Fagging

I must say I deeply and profusely apologize for not updating in such a looooonnnnnngggg time... Life got into the way, and life was being a bitch to me. :-\
Not to mention my damned neighbors who kept on playing music all the time, keeping me up and causing my lack of sleep. One of the perils of living in an apartment building that has thin walls...oy. ~_~;; And a good writer always need at least some sleep for her mind to function correctly.
However, despite all this, I actually got my inspiration after long periods of annoyances from the strangest place. Or rather, item. I owe this chapter to the crazy Sci-Fi story, "Princess of Mars" all of things...

^_^;;

Axel: "Princess of Mars"? Isn't that the one where some strange human falls in love with an princess, and goes though all sorts of shit to win her hand in marriage?

Adonis **blinks**: Axel, I never pegged you to be a Sci-Fi lover...

Axel then smirks here. "Really... What about you then? What genres do you like the most..."

Adonis smiles slightly. "Well, I've always had a thing for all things Elves... so I guess it would be Fantasy for me."

"Heh, figures."

Enough of that... on with the story!
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The Dean twitched, trying to restrain his anger. He could not believe it; not only one student played hooky by going off the boarding school property, FOUR of them did it. In addition, right on such an important day too... inspection day!
He was nice enough to cut nearly all classes for all the kids, so that they could aid in the process of tidying things up and using it to study more on the homework given to them, to maintain the appearance of a well-to-do school with polished students.
And then those boys standing before his desk and him had the nerve to use that to their advantage to go out partying and god know what, without anybody noticing that they were missing. To top it off... one of the boys were a Head boy, one of the young leaders of the "houses"... that was not certainly showing fine leadership and living as a good example.

He was just thankful that one of the wandering teachers had caught the three boys as they tried to sneak back into the boarding school, before the school authorities and the school inspector was made aware of this situation.
If some people knew that some of his boys were sneaking out of school to do god only know what, it would certainly not reflect well on his school.

So therefore, as long as he was in charge of this place, such antics would be deeply frowned upon, and warrant a heavy punishment. He was normally a nice person, but enough was enough.

When the teachers had been alerted to the fact, that more than just one boy had been going off school property during a school day, (regardless of no classes or not Tuesday would still be considered an school day), they did a quick count of every student in the school... and talked to some other students.
It was quickly discovered that Axel, Johan and Adonis was not the only one to break one of the biggest rules. Brain Reeves had done that too.

The Dean usually did not enjoy giving out punishments, but in the case of Brain Reeves, he would certainly make an exception... for he would have no truck with a well-known local rapist, no matter how young he was.

First things first... First, he had to deal with those boys at least.

"Axel, is it?" He spoke to the blonde-haired boy with the odd mismatched eyes.

"Yes Sir..." Axel spoke to him in a low tone, sounding very respectful towards the Dean.

The dean, however, would not be swayed by such courtesy and instead got right to the point. "May I ask why an head boy, who should strive to lead by example, was breaking one of the biggest rules by going off school property during an school day?"

"Ermm... well..." Axel was at a loss on what to say for once, as he was not sure that the truth might go over well with the dean... considering the fact that he was somewhat homophobic...

Johan however, spoke up. "Sire, it wasn't what you thought it was... Brian lured Adonis off campus grounds so Axel was only doing his duties as head boy in fetching Adonis and preventing anything that Brian might have done to him. You know what I mean, sire. You know that I wouldn't have driven them around if they were only intending to get into all sorts of troublesome things..."

The Dean sighed. "That's enough from you, John. I wasn't speaking to you, I was directing that question at Axel."

"That's Jo-HAN!" The annoyed senior boy said somewhat irritably. It seemed as if the Dean was always constantly getting his name wrong.

The Dean redirected his attention to the blond boy, ignoring the older teenage boy. "So, tell me... is this true, Axel? Tell me what did just exactly happen?"

Thinking that confirming with Johan's point of view would help all get them out of hot water, Axel nodded his head. After all, it was not a lie at all... even if it made him sound like a total saint. The truth was that he was simply both angry and jealous at the time...

