Thia's Memory
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Romance › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
26
Views:
6,216
Reviews:
89
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
chapter ten
Thia layed in her bed that night thinking, 'I can't take this anymore. Either I remember everything or this is got to stop. Remembering snaps from my past isn't helping!' she thought angrily.
Earlier today when she remembered that thing about the photo, it was like hearing someone speak in her mind, she heard her voice, she heard herself saying these words, but then it was gone, and she was left to face a puzzled Shane, 'oh, he's so good to me and I'm causing him nothing but annoyance, ' she shifted a little and buried her face in her pillow 'I can't sleep, my mind just won't stop'
She got up, walked to her desk. She opened the first drawer and glanced inside; there were some books that belonged to her when she was back in college. Thia found out from Shane, that she was an English literature major, and she could only wonder why. She loved designing, how come she studied English literature?
Thia closed the drawer and opened the next one; she found some notebooks in it. She took them out and started looking through them, English literature again, drama, another notebook contained some quotes and poems of famous writers and poets, 'hmm, I loved poetry' she started reading some of them, but then, something in the drawer caught her attention. Something colorful, it was under a lot of other books, but she could see a part of it. She took out everything inside, till she was able to get it out of the drawer.
"What is that?" she flipped it and there in the cover was written "My precious diary" in red and pink and orange. Thia knew well it was her handwriting. She opened it and started reading the first page.
Dear diary
date: 19/11/1996
Oh, it has been a very long day. I had a lot of classes today and I'm really exhausted. Well, I just had a fight with Kathy! I love her so much, but sometimes she can be really over protective!!!
That guy asked me out today and I so want to go out with him. He is like the cutest guy in school and he asked me out! ME!!
I don't know what to do. I suppose I'm gonna have to listen to Kathy. I know she loves me and I don't want to make her mad.
Well, gotta go sleep now cheers!!
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Thia calculated the years in her mind and knew she must have been 16 at that time. She flipped some pages and opened another one.
Dear diary
date 20/1/1997
Hii there, I can't believe I've done that! Sneaking out, so I can go out with Mark, oh if Kathy found out about that... She'll probably kill me.
But aside from that, I had a great time, I like Mark. He is such a cute guy.
But still I feel guilty!!
Kathy is the only family I have. I shouldn't be lying to her. What if she got mad or angry and left me!! I don't want to be alone!! I don't want to lose her too. Losing my mom and dad was enough, I know it was my fault, I'm not going to do it again.
I don't know what to do!!
Bye now, got to go sleep!!
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Thia read it again and wondered 'why was it my fault my parent died?' She got up carrying the diary with her, heading back to her bed, but then a picture fell from it.
Thia picked it up from the floor and read what was written behind it.
"Julian & Thomas Carter"
She slowly turned it and stared at two smiling faces. The woman looked so much like her; black hair, blue eyes, same smile, everything. The man on the other hand was blond, green eyes, tall, and was smiling happily. But he wasn't looking at the camera, he was looking down at something. Thia closed her eyes and breathed. She opened them and looked again at the picture; there standing between both of them was a little girl; black hair pulled in a pony tail, smiling blue eyes, which were looking up at the two adults.
'Oh' she sat back on the chair, looking at the picture closely. She could tell how happy they were, all of them.
She put it back in the diary and closed it. She got up and walked to the bed; Thia layed in bed holding her diary, afraid of opening it again 'I'm starting to find out stuff about my self that I don't like much' She looked at the diary again and decided to read from the middle.
Dear diary
12/3/2000
Hiiiiii, it's my birthday!! I finally turned 20. I'm really happy. Well Kathy is inviting some friends over next weekend, she's going to throw me this surprise party but of course I know about it lol. I still don't know what we are going to do, but I think we'll go out to dance.
I love dancing!!
Seee ya
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Thia passed some pages and stopped at one with hearts and colorful writings.
Dear diary
16/3/2000
Oh my god!!!!
I met this gut 2day, he is sooo cute. I... I don't know but I never thought I can fall for someone that soon. I just met him 2day, and well... I didn't quite meet him... that's really crazy.
I went out with my friends tonight, celebrating my birthday. And there they sort of bet that I can't ask any guy to dance. I'm quite shy most of the time but then I thought ' what the hell it's my birthday I should have some fun' so I turned around and spotted this cute guy near the bar, I went up to him and I actually asked him if he would like to dance!!
I still can't believe I did that.
He looked stunned at the beginning, but then he asked me to wait a sec., tell ya the truth I thought he was going to leave thinking 'this is one crazy girl' but to my surprise he came back grinning. And I spent the best time in my life! He was so nice. We danced, talked, laughed, oh... And at the end he asked for my number.
