If I Knew Then....

There’s Always Two Sides to Every Coin

I had to smirk as I flung him back into the pool. The entire situation was quite amusing albeit disconcerting. He was not learning his place. Clearly. Sebastian, however, was another story. He did have a temper and could overreact. He, too, had overstepped his bounds. Not waiting to see if Kitten did surface or not...there was not a doubt in my mind that he would, I stepped out into the hallway.

As he had been told, Sebastian stood still nursing his clearly broken nose. I would have to set it for him before he healed all the way. His eyes were nervous as I stood and look down at his slightly shorter self that was now hunching over a bit, straightening little by little as the pain lessened as he heals. I raised an eyebrow at that and walked to stand directly in front of him. Poor thing...so nervous...for the wrong reasons.

I reached up and grabbed his arms and pulled them down from in front of his face so that his hands were no longer blocking his nose. I paused for a moment and he relaxed visibly as he locked eyes with mine. "My poor childe."

"Is it - " He broke off with a small cry of pain as I quickly pushed on the side of his nose, making it look straight once more. His eyes never broke from my gaze, and now they were glistening a bit with tears.

I leaned in and kissed his nose. "Now it is better, is it not, 'Bastian.....?"

He nodded and leaned his head up, clearly straining for a kiss. Unfortunately, that was not what I wanted....nor had  he earned such a reward. I placed a restraining finger against his lips.

"Ah, ah my childe....." I removed my finger. "You and I need to have a small chat regarding a certain were-leopard....."

His eyes were shocked. "But Sire! He's-"

"He is what, Childe? Have I not made it perfectly clear to you and your brethren yet that he is not to be touched?"

"I- But"

Another look quieted him down once again.

"Sebastian....it has been an incredibly long previous night....Do you honestly think that this is the way for you to begin your’s, mine, and our entire brethren's night, hmm? Or that it would be exceptionally unintelligent for you to argue with me?"

He broke his gaze from mine and looked down. I was not entirely upset but I really needed to get it through of my childers’ heads that they were going to be having to watch themselves. Kitten clearly had not figured out anything when it comes to actually staying out of trouble. The whole ordeal was becoming a tad bit tedious. I guess it was time for a different approach. I had not planned on actually breaking him. His spirited nature was a definite part of his appeal....

My mind wandered for a moment but not long enough to fully make Sebastian uneasy. "'Bastian....stay away from our pet for the remainder of the evening and tomorrow evening....tonight however....you may not hunt." Pain flashed in his eyes. He had not had the chance to hunt or even drink from the donation bags. No hunting meant none of either. It was going to be rather painful from the cravings after a while.

"Yes, Sire..." He knew better than to argue with this aspect of things....after all... his punishment could be far worse, and I really had not the patience to deal with it in a harsher manner. After all...I had another entertainment that

should hopefully be finishing up its bath. I had found it amusing that Kitten had actually attempted to get Thad to take off his collar in order that he could shift. I do have my ways around that....and he was going to have to shift again soon. After all, the full moon was a few days away...and I was not about to kill my pet. I knew all about the shifters...intimately.... Kitten is so different yet so alike to - My thoughts were interrupted by Sean leaving the grotto chamber.

"Will 'Bastian be alright love?" He twisted one of the strands of his hair, playing with the ends, almost knotting it. The guilt in his face was still so overwhelming. We would have to try to fix that later. Kitten's new animosity towards Sean was understandable.....however his anger should have been directed at me; then again, he did seem impulsive...

Ok so I am making an understatement with all of that. Very impulsive and definitely seems to rarely think before acting...it could be a while before the resentment was properly placed.

"He is fine, beloved....How are you feeling now?" Uncertainty ran through his eyes...

"Cleaner...but still dirty Bram." He paused and took a deep breath. After another moment he spoke very quietly. "He hates me now...."

I stepped forward and wrapped my arms around him, pulling him in tightly to my chest. He clung as if I were his only rock. I suppose I did not consider how long it would take Sean to recover as well from such a punishment.... Well, if my sire was allowed to fuck up....so could I.

