All Over Again

So When I started writing this I had a beginning and an end.Well i do have the beginning and the end. It's The middle, it is sort of lost so all I ask is for you to bear with me in the end you'll win even more. I think.

Enjoy


Friday 02:00 am


Ellie was shivering uncontrollably as she wiped her forehead and realized she was sweating. “The fuck,” she mumbled as she felt nauseous. She felt her stomach drop and tighten.

“MEL,” she shouted, Mel snapped her eyes open and threw the sheets off her as she stumbled through her open door and into Ellie's room.

“Ellie?,” Mel turned on the the light as she move the sheets down and helped Ellie sit up just as Ellie felt her stomach churn and felt her throat tighten,she gasped as she knew, she felt Mel's hands around her waist and when she was in a sitting position she couldn't helped it and unleashed a stream of vomit onto Mel and the bed.

Ellie started to cry as she felt humiliated. She kept her eyes close as she felt better but at the same time she was extremely embarrassed.

“It's ok, it's ok,” Mel consoled her, the last thing on her mind was the fluids on her shirt, she was more concerned about Ellie's well being. She threw the sheets on the floor and picked up Ellie and carried her into the bathroom.

Mel sat her down on the toilet as Ellie sniffled as she looked down to see her pants wet, “ah great I thought I had my bladder in control.” The humiliation only increased as Ellie felt destroyed. She felt helpless and a burden.

“Hey,” Mel cupped Ellie's face and brought her face close to hers. “It's ok,” Mel place her lips softly on Ellie's, “I'll draw you a bath as I change the sheets ok.”

Ellie sniffle as she nodded. Mel turned on the water to hot and left the room and stripped the mattress naked and quickly took all the sheets to the garage where she started the washer machine and loaded them in. She ran back to the bathroom and turn on the cold water and felt it with her hand. As she finally turned off the water and turned back to see a defeated Ellie, her shoulders were dropping down her head was down and her hair was covering her face.

“Babe?” Mel spoke softly as she kneel in front of her. Mel took Ellie's hand in her as she notice Ellie's eyes were blood shot red. “I'm sorry your shirt,” Ellie mumbled as she looked up.

Mel sighed as she started to unbuttoned Ellie's night shirt, Mel swallowed hard it had been a while since had seen Ellie naked, she felt weird as she tried to look away as Ellie move her hand out of the sleeves.

Mel helped her out of her bottoms and gently sat her in the tub.

Ellie for some reason did not mind being naked in front of Mel, she could feel Mel's discomfort, Mel was trying to be as courteous as possible which felt strange to Ellie, if they were married then they shouldn't be shy of each other, which once again made Ellie think of reasons why they did not sleep in the same bed.

“ok imma take the clothes to the garage be right back,” Mel scooped up Ellie's clothes and ran again she sprinted down the hallway then did a sharp turn onto the dinning room straight into the kitchen where the garage was connected, and from there she walked inside the garage she took her shirt off an threw the clothes in an empty basket as she ran topless back into her room and found another shirt. She ran back into the bathroom and Ellie had not moved.

"oh gee" Mel mumbled as she kneel by the tub as she took a deep breath, she couldn't help it but she stared. She was in awe at the milky white skin, she notice the scar from where the spleen was taken out. Mel had the urge to touch it but instead Mel shook her head as she dipped her hand in the water and ran her fingers down Ellie's back.

Silently Mel washed Ellie as she scrubbed her gently with a loofah and rinsed her off. Mel left Ellie wrapped in a towel in the wheelchair as she looked for clothes and clean sheets for the bed.

Mel cussed as she smacked her elbow in the closet as she was walking out with clean sheets, she quickly made the bed.

Mel then found another shirt for Ellie and some underwear.

Ellie raised her hands as Mel helped her dress, once dressed Mel carried Ellie onto the bed and left her there sitting her back against the headboard once she saw Ellie was steady in bed. Mel ran towards the kitchen she ended up making the turn too late and smacked her whole shoulder/chest on the wall that divided the rooms, she hissed as she stood there waiting for the pain to pass. She leaned against the wall as she clenched and unclenched her fist. She walked into the kitchen and found Ellie's medication and found some ibuprofen for the pain and fever.

Mel got a glass and filled it with water as she walked back as fast as she could.

“here,” Mel handed her the glass of water and two pills. Ellie just down them down and handed the cup back.