Tell ya the truth I didn't agree right away. I think Kathy would have killed me. But he didn't give up hehe, no he asked me if he can see me again, and I agreed. I can't believe I'm going to see him again.
But oh he is gorgeous!! Well I rumbled a lot tonight and I'm really tiered, I think I'll go to sleep now.
I know I'm going to dream about him. Goodnight
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Thia looked at all the hearts drawn on that page, hearts, his name everywhere 'I was 20 for god's sake, why was I acting like a 17 year old teenager?' she asked herself.
Thia glanced at the clock beside her bed and found out it was after midnight 'I should get some sleep, Shane is going to take me tomorrow to meet his mother' she was scared. She didn't know what Mrs. Wilson would think about her. She'll probably blame her for breaking her son's heart but again Thia knew that Shane called his mother earlier and told her a hint about what had happened to Thia two years ago. But still Thia was afraid.
Thia looked at the diary in her hands 'what am I going to do with you?' she opened the last written page and read out loud, thinking that after reading this page she'll go to sleep, but what she read made her gasp.
Dear diary
18/7/2003
I can't believe I'm getting married the day after tomorrow. I love Shane so much. And I've waited so long for this day to come. But today something happened... Mat called me earlier today, he wanted to meet me as soon as possible, I didn't know why. I just agreed quickly, thinking something wrong must have happened. I could have called Shane but we'd agreed to not talk, or see each other for a week before the wedding, I know it sound stupid, when I suggested it earlier this week I thought it was a good idea, but right now I'm starting to hate ever thinking about doing that.
Well back to Mat, I went out to meet him right after his phone call, he asked me to meet him at this café near my house, and I arrived there to find him sitting at a table. He looked nervous and I felt this sick feeling in my stomach, I knew something wrong must have happened.
"Mat, is everything alright?" Sam asked the moment she saw the look on his face.
"Sam, hey please sit down, I need to talk to you," he said nervously, not meeting her eyes.
"What is it Mat? Is Shane alright? Did something happen to him?"
"No Sam, Shane's fine. I just wanted to tell you something. I really feel guilty for not telling you sooner..." he stopped talking and looked around him more than once "Sam, Shane is... Oh... I think he is cheating on you"
"What?" she asked in horror "what do you mean? Did he tell you? Did you see him with someone? What is it Mat? Please tell me" Sam was trying to think this is nothing but a bad dream or Mat must be kidding or he was just wrong!
"Sam calm down, I'm just telling you what happened. You remember Jenny? Well I'm sure you do, well last night we went out, me, Shane, and the boys, you know them. And well, Shane... um he ran into Jenny,"
"Well, I don't see where the problem is! I know Jenny; I mean I've met her couple of times. And I know for sure Shane doesn't love her anymore." Sam was really confused 'so what he said hi to Jenny, she was his ex, and besides, she's engaged' Sam thought "Mat, Jenny is engaged! And I know she loves her fiancé, come on, she left Shane for him,"
"I know Sam, it's just that... oh I hate to tell you this," he looked at his hands, not making any eye contact with her, not once "after they said hi, me and the rest of the guys went to find a table, and then ten minutes later, Shane came back and said that he has to go and that he'll call me later, I saw him leave with Jenny after that," he looked up trying to look her in the eye, but looked down again quickly "I called him twice today, I even went to his apartment earlier today but he wasn't there, I asked the guard about him and he said that Mr. Wilson didn't spend the night in his apartment."
Sam tried to focus on what Mat was saying, but her mind kept drawing pictures of Shane and Jenny "No Mat, I don't believe it, I'm sure something else happened, Shane must have talked to Jenny for a while then left. And besides maybe he went home late that night and went out early today that the guard didn't see him." Sam assured him thinking that she wasn't only trying to convince Mat, but also herself 'Sam, Shane loves you; he'll never do something like that'.
"Mat I have to leave now, and please, please don't ever mention what you told me to anyone, this is crazy, you are imagining things and I'm sure that it's not true!" she was furious, she got up grabbed her bad and stormed out of the café.
Well, I didn't believe him, I still don't. I love Shane and Shane loves me. There is no way he could have done that to me.
It's getting late and I should sleep, I can't believe I've been writing for about an hour. If I don't sleep now, I'll probably look horrible tomorrow.
Good night diary, wish me luck!!
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'Oh my god!' Thia whispered 'did I leave him because he was cheating on me? But didn't I write at the end that I didn't believe what that guy named Mat said? But if I didn't believe Mat that day, why did I leave two days after?' Thia's mind started asking so many questions.
She slowly put the diary on the nightstand beside the picture she found earlier, of her and Shane. She looked closely at the picture, 'what did you do to make me run away from you? You're to good to cheat on me, ' she layed back and tried to close her eyes 'I have to talk to him about that in the morning' she thought as she drifted of to sleep.