* * *

I gasped as I came up for air. Thad had me firmly by the back of my neck and had dunked me under to rinse.  Spluttering I glared at him.

"You know.... I can fucking wash myself! I'm how old?!"

Thad giggled and looked meaningfully back towards the soap. "Apparently not old enough to refrain from swearing....shall I?" He jerk his head back towards the soap again. Oh HELL no!

"Yeah...no. Let's just skip that. I think I'm clean enough." He opened his mouth with a wry look on his face only to be interrupted by the door opening again. He reentered the room. He looked at Thad, who grinned at his younger friend, and then turned to me. I watched him draw in a shaky breath. What the hell was that? He looked like he was about to cry....

I was confused.... Why was I making him react like that?!

I cocked my head to the side. Fuck him. "So, are you going to just keep standing there staring at us? Yes. We're naked. Great. How good of your to notice, or do you have something to actually say?"

His eyes widened in surprise and out of the corner of my eye I saw Thad raise an eyebrow as well. Tears welled up in his eyes and threatened to fall from the looks of things. He drew a shaky breath. "Bram requests that you meet him in the room at the end of the hall o-once you've finished bathing...." His voice had declined to a very low whisper by the end of it.

Fuck...Why the hell was he going to cry?! I was so completely unnerved by it. I didn't get it. Don't tell me he actually felt guilty about what he had done to me?! GOOD! He fucking should! Payback's a bitch and I wouldn't even rape his ass like he did mine.

He opened his mouth and paused. "I-...I'm s-sorry...." With that the tears actually fell and he turned quickly and  almost ran out the door.

Suddenly, everything was wet, the air was gone, and that awful burning sensation was back in my nose. Blue had fucking dunked me again.

I came up coughing and very much annoyed. "What the heck was that for?!"

Blue was serious. "You can be even more of an asshole than Bram at times, you know that?" I was shocked and it must have shown on my face. I opened my mouth to retort, but he cut me off with a hand.

"I'm serious. He is, actually in fact, sorry and you’re being awful to him. It wasn't his fault what happened to you."

I was incredulous. It wasn't his fault? Ok. Ok, sure I can see that. Maybe I just imagined it was his dick up my ass. I must have said that out loud because Thad gave a humorless laugh.

"Oh... no you didn't imagine it. It was there." He paused for a moment. He must have been considering his next choice of words carefully. "Have you considered for even a moment that maybe he didn't want to do that? That he had no more choice in the matter than you?"

Oh. Um.....fuck.... Really? Honestly? No, as a matter of fact I hadn't and it hit me harder than a ton of bricks.

"Did you consider the fact that Sean was being punished too?" I had to bitterly laugh at that.

"Oh sure, once again-"

"Yeah I know, it wasn't your dick up his ass..."

"No shit! Nor do I want part of that now..."

"But you did." He said it so nonchalantly I almost grinned. Oh hell yeah I did. He was that perfect balance for a bisexual. So androgynous that it fit both of my needs. And let's face it. Sean was hot enough to make any straight man switch teams.

"Yeah....I did.... but you couldn't pay me enough to fuck him with a-"

"I don't want to know what you'd be paid to fuck him with. Just... yeah no." He giggled a little less seriously this time. "You do have to admit he's still hot....He would let you by the way."

I had turned away from him and turned around rather quickly at that comment. "Would let me what?"

Thad pulled himself up and out of the water to sit on the rock ledge. Shit he was quite hot...blue hair and all. "God kitten... you really are slow sometimes, aren't you?" He giggled and smirked at me. "He'd let you fuck him....Imagine

it, can't you? He's so gorgeous, and he makes the sweetest little noises while you pound into him...Mmm..." At least Blue was liking his thoughts....If it's possible the damn freak is even hotter with a hard on. Looking down, my eyes sized him up. He was definitely large...thick, uncut...I mean no he's not.... Fuck lying about it. I rose to the occasion. The scenery plus the mental images he was stirring, shit. I had no chance at all.

I bit my lip as I watched him run on hand down his chest to rub his inner thigh, almost touching his cock. His eyes snapped open and he grinned. He totally knew what he was doing. Ass...

