chuckled as she grabbed a hold of Mel's hand. “It's ok,” Mel laid down again, on her side this time facing Ellie.

Ellie move her hand and started tracing Mel's face with her index finger. They were like that for quite sometime as Ellie touched Mel's lips, traced the outline of her cheek over her nose down her chin.

“What happened?” Ellie broke the silence that had fallen upon them. Mel frowned, she was lost. “What do you mean?” Mel asked as she extend her arm and pulled Ellie closer by the waist.

“Between us?” What happened?” Ellie asked. Mel figured as much what she meant, “I don't know.”

Ellie's face was close to Mel's neck and she could not help it. She stuck her tongue out and lick the hollow part. She tasted salty. Mel swallowed hard and sucked on her lower lip.

“what do you mean you don't know,” Ellie mumbled as she place a soft kiss on Mel's jaw.

“Ellie?” Mel whined as she held back a groan that was threatening to escape her lips.

“I don't know,” Mel mumbled again. Ellie closed her eyes and stopped what she was doing.

“You don't want to tell me or what?” Ellie said bitterly. She was getting frustrated with all these 'I don't knows.'

“It's not up to me to tell ya,” Mel said as she somehow flipped them an Ellie was flat on her back and Mel was on top of her.

Ellie could feel how intimately Mel was straddling her. “I want to know what happened?” Ellie breathed out as she leaned up and captured Mel's lips. She placed her arms around Mel's neck and ran her fingers through Mel's hair. Mel complied and returned the kiss. It was a simple kiss, lip to lip, Mel to Ellie, Ellie to Mel. No desperation or frustrations.

Mel pulled back as she noticed Ellie was blushing. “To tell ya the truth-,” Mel whispered into Ellie's ear.

Mel didn't even have time to finish her thought as their bedroom door flew open and Maggie was standing in the doorway.

“The fuck,” she breathed out.

Mel groaned internally as she leaned down and kissed Ellie one more time and got up.

Ellie had her eyes closed, 'wait for it wait for it.' she thought.

“What the hell do you think your doing to my daughter?” Maggie blurted out as Mel zipped up her pants and walked by Maggie.

“Same thing I've been doing to her for the last ten years,” Mel mumbled as she walked into her room. Maggie followed suits as she grabbed Mel's arm.

Mel took a deep breath, “Maggie it's too early in the morning for a fucking argument so go to the living room and wait. Next time fucking knock before you go rummaging for my hide-a-key.”

Maggie was fuming with anger as she peered into the master bedroom to see Ellie sitting up.

Ellie just shook her head and pointed to the living room also.

“Fuck,” Ellie breathed out.


Angie was humming along with a song that was stuck in her head as she drove down the street. She noticed, Mel's car in the driveway and beside hers was Maggie's red truck.

Angie glanced at her watch, it was ten till nine. Pretty early for Maggie to be here.

She got out of the car and took out her duffel bag from the trunk. She found her copy of the house key. She approached the door cautiously and then froze as she grabbed the doorknob.

“The fuck Maggie I respect you In your house why can't I have the same consideration when your in mine.”

“Don't you raise your voice at me.” Maggie shouted back.

Angie took a deep breath, 'oh hell.' she thought as she opened the door both Maggie and Mel froze as they turned to look at her.

“Don't mind me,” Angie mumbled as she quickly made it to the hallway and ran down to the master bedroom.

Ellie was sitting in her chair staring at the painting that hung over their bed.

“what happened now?” Angie asked as she interrupted Ellie's deep train of thought.

“My mother walked in on us,” Ellie commented non-nonchalantly. Angie smirked as Ellie shook her head, “Oh no no no not like that,” Ellie chuckled.

“We were just making out, nothing raunchy like that.” Angie just smiled as she sat on the bed and took out things from her bag.

“Sure sure I believe ya.”

“Well Lets get started,” Angie said as she extended a mat on the floor and closed the door.

Back in the living room, Mel collapsed on the couch as Maggie stood close to the doorway.

“What is your real problem?” Mel sighed as she was tired of the same argument over and over again.

“I mean I get it you don't like us being in a relationship, I haven't stepped foot in your house since Ellie turned Twenty, why can't I get some type of respect from you. Why won't you respect our boundaries. I've been with Ellie for what ten years now. I would have expected you to oh I don't at least tolerate me by now.” Mel covered her face with her hands.


“I tolerate the fact that my daughter is gay but I don't like you. My daughter could do so much better than you. I mean if she hadn't met you. She would still be with a guy, you fucking turned her gay.”

There it was, the real reason. Mel looked up at Maggie, she stood up as she clenched and unclenched her fist.

“Maggie you would rather have your daughter be in an abusive relationship just as long it's with a guy.” Mel exhaled as she pulled at her hair.

“just leave,” Mel said as her eyes were brimming with tears. “Maggie just leave and you know what call before you even come over.” Mel was still being generous, she still was leaving the door open for Maggie to come over. Even after everything, she felt she didn't have the right to prevent Maggie from seeing Ellie.

Maggie glared at her, she was crying too. She disliked Mel and in Maggie's mind Mel was the cause for how Ellie had turned out.


June 17, 1999

“Hey El mail,” I ran out of my room as I slid on the hardwood floor and accidentally ran into Lucas. I heard him gasp as I knocked the wind out of him.

“You bitch,” he breathed out as I took the envelop from his hand. “Love you too.” I replied as I ran back to my room.

I read the name on the envelop and saw it was from Mel. I turned it over and saw there was a picture of a hummingbird drawn in the back by pencil. I carefully opened it.

June 11, 1999

“Hey Elizabeth it's like midnight well technically it's already the 12th. I had to move out of the dorms too. I got lucky and I found this really cheap apartment, I mean really cheap. The pros its like 20 minutes away from the university by bike. Which I'm saving up for. I'm gonna have to put my glasses on hold again. I manged to glue the leg with super glue. Which turned out to be a mistake since I couldn't adjust it and they were crooked on my face. So I had to re-break em. So I'm wearing them again, and yes the leg is wrapped with tape. I used electrical tape this time. It's a bit more malleable and it doesn't look as poor as having an obvious wad of gray tape on my eye. Well another pro is that well the place has the bills paid for. I have to pay $250.00 a month. The cons of it well It's just a room with a small kitchen, yes I mean small in every essence the word means and a bathroom with a shower. It's small yes I know but I like it. I had enough money saved up to put the deposit and paid the first two months of rent. I made calculation and it's cheaper if I live here instead of the dorms. Which is what I'm gonna do. I'm not gonna go back to the dorms. Also by the way I got more days at the post office. I need to save up as much for when I go back to school. When the fall quarter starts Imma only gonna be working weekends, by that I mean Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. You know it's scary doing this on my own. Yet so exhilarating. When I left home I vowed I wasn't going to ask my folks for anything. Now here I am, I know it doesn't sound as glamorous as I'm making it seem, but I like it. Well Ellie I thought about calling you but I don't know, I'm sorry but I'm still skeptical about this. You and me, it's a little overwhelming. I like you a lot. I won't deny that and when you told Lucas you and I were an Item. Well I almost lost it. So I've decide to just jump. So I'll be your girlfriend, and Elizabeth let's see how far we get together.”

Melissa Diaz

(A/N: Sorry if it wasn't as long. I don't know what else to say or ask. But feel free to tell me what your thinking, or what ever opinion you have. I know I have a lot of unanswered question I have to resolved. I gotta re-read myself and make sure I don't miss anything. I have this little note pad were I scribble key dates and events. Tidbit of trivia info. I'm actually using the 1999 calendar. The days do match the dates. Present time, not as accurate:)