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Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
11
Views:
1,677
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1
Recommended:
0
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Chapter 11
Sorry for the long wait. next chapter. thanks for the kind reviews.
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When the battle was over I wiped the blood off my swords and James shot me a look that I didn’t quite understand.I climb back on Havas. I do not look at them, their blood stained faces and their wounds.
“I’m going to clean up” I state. “Meet me back at headquarters in an hour”
I do not wait for their answer, I ride away but when I close my eyes I am not alone, Rain is there and so are those who I had just killed with so much pleasure all looking at me with accusing eyes.
I hand Havas over to some one to feed him and give him water. I walk alone to the waterfall, so peaceful and just the place for me. I remove my weaponry apart from those beneath my skin, swords I would never give up. I strip down and wade into the water before swimming to the waterfall. I close my eyes and let Mother Nature strip the blood off my skin. I close my senses down, I don’t want to think, I don’t want to feel. All I want is to exist in peace for a few moments. No visions of dead loved ones or enemies.
I let myself become numb to every thing, a complete venerable state of meditation. I did not open until I was roughly shaken to awareness and my eyes opened to meet James deep blue eyes. His hand come to my face and smoothed it softly.
“I’m loosing you all over again” He whispered. I couldn’t deny that I felt that familiar feeling of depression and I welcomed it. Despite the fact I was completely naked apart from the thin undershirt and pants her pulled her to him and kissed me hard. I didn’t react. “Fight it” he growled
His anger at me actually startled me, he pushed me up against the rock I had been sat on and forced me to look into his eyes.
“Fight it”
He pulled me to the shallows and pushed me down by now my heart was racing.
“You always told us to be strong, always inspiring up and you’re giving up. Giving up on yourself and giving up on us.” I blinked at his ferocity as he checked me for wounds. “You let your emotions tear you up and spit you out I thought you were stronger than this damn it. Fight it! Stop being so bloody weak!”
Some thing inside me snapped and I slapped him. I would have done it again but he blocked. I throw myself at him balling up my hurt and rage and anger, taking it out on him while he defended himself before pinning me to the ground both of us breathing hard.
This time when he kisses me it’s still hard almost bruising. I reply eagerly, even as tears escape my eyes rolling down my cheeks and into the water we lay in.
He picked me up and he must have put me to sleep for the next thing I know is my hair is dry and I am lying in my bed. James is asleep in a chair at my side his hand still gripping mine. I squeezed it softly before bringing it to my lips and kissing it. If it wasn’t for James knowledge of me the depression I was feeling would have consumed me, even now I felt it lurking there but his believe and love for me was holding it back. I didn’t want to hurt him again.
His hand moved and I realise he’s awake, gently I pull him to me and he lies beside me, looking down on me and smoothing my hair.
“Don’t lock yourself away from me like that, don’t push me away” it was those words that hit me hardest. I ran my fingers through his dirty blonde hair and the smile that sprang to his lips was like none I had ever seen from him. “Now where were we?”
His lips found mine in a gentle kiss; though looking back I’m sure it was only meant to be a kiss I don’t regret what happened next.
The kiss intensified fed by the tension that had mounted between us all those weeks ago. His lips left a trail of hot kisses over my neck and jaw line as I kicked the blankets off my body.
His hands trailed down my body to the bottom of my night gown before pulling over my head completely. I pulled his shirt off and he stood unbuckling his belt and dropping his trousers before climbing on top of me resuming our kisses. His hand trailed my body learning its ways.
His hands were clumsy and inexperienced but they were his and at that moment that was all I cared about. He reached between my legs and tentatively touched me there. He soon discovered what I liked and what I didn’t.
I yelped in pain when he finally thrust himself into me. The pain was brief and he kissed me apologetically before slowly starting to move. He kissed and nibbled my neck and I dragged my nails down his back.
I came hard and he followed moments after his teeth digging deep into my shoulder. We stayed like that, just holding each other breathing for several long minutes before James rolled off me, He pulled the blankets over us and pulled me close to him and there we slept.
