Diary of a Gay (NOT!... well, maybe) Boy
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Original - Misc › Humour
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
13
Views:
2,822
Reviews:
28
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0
Currently Reading:
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Chapter 11
September 5, my room, 10pm
You know, I just realized that, while David DID admit he liked me, he didn’t tell me why he was ignoring me all this time after the kissing we had. He didn’t really explain anything really.
What if he just told me he liked me just to get me off his back?!?!
No, that’s not true. We cuddled. We made out again. I saw the fear in his eyes after he told me he liked me. You can’t fake that.
Plus, he’s on the basketball team! Basketball players can’t act. If they could, THEY WOULDN’T BE BASKETBALL PLAYERS. Yea, I actually found out he was on the basketball team. He told me that last night when we were chatting. He said he’s like the MVP or something (I was only half paying attention because I was mainly focusing on his hotness and his whole being in my arms thing. It was exciting.) We talked a lot, but not about him ignoring me or even what about me he finds attractive. In fact, we didn’t really talk about us, like, as a couple.
I wonder if he’s even serious about us. Or if he’s just stringing me along as some sort of tawdry sex toy he can kiss and hump whenever he wants. Or cuddle with me. Well, ok, the cuddling isn’t harming anyone, least of all me. In fact, it’s actually pretty awesome.
But the kissing? And humping? Yea, that’s definitely harming someone. Mainly me, and mainly just emotionally. He can’t just toy with my emotions like that, even though he already admitted he liked me. And ok, he’s not toying with my emotions now (at least, I hope not), but something has to be said for the way he treated me before we got together as a couple (if we hopefully are one).
This is so confusing, why can’t he just SAY everything out in the open when we had the time to do so earlier tonight? I mean, if he had enough courage to tell me he liked me, surely it can’t have taken much more to admit what was going through his mind during the times we kissed and when he ignored me?!
I know I won’t be able to sleep, but I need to get some sort of beauty sleep so David doesn’t have to be seen with an ugly boyfriend (well, uglier than I already am). I still can’t imagine what he even sees in me, which may be why I’m so paranoid about everything happening in our relationship. He can’t possibly like kissing me (well, ok, he might), but I’m surprised a popular boy like him would even want to be associated with a freak like me (a gay one, no less!), much less boyfriend!
I guess that’s all I really have to write. I mean, what else is there to say if he’s not even talking to me about how he REALLY feels about me.
September 6, religion, 8am
Ok, he’s improving with this whole relationship thing. He said hi to me this morning, but no kiss. Well, obviously, he wouldn’t kiss me. I mean, then everyone would know we’re gay and the beatings will commence. We go to a Catholic school, for heaven’s sake! The principal SAYS we tolerate everyone, regardless of sex, race, religion, or orientation, but you know he’s lying. If there were beatings going on here to the gays of the school, they’d so look the other way.
Anyway, we’re still a step forward from the blatant ignoring! He said hi to me and we chatted a bit before class. He’s a really funny guy and his smile is amazing. I love watching and hearing him laugh. He has these great dimples that give him this kind of impish grin. It’s so swoon-worthy, but I managed to not swoon in front of the rest of my classmates because of him. Because then, my secret would be out and you can read the beginning of this entry to remind yourself as to why that’s a bad idea.
And even though I didn’t think he would do anything besides casual talking with me, I caught him stealing glances at me. When he noticed me noticing him, he gave me a slight smile that probably only I could see. I smiled on the inside. It felt really good to have some sort of connection to someone, to be looked at lovingly by someone. Someone who you like as well, so it’s not like some kind of pervert or whatever. I felt the whole world brighten up just by his slight smile, the way his eyes darted over me every so often. I could tell he loved me a lot and it made me feel really special. You know, that I could mean a lot to someone.
High school’s shaping up to be pretty good. I got a boyfriend within the first week of school and I got my first kiss! This is SO exciting!!!
September 6, Latin, 9am
David’s not in this class, so therefore there is no reason for me to write in here now.
September 6, World History, 1pm
Me and David had fun in Phys Ed today. He was one of the captains and we played indoor hockey and he picked me to be on his team! It was exciting. And he actually said my name when I did something stupid, such as shoot the puck into our own goal. Not that that happened or anything. Well, not more than two times.
Anyway, after P.E., we walked over to this class together, talking the whole time about random things, like what kind of music we liked (we both love No Doubt! We so totally belong together! Though he doesn’t like Gwen’s solo stuff as much as her No Doubt stuff, but whatever. I can learn to accept our differences in musical tastes)
It is so much fun having a boyfriend!
