Crimson Dreams

11

He hands grabbed my shoulders as he pushed me roughly against the wall. He had caught me off guard and now my body was pinned under his. I wiggled around with all my strength as I brought my knees up. They didn't get far before he pressed his legs against my knees and pushed until my knees were push aside. I tried a different strategy by wrapping my legs around his waist and squeezing with all I had. I felt the little twitch in his body as his hips groaned in protest.

"I smell you both here. Is this what you ran away from me to do?" His voice was a hiss laced with pure hatred.

I stopped straining against him as I tried to figure out what he was talking about. He took advantage of my released hold and thrust himself against me firmly. I gasped at the feeling and then remembered what I had done in here last night with Polo. I had kissed him and then ran into the arms of another man to have him finish what Hayden had started last night. I could understand him being mad at me for that.

"I didn't fuck him."

"I smell the release of both of you." His grip never let up. "Was it a lie when you told me that you couldn't be intimate with anyone because of what some demon had done to you?" His voice was a growl against my cheek.

His words cut through me and tore my shields free. I felt my powers battling to come to the surface and I reached down with that metaphysical hand to grab where my powers met and flung both to the surface. With a fierce growl I pushed with everything I had and Hayden went sprawling to the floor a few feet from me. I looked at my hands to see the blue-green marbled color of my demons skin. Only high blood born demons changed physically when their demons took hold. My skin looked as if someone had melted jade and sapphires down and then marbled my body with a fine tipped paint brush.

Hayden looked up at me with a look of pure shock on his face. I didn't need to look in a mirror to know my eyes were the color of blood red rubies. My demon appearance was nothing new to me but the vampire fangs and aura surrounding me while I was a demon was new to me. Alex had told me before that I should be able to call on the power of both. He tried to make me do it so many times but I could never do it. I always only brought one or the other to the surface.

I could taste the fear on Hayden like candy trapped in the back of my throat. His body hummed from being so tense but to his credit he didn't try to run from me. I took three strides until I was standing beside Hayden and looking down at him. I was still amazed that I had done in a matter of seconds what Alex had spent years trying to teach me. Guess he never pulled the right card.

"Nothing I told you last night was a lie. I was scared from how I felt about you so I ran to the first person I could get a hold of. I didn't fuck him. When it came down to it I couldn't. He stayed within the no intercourse boundaries and when I thought I was ready I let him use his fingers on me but I stopped him and told him I couldn't do it."

"I believe you."

I took a deep breath tried pulling my shields back up. They felt weak as they tried to cover me but then gave up. I feel to my knees beside Hayden shaking my head. His hand came towards me but stopped before he finished the move. Instead his hand hung suspended above my shoulder. I couldn't pull my shields back into to place. I felt my vampire retreat into that dark metaphysical cave. I had more control over my vampire than I did the demon. Nathan hadn't taught me how to control only how to fight with it. I didn't want to be a demon did I? No. I hadn't chosen this.

I lay down on the floor and curled into a ball as I started crying. I was going to be stuck a demon for the rest of my life and all because Nathan was more worried about fucking me than controlling my demon. This time Hayden's hand came to rest softly on my shoulder and when I didn't snap at him he pulled me into his arms. I wrapped myself around him and tried to cower down into his vampire aura. The sensation was smooth and I closed my eyes.

"I am so sorry Hayden. I didn't know I could do this and now I can't take it back." I sniffled. "I am so sorry I ran from how I felt about you when I had the chance and I am so sorry for attacking you just now."

"You are going to be okay. Just calm down. And it was my own fault you attacked me. When I smelled what you had done with him it drove my jealousy into over drive and I lashed out at you."

His power flexed around me as he started rocking me back and forth while his hands ran softly through my hair. The last thing I remember was him humming softly against my ear and then blackness over took me and there was nothing else.