Yurusu

Nori sat by the bed as he watched Saiai with a somber expression  . He drew in a shuddering sigh as he waited for Saiai to wake up . It had been three days since the accident ,three days since Saiai had yet to wake ,and mercifully the hard part , the part where the doctor had to take out the baby had passed . He smiled sadly at the thought of what would have been a baby girl , her name would have been Kira,  in honor of his dead sister  . When they found out Saiai had agreed to name the baby after her . Nori had felt humbled by Saiai’s willingness to do that .

He ran his hands through his hair as despair hit him , when Saiai woke up , he would  be crushed by the news.  

Saiai woke  and looked around and frowned , the last he remembered was falling down the stairs, Nori pushing him ? He winced as his head hurt  .

Nori looked up to see Saiai looking around  before his eyes found him .

“Hey “.

“Wh-What happened “?  

Saiai tried to get up but an intense pain made him cry out and lay still  .

“Don't move rest  , just be still “.

Saiai felt wrong , he felt...empty somehow  . He frowned as he instinctively ran his hands to his stomach  , which to his confusion was flat  ? Nori saw Saiai’s brow knit  in confusion before he turned to look at him .

“My baby , what happened to my baby “?

Nori braced himself . “Saiai ,I, I need to tell you something “.

“Nori  what happened to my baby “?

“She , she,  Saiai, the baby died “.

Saiai shook his head trying to deny what Nori had just told him .

“No , no, that  can't-you're lying “.

Nori  closed his eyes as tears began to roll down his cheek .

“I'm not,  I ,I “...

“Why are you lying , no , no , my , my baby “.

Saiai clutched at his stomach as he cried , as Nori watched helpless as  the tears ran down his cheeks . Suddenly Saiai looked up with hate -filled eyes .

“ It's your fault ! You killed her ! You killed my baby “!

Had Saiai punched him , it would have been less painful for him .

“No , that's  not true ! I was an accident “ !

“ First my  father, then my baby . What else are you going to take from me ?! My baby , my poor baby “!

Nori  couldn't  stand to see Saiai do distraught , he moved closer to comfort him  ,but Saiai gave him such a venomous  stare he stopped  .

“I hate you ! Get away from me and never touch me  you murdering bastard”!

“Saiai  I'm  so sorry “.

“Get out  ! Get out  ! Get out “!!

Nori backed away as he held his hand  over his mouth . Not wanting  him to hurt himself  , Nori walked out of the room . He closed the door and cried as he leaned against the door . Heart-breaking screams were then heard and Nori slid down to the floor and bumped his head on the door  . It was his fault ,  all his  fault ! As Saiai continued  to scream Nori put his hands to his ears to try and block out the sounds  .

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Saiai  stared out the window as he rubbed his stomach  . He hummed to himself as he sat on the floor looking out ,a knock at the door made him  stop , but he continued to hum.  The door opened and Daichi  came in.  

“Saiai  “?

No answer just more humming  .

“Saiai please answer  me . Are you okay? How are you feeling “?

Saiai glanced over at Daichi with a blank stare .

“Um , we're really worried  about  you . We just want to know how you're feeling  “ .

“I just lost my baby , so ...no  I'm not okay,  and I'm not feeling fine . I feel like crap , so for god's sake please leave me alone  . Let me suffer in peace and by myself “. Saddened Daichi left Saiai alone  .

As he rolled out he saw Nori walking toward him .

“How is he doing “?

“Not  good . I wish we could do something for him , but he doesn't even want to talk to anyone “.

“I'll  try to and talk to him “.

“Good  luck “.

Daichi sighed and rolled to his room  . Nori turned to look at the door and took a deep breath before he went in . He saw Saiai sitting on the floor as he looked  out the window  . He had his hand on his stomach  , Nori  felt even worse than ever . He walked in closer to Saiai and  knelt down .  

“Hey “.

Saiai just ignored Nori and looked out the window  .

“Saiai please talk to me “.

Saiai hummed as he looked down at his stomach and gave a smile .

“It was my lost too , I feel what you feel “.

Saiai slowly looked up to face Nori with a hateful glare  .

“You know how I feel ? No , no you don't . You didn't carry a life inside of you  , you don't feel what I feel  “.

“Saiai she was my baby too ! You don't think I wanted her “?

“Who cares what you think ? I didn't even get to hold her . You just had her ripped from me like it didn't mean anything to you “!

Those words hurt and made Nori want to lash out . He was hurting too ! It wasn't only Saiai  .

“You think you're the only who lost something ? Like I wanted this ? When the doctor took Kira out of you , I didn't see or hold her either . I couldn't  bring himself to see our baby dead  . I don't know what she looked like , so you're  not the only  who is hurting now . Saiai we need  to come together to mourn our baby . Let's not  fight when we should be giving each  other  support “.

Saiai stood up slowly and looked down at Nori  .

“I was wrong to trust you . I should've left when I  had the chance  . I hope you're happy,  I really do . You brought me here to suffer and I am “.

Nori stood up and grabbed Saiai by the shoulders  .”It was my intention to make you suffer  yes  . None of this would  have happened if your father had left us alone  . Now I just want you to know that I'm sorry for all this “,

“I'm  so tired of this obsession with you thinking my father had you kidnapped  . It wasn't  him , and when you find out the truth you'll come begging me  for forgiveness ! When that day comes,  be ready to crawl “.

Nori shook Saiai violently and pushed him away from him . Saiai stumbled and clutched his stomach as he winced in pain .

“You don't have any siblings , so you wouldn't  understand how it feels to lose one . Wallow in your self pity if you want , I'm not letting you drag me down with  you “.