"Yes sir. I noticed that Adonis had gotten into Brian's car and Brian drove away... so I had Johan give me a ride so that I could go after them before anything happened. Adonis didn't know fully the extent of what Brian did in the past, so I was worried you see..."

Adonis, who had been staring at the floor at the time Axel was attempting to explain his actions, glanced up towards the blonde-haired boy.
To Adonis, Axel looked like he was having some mixed emotions... a mixture of stress, anger, and worry. It was then Adonis felt a pang of guilt again.
He had gone with Brain because he had simply been bored out of his mind, and had been looking for more interesting things to do. Not to mention Adonis never really believed that Brain could be a rapist of sorts... Brian was only a young boy like him, after all.
Look what happened, and now Axel was caught up into this mess thanks to him. Axel might be a slightly wild boy who looked like he might amount to no good at all..t het he was a good person, with a heart of gold. Axel should not be in trouble like this. In addition, Adonis did not deserve somebody like Axel. After all, a part of him had actually enjoyed what had been inflicted upon his body, despite the fact that he did not like the person who committed this act in the same way just as he liked Axel. Wasn't that being unfaithful?
Brian was a horrible boy who was surely guilty of all those rumors about him, and Adonis was just as bad too... he should have had listened to Axel and the others. In addition, shouldn't had enjoyed the rape even only a little bit...

The redhead felt his eyes burning with hot tears, and fought internally to keep them back. He lowered his face towards the floor again, so that nobody would see that he was trying not to cry.

So lost in his guilt-ridden thoughts, he didn't quite catch what the Dean had said to Axel so he was startled when Axel burst out yelling: "WHAT??"

Fortunately, the Dean repeated what he said so that Adonis was not too out of the loop. "That's right, you heard me." The Dean said. "Your Head boy status is therefore suspended for three weeks as a penalty for going off the school campus for non-school related things on school days. Frankly, you disappoint me, Axel. The reason why I granted you the Head boy position was that it would shape you to be a fine leader, not abuse the privigles given to you. Perhaps this shall teach you a lesson on misusing your position in this school."

"I wasn't abusing my status!" Axel yelled, "I was only using it to protect a student!"

The yelling had no effect on the Dean. His response was this: "Granted, the heart was in the right place. But if you truly thought there was something going on, you should had alerted teachers and myself to the situation so that we could had done something about it, instead of going off on your own. For instance, what if Brian had been a much bigger person than you, and could had overpowered you despite your so-called status, and abused you as you allegedly say he did to young Adonis here?"

Axel quieted down, then, although he was still growling angrily, unable to believe his ears. Adonis was just merely staring at the Dean with big wide eyes, horrified that Axel had lost such a respectable title over something he had done.

Dean then spoke to Johan, who had been fidgeting and trying to keep from saying anything, "And as for you... we'll have to seize control of your car, at least until you graduate from here in a few months."

Johan gaped at the dean. "What? You cannot do that! It's MY car..."

Dean sighed. "I wish I didn't have to do this, but I cannot have older students aiding younger students in getting out of school, to play hooky or otherwise. It would only lead to trouble. When you are much more older you shall understand where I am coming from. Considering that you admitted that you helped Axel get out of here using your car, I'm doing this to the best of my ability as I see fit."

Johan glared. "Bloody hell, that's SO unfair."

Dean then looked at Adonis. Adonis just stared at the dean rather forlornly, not really dreading what the Dean had in mind for him. After all, he was a lousy git got his friends into trouble. Therefore, he deserved what was coming to him.

To his surprise, all he got was that he was to be confined to his room and the hospital's office for a few days while they checked the allegation that Brian had done something to him.

With that, the unhappy boys were then sent out of his office and then accompanied by teachers and the school staff back to their own bedrooms.
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Once the teacher escorts left them alone in their bedroom, Axel burst out yelling: "All of the nerve! I cannot believe the dean is actually doing this! Punishing us instead of Brian! Moreover, I can't believe he took away my status of being head boy? I worked so hard to get that..."

