The one thing that keeps me sane...

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“Is Lain there?” Ben asked.

“He’s right here actually. What do you want?” Alex asked him.

Ben sighed. “I want to talk to him please.”

Alex tapped his finger against the bed. “I don’t think he much wants to talk to you, Ben. However, you can leave a message with me and I’ll be sure to get it to him if you want.”

“Just tell him I really want to talk to him.” Ben told Alex. “That’s all.”

“Sure thing.” Alex said and hung the phone up. “He really wants to talk to you.”

Laraine groaned and fell back against the bed next to Alex. “Why is he doing this to me?” he sat up and grabbed the phone from Alex. “I’m gonna call him.”

Alex grabbed the phone back from Laraine. “Why would you call him? Let him call you again!”

“Alex it could be something important!” Laraine argued and took his phone back. “Maybe something bad happened!” he hit his speed dial for Ben and waited for the guy to answer.

“Hey there Lain.” came Ben’s voice, and with it so many memories Lain thought he would never get out of his head. “Thank you for calling.”

Laraine closed his eyes. “Yeah, no problem. What’s going on?”

He heard Ben sigh. “Greg went back to my mom. She called Dani telling him he’d changed and all that bullshit but we all know he hasn’t. She wants to meet us all tonight at seven for dinner or something like that.” it was silent a moment. “Lain...I know I shouldn’t be asking you this but you are the only one I trust enough.”

“It’s fine.” Laraine said softly. “I’ll watch Jacoby for you. That is if you don’t mind bringing him over here. I have my cousin over and I’m not just going to leave him.”

“Sure.” Ben answered. “Thank you Lain, I’ll bring him over in about an hour.”

Laraine hung the phone up and felt Alex slide an arm around him. “You gonna be okay Lain? Cause I’ll kick his ass if you want me to. Swear to god I will.”

That brought a laugh from Laraine. “No...it’s fine.”

An hour later Laraine and Alex had settled themselves in the living room, trying to make it child proof as well as possible. They heard a knock at the door and Laraine told Alex to wait there as he got up to go answer it. When he opened the door Ben was standing right there and Jacoby was at his side, hugging his leg.

“Lain!” Jacoby immediately smiled and ran over to hug the guys leg. “I missed you!”

“I missed you too.” Laraine set a hand on the boy’s head.

Ben smiled softly and crouched down to be at the boy’s level. “You gonna be good monster?”

Jacoby nodded and looked up at Laraine. “Can I go put my stuff down?”

“Yes you can, right in there.” Laraine pointed to the living room and Jacoby ran off. Laraine watched the boy before looking back at Ben. “He’ll be fine, I promise.”

“I know.” Ben told Laraine. “I just...how are you?”

Laraine shrugged. “I’m okay I guess. How are you?”

It was silent a moment. “Little nervous. It’s funny how I’m an adult now and I’m still afraid of this guy.”

“You have all the reason to be.” Laraine told him. “Just be careful.”

“I always am.” with that Ben shoved his hands in his pockets and backed away a little. “I’ll be by later, I don’t know when though. He’ll probably pass out at seven-thirty.”

To spite the horrid feeling Laraine had in his stomach he nodded. “Sure.”

At pretty much seven-thirty Jacoby did pass out and took Alex with him. The two were laying on odd angles of the living room floor and it made Laraine smile just to look at them. His mom had went upstairs to go to bed at around six. She had to be up at like three in the morning to drive like four hours just to pick up Anna. Laraine really didn’t think that was worth it.

Someone knocked on the door and Laraine looked at the time to see that it was almost nine o’clock. He stood and looked out the little window next to the door, to make sure it was Ben, and then opened it. Ben gave him a small smile and Laraine stepped aside so he could come in.

“How did it go?” Laraine asked him.

“Pretty much how I expected it to.” Ben answered. “We all yelled at each other and told our mother that if she ever wanted to see any of us again Greg better not be there. He wasn’t there, thank god, but we know that he’s gonna be pissed at us for what we said.”

Laraine nodded softly. “Well, Jacoby is in the living room.”