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Earlier today when she remembered that thing about the photo, it was like hearing someone speak in her mind, she heard her voice, she heard herself saying these words, but then it was gone, and she was left to face a puzzled Shane, 'oh, he's so good to me and I'm causing him nothing but annoyance, ' she shifted a little and buried her face in her pillow 'I can't sleep, my mind just won't stop'
She got up, walked to her desk. She opened the first drawer and glanced inside; there were some books that belonged to her when she was back in college. Thia found out from Shane, that she was an English literature major, and she could only wonder why. She loved designing, how come she studied English literature?
Thia closed the drawer and opened the next one; she found some notebooks in it. She took them out and started looking through them, English literature again, drama, another notebook contained some quotes and poems of famous writers and poets, 'hmm, I loved poetry' she started reading some of them, but then, something in the drawer caught her attention. Something colorful, it was under a lot of other books, but she could see a part of it. She took out everything inside, till she was able to get it out of the drawer.
"What is that?" she flipped it and there in the cover was written "My precious diary" in red and pink and orange. Thia knew well it was her handwriting. She opened it and started reading the first page.
Dear diary
date: 19/11/1996
Oh, it has been a very long day. I had a lot of classes today and I'm really exhausted. Well, I just had a fight with Kathy! I love her so much, but sometimes she can be really over protective!!!
That guy asked me out today and I so want to go out with him. He is like the cutest guy in school and he asked me out! ME!!
I don't know what to do. I suppose I'm gonna have to listen to Kathy. I know she loves me and I don't want to make her mad.
Well, gotta go sleep now cheers!!
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Thia calculated the years in her mind and knew she must have been 16 at that time. She flipped some pages and opened another one.
Dear diary
date 20/1/1997
Hii there, I can't believe I've done that! Sneaking out, so I can go out with Mark, oh if Kathy found out about that... She'll probably kill me.
But aside from that, I had a great time, I like Mark. He is such a cute guy.
But still I feel guilty!!
Kathy is the only family I have. I shouldn't be lying to her. What if she got mad or angry and left me!! I don't want to be alone!! I don't want to lose her too. Losing my mom and dad was enough, I know it was my fault, I'm not going to do it again.
I don't know what to do!!
Bye now, got to go sleep!!
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Thia read it again and wondered 'why was it my fault my parent died?' She got up carrying the diary with her, heading back to her bed, but then a picture fell from it.
Thia picked it up from the floor and read what was written behind it.
"Julian & Thomas Carter"
She slowly turned it and stared at two smiling faces. The woman looked so much like her; black hair, blue eyes, same smile, everything. The man on the other hand was blond, green eyes, tall, and was smiling happily. But he wasn't looking at the camera, he was looking down at something. Thia closed her eyes and breathed. She opened them and looked again at the picture; there standing between both of them was a little girl; black hair pulled in a pony tail, smiling blue eyes, which were looking up at the two adults.
'Oh' she sat back on the chair, looking at the picture closely. She could tell how happy they were, all of them.
She put it back in the diary and closed it. She got up and walked to the bed; Thia layed in bed holding her diary, afraid of opening it again 'I'm starting to find out stuff about my self that I don't like much' She looked at the diary again and decided to read from the middle.
Dear diary
12/3/2000
Hiiiiii, it's my birthday!! I finally turned 20. I'm really happy. Well Kathy is inviting some friends over next weekend, she's going to throw me this surprise party but of course I know about it lol. I still don't know what we are going to do, but I think we'll go out to dance.
I love dancing!!
Seee ya
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Thia passed some pages and stopped at one with hearts and colorful writings.
Dear diary
16/3/2000
Oh my god!!!!
I met this gut 2day, he is sooo cute. I... I don't know but I never thought I can fall for someone that soon. I just met him 2day, and well... I didn't quite meet him... that's really crazy.
I went out with my friends tonight, celebrating my birthday. And there they sort of bet that I can't ask any guy to dance. I'm quite shy most of the time but then I thought ' what the hell it's my birthday I should have some fun' so I turned around and spotted this cute guy near the bar, I went up to him and I actually asked him if he would like to dance!!
I still can't believe I did that.
He looked stunned at the beginning, but then he asked me to wait a sec., tell ya the truth I thought he was going to leave thinking 'this is one crazy girl' but to my surprise he came back grinning. And I spent the best time in my life! He was so nice. We danced, talked, laughed, oh... And at the end he asked for my number.
Tell ya the truth I didn't agree right away. I think Kathy would have killed me. But he didn't give up hehe, no he asked me if he can see me again, and I agreed. I can't believe I'm going to see him again.