Axel stomped over to his bed, and then sat on it, fuming angrily.

"I'm sure that when Brian arrives, they're going to punish him too." Adonis said, only listening to half of what Axel was saying. He walked over to his bed, and somewhat just let himself fall into bed face first. He then turned his head so that his head was resting on the pillow. He then just laid there, not saying anything.

Axel quieted down when he noticed this, and a sad, sick feeling grew in him. He got up, and then went to sit on Adonis's bed.
Adonis looked up at Axel's solemn face.

Axel finally spoke. "Adonis, I'm sorry. I should not be angry at a time like this... but I am. I just can't believe Brian would actually have the nerve to do that to you..."

Adonis could not hold it in any more... tears started streaming down his cheeks, and he found himself being pulled into a comforting embrace. He then cried harder, rubbing his wet eyes against Axel's shoulders.

"I won't let Brian get away with what he did to you..." Axel growled, holding Adonis tighter in his arms. "But I want to know something..."

Adonis looked up, their eyes meeting. "What is it?" "I "It doesn't seem like you were forced to come with him into his car and go to that club... I was wondering why you went with him..en aen after I warned you about him."

Adonis looked down, feeling guilty even more. "To be honest... I did not really believe that a boy nearly the same age as me could really be a rapist... especially one who was so nice to me. I was just so bored with no classes and nothing to do. So when he said that he would take me somewhere fun, I could not just resist."

Axel's serious expression softened, to a more sorrowful expression. "You thought he wouldn't do that just because he was about the same age as us? I hate to break it to you kid, but as you just found out, people of all ages have a capacity for evil, foul deeds. Anybody have the ability to be cruel, no matter how old they are. Why did you have to be so trusting? Why?"

Adonis bit his lips, fighting back more tears. "I'm sorry I didn't really believe you about Brian..."

Axel ran his fingers though Adonis's red hair, sighing. "It's okay... it's not your fault. Listen, I want you to know that I'll be there for you, no matter what..."

"I don't think you'd feel the same way after you knew what actually went on with me..." Adonis worried aloud, without realizing it.

"What?" Axel said, slightly confused. "What went on with you?"

Adonis's eyes widened, when he realized that he had thought aloud. "Oh, I said that out loud, didn't I?"

Axel nodded, without saying anything.

"I guess I should tell you something then... it's so confusing, and it hurts... but I suppose you should know anyway... you're such a nice guy after all... you deserve to know..."

"Know what?" Axel could not help but wonder, what it was that was bugging Adonis so much.

"That I, uh... that... I..." Adonis stammered, unable to say the words that kept on repeating all over again right now inside his head. "I...I... Oh, I can't say it!"
Adonis broke down, crying. "I don't think you'd probably understand anyway... I mean, I don't even understand it myself!"

Axel forced a smile to appear on his face. "It's alright... why don't you rest now, and maybe when you wake up you'll feel a little better?"

"will you hold me, until I sleep at least?" Adonis wiped his eyes, attempting to dry his eyes.

"Sure... I'm sorry I wasn't able to get there in time to stop what happened to you. I'm really sorry, honestly.." Axel replied, as he pulled the redheaded boy into a tight embrace.

They cuddled like that on the soft bed for a long while, without saying any more words afterwards.

As Adonis drifted off to sleep, the one thought in his head was this:

// I really wanted to tell you... in hopes that you would understand and help me deal with it. "A part of me enjoyed being violated... in fact I seemed to enjoy everything expect for the fact that it was being done by somebody who I didn't like nearly very much as I did you, Axel. I hate the fact that it was done by somebody who wasn't you... that's why it hurts so much... my body betrayed me..." that was what I wanted to say... so that I could repent...for the part of me that was so unfaithful... I really wanted to say it, bit I could not just say the words... why does it all hurt so much? //
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woo. Short chapter, but at least it will get updated, right?

I think the chapters will be more shorter from now on, to update this story more often... due to the fact that my muses seems to be taking a lot of vacations, leaving me alone. :( And not to mention life being an asshole.