Ben grabbed Laraine’s arm before he could walk in there. “I don’t want this tension between us Lain.”

“Then you should have thought of that before.” Laraine muttered and looked away from Ben. “I miss you...” he looked back at the guy. “Benjamin I miss you and you are right here in front of me.” tears began to fall down his face. “I can’t do this anymore! I’ve tried to hard to hate you...to forget...and I still love you!” he sobbed as Ben pulled him into hug. “Please Benjamin...please help me stop loving you...”

Tears filled Ben’s eyes hearing Laraine say that but he held them back knowing he had to be the strong one here. “Baby I can’t help you...” he set his head on the top of Laraine’s. “I still haven’t figured out how to stop loving you yet.”
Slowly Laraine pulled away from Ben and dried his eyes. “You should probably go.”

“Yeah.” Ben nodded. “Sure.” walking into the room he grabbed Jacoby’s bag and then lifted the sleeping child into his arms. He walked back over to where Laraine was still standing, arms wrapped around himself. “Hey,” Laraine looked up at him. “Thank you Lain.”

He nodded softly. “Any time. It was no problem.”

Leaning down Ben gave him a soft kiss and backed away. “I’ll talk to you later Lain.”

“Yeah.” Laraine nodded and closed the door after Ben. “I hate my life.”

The next morning Laraine woke to someone banging on his door. Alex could sleep through a nuclear holocaust so he didn’t even move from his place on the floor. Standing Laraine walked over to the door and opened it. Ryan was standing there with Zak, movies and all. They slid into the house as Laraine let them in and walked into living room.

“We knocked pretty hard. Is he dead?” Ryan asked as he set the movies down in front of the TV. “I’m serious...is he alive?”

Laraine slid down by his cousin, who was of course shirtless and in his shorts with the blanket only covering part of his shorts, and shook him a little. “Alex we have guests. Wake up.”

Alex groaned and pushed himself up. He rubbed his eyes, not really caring about his surroundings at the moment. “Who the fuck is here so early in the morning?”

That made Laraine laugh. “Well good morning to you too sunshine. Ryan and Zak are here to watch movies with us.”

Immediately Alex was awake and clearly became extremely uncomfortable knowing Zak was in the room while he was half naked. “Hi...Ryan. Zak.”

“Morning sleeping beauty.” Zak smiled and sat on the couch.

“Yeah, morning.” Alex said, brushing his growing blonde hair from his face. “I didn’t know you were all gonna be here.”

Ryan sat down and laid the movies out. “I brought all my movies.”

Zak laughed. “Meaning that all there are is horror movies of course.”

Laraine dropped down into the arm chair as Ryan slid a movie in and then Ryan slid over into the other chair. “I’m sorry if I like to be scared! It’s day time anyway. Not like anything bad is gonna happen.”

“What movie did you put in?” Alex asked, sliding up so he was sitting on the couch also.

“I dunno. It’s a movie from Michael’s collection that I have never heard of.” Ryan answered. “He told me it was supposed to be really friggin scary.”

The movie started and they all settled in. Laraine and Ryan didn’t have as interested in the movie as they were with what was going to happen between Alex and Zak. They both really wanted the two together since Alex’s girlfriend was a complete whore (he’d heard about her from anonymous sources) and Zak had told Ryan after the first day he had met Alex he’d liked him. It helped out that Zak was only a year older than Alex, seventeen, since Alex didn’t like people who were a whole lot older than himself.

“I’m gonna get a pop!” Ryan said jumping up.

“Sounds good.” Laraine hopped up and followed him. They hid around the corner watching the two. “Think this will work?” Laraine whispered to Ryan.

Ryan shrugged. “I hope so.”

Alex just went back to watching the movie, completely freaked out at the whole situation and wanting to kill yet hug his cousin. Something happened on the screen and Alex jumped a little from being pretty much scared. Zak sort of slid over close to him and smiled.

“You okay?” he asked Alex. “You jumped a little there.”

“Fine.” Alex muttered and blushed a little. “Just took my by surprise.”