"Anyways, think about what I said." He got up and went to a corner to actually open up a small partition of the wall and grabbed out two towels. He lazily wrapped his around his waist and I couldn't help it, I was entranced and totally

disappointed as his hid more of his body. What I wouldn't give for-

"For me to show you just what all I can do with this body?" He giggled and teasingly lifted up the front of his towel, almost like it was a skirt and gave me another tantalizing view of his cock. It definitely distracted me for a moment

from the fact that he had just finished my thoughts for me. What the FUCK?!

I pulled myself up and out of the pool to grab the towel he threw to me, smacking me in the face. Ass. Seriously. Who does that sorta shit? Oh wait, I know!....The same people who kidnap fucking...but I digress. "What is it with  you? Are you just that observant and can read my body language that easily or can you assholes actually read my mind?!"

He winked at me and merely walked towards the door, opened it and gestured towards the hallway."Wouldn't you like to know?"

"Fuck you! Of course I want to know! Why else would I ask?"

He giggled and tsked at me. "Manners, manners kitten! Don't you know I don't tell anything for free?"

Shit not this again.

"Great. I'll pass."

More giggling. Was I really that freaking amusing to him?! Damn it. I tested my ankle and winced slightly at the pain that was still present. It wasn't as bad which told me that it was healing....what I wouldn't give to shift and just fix it.

"What I wouldn't give to watch you shift baby..."

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah you and me both...."

He gestured towards the hallway. "After you kitty."

I growled low. "Ooooh bad temper and bad manners! And you wonder that Bram leaves you in cuffs and a collar?"

Oh yes. That's the only reason I'm sure. Not freaking likely!

I walked gingerly over to the door after wrapping the towel around my waist in a similar fashion to Blue's. I stepped past him only to have the towel ripped from around my waist. I turned and-

He fucking kissed me! I broke the kiss pissed even more. "What the hell-"

"You're not allowed to wear anything kitten....I'm not willing to risk Bram's wrath again this morning....As for kissing you...." He shrugged and smiled. "You know you wanted it...."

Fuck you! If you can read my mind, FUCK YOU! His grin got bigger. Either he really could read it or my mental commentary wasn't hard to figure out, and must have been playing on my face.

I looked down the hallway to see the door that was probably the one in question. Damn it. Why couldn't I just be left alone or something? Or better yet....Just let go! I wouldn't even bother with reporting this all to anyone. Who'd care anyways? I'm a freak too.

Resigning myself to probably another punishment for breaking asshole's nose I started walking slowly down the hall towards the door. Blue I assumed was silently following me. I was startled to hear a knock on one of the doors behind me. I turned to see him knocking lightly on one of the doors.

Noticing that I too had stopped, he looked at me seriously. "Go to the room at the end of the hall. This part isn't for you. I need to fix something you've done.... not that it's entirely your fault." I wondered who he really meant. Sean or

Sebastian....

The door opened a crack and a whisper was barely audible. Thad just nodded at whatever was said and waited. "Go Kitten. I have to wait until you open the door, 'k?"

I rolled my eyes. Ok I couldn't really blame him. If he had gone into the room, more than likely I'd not have gone into the room at all.

I limped down the rest of the way to the room and stood, trying to will my arm to raise up. "Go on already Kitten, I don't have all evening." He giggled a bit, but looking back towards him, he nodded and his eyes were serious.

Rather than knocking I decided the best course of action would be to simply just open the door. It's not like anyone around here ever gave me any warning on suddenly popping in.

* * *

I watched as Martin hesitated by the door. I looked into the room to see Sean move back to the couch he was curled up on. He looked very vulnerable. I turned my attention back to the kitten. "Go Kitten. I have to wait until you open the door,'k?"

He definitely has a bravado...I'll give him that much, but it's in his hesitation at times.... it's obvious that he's afraid. Not that I can blame him. He's not had much in the way of a chance of not knowing the darker side of....well almost all of us.