But oh he is gorgeous!! Well I rumbled a lot tonight and I'm really tiered, I think I'll go to sleep now.
I know I'm going to dream about him. Goodnight
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Thia looked at all the hearts drawn on that page, hearts, his name everywhere 'I was 20 for god's sake, why was I acting like a 17 year old teenager?' she asked herself.
Thia glanced at the clock beside her bed and found out it was after midnight 'I should get some sleep, Shane is going to take me tomorrow to meet his mother' she was scared. She didn't know what Mrs. Wilson would think about her. She'll probably blame her for breaking her son's heart but again Thia knew that Shane called his mother earlier and told her a hint about what had happened to Thia two years ago. But still Thia was afraid.
Thia looked at the diary in her hands 'what am I going to do with you?' she opened the last written page and read out loud, thinking that after reading this page she'll go to sleep, but what she read made her gasp.
Dear diary
18/7/2003
I can't believe I'm getting married the day after tomorrow. I love Shane so much. And I've waited so long for this day to come. But today something happened... Mat called me earlier today, he wanted to meet me as soon as possible, I didn't know why. I just agreed quickly, thinking something wrong must have happened. I could have called Shane but we'd agreed to not talk, or see each other for a week before the wedding, I know it sound stupid, when I suggested it earlier this week I thought it was a good idea, but right now I'm starting to hate ever thinking about doing that.
Well back to Mat, I went out to meet him right after his phone call, he asked me to meet him at this café near my house, and I arrived there to find him sitting at a table. He looked nervous and I felt this sick feeling in my stomach, I knew something wrong must have happened.
"Mat, is everything alright?" Sam asked the moment she saw the look on his face.
"Sam, hey please sit down, I need to talk to you," he said nervously, not meeting her eyes.
"What is it Mat? Is Shane alright? Did something happen to him?"
"No Sam, Shane's fine. I just wanted to tell you something. I really feel guilty for not telling you sooner..." he stopped talking and looked around him more than once "Sam, Shane is... Oh... I think he is cheating on you"
"What?" she asked in horror "what do you mean? Did he tell you? Did you see him with someone? What is it Mat? Please tell me" Sam was trying to think this is nothing but a bad dream or Mat must be kidding or he was just wrong!
"Sam calm down, I'm just telling you what happened. You remember Jenny? Well I'm sure you do, well last night we went out, me, Shane, and the boys, you know them. And well, Shane... um he ran into Jenny,"
"Well, I don't see where the problem is! I know Jenny; I mean I've met her couple of times. And I know for sure Shane doesn't love her anymore." Sam was really confused 'so what he said hi to Jenny, she was his ex, and besides, she's engaged' Sam thought "Mat, Jenny is engaged! And I know she loves her fiancé, come on, she left Shane for him,"
"I know Sam, it's just that... oh I hate to tell you this," he looked at his hands, not making any eye contact with her, not once "after they said hi, me and the rest of the guys went to find a table, and then ten minutes later, Shane came back and said that he has to go and that he'll call me later, I saw him leave with Jenny after that," he looked up trying to look her in the eye, but looked down again quickly "I called him twice today, I even went to his apartment earlier today but he wasn't there, I asked the guard about him and he said that Mr. Wilson didn't spend the night in his apartment."
Sam tried to focus on what Mat was saying, but her mind kept drawing pictures of Shane and Jenny "No Mat, I don't believe it, I'm sure something else happened, Shane must have talked to Jenny for a while then left. And besides maybe he went home late that night and went out early today that the guard didn't see him." Sam assured him thinking that she wasn't only trying to convince Mat, but also herself 'Sam, Shane loves you; he'll never do something like that'.
"Mat I have to leave now, and please, please don't ever mention what you told me to anyone, this is crazy, you are imagining things and I'm sure that it's not true!" she was furious, she got up grabbed her bad and stormed out of the café.
Well, I didn't believe him, I still don't. I love Shane and Shane loves me. There is no way he could have done that to me.
It's getting late and I should sleep, I can't believe I've been writing for about an hour. If I don't sleep now, I'll probably look horrible tomorrow.
Good night diary, wish me luck!!
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'Oh my god!' Thia whispered 'did I leave him because he was cheating on me? But didn't I write at the end that I didn't believe what that guy named Mat said? But if I didn't believe Mat that day, why did I leave two days after?' Thia's mind started asking so many questions.
She slowly put the diary on the nightstand beside the picture she found earlier, of her and Shane. She looked closely at the picture, 'what did you do to make me run away from you? You're to good to cheat on me, ' she layed back and tried to close her eyes 'I have to talk to him about that in the morning' she thought as she drifted of to sleep.
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