Entanglement

Co-written with Aya Frost


A/N: Sometimes things don't turn out the way we think they will.


Ruka let out a soft groan as he heard the words leave Daisuike's lips. It was amazing and mind blowing to hear him say that. Never had he had someone show such emotion to him and it made his heart ache. Reaching up he stroked Daisuike’s face unsure about something. He knew that all of this was new to Daisuike and he wasn’t going to take advantage of his inexperience for his own pleasure. He would give him the choice.

"Do you want to be on top? Or bottom?" Either way would be fine with Ruka but he wanted to know how Suke felt, "I'm good with either, especially since this is your first time. . ."
Daisuike looked up at Ruka his stomach in knots. They really were going to have sex and the thought both scared him and made him feel more happy than he could ever remember being. He bit his lip looking away for a moment. He felt horribly self-conscious talking it about, but Ruka wanted to know. He looked back up at him smiling softly even though he could feel himself blushing. "I . . . I don't mind being on bottom."

Ruka felt himself get hard at the sight of Suke blushing and looking embarrassed. What had he ever done in his life to deserve someone so beautiful and caring? Feeling his own body heat up, he leaned down kissing him softly.

"If you want that then we'll do that. I've done both plenty of times so it's really up to you. I like both equally." He smiled kissing him again as he reached over getting the condom and lube from the nightstand.

"Are you sure? I don't mind." He didn't want to push Suke into anything he didn't want to do or that he felt he had to do. He wasn’t entirely surprised that he’d chosen to bottom even if he was pretty sure that Daisuike didn’t really understand what was involved. He’d be careful and go slow and make sure that he enjoyed himself.

Daisuike shook his head watching Ruka his cheeks still warm. "I don't mind."

He wasn't sure how to tell Ruka that he liked the feel of being under him. He'd never imagined that he would enjoy the sensation, but he figured it was because it was Ruka. Anyone else and he would never have even allowed things to go beyond the first introduction. Ruka was special in so many ways and he wanted to make sure Ruka understood that fully.

Ruka's chest seemed to swell and he leaned down crushing those gorgeous lips again just getting lost in the feel of them. Finally pulling back he pushed Daisuike’s legs open so he could sit between them. Smiling at him he slowly removed the ring from his erection hissing a bit as it came free. He didn't want to risk hurting him at all with it, even if it heightened the sensations. He wasn’t going to need it, not tonight. Placing it on the nightstand he kissed Daisuike's shoulder and arm as he moved back to hover over him looking down into those warm dark eyes. He wasn’t sure how Daisuike was going to take what he had to say, but he only felt it right to warn him.

"I'm not going to lie. It's going to hurt some, even after I stretch you and everything, it's going to be uncomfortable and hurt but I swear I'll make you feel good as best as I can." Giving him a reassuring smile he leaned down, kissing his stomach lapping at it before moving down nipping at his hips. Grabbing the lube he coated his fingers sitting up some to stare at Daisuike, watching his face. He didn't want to hurt him, but he knew he liked pain to an extent though this was not a pain he would let him endure if he could help it.

Touching the entrance he stroked the outside just getting him used to his fingers being there. Smiling he leaned down licking the tip of his erection teasingly as he watched him.

Daisuike gasped not having realized that area could be so sensitive. Seeing Ruka watching him, he blushed. The sight of Ruka licking him turning him on almost as much as the sensation itself. He'd figured it was going to be uncomfortable at first, but it wasn't like he wasn't used to pain. He just wanted to make sure that he pleased Ruka.

Hearing the gasp from Daisuike, Ruka grinned more before taking the tip slowly into his mouth sucking gently as he slipped a finger inside him as smoothly as he could. He didn't want to hurt him at all and he remembered how painful his first time had been so he'd make sure the same mistakes didn't happen.

He slowly started to prep Daisuike sliding his finger in and out feeling the incredible tightness. He used his free hand to stroke his body and to tease the part of his length that wasn't in his mouth. After a few minutes he slowly nudged his second finger in, brushing the tips of his fingers against the prostate having forgotten to mention about it.