Nori turned  and left slamming the door .

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Aki sat on the couch  as he stared at the floor contemplating . It seemed as if his nephew and his husband  were fighting with each other  . Their fight seem to stem from Nori wanting to find the one responsible for his kidnapping and the death of his niece,  Kira.  He  had to do something  about it . His poor nephew would never find peace until he found the justice he craved , and that's why he was here for , to  help Nori  . He stood up and went to find Nori  .

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Saiai knelt on the ground as he gazed at the stone  that marked Kira’s grave .

On it was he name and  inscribed date .

Kira  Yonamine-Kitamura

1 -11-2018

‘A beloved  too soon lost ,

Forever missed ‘

“My baby,  my Kira . I never had the chance to even see you . I hope your grandfather  is taking care of you . I love you both , and I will miss you “ .

Saiai leaned over and caressed the stone  . “I'm so sorry I couldn't hold you  ,Kira , I wish I could've  “. Saiai got up and walked to the car . Nori was right he couldn't wallow in self pity anymore . He was going to do whatever it took to leave this nightmare  .

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Nori  was debating whether to go to Saiai and talk to him or not .He wanted to resolve this thing between him and Saiai.  He felt that it was going on for too long .When suddenly the door opened and Saiai came in . He looked on as Saiai came in and closed the door .

“is there something wrong “?

Saiai lowered his gaze to the floor . “I figured-I think we should talk “.

Nori wasn't sure what to make of this . What was he up to ?

“Yes we do , but why the sudden change of mind “?

Saiai shrugged as he walked in and sat on the couch .

“I don't know,  I guess I've come to realize a few things,  one of them being that I need to move on . I , I saw her grave . Kira s . It's very beautiful”.

“ I feel the same  . I know it's hard , but ,Saiai ,I know we can move on from this terrible tragedy “.

“It ..will be hard , but liked you said . We need to move ahead . I think we should help each other and  overcome this  . I think we  should try and , well , stop this fighting . It's senseless “.

Nori could see that Saiai seemed to be trying to make an effort to be sincere with him .

“I'm happy you think that . I want- I hope to get past this too  . It really did hurt me to lose our daughter , please believe that “.

“Yes , I do . You know we could...we might be able to try for another baby . We could have a little piece of us “?

Saiai looked at Nori and blushed . Nori smirked as he leaned forward and kissed Saiai  . A sweet and gentle kiss and then he leaned back to look at Saiai  .

“We could if you want  . It's up to you “.

“Let's see what happens “.

Saiai reached out and picked at the buttons of Nori’s shirt . He hesitantly leaned toward him and kissed him as he began to unbutton the shirt , Nori accepted the kiss and tugged at Saiai’s own shirt before they broke apart to take their shirts off  . Nori gave Saiai a lusty stare and caressed his cheek .

“You are gorgeous  . Just gorgeous “.

He stood up and  took Saiai by the hand and walked to the bed . They shed the rest of their clothes and Nori took his time and kissed Saiai as his hands went everywhere  , he rubbed , he stroked  , loving  as Saiai responded to his touches  . He sucked on his fingers smirking as Saiai gasped  . Nori took a hold of Saiai ‘s  length and gave it leisurely strokes , swallowing his cries of pleasure as he came .

Sliding down Nori began to prepare Saiai as  he lavished his thighs with loving kisses while he spoke of tender words and endearments . When he slid into Saiai  , it was the most incredibly satisfying thing  , but not because he was inside of hm , it was because it just felt right . Like it was an expression of their feelings  , and not  just two people  having sex . Hearing Saiai moan out encouragements made him feel whole finally .

They spent most of the night in bed making love and just enjoying each other's company . When Saiai fell asleep  Nori  studied his features  , he ran his hand over his chest smiling as he moaned and shifted in his sleep . Maybe with a little luck they could put all the hurt behind them .

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Making sure that he had everything he needed  ,Saiai smirked to himself  as he held his father's  urn . He was finally leaving and he couldn't wait to get back home . He had been away for almost an entire year , including  this past month he spent with Nori  . The plan worked  ! And all ye had to do was subject himself to his husband , well as soon as he signed the papers . They would be delivered to Nori  within a week . Hr could leave and if his suspicious were correct  , he would be taking a piece of Nori with him . That bastard would now pay for what he put him through , and beg . Saiai chuckled at the thought . Suddenly the door burst open and Nori came in dragging his uncle in with him . He watched  in confusion as Nori threw Aki in front of him .

“Tell him ! Now “!

Aki glanced at Nori then smirked .

“Tell your precious husband what , dear nephew “?

Daichi came in looking pale .

“You goddamn bastard ! Tell Saiai , or so help  me , the police will be the least of your worries “!

“What's  going  on Nori “ ?

Nori looked at Daichi and shook his head .

“Aki , he was the one who had us kidnapped . Daichi dear uncle Aki  wanted the inheritance we were getting . This man is the one who organized our kidnapping “.

Daichi looked at Aki in shock  .

“Is that true ? Why “

“Your father  thought he was doing me a favor by denying what was mine ! I had to rely on scraps because of you three “!

Saiai  glanced at Nori who gave him an apologetic look of his own .

“Saiai, I'm-"

“i told you . I told you over and over , and now it's too late”.

“No . Its … what , what are doing “?

Nori glanced at the packed bags and suitcases  noticing them for the first time .

“What does it look like? I'm leaving “.

“But I thought , I thought we were working things out . Saiai “.

“You thought wrong . Nothing is keeping me here . Bye “.

Saiai grabbed his stuff and walked out of the room . He heard Aki  laugh then what sounded like someone  being hit  followed by a cry of pain .

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