"Go on already, Kitten, I don't have all evening." I put as much enthusiasm as I could into my voice and giggled lightly at it. He did cut a semi-comical figure...if the circumstances weren't so... semi-serious? I watched him finally just open the door. I heard Bram tell him to enter, and the rest of it wasn't my problem or my business any longer so I stepped quietly into Sean's room.

He was curled up against one arm of the small love seat couch, dressed in a pair of flannel pj pants, and nothing else. He had braided his hair back so that it was out of his face and he held a small stuffed mouse to his bare chest, pressed up in between his chest and legs. He had forehead pressed to that of the animal’s.

I walked quietly to stand behind him and ran my hand soothingly along the top of his hair. I knew when to be serious. I was the oldest childe....and generally the most childlike.... I'll admit, I'm easily amused. Always. Life when you're this old rarely surprises you but it's incredibly ironic. Anyways back to my poor lover.

I watched him shudder lightly, taking a deep breath, either to attempt to calm himself or say something. It's not like we have to breath unless we want to talk...but it's hard sometimes not to. It's one of the remnants of our humanity I suppose. He had blood red trails running down the sides of his face to his chest. He was hurting.

"Baby...."

He moved his head back from the stuffed animals, to lean back against my stomach as I stood behind him. He closed his eyes for a moment, and looked up at me.

"He hates me....I hate me for having done it.... What else could I have done though?"

We both knew the answer to that. Bram would've punished Sean...but in comparison to the turmoil he was in now.... Bram's punishment would've been minimal. This was extreme. Sean was completely aware that he was the instrument of Kitten's punishment.... but it was still Sean's punishment as well. Deny it all he wanted.....Sean

would've ended up helping Martin, accidentally even.

"Lil' love, this will work out. He'll snap out of it. Bram won't make you do it again...." I brushed some of the strands that had come loose around his face out of his eyes and traced the red trails, hoping to wipe them up some.

"I don't understand Thaddeus....Why all of this?!"

I looked away. His eyes were streaked with red. He was really volatile and probably hadn't eaten this evening at all, and he was angry. Sean may be the gentlest out of all of us....but he could still lose control and fully let loose of his nature. I had figured out some of what Bram's fascination with Martin was...as well as his apparent lack of control or over control of the kitten.

"Love, eat a little first hmmm?"

"I don't want-"

I placed my finger on his lips. "You need too...You don't want to lose control and end up hurting anyone else, do  you?" The tears welled up again and streamed down his face. Whoops. That wasn't what I had meant to do and immediately regretted it.

"You don't have to go hunt...you can take from me and I'll eat later, ok?"

Sean paused and brushed at his tears. He hated hunting. I remembered when he was just a fledgling how much he had been opposed to it. Almost a full revulsion. He would only take from Bram and eventually myself. For comfort or whatever reason.... I didn't know.

I walked around the side of the couch and sat down where he had left a small space since he was curled up. I patted my lap. "Come on sweetheart.... You're going to have to be at your best to get back into Martin's trust, ne?"

The conflict continued on his face. Finally he came over and straddled my lap, hugging me tightly. He pressed his face up against my neck, his nose pressing just behind my ear. He held onto as if I were his only salvation and pressed a kiss against my neck and then my cheek. He was so gentle and sweet. It was impossible not to

love him.

Giggling I placed a quick peck on his nose making him scrunch up his face and smirk slightly. He lost the smirk after a second though and looked at me seriously. "Will you help me....I know you already talked to him....I- I can't...." His eyes welled up again. He was slowly breaking my heart with his agony. I was pissed at Bram for this, but knew he was in his own hell as well. I had seen the look on his face this earlier evening when we had just woken up. He was tormented for hurting his beloved.

I pressed a kiss to Sean's lips and ran my hands comfortingly down his back to settle on his hips. "Baby..... you know I will." I pressed another kiss to his nose again.

I moved one of my hands back up to the back of his head and ran it lightly over the braid, and then pushed lightly on his head, bringing his face back to the side of my neck. "Now baby....you have to eat. Otherwise you'll be no help to anyone."