Even with Ruka sucking and stroking him it was still very uncomfortable. He focused on what Ruka's mouth was doing instead of his fingers and that seemed to help. He soon forgot about it until Ruka added a second finger. The stretch was a lot more making him blink a bit.

He cried out his whole body jerking as Ruka did something that seemed to send electricity racing through him, points of light sparking across his vision. That was entirely unexpected and very different and he desperately wanted to feel it again.

Instantly Ruka stilled blinking at Suke slowly pulling away. Had he hurt him? He hadn't been sure what the yell had been about. If he hurt Daisuike he was going to feel like shit. Licking his lips slowly he stared at Daisuike.

"Did I hurt you Ouji-sama?" His voice trembled slightly and he was desperately praying to whoever god that would listen to his pleas that he hadn't hurt him.

"N-no! Do that again! What was that?" Daisuike was panting barely able to keep from whining at the sudden loss of sensation. He looked up at Ruka ready to plead with him to continue. He felt bad that he'd scared Ruka but the sensation had startled him.

Ruka blinked in surprise at Suke's outburst. The desperation in his voice made him grin and Ruka couldn't help but to give into his demands. Not like he wouldn't do that again.

"I think I must've hit your prostate with my fingers. Let's find out." Not doing anything else, he shifted his fingers brushing the tips against it again. Daisuike thrashed a bit another loud cry coming from him. Apparently he was very sensitive. That was going to make things very, very fun.

"Yup, I hit your prostate. Lovely little organ that is." Smirking he dipped his head down again slowly stroking and stretching him again letting his fingers brush against the spot every once in a while to help ease the discomfort as he added a third finger.

Daisuike clutched at the sheets unable and unwilling to stop the panting moans as Ruka continued. He was trying to keep from going off too soon but all the sensations were beginning to overwhelm him. He'd never known that there was anything that could make him feel like this.

He opened his eyes slightly, watching Ruka for a moment only to squeeze them shut his head going back as he hit the spot again. The stretching was definitely uncomfortable, but the other sensations made it worth it.

"Oh god . . . Ruka!"

Slowly, almost reluctantly Ruka removed his mouth licking his lips longing to taste him again already. As he removed his fingers he tried to make sure he didn't hurt Daisuike. Sighing a bit he had to control himself. Seeing Suke under him clutching the blankets with his head back made him twitch and groan in need.

It was hard to control the urge to twist his leg around and take him like he was and his body was trembling with desire. He had to control himself though or else he'd hurt Daisuike.

Sighing he reached for the condom sliding it on, squeezing his eyes shut for a moment as his whole body tingled. Even if it was supposed to dull the feeling he knew he was going to go off so fast. Lubing himself up generously, he looked down at Daisuike, hovering above him.

"Are you ready for me Ouji-sama?" Leaning down he kissed him enjoying the taste.

Daisuike smiled at him his whole body trembling. He would have been lying if he'd said he wasn't a little scared. Him scared, it was almost ironic. But, it was one thing to just mess around with each other; this was moving on to something entirely new and different. He wanted it though. Wanted to give himself totally to Ruka.

His voice was soft, tinged with longing. "Hai koibito."

Ruka stared down at Daisuike, feeling his whole body shake and tremble at the soft spoken words. Never had anyone ever called him that, ever. Even when he had been 'dating', those words had never left his partner's mouth. He almost felt like crying to hear the emotion and love in his voice but he refused to cry.

Reaching up gently he cupped his jaw kissing him slowly, lingering as he murmured against his lips.

"Aishiteru. . ." He felt tears stinging his eyes as he slowly eased himself inside taking it as slow as he could though the feeling was already overwhelming him.

Startled by Ruka's words, Daisuike wasn't prepared for the sensation of Ruka pushing himself in. Even with Ruka preparing him it was almost more than he could take. The feeling of being stretched and filled so completely both terrified and thrilled him.

It was painful, just as Ruka had warned. He’d known that Ruka wasn’t exactly small but there wasn't anything he could do about it now. He tried to slow his breathing and relax his muscles so that it didn't hurt as bad but it wasn't the easiest thing to do. He realized he was gripping Ruka's arms rather hard and let go trying to get the rest of him to relax.