Slowly Zak’s hand slid on top of Alex’s and he waited to see if the guy would move. Alex actually took Zak by surprise and turned his hand over so their fingers laced together. This enabled Zak to move a little closer to Alex and they continued to watch the movie. Again Alex jumped when something popped onto the screen and he left Zak’s hand leave his, immediately making him wish it hadn’t left.

Just then an arm slid around Alex and he felt Zak’s hand rest on his bare side. For a moment Alex went stiff but then he relaxed and leaned back, practically melting into Zak. They fit together so wonderfully and Alex actually felt good letting Zak hold him. He usually was the one to make advances, whether it was guys or girls, because that was usually where he felt more comfortable. However, with Zak it was completely different.

“Zak...” Alex muttered as Zak cupped his chin and lifted his head so they were now face to face, inches from each other. “I have a girlfriend...”

“You trying to convince me or yourself?” Zak asked him.

Alex just stared at Zak a moment and then their mouths met. For a moment Alex just kind of sat there, to afraid and guilty to do anything. However, after a moment, he began to kiss Zak back. Zak slid his hand from Alex’s chin to down with his other around the guys waist. Alex slid his hand up around Zak’s shoulders, playing with the back of his hair slightly.

“I’d say it worked.” Ryan joked and Laraine laughed a little.

Ben’s house

Ben slammed back against the wall and slid down it so he was sitting. These guys were so brutal. He’s tried reasoning with them but clearly that wasn’t going to work at all. A foot hit his side sending him fully onto the floor. Surely they weren’t going to kill him. They couldn’t kill him! At least, he hoped they wouldn’t kill him. He could hear Jacoby crying from where he was standing back against the wall by the couch. God these men where horrible people.

“Get him up.” he heard a voice he very much new say. Two men grabbed his arms and hauled him up. He hung his head a moment before raising it to stare at deadly eyes. “What did I warn you Ben?” Ben didn’t say anything and the man hit him hard across the face. “How about you answer me now!”

“Stop it!” Jacoby yelled. “Leave my daddy alone! Don’t hurt him!”

Walking over Trik grabbed the boy’s chin and made the crying boy look at him. “Do you want me to hurt your daddy more?” Jacoby shook his small head as best he could. “Then stop crying.” he let the boy go and turned back to Ben. “Now, what did I warn you Ben?”

Ben kept his head dropped this time. “Not to hurt him...” he muttered. “He’s better off without me. He’ll get over me...and move on...and that way I can’t hurt him...my past can’t hurt him.”

Trik grabbed Ben’s hair and forced his head up. “Don’t feed me that bullshit Ben. Anyone from you past can use him! Hell I could use him to get to you if I wanted. You love my nephew and that is all they need. You breaking up with him isn’t gonna keep them from him when they know you still care!”

“Maybe I don’t care!” Ben snapped.

“You’re a good liar Ben...until it’s important.” Trik told him. “You’re going to fix this.”

“You can’t make me be with someone against my will!” Ben argued. “I wont do it! I know my past Trik! I know he can get hurt because of me and I wont have it!”

Trik smirked. “Ray and Ian, go have fun with Ben in the back.” he kept his eyes on Ben. “Derek I want you to pay my nephew a visit.”

Ben’s eyes widened. “What? No!” Ben struggled as the men began to drag him into the back. “Leave Lain out of this! Don’t you touch him!”

“Don’t hurt him!” Jacoby screamed and was sobbing again. “Please don’t hurt my daddy!”

Trik sat down on the couch and pulled Jacoby up to sit on his lap. “Their not going to hurt your daddy. They’re just going to have some fun with him.”

Jacoby sniffed. “Daddy doesn’t sound happy.”

The man smiled. “It’s all part of the fun. You’ll understand when you are older.”

“Let me go!” Ben yelled as the men drug him into his room and forced him onto the bed. He tried to struggle but the men were stronger than he was. “Get off!” Ben snapped as one of the guys sat on his stomach and held his arms while the other tied his hands to the bedpost. “Get the fuck off me!”

