Love at your service

When Jess woke up the next morning she felt a wonderful warmth surrounding her and when she opened her eyes she was more than delighted with the view next to her. Ben was sprawled over her bed with his left arm and left leg lying on top of her, covering her breasts and one leg. God, she could get used to this, oh yes. She took the time to study his face now that it was devoid of all of the tension, stress and anger that she had seen on his face the past day. He looked stunning, his face was turned towards her and his lips were curved in a small smile as if he was thinking or maybe dreaming of something nice... His black hair was full and a bit long in his neck and Jess could not resist the temptation to touch him and she slid her fingers through his soft locks. Uhmmm, dumb idea, touching him only made her want to touch him more, kiss him on those strong full lips that always felt so soft when they kissed. And she would love to see his eyes now, his gorgeous blue eyes that ranged in color from icy blue to the dark blue that was the sky before a storm and that appeared in Ben’s eyes when his look was full of passion! Just last night when he had been inside of her, he had looked at her with those stormy eyes and she had felt as if her heart was about to burst with happiness and… love? No, she didn’t want to examine her feelings for Ben, she wanted to feel them, embrace them, enjoy them. He was more than worth the risk of breaking her heart again, he definitely was.

Just when she was about to touch his face with her fingers, she felt her stomach churning. Nauseous. Again. Jess stilled her fingers and instead moved her hand to cover her soft belly. No, it wasn’t possible, no way. No way could she be pregnant. When the nausea reached its full extent she quickly scrambled off the bed and made a quick dash to her bathroom, where she was just in time to empty her stomach. When Jess was finally sure that the throwing up had passed and felt secure enough to stand up, she heard Ben stirring and moving around on her bed. No doubt he would be looking for her soon enough. Before she went to return to the bedroom, she quickly did the maths in her head. Last period? Holy shit, it must have been right before her visit to Vegas. A grone left her lips as the immensity of her situation started to dawn on her. The night with Ben had been the only sexual encounter she had had after that. But they had used protection! So much for safe sex with condoms. She must be that one in a millon exception to the rule! Finally when things started to look up for her in her life, this had to happen. She had a dream job, wonderful new friends, the hottest lover she had ever had in her life and now she might be pregnant with his child.

Jess swallowed hard as she fought images of a rosy cheeked baby out of her head. Rosy cheeks, dark curls and endless blue eyes, being held by the strong arms of a loving father…. Damn it, Jess, get a grip. There is no way Ben is going to be happy if you turn out ot be carrying his child. He practically told her last night that all he was interested in was a good shag, maybe on a regular basis. No strings attached. And especially none where diapers and baby formula were involved.

“Jess, honey, where are you?”.

O my, what to do now? Jess quickly decided that she couldn’t tell Ben about her fears. Definitely not before she was a hundred percent sure, anyway. So she took a quick look in the mirror, grabbed her toothbrush and toothpaste to get rid of the foul taste in her mouth and called out to the bedroom.

“I will be right out, babe, just brushing my teeth. Did you sleep well?”

Before she could prepare herself, she felt Ben come up behind her. He looked over her shoulder and found her eyes in the mirror.

“I slept like a baby, honey, and, uhh, I missed you when I woke up”.

He smiled and wrapped his arms around her from behind. Unknowingly covering their possible child with both of his strong hands. Jess felt her breath hitch and looked down at his hands cradling her. God, if only he knew. She was sure he wouldn’t be standing here looking at her all adorable and sleep tousled. He would be furious, thinking he was being screwed around with once again. Jess closed her eyes so she would not have to see his smiling eyes and selfishly leaned back into him to savour this precious moment. It might be all she would be left with. ….

Ben quickly turned her around in his arms and kissed her thoroughly, before walking back into her bedroom, leaving her to finish brushing her teeth.

“Allright woman, let’s go and get us something to eat, I am starving!”

Taking deep breaths, Jess did her best to prevent the nausea from rearing its ugly head again and luckily she was succesfull. This time.