Mel placed the cup on the nightstand and helped Ellie get under the sheets. Mel sighed as she saw Ellie shut her eyes and sucked on her lower lip.

Ellie closed her eyes and cried silently as she heard Mel move about the room, she felt Mel leave the room and then she notice the lights went out. Ellie let a sob out as she then felt the bed shift and felt Mel wrapped her arms around her. She relaxed into the embraced as she felt Mel's breath on the back of her neck. Mel took a deep breath and closed her eyes as she pressed herself into Ellie, Ellie calmed down and eventually fell asleep.

Ellie woke up alone as she notice it was past nine in the morning, she looked around the room she notice Angie setting up some mat on the floor.

“Morning sleeping beauty,” Angie greeted as she place a hand on Ellie's forehead.

“Mel told me you had a fever last night,” Ellie looked away, "it's common to get fever as your body is re adjusting.

Ellie was waiting to hear why it was normal for her to throw up but Angie said nothing.

“Where's Mel?” Ellie looked around, “she went to her Friday meeting,” Angie answered as she helped Ellie sit up and placed her on her chair.

The morning ritual went the same, Angie helped Ellie with her bathroom rituals and helped her change into comfortable clothes. Ellie ate breakfast that Mel left for her, then soon the physio started.

“can I ask ya something?” Angie asked as she helped Ellie sit on the mat she had on the floor.

“sure,” Ellie groaned as she felt her lower back pop.

“Your mom and Mel what's the history there?” Ellie laid down on her back and slowly lifted her leg straight up. She groaned as she felt her leg twenty pounds heavier.

“In reality I don't know, I mean my mother has some homophobia going on but the reason she hates Mel with a passion I don't know or better yet I don't remember.”

“Say no more, “ Angie held Ellie's leg as Ellie tried to push them down as Angie held them up.
“when I find out I'll let ya know,” Ellie groaned as Angie lower her leg and moved onto the next one.

Mel arrived home a little after noon. She walked in through the front door and was surprised to see James sitting on the couch and Ellie was facing him, she was chuckling.

James looked up to greet Mel with a nod.

“James what a surprise,” Mel said as she extended her hand to shake his. He reciprocated the shake as he stood up to greet her.

“Maggie said something about a broken heater and Lucas won't be back till Monday.” James sat down again as Ellie smiled at him and reached for his hand.

“Yeah I glanced at it, but my specialty is computers not heaters.” Mel scratched the back of her head as she stood in the middle of her own living room.

“Well were is this damned contraption.” James stood up as he picked up his box of tools that was next to the couch.

Mel led him to the base of heater which was in the hallway right before the bathroom.

“All right, give me a few minutes,” James silently kneel down and remove the base plate. Mel left him alone as she made it back to the living room where Ellie was skimming through her diary.

Mel looked around as she decide to just let Ellie be and headed to the kitchen.

December 12 1998

I hoped off the train as I looked around and I spotted Lucas, his hair was longer it covered his eyes.

“Eww you look emo,” I commented as I jumped onto him.

“Yeah yeah what ever,” he spun me around as he then set me down.

“How was finals?” he asked as we walked to his truck. It was strange both he and I had changed drastically, he actually had built more muscle and of course his hair, yet he seemed happier and I on the other hand had let my hair grow out even more. Also the fact that I had broke up with Justin was a major change in my life. A subject that I wanted to avoid, Lucas did not know how it had ended.

“Just dandy,” I answered to his inquiry about finals, I threw my bag onto the back of the truck. We rode in silence, as the things between us was still tense. Ever since he came out to mom and dad, I had the urge to ask him a million things but because of mom I left town earlier to go live in the dorms. So our quality time was cut short.

When mom had slapped me I had no idea it was because she was having a nervous breakdown because of Lucas but when I tried to make amends she just kept pushing me away. I still could not bring myself to have that 'talk' with Lucas. On how mom treated me on how she lost it.

“Why so quiet?” Lucas finally asked as we were stopped at a red light.

“I don't know just a lot on my mind.”

“Is it me?” Lucas asked as he smiled sadly.

“No, no just I don't know Mom and Justin and you and this girl I met at school.” Lucas eyes widened as he started ahead.

Lucas nodded as we started to move again. When we reached his apartment I notice my dad's truck in the drive way.

“Is mom?” I asked hurriedly looking around, “Shit I don't know.” Lucas replied looking around worriedly.