Ben froze as the guy who had been tying his hands, Ray, held a knife to his neck. “I wonder what Derek has in store for your lover Ben.” he laughed and slid the knife down into Ben’s shirt. “Hopefully he doesn’t have to much fun.”

The knife cut through Ben’s shirt and he winced slightly as it nicked him. Ian grabbed his shirt and ripped it the rest of the way open. The knife was set on Ben’s neck again and Ben closed his eyes as Ian’s hands roamed his chest. “We’re gonna play a game with you Ben.” Ian grabbed Ben’s chin hard and forced Ben to look at him. “You better open that pretty little mouth of yours and scream or I just might have to take Derek’s place. And I wont be a nice to your little Lain as he is going to be. Understand?” Ben nodded. “What?”

“Yes.” Ben answered and grimaced as Ray moved down and began to undo his pants.

Ray slid down to Ben’s feel and took off his shoes and everything so could get Ben’s pants and boxers off him. “Not excited Ben?” Ian asked and slid to his side. He ran the knife down Ben’s chest (blunt end) and set the knife on Ben’s cock. “What’s wrong Ben?”

“Oh god...” Ben practically whimpered as Ray pushed his legs apart. “Please don’t do this...AH!” Ben yelled as Ian made a small cut in his chest. “Jesus Christ!”

The sound of Ray undoing his pants caught Ben’s attention and he tried to back away from the man, however his bonds and the knife were not that forgiving. “What’s wrong Ben? A leader like you shouldn’t be afraid. You just get to know what this feels like now.” Ray smirked and grabbed Ben’s neck, holding almost to tight. “How does it feel being on the other end?”

“Ah!” Ben screamed as Ray thrust into him. It felt like his body had been split in half and he wanted to die. “Shit...” he could barely breath from Ray holding his neck and his head was spinning in circles from the pain. “Ah!” the knife split the skin on his chest again.

Ray let go of his neck and Ben gasped for breath before a hand came down hard across his face, adding to the number of times he had already been hit.. He felt the knife on his lips and he tried to back his head away but the knife moved with him. “Open up Ben.”

Ben opened his mouth and about choked as Ian’s cock was shoved in. He closed his eyes, not wanting to come into realization with what was happening to him. Ray slammed into him hard making Ben scream and gag, which also made Ray laugh.

“Come on Ben.” Ian grabbed his hair in a fist. “I heard you were notorious for how good you sucked dick.”

A sob actually escaped Ben’s throat as he felt Ray come inside of him. Ray pulled out and immediately Ben felt the blood and semen. It didn’t take to much longer before Ian came in his mouth. The moment Ian pulled out Ben turned his head to the side and spit the stuff out, coughing and gasping for air. Ian grabbed the knife and held Ben’s chin in his hand as he cut a line on Ben’s cheek. After they fixed themselves up they untied Ben and left the room.

Turning over Ben slowly, and very painfully pushed himself up. He needed to find clothes before the men left and Jacoby came running back to see what was going on. He could reach a pair of shorts that were on his floor and stood to put them on. The moment he had them pulled up Jacoby came running into his room.

“Daddy!” Jacoby screamed as Ben fell the floor unconscious. He ran over to the beaten man and shook his shoulder. “Daddy get up!” he began to cry. “Daddy please...get up!”

Lain’s house

The phone rang and Alex and Zak immediately pulled apart. Laraine and Ryan had retired to the kitchen because they didn’t want to break the two from the trance they were in and have everything be ruined. Laraine walked back into the living room and picked up the phone.

“Hello? He asked, not having his cell phone so he didn’t know who was calling him.

“Lain?” came Michael’s voice.

Laraine could immediately tell something was wrong. “Michael? What’s going on?”

Ryan was listening now, along with all the others. “Can you have Zak drive you over to Ben’s house to pick up Jacoby? He’s there with one of Ben’s neighbors. Then you need to get over to the hospital.”

“What happened?” Lain asked, worry filling him. “Michael tell me what happened.”

“I don’t know...” Michael answered. “They wont let me in right now. The hospital just called me and told me to come down cause Ben was in here.”

Laraine was shaking in terror. “Yeah...I’ll be right over.”

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