September 6, my room, 4pm
David waited with me while I waited to be picked up by my dad. We had such a funny conversation about totally random things, like how Gwen Stefani is obsessed with her Harujuku girls and how she keeps referencing them and her clothing line over and over in her solo album. David says that’s what turned him off to her; she became all materialistic and betrayed her fellow No Doubt members by doing such a not-ska album. But I liked both her solo stuff and No Doubt stuff (the more later days though; I’m not a big original No Doubt fan.) We got into a very cool discussion about it. Then we talked about how like sometimes you brush your teeth and then you want to eat something, but you can’t because you just brushed your teeth. We expressed our mutual dislike on this particular issue.
But sadly, my dad came and, as I left, David subtly squeezed my hand as I left. I blushed slightly, but regained my composure before getting into the car. My dad asked who that was I was hanging out with and I told him it was David, who’s my history partner. And then he said something about how he was proud I was making friends quickly or some boring parental thing like that.
Anyway, ever since I’ve gotten home, I’ve been thinking about David constantly. Wondering if he’s thinking about me, wondering if he can’t do his homework because he’s thinking about me, wondering if he’s laughing about something I said earlier today and so many other things involving David.
I think I may go ahead and sign on.
There, now I’m on.
AND THERE’S DAVID!!! He just IM-ed me! My heart leapt inside me when I received that first IM from him.
DtothaAvid: Wassup, cutie?
Blake323: *blush* Not much, just sitting here thinking about you. I can’t even sit still and do my homework without thinking about you.
DtothaAvid: haha, well, I don’t want to get in the way of you doing your homework.
Blake323: It’s ok. I don’t mind. I like thinking about you.
DtothaAvid: Now it’s my turn to blush. Hehe
Blake323: Haha, well it’s true. I love thinking about you and picturing you in my mind. I especially like replaying our kisses in my head. They make me feel happy.
Blake323: And you do too.
DtothaAvid: Awww, that’s so sweet of you to say. I feel the same way. You’re a really good kisser.
OMG, did he really just say that? My first time kissing and he says I’m a good kisser!!! How exciting is that?!
Blake323: *blush* Thanks. And you are too. I’m glad I get to have your lips all to myself.
DtothaAvid: Whenever you want them, just let me know and I’ll be there.
Blake323: I want them right here, right now.
DtothaAvid: What about your homework?
Blake323: It can wait.
Blake323: Let’s meet at Huntley Meadows again in 10 minutes.
DtothaAvid: Alright, sure thing.
DtothaAvid signed off.
I signed off, put on my shoes, and yelled to my dad that I was gonna take a little walk and then ran out the door. I just couldn’t wait to get the park.
More later.
You know, I just realized that, while David DID admit he liked me, he didn’t tell me why he was ignoring me all this time after the kissing we had. He didn’t really explain anything really.
What if he just told me he liked me just to get me off his back?!?!
No, that’s not true. We cuddled. We made out again. I saw the fear in his eyes after he told me he liked me. You can’t fake that.
Plus, he’s on the basketball team! Basketball players can’t act. If they could, THEY WOULDN’T BE BASKETBALL PLAYERS. Yea, I actually found out he was on the basketball team. He told me that last night when we were chatting. He said he’s like the MVP or something (I was only half paying attention because I was mainly focusing on his hotness and his whole being in my arms thing. It was exciting.) We talked a lot, but not about him ignoring me or even what about me he finds attractive. In fact, we didn’t really talk about us, like, as a couple.
I wonder if he’s even serious about us. Or if he’s just stringing me along as some sort of tawdry sex toy he can kiss and hump whenever he wants. Or cuddle with me. Well, ok, the cuddling isn’t harming anyone, least of all me. In fact, it’s actually pretty awesome.
But the kissing? And humping? Yea, that’s definitely harming someone. Mainly me, and mainly just emotionally. He can’t just toy with my emotions like that, even though he already admitted he liked me. And ok, he’s not toying with my emotions now (at least, I hope not), but something has to be said for the way he treated me before we got together as a couple (if we hopefully are one).
This is so confusing, why can’t he just SAY everything out in the open when we had the time to do so earlier tonight? I mean, if he had enough courage to tell me he liked me, surely it can’t have taken much more to admit what was going through his mind during the times we kissed and when he ignored me?!
I know I won’t be able to sleep, but I need to get some sort of beauty sleep so David doesn’t have to be seen with an ugly boyfriend (well, uglier than I already am). I still can’t imagine what he even sees in me, which may be why I’m so paranoid about everything happening in our relationship. He can’t possibly like kissing me (well, ok, he might), but I’m surprised a popular boy like him would even want to be associated with a freak like me (a gay one, no less!), much less boyfriend!
I guess that’s all I really have to write. I mean, what else is there to say if he’s not even talking to me about how he REALLY feels about me.
