We Could Not Meet

AN: Sorry that it's taken me so long, guys. I don't have much to feed my muse, and I've been insanely busy with finals and moving back home. @_@ Ahhh, the joys of college/university. I hate to tell everyone, but June and July, I will be gone for a month, so there won't be any updates. I plan to bring the last bit with me so that I can write while I'm down there, but I will not have internet access, so you'll have to wait til I'm back. I'll try to get at least one more update before then. Some food for the muse would be lovely.

To my reviewers:

Jess: Here you go- an update. Glad you love it!
Berlin: Awwwwww, I feel loved! Hopefully there will be many more updates to come! Only if people feed my muse though. -.-
Kolgrim: Always glad to hear from you. I'm gonna miss Silent when it's done. You've done great with feeding him. Thanks. I know the work thing. I've gotta deal with that stuff too. T_T Yeah, Azrael just wants to help. There's only more problems to come. Though, eventually, he will get some rest.

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A few streets away from my lover’s house, I turned to a brick wall, punching it hard. Pain shot through my fist, but it quickly faded, not enough to assuage my guilt. I felt like such an idiot, how could I have been so stupid? I had been around long enough that I should have guessed they would go after Lucas.

I had to protect him, but how could I? Lucas had basically forbidden me from doing anything, and obviously I could not kill the boys, even though that was what my vampire side was demanding I do to protect the person I cared for most. Nothing mattered until the younger male was safe. I had to remind myself that this was bullying, he was not going to be killed through bullying, so I could not be as severe as I wanted. I still wanted to pay Charlie a visit, but I was afraid of what that would mean for Lucas, so I forced myself to go straight home.

It was nearly a week before I got to see Lucas again, but, it was finally Wednesday. I was sitting in my normal chair, waiting to see him come down. I was still upset with myself, wishing It was possible to really hurt myself; however, thanks the vampiric blood that pumped through my veins, any pain I caused lasted only moments, not long enough for the punishment I felt I needed.

My eyes lit up when I saw my lover coming down the stairs, though he seemed rather… lethargic. I rose, going over to him and wrapping an arm around his waist gently. “You okay, babe?” I asked softly, stroking his hair gently as I lead him back to the seat.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Lucas’s POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You okay, babe?, the question irked me a little. Charlie had been relentless since Azrael visited Daniel, though his sidekick had refused to partake in the abuse, just standing to the side and watching. He would smirk, but refuse to help all the same. Obviously, Rae had had some affect on the bully. Frankly, I was really just glad they had not raped me like they had once promised.

He asked again and it pulled me out of my thoughts, “Yeah, I’m fine…” I stated firmly, not allowing for argument or anything else. I knew he would not believe me. Obviously, I was not doing so great; I had not been sleeping well, and despite my generally healthy appetite, I was hardly eating. It had only been a week, but already I had lost some weight. Thankfully, I was not that slender and could afford to lose some weight, but I knew Azrael would notice and comment.

I did not fight him as he guided me to the chair, pulling me gently into his lap as he sat. He said nothing as I leaned against him, curling up slightly. I was exhausted and tempted to just sleep while I was with him, safe and comfortable for once, but I did not because I hardly got to see my lover. “I’m sorry about being so upset last week…” I finally whispered, just to break the silence. He only held me closer, kissing the top of my head.

“Azrael, why…. why do you think they bully me? I mean… I always thought that was something that only happened in like middle school. I didn’t think it’d happen to me as a senior in high school. I mean, I’m graduating in just a few months and I’m still getting shoved around in the hallways. Why? I don’t get it…” He let me question him, knowing he would not be able to answer more than, “I don’t know, Luc, I don’t know…”

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Azrael’s POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I thought about his questions, but the most I could do was offer him some possible comfort. “Soon, Lucas, you’ll be out of high school and you’ll never have to worry about them again. You’ll be eighteen and able to live with me… It’ll be over soon.” He looked up, smiling wearily at me and I leaned down, pecking his lips gently. “Now get some rest, beautiful. You look like you haven’t slept at all since I was at your house…” Actually, I knew he had not slept much. I had been watching him carefully, I had seen him pacing and tossing and turning.

He fell asleep quickly, much to my relief. I held him close, gently rocking him back and forth, stroking his hair. I had to come up with a way to help him, if only to help him feel safe. I meant to ask him, but I knew he would sleep through our time together. I did not try to do anything for the time being. I just held my angel close, noting that he did not have anything to study. I hoped his grades were not dropping now, because his mother would stop letting him come. I wanted him to succeed, but he did not need to be trapped at home with his controlling mom. I decided I would talk to him about it next time. For now, I enjoyed the comfort of his body against him, leeching warmth from him.

I knew he had lost weight, I could feel it and see it, but I was not going to gripe about it. He had enough on his mind; we would tackle the weight issue later, when the bullying had been taken care of. Plus, his mother would be all over him about it. I could remember Lucas complaining that his mother never thought he ate enough—if he had been eating so little that he lost weight, she would certainly notice and try to fix the problem.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Lucas’s POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I slept peacefully in Rae’s arms for the entire time we had together. After a while, he shook me awake and I let my eyes flicker open. He whispered that it was time to go and gently nudged me up. I obediently rose, though I was almost too tired to stand up. I swayed a little, and he rose behind me, holding me up.

I turned to him, “Azrael, will you come to my house at night? I feel safe in your arms…” I murmured, hoping it would be a yes. He nodded and I smiled gratefully. I knew it was a lot to ask of him, because he would have to figure out how to eat before or after being with me, but I needed him. He would not let me down; he was too amazing for that. I gave him a deep, long kiss before drawing back and with his help, I got up the stairs, pulling a random book as I went.

I flopped at a table, opening the book and pretending to read. I blew a kiss to my boyfriend and he disappeared back down the stairs. It was only a few minutes before my mother showed up. I felt better, rising and moving forward. I was comforted at the idea that Rae would be coming every night for me. I would get to see him a lot. It was a big risk, for both of us.