He nuzzled my neck lightly and then scraped his fangs lightly over my pulse sending shivers up my spine. God he was hot like this. Gentle but still a predator. I barely heard his quiet whisper of thanks before he slowly sank his fangs into my neck and pressed down hard against my hips, rocking my erection against his rapidly hardening penis. I moaned at the feel of that combined with his pull at my neck.

"Don't stop" was all I could say as I felt him raise up off of me. He hummed in response against my neck as I dimly realized that all he was doing was raising up so that he could open my towel and I shoved his pajama pants down his hips.

We both moaned as he hurriedly slammed his hips back down into mine. I grabbed onto his amazing ass trying to ground myself against the intense pleasure he was creating for me. He rocked into me, moaning against my neck.

I whimpered as he pulled his fangs back from my neck. I rolled my eyes up to his face leaving my  head dropped back against the back of the couch. He was licking his lips, with his mouth hanging open slightly letting me see the red stain of my blood. Sounds gross? Yeah that's because you're fucking human!

With a small cry he drove his mouth down against mine sharing a small amount of my blood with me. I vaguely noted that his blood was sweeter than mine...more like cotton candy whereas mine was a more berry spicy  flavor...sort of a dark mulled wine flavor. He drove all thoughts from my mind as one of his hands ran slowly up my chest to play with a nipple as he broke our kiss to close the wound on my neck.

I tipped us so that he was laying on his back staring up at me. He grinned and twisted under me, arching up hard against me so that I had to groan. "You're killing me little love."

"Ooooh, then why don't you return the favor?" He pinched my nipple hard, causing me to cry out in shock from it. Apparently the food was making him feel much better. I smirked down at him and laughed.

"With pleasure..." I quickly got up off the small couch and startled him as I twisted him so that his back was still on the cushions slouched, but his legsand most of his hips weren't on the couch. I pushed his thighs open exposing

him completely as I crouched down between them.

"Thad-" I looked up at him, he was red with embarrassment from the position. One would think at his age, he would've been past all of this.

"No baby. It's my turn now." He tried to close his legs, but I helped keep them open by putting them over my shoulders. His erection was so beautiful, and he was incredibly hard. Mmm....definitely tasty too. I put one of my fingers into my mouth and kept his gaze as I sucked on the finger. He moaned and thrust his hips up.

"Please..."

I had to smirk. "Please what baby?"

He muttered lightly until I pulled the finger from my mouth and held it up. "What do you think I should do with this, hm...?"

I laughed as he glared at me in frustration. I leaned down and licked the tip of his cock. Ooooh another fun noise!

"P-please!!!" Almost time...not quite....

"Please what, baby? You still haven't told me what you thought I would do with this....and what you want." I leaned down and put my face right over his dick and blew lightly across it.

Each time he would thrust up trying to get any sort of attention I would pull back and then blow on it again. He was panting and making little whimpers.

"Baby...."

He shook his head and muttered again. It really made me wonder if I could make him cum without even really touching him... Just as I thought that his eyes snapped open as he seemed to regain at least a little bit of  coherency.

"Please!!!"

"Oh love, you beg so nicely...but I still don't know what you want..."

"Y-you!" He took a deep breath and I smirked as he blushed. "You....in m-me...t-touch me...please!" He cried out as I took the tip of his cock into my mouth and rubbed my still wet finger gently over his puckered entrance. He tried to thrust up, but I wrapped my free hand up under one of his legs, and effectively pressed down on his hip causing him to not be able to move quite as much.

As I slipped my finger slowly into him, he made this little sexy half whimper half sex cry that almost had me cumming before I could even get into him. I swallowed his cock all the way down my throat. Interesting...he could only gasp. If I could've grinned around his cock, I would've.

I slipped another finger in and reached. He gave a little shocked cry as I curled my fingers up. Ah there it was. He was muttering incoherently again in between pants and shaking his head. Fuck he was beautiful and so wanton once he forgot about everything but pleasure.

I slowly drew my fingers out from his body. This was going to be the hard part. Not cumming as soon as I got into him. The little noises he kept making were driving me wild. Pushing his legs gently back off of my shoulders, he gave a little cry of dismay as I pulled my mouth off his dick. His eyes flew open as he looked up at me, mouth slightly open.