September 6, religion, 8am
Ok, he’s improving with this whole relationship thing. He said hi to me this morning, but no kiss. Well, obviously, he wouldn’t kiss me. I mean, then everyone would know we’re gay and the beatings will commence. We go to a Catholic school, for heaven’s sake! The principal SAYS we tolerate everyone, regardless of sex, race, religion, or orientation, but you know he’s lying. If there were beatings going on here to the gays of the school, they’d so look the other way.
Anyway, we’re still a step forward from the blatant ignoring! He said hi to me and we chatted a bit before class. He’s a really funny guy and his smile is amazing. I love watching and hearing him laugh. He has these great dimples that give him this kind of impish grin. It’s so swoon-worthy, but I managed to not swoon in front of the rest of my classmates because of him. Because then, my secret would be out and you can read the beginning of this entry to remind yourself as to why that’s a bad idea.
And even though I didn’t think he would do anything besides casual talking with me, I caught him stealing glances at me. When he noticed me noticing him, he gave me a slight smile that probably only I could see. I smiled on the inside. It felt really good to have some sort of connection to someone, to be looked at lovingly by someone. Someone who you like as well, so it’s not like some kind of pervert or whatever. I felt the whole world brighten up just by his slight smile, the way his eyes darted over me every so often. I could tell he loved me a lot and it made me feel really special. You know, that I could mean a lot to someone.
High school’s shaping up to be pretty good. I got a boyfriend within the first week of school and I got my first kiss! This is SO exciting!!!
September 6, Latin, 9am
David’s not in this class, so therefore there is no reason for me to write in here now.
September 6, World History, 1pm
Me and David had fun in Phys Ed today. He was one of the captains and we played indoor hockey and he picked me to be on his team! It was exciting. And he actually said my name when I did something stupid, such as shoot the puck into our own goal. Not that that happened or anything. Well, not more than two times.
Anyway, after P.E., we walked over to this class together, talking the whole time about random things, like what kind of music we liked (we both love No Doubt! We so totally belong together! Though he doesn’t like Gwen’s solo stuff as much as her No Doubt stuff, but whatever. I can learn to accept our differences in musical tastes)
It is so much fun having a boyfriend!
September 6, my room, 4pm
David waited with me while I waited to be picked up by my dad. We had such a funny conversation about totally random things, like how Gwen Stefani is obsessed with her Harujuku girls and how she keeps referencing them and her clothing line over and over in her solo album. David says that’s what turned him off to her; she became all materialistic and betrayed her fellow No Doubt members by doing such a not-ska album. But I liked both her solo stuff and No Doubt stuff (the more later days though; I’m not a big original No Doubt fan.) We got into a very cool discussion about it. Then we talked about how like sometimes you brush your teeth and then you want to eat something, but you can’t because you just brushed your teeth. We expressed our mutual dislike on this particular issue.
But sadly, my dad came and, as I left, David subtly squeezed my hand as I left. I blushed slightly, but regained my composure before getting into the car. My dad asked who that was I was hanging out with and I told him it was David, who’s my history partner. And then he said something about how he was proud I was making friends quickly or some boring parental thing like that.
Anyway, ever since I’ve gotten home, I’ve been thinking about David constantly. Wondering if he’s thinking about me, wondering if he can’t do his homework because he’s thinking about me, wondering if he’s laughing about something I said earlier today and so many other things involving David.
I think I may go ahead and sign on.
There, now I’m on.
AND THERE’S DAVID!!! He just IM-ed me! My heart leapt inside me when I received that first IM from him.
DtothaAvid: Wassup, cutie?
Blake323: *blush* Not much, just sitting here thinking about you. I can’t even sit still and do my homework without thinking about you.
DtothaAvid: haha, well, I don’t want to get in the way of you doing your homework.
Blake323: It’s ok. I don’t mind. I like thinking about you.
DtothaAvid: Now it’s my turn to blush. Hehe
Blake323: Haha, well it’s true. I love thinking about you and picturing you in my mind. I especially like replaying our kisses in my head. They make me feel happy.
Blake323: And you do too.
DtothaAvid: Awww, that’s so sweet of you to say. I feel the same way. You’re a really good kisser.
OMG, did he really just say that? My first time kissing and he says I’m a good kisser!!! How exciting is that?!
Blake323: *blush* Thanks. And you are too. I’m glad I get to have your lips all to myself.
DtothaAvid: Whenever you want them, just let me know and I’ll be there.
Blake323: I want them right here, right now.
DtothaAvid: What about your homework?
Blake323: It can wait.
Blake323: Let’s meet at Huntley Meadows again in 10 minutes.
DtothaAvid: Alright, sure thing.
DtothaAvid signed off.
I signed off, put on my shoes, and yelled to my dad that I was gonna take a little walk and then ran out the door. I just couldn’t wait to get the park.
More later.