Ruka stopped all movement wincing as he felt Suke remove his fingers from his arms. Daisuike was in a lot of pain and it bothered Ruka immensely to see him hurt hurting. Reaching up he ran his fingers down his cheek kissing him. Letting his hand fall lower he started to pump him slowly trying to make up for the pain he was causing.

Breaking the kiss he moved to his ear to speak softly into it, "I need you to tell me if you can handle it. I'm willing to stop here and now and switch positions with you. I definitely know I can take it." His words were a bit shaky, still not sure he could take knowing he was hurting Daisuike. Sure he'd had virgin lovers before, but he hadn't loved them. He had cared for them but to know he was hurting the person he cared for most in his life was something that bothered him greatly.

Daisuike shook his head seeing the concern in Ruka's eyes. It amazed him that Ruka was so compassionate and made him love him all the more. He was determined to do this for him, to be with him like this. He was slightly breathless, his voice soft. "I am fine. Just . . . just takes a little getting used to."

"Yeah, yeah it does. If you need to stop at any time you tell me, got it? I don't care if I'm about to go off." Ruka was serious, he wasn't going to let him be hurt for a moment longer than necessary.

Licking his lips again he leaned down brushing his against Suke's then his jaw and finally his neck. Biting it gently he smiled, "If you need to grip me do so. Any bruises you give me I'll definitely enjoy."

Carefully stroking his erection again he made sure he kept rubbing the tip over and over again as he slowly pushed in all the way, waiting until he was ready for him to move.

Daisuike took a moment to catch his breath, just letting himself get used to the feel of being taken like this. Ruka's stroking him was helping to ease the burning and the urge to move was becoming insistent. He pressed his hips up against Ruka shuddering at the feel.

Ruka shuddered feeling Suke press back against him and he cursed softly.

"Are you trying to make me take you hard? You're too damn seductive and tight, you know that?" He opened an eye looking at Suke with a smirk as he continued to pump him. Ruka couldn't help himself as he leaned down to whisper in Suke's ear.

"Do you realize how hard it is for me to not turn you on your side and fuck you until we're both screaming?" His voice was rough and husky, desire evident in his voice as his body shook with need and from the pressure of holding back.

Daisuike let out a shuddering breath, Ruka's soft spoken words sending chills through him. The thought of Ruka getting rough with him was strangely tantalizing. He could feel the slight tremble in Ruka and knew he wasn't joking.

He grinned pressing himself against him again moaning at the way it felt. Now that he was getting more used to it, it wasn't nearly as bad, the pain manageable. He knew he was never going to get enough of Ruka after this.

Ruka's patience suddenly snapped feeling Suke press his hips into him and moan. Grabbing Suke's wrists Ruka pinned them down as he bit his neck thrusting in slowly then pulling out just as slow only to push in hard but slow.

"So fucking. . . tight! I'm gunna go off just like this." His voice was still shaking and he couldn't control the trembles as he kept his maddening pace. His head was spinning and he wasn't sure he could keep being gentle for very long. Or keep from going off so quick. Daisuike was just too damn arousing.

Daisuike fought to breathe as Ruka held him down. The thrusts hurt, but it was a good kind of hurt that made him writhe a bit. Each time Ruka would come down it would make everything seem to fade out. His pace was slowly driving Daisuike insane. It would hurt and stretch then it would feel amazing and kept going back and forth like that until he wasn't sure what was pleasure and what was pain.

Ruka moaned against Daisuike's throat unable to keep his own cries quiet. It was unbelievably tight and it almost hurt to move but he kept going. The pace was starting to get to him too and he had to move more. That and he wanted to hit that spot perfectly for Daisuike. His Ouji-sama deserved to feel the amazing pleasure he was giving Ruka.

Shifting, he let go of his wrists and reached down taking one of his ankles and pushing his leg flat onto the other turning him slightly onto his side. In a quick movement he grabbed Suke's wrist and held them above his head with one hand while he reached down stroking him with the other.