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When the battle was over I wiped the blood off my swords and James shot me a look that I didn’t quite understand.I climb back on Havas. I do not look at them, their blood stained faces and their wounds.
“I’m going to clean up” I state. “Meet me back at headquarters in an hour”
I do not wait for their answer, I ride away but when I close my eyes I am not alone, Rain is there and so are those who I had just killed with so much pleasure all looking at me with accusing eyes.
I hand Havas over to some one to feed him and give him water. I walk alone to the waterfall, so peaceful and just the place for me. I remove my weaponry apart from those beneath my skin, swords I would never give up. I strip down and wade into the water before swimming to the waterfall. I close my eyes and let Mother Nature strip the blood off my skin. I close my senses down, I don’t want to think, I don’t want to feel. All I want is to exist in peace for a few moments. No visions of dead loved ones or enemies.
I let myself become numb to every thing, a complete venerable state of meditation. I did not open until I was roughly shaken to awareness and my eyes opened to meet James deep blue eyes. His hand come to my face and smoothed it softly.
“I’m loosing you all over again” He whispered. I couldn’t deny that I felt that familiar feeling of depression and I welcomed it. Despite the fact I was completely naked apart from the thin undershirt and pants her pulled her to him and kissed me hard. I didn’t react. “Fight it” he growled
His anger at me actually startled me, he pushed me up against the rock I had been sat on and forced me to look into his eyes.
“Fight it”
He pulled me to the shallows and pushed me down by now my heart was racing.
“You always told us to be strong, always inspiring up and you’re giving up. Giving up on yourself and giving up on us.” I blinked at his ferocity as he checked me for wounds. “You let your emotions tear you up and spit you out I thought you were stronger than this damn it. Fight it! Stop being so bloody weak!”
Some thing inside me snapped and I slapped him. I would have done it again but he blocked. I throw myself at him balling up my hurt and rage and anger, taking it out on him while he defended himself before pinning me to the ground both of us breathing hard.
This time when he kisses me it’s still hard almost bruising. I reply eagerly, even as tears escape my eyes rolling down my cheeks and into the water we lay in.
He picked me up and he must have put me to sleep for the next thing I know is my hair is dry and I am lying in my bed. James is asleep in a chair at my side his hand still gripping mine. I squeezed it softly before bringing it to my lips and kissing it. If it wasn’t for James knowledge of me the depression I was feeling would have consumed me, even now I felt it lurking there but his believe and love for me was holding it back. I didn’t want to hurt him again.
His hand moved and I realise he’s awake, gently I pull him to me and he lies beside me, looking down on me and smoothing my hair.
“Don’t lock yourself away from me like that, don’t push me away” it was those words that hit me hardest. I ran my fingers through his dirty blonde hair and the smile that sprang to his lips was like none I had ever seen from him. “Now where were we?”
His lips found mine in a gentle kiss; though looking back I’m sure it was only meant to be a kiss I don’t regret what happened next.
The kiss intensified fed by the tension that had mounted between us all those weeks ago. His lips left a trail of hot kisses over my neck and jaw line as I kicked the blankets off my body.
His hands trailed down my body to the bottom of my night gown before pulling over my head completely. I pulled his shirt off and he stood unbuckling his belt and dropping his trousers before climbing on top of me resuming our kisses. His hand trailed my body learning its ways.
His hands were clumsy and inexperienced but they were his and at that moment that was all I cared about. He reached between my legs and tentatively touched me there. He soon discovered what I liked and what I didn’t.
I yelped in pain when he finally thrust himself into me. The pain was brief and he kissed me apologetically before slowly starting to move. He kissed and nibbled my neck and I dragged my nails down his back.
I came hard and he followed moments after his teeth digging deep into my shoulder. We stayed like that, just holding each other breathing for several long minutes before James rolled off me, He pulled the blankets over us and pulled me close to him and there we slept.