We both exited the truck cautiously as I saw my dad walk up to us, he bear hugged me and then he move on to hug Lucas.

He was close to tears as I hugged him again...

Ellie looked up to see James walked back, “Melissa?” he looked around as Ellie pointed to the kitchen but Mel had heard him as she hurriedly walked out.

“Yeah?” she looked at him as James pulled out a small thin cable. “The wire controlling the heater and the thermostat it's melted down and it broke.” James glance in Ellie's direction as Ellie was hearing the situation of their heater.

“Oh is it just that or anythings else?” Mel asked as she extended her hand to grab the wire.

“No this is it, I can go buy a replacement and install it.” James looked to the side, he was trying to hide the eagerness to do this. Ever since he retired most of his time was just home sitting down and listening to Maggie.

He didn't hate Maggie but he certainly didn't loved her anymore, but he believed deeply in his morals and he was going to die a faithful man to the one woman he vowed to spend the rest of his life with.

Doing this little project was a distraction.

Mel knew it more than well, even thought they rarely talked she understood him well.

“Sure, you can install it tomorrow if you want,” James nodded as he took the wire from her hands. He leaned in and whispered. “Thank you,”

James turned and walked back to the couch where he sat next to Ellie, Ellie placed her book by the coffee table and extended her arms as James leaned in to hug her.

“I'll see you tomorrow sweetie,” Ellie nodded as James took his leave.

Mel sat down next to Ellie as she notice, the strength ball that Ellie was using to increase her grip. Mel played with it as Ellie sat there pondering and soon she realized she was making faces, she was sucking on her lower lip and she was closing one eye and raising an eyebrow.

“what is it this time?” Mel inquired as she threw the ball up in the air and caught it.

“well,” Ellie chuckled trying to hide her nervousness. “I've been reading so far it just normal college life but I'm curious about this Justin.”

Mel dropped the ball, “This Justin?” Mel raised an eyebrow.

“Yes, this Justin guy, fellow who ever the fuck he was, I have no memory of him nothing, nada todo se fue-,” Ellie stopped talking abruptly, she stared at Mel as she realized she wasn't speaking in English soon she leaned in as she whispered “I know Spanish?”


Mel could not help but smiled as she responded, “Si but you hate speaking it cuz you have a heavy accent and in reality you and I could never carry a conversation out.”

“Me the heavy accent what about you, your accent is not normal when one hears Spanish the majority think Mexico not Spain.” Ellie stopped talking as she closed her eyes, it was like a dam broke and memories were pouring in. At least some very detailed conversations she and Mel had had.

Ellie placed her hands on each side of her face, Mel quickly stood up and replaced Ellie's hand with her own and started to massage Ellie's temples.

“Relax,” Mel murmured as she kept rubbing both thumbs in a clockwise motion with even pressure on both sides.

“Talk about tripping out, it was just like a multiple doze of deja vu but to the tenth power,” Ellie opened her eyes, “eww I'm making math jokes just like you used to do.” Ellie frowned as she notice Mel trying to stay composed and not laugh.

Ellie moved Mel's hands away and smacked her on the arm.

“I'm sorry but the things you're remembering are some of the stupidest shit you and I would argue about in school.”

Ellie smiled, 'At least I'm remembering' she thought. Suddenly Ellie was brought out of her thoughts as
Mel sighed as she rubbed her eyes, “I can't take this shit anymore, I quit.”

Ellie alarmed was about to ask what when Mel all of sudden was pulling on her eyelid.

Mel then produced a contact and the second one followed suits as well and she had the pair in her palm.

Mel blinked a couple of times glad to be free from the pesky little things.

“I ordered a replacement set of the glasses. I lost them when you know I went to the hospital.” Mel explained as she rubbed her eyes. She hated contacts but with out them she was screwed when it came to reading.

Ellie started blankly at Mel's face as she picture her with a set of frames on her face, but it didn't click in her head. The image was off.

“You didn't wear glasses in school did ya?” Ellie asked as she tried to remember how she would imagine Mel back in the day.

“Rarely sometimes I would just tough it out, of course the main reason was I didn't have money for a cheap pair.” Mel responded as she she recalled how broke and blind she was in college.

Ellie nodded as she remembered vividly no help from her diary exactly the things she and Mel did their first year when they met each other.


(A/N this is the third time i re-read this its 2:27am and I'm sleepy and i'm pretty sure I missed something but I can't re-read anymore. I just can't no mo)