"D-...don't stop!" I leaned down and kissed him, lightly running my tongue over his full bottom lip as I pulled back from the kiss.

"Love, I couldn't now even if I wanted to...." I pushed his legs open wider and moved between them, and slowly pushed inside. His breath hitched and I stopped afraid that he wasn't ready but he looked up startled. "W-what?"

I surged the rest of the way forward then making both of us cry out. I had to hold still. He was so tight and so warm. His eyes were burning into mine as he held my gaze.

"Move....Thad....move!" Didn't have to ask me twice. I tried to angle myself searching for....Yep there it was. He cried out in pleasure. It didn't take either of us very long. It took only a few thrusts before he screamed out his pleasure and arched his back. I followed as he started squeezing me almost painfully with his ass.

I cried out and leaned down on top of him, him using his body to gently cradle mine, stroking my back lightly. I was breathing heavily and so was he. My last thoughts before I closed my eyes to rest just a moment was that I was going to have to hunt again...

* * *

As I opened the door I almost immediately regretted my decision. The room itself was well awesome. If I ever got the chance to make millions, yeah, that kind of room, like the rest of the freakin' place, totally done up in the awesome old school style from the turn of the century. Bram was seated in an overstuffed leather chair, looking rather comfortable in, yeah go figure, black leather pants, black wife beater. It was an awesome contrast to his blond hair and red eyes. If I wasn't already biased....he was fucking hot!

"Kitten, I will not repeat myself...come in and shut the door behind you." That shook me out of my staring. Fucker. So far so good though. He didn't seem too pissed. Not that I cared, but really, I was getting sick of the pain stuff. I shut the door and walked a bit further into the room.

He smirked and jerked his head at the cushion that was set down on the floor in front of his chair. "Have a seat....we need to have a small chat little one." I raised an eyebrow. Oh right, a "chat". Like I believed that one for a second.

I hesitated I suppose for a second too long after all. I blinked and he was no longer in the chair. Scary bastard. I hated that they could do that. I jumped as his breath was on the back of my neck. "Dare you test me again today already?" I shivered as he ran one rather long finger nail lightly along my shoulders and slightly up my neck as he stalked around to stand in front of me. The finger nail dug in slightly as I didn't respond. Whoops.

"Answer me."

"Uh...no."

My head reeled as he backhanded me, knocking my head to the side. "Try again pet."

God I hated this shit. "No, Master."

"Better, now, please sit....." He raised an eyebrow as if daring me to refuse or hesitate again.

Sighing I moved to sit down on the cushion Indian style, and placed my hands in my lap. He smirked and almost laughed outright as my gesture, as if he was thinking that I had very left to be modest about. He'd be right....Damn bastard!

"Now then....I do believe we need to talk.... Things hardly went in a good way last evening." That made me snort.

"What? You really fucking think so?" He narrowed his eyes and smirked. Whoops, I must have said that out loud. "Master." He looked highly amused at that.

"So you are slightly learning." What that I could almost say what I wanted, as long as I added Master to the end? I'd rather be mute!

"Now if you'll stop your charming commentary...I'll continue." He paused and I thankfully managed to hold in my next retort to his sarcasm.

"Very well. There seems to be some question as to whether or not I should allow you to shift..." I almost sat up straighter, my ears definitely perked up. Finally!

"The full moon is coming, is it not?" I nodded. He paused... Ok fine... I'd do it.

"Yes Master," He nodded in response and continued.

"It would be most uncomfortable if you were unable to shift...and potential deadly, would it not?" I was gaining my suspicions.... I was starting to think I wasn't going to like where this was heading.

"Yes....Master......" He smiled at my hesitation...

"Well then kitten, I think you and I had best come to an arrangement.... you would probably like to shift before then to heal....and certainly during the full moon...." I was silent, once again holding back my commentary.

"I do believe I could be persuaded to allow you to shift before then...." I raised my eyebrows up at that. This was definitely the opening I was looking for. There's no way he could let me shift and then force me to shift back...right?