With another smile started to thrust against him again, speeding up a bit. "If you get used to this, I might move you again so I can go deeper." Leaning down he was pressed himself flush against Daisuike kissing him and murmuring against his lips, "God there's so many ways I want to take you. . ."

Daisuike gasped at the way the new position enabled Ruka to hit that spot immediately as he thrust into him. Daisuike struggled weakly just enjoying the sensation of being pinned. Just that alone made his whole body heat up, his limbs going weak and numb. He felt like he was drowning in pleasure, the occasional slight burn or stretching just heightening the sensations, making him even more sensitive. The heat was starting to build, waves of it coursing over him with each thrust. He was shocked to hear himself moaning rather loudly, but he couldn't contain it.

Hearing Daisuike moan was almost becoming too much for him and Ruka himself started to moan. The sensation of it all was making him lose his mind and he wasn't sure how he could keep control of himself. He didn't want to hurt Daisuike but he was losing that fine control of the raw lust and need for his Ouji-sama. The man was just exquisite, everything about him heightening Ruka's desire.

Shaking he finally couldn't stop the craving coursing through him and he shifted again turning Daisuike over and onto his knees, slipping between his spread legs. Keeping his wrists pinned above his head, Ruka leaned down covering him with his body as he continued to thrust moaning with each.

At first he started to kiss his shoulders but somewhere along the way they became bites, some gentle some not as gentle. Ruka found himself unable to keep the slow pace moving faster and harder than before as he stroked Daisuike in time with his movements.

The sudden change in position startled Daisuike and he barely had time to recover before Ruka was thrusting into him again. As Ruka pulled back there was a sudden sharp stinging sensation that made Daisuike catch his breath. It eased up as Ruka came back down, hitting that spot again but he couldn't help tensing as Ruka slid back out. It wasn't as intense but the stinging was still there. The pain was lessening with each thrust even though Ruka started moving faster and harder. He was hitting even deeper than before and it was taking Daisuike's breath away. The way the heat was building he wasn't going to be able to last much longer, even with the pain.

He jerked as Ruka bit down particularly hard. He was definitely going to have marks after this. He buried his face in the pillow his cries muffled.

Ruka couldn't hold back his own cries as he continued, the whines and gasps of pleasure ripping past his lips even as he tried to keep them down. Seeing Daisuike bury his face against the pillow Ruka let go of his wrists. Gently grabbing a fist full of dark hair Ruka pulled his head up wanting to hear him. After a few cries he kissed him licking Daisuike's bottom lip and stroking his tongue. Hearing the cries even through the kisses he grinned moving to Daisuike's ear not letting him bury his face against the pillow.

"Come for me Ouji-sama. . . I want to feel and hear you come. . ." Ruka couldn't keep the lust from his voice as he stroked him harder and faster unable to focus on anything but the intense pleasure coursing through him.

Daisuike whimpered his whole body enveloped in the feel of Ruka. Nothing existed but this incredible overwhelming feeling. He was trembling the waves of heat building faster as Ruka continued to stroke and thrust into him. He couldn't take it anymore. The sensations were too much, driving him wild.

"Oh god . . . oh god Ruka! I-I can't . . . it's too much." The last word was nearly shouted as his whole body clenched, his vision fading completely as the orgasm overtook him.

Ruka's thrusts didn't cease as Daisuike came. Ruka's whole body tensing as Daisuike tightened around him taking the breath out of him. Gasping his body jerked everything going numb and a loud moan escaping his lips as his vision went white.

Panting and gasping for air Ruka hovered above Daisuike shaking. He hadn't gotten off like that in a long time, nor had he lost control like that. Not in a very long time. Carefully, slowly as to not hurt him, Ruka pulled out collapsing to his side.

Going to remove the condom he stopped staring at it for a moment, his heart suddenly in his throat. It was tinted red. Glancing at Diasuike he instantly panicked. There was blood. Not a lot, but there was definitely blood. He had been too rough and now Daisuike was paying the price.

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*koibito: a term of endearment loosely translates as beloved
*aishiteru: I love you