Believing in Myself

Wow, talk about a series of unfortunate events... Ok, here goes. I took a break for the Christmas holiday (I'm sure alot of writers did) but it sucked anyway because I was sick the entire time. I'm ill until about Tuesday, when I finish writing my latest chapter, and plan to post it the next day. Then, something goes nuts with my computer and ALL my files are erased! EVERYTHING SAVED INCLUDING THIS STORY was erased! I'm so MAD! I've had to rewrite all my lost stories in progress and rewrite this chapter! I'm so pissed off!

Of course, I will stay strong! I will not let this incident ruin my hard work! I will keep writing up! So for the new year, enjoy this chapter! Happy New Year everyone!

Chapter 12


John lay in bed for the day, thinking to himself. He hadn't seen Jessica since she had run off. He hoped that she hadn't left yet, as he still wanted to convince her to stay. Running it over and over in his head, it seemed that the more he tried to find a way for Jessica to stay, the more it came down to the fact that he would be powerless in deciding something for her. But he knew that he wouldn't let her go without a fight.

"Jessica... I don't want you to go... I...I..."

He bit his lip and sat up. He did love her. She had truely grown on him over the last few weeks. It was the reason he cast his magic, the reason he fought so fiercely against Beras. It was love for her that he threw all logic out and rushed headfirst for the tower that night. And it would be love for her that would give him the answer he needed to convince Jessica to stay. Although he wished he had more time to think.

"Your looking better John..."

"Jessica... yeah, I am. Thanks."

Jessica walked over to him and sighed. It looked like she was bursting to say something. She bit her lip and thought of a way to best word what she wanted to tell him.

"John... about me leaving..."

"Jessica, no, I want you to stay, I l-."

"Please John, just let me finish!" She said, cutting him before he could get the fated words out. "I told you that I came to teach you magic. I have done that and my duty is complete. However, something else has come up..."

She looked uncertain about what she wanted to say. John took the silence to try and figure things out. "What do you mean something else? What?"

"I also told you... that I feel things differently then you. But what I feel now... it is similar and different at the same time... perhaps it's the way you as humans feel toward each other... and what I believe... that I feel for you."

John wanted to say something, but Jessica placed her fingers on his lips, silencing him. She trailed her hand down toward his heart and pressed her palm there. Bewildered by her actions, John could only watch as Jessica began to glow lavender. Her wings, which were normally folded back, spread outward to thier furthest reach and slowly, starting from the tips of the wings, one by one, feathers began to detach from her and fall slowly to the floor, vanishing as they touched the wood. Faster it went, until all the feathers were gone, and Jessica fell foward. John caught her before she could hit the floor and watched as she opened her eyes.

"It's done..."

"What's done? Jessica, what happened to your wings? What did you do?"

"I have decided... to stay here. With you."

John's mind raced, and the first thing he felt was joy, pure unimaginable joy that he felt would burst from his chest. It was something he felt shouldn't be contained, shouldn't be sealed up.

"I feel that... if I went back to heaven... it wouldn't be the same."

John smiled inwardly. He knew what the message was, even though she didn't say it directly. That despite all she could have in heaven, what she wanted was right here in front of her. He felt his heart could not take much more.

"Jessica... I love you."

"I know John... but there is something I want."

"What is it?"

"I want you... to show me how much you love me."

John thought of millions of things to show her. Millions of ways he could prove his own love for her. He cupped her face gently in his hands, and kissed her. The first meeting of thier lips brought them both to new levels of love. It felt like electricity passing through thier bodies, the surge of emotions and passion flooding thier bodies.They held the kiss for as long as they could, until the need for air brought them apart. Jessica was blushing a deep red, while John felt he had cast dozens of fire spells all at once. The seperation was not long for they resumed kissing, with greater force and passion then before.

They pulled away once again and John imediately led Jessica off somewhere.

"Hey, where are we going?"

"You'll see. It's a place I found not that long ago."

He led her down the hallways of spells, until they found a door, similar to the one that they previously used to enter this chamber. John opened it and showed them the room inside. A rather large bed was opposite the door, and to the right was a nightstand, on which a locked book lay. On the far right corner was a table set for two, and in the far left corner was a dresser with clothes in it. It looked to be a well furnished room made for two people.

"What is this place?"

"I think my parents used to use it before I was born. But I found this place a while back although I'm sorry I didn't tell you about it sooner. I didn't think it was that important at the time really."

John led her to the bed and kissed her again. He leaned against her, causing her to lay down on the bed, his body covering hers. He gazed into her eyes, searching for an answer to a question not asked. She gave a small nod, but turned away as well.

"I'm... not sure how to go from here. Angels are forbidden of this, so we have almost no knowledge of..."

"It's ok. Leave it to me."

He gave another kiss to reassure her and erase doubt. He would not want to do anything that would hurt her or anything against her will. He started to part her robe, revealing her naked body underneath. She blushed as he drank in the sight of her, from her C cup breasts with pinkish nipples, to her well rounded hips and her lean, yet strong legs. She lay before him looking innocent and young, and waiting for him.

He removed his shirt to reveal his rather slightly muscular build. He pressed his body closer to hers, skin against skin, as they kissed again, Jessica trying her best not to feel embarrassed about thier nakedness. John pulled down his pants and freed his erection. If Jessica could go any redder, now would have been the time as she simply stared at his erection. He positioned himself to enter her and spread her legs open revealing her pussy. He looked to her and she nodded. With a quick push he was inside her.

Jessica let out a cry as a small pain ran through her. John froze waiting to see if he should stop. A few tears leaked out of Jessica's eyes but she was able to gaze at him and gave a nod for him to continue. John pulled out a little then pushed back in. Jessica gave another cry, but this time it was one of pleasure. He continued to thrust, pulling out slowly, and pushing back in rapidly. Jessica moaned out in sheer pleasure as he continued his work upon her, her body feeling things she never thought possible. It was impossible for her to put into words what she felt right now, but she didn't think she could right now even if she could find the right words for the experience.

John continued to drive into her, reaching out his hands to knead her breasts. Jessica moaned out in bliss as the waves of pleasure that were once forbidden to her rocked against her body. She felt a pool of heat rise up inside her, building each time he pushed his erect penis into her, driving her up and waiting to burst forth.It wasn't long before Jessica felt it, the unfamiliar feeling...

Her orgasm hit rapidly and ahe arched her back as the pleasure shot through her body like lightning. John too let out a low growl as he released into her. They felt frozen in time, as they finished their testa ment of love to each other. John fell foward, laying down sweating, his breathing heavy. Jessica too was started to recover from their moment of passion.

"That... that felt...good." It was all Jessica could say before she fell asleep. John too quickly fell under the spell of sleep, and the two lovers lay in